~i am reali bored~

i am seriously bored...i am sick of going out already..i am also tired of nauhing already..haha..first time hear i sae tired of nuahing..hai~~now i feel tat there is nothing to keep me occupied..at nite still got lots of shows to watch but morning and afternoon reali veri sian man..sometimes i think it is better if there is work and studies to keep one occupied, afterall one might not feel as if he or she has no mission is life..yup, this is the first time in my entire life tat i can nuah so peacefully cos last time they sae got holidays but ended up like dun have at all cos holiday still need to prepare for tests and exams..hai~~~i am reali bored to death...i see lots of NTU students studying veri hard now..and i am slacking away happily..oh man, if i reali got a chance to go uni, reali need to prepare for the worst cos see them like study until veri "cham"..yup, i am those slow person and i take veri long to understand things..i have a feeling tat my mind cant catch up with uni pace cos everythings is all independent learning..so far our sch have been spoon feeding us..at some extent it is not tat gd..wa i see the NTU students studying chemistry..it seems tat those they study i have studied b4 leh...ppl might tink tat everyone are studying so hard, why arent u studying and slacking away happily..haha..nowadays whenever i am bored, i would go NTU to walk walk see see if there is any there to do..hai~~life is seriously bored now..
yesterday had a quarrel with my mum over the piano thing...she sae tat i seems heck care abt the piano..yup, indeed i am heck care abt it..why should i bother to find a teacher to teach me when there is a teacher right in front of me and she kept complaining tat she is irresponsible..yup, though she is irresponsible, but at least i can connect with her, not like other teachers..those teachers onli scold me when i duno and they ask me to figure out myself..oh pls, i pay them to teach me not to scold me..i still rmb i am veri scared of one of my piano teacher cos no matter wat i will always cry when i go for her lessons..i feel tat coming for her lessons is reali scary and i always dun feel like going at all..kay dad was saying tat my mum was too over concerned tat's why she is like tat..yup, i do know tat she is concerned abt me but i feel veri fann when she is over concerned abt me..i give her an anology saying tat between 2 couples if one were to be over concerned for the other party or either one were to be too "Nian" towards ur the other half then ur the other half also canot stand it wat..this is the same thing wat..she was saying tat i can forget abt having a bf cos she sae this kind of thing also canot stand..wat i said was true wat, i believe tat not onli me agree with wat i sae but others will also feel the same thing..to me, if my other half is like tat, its either i tell him wat's his problem or either if the problem still persist then breaking up would a solution to it..seriously i have no confidence in any relationships after being hurt..sometimes i will feel sian after seeing the same person over and over again for weeks and months..perhaps i am reali not suitable for relationships..actually staying single also not a bad either, at least i am free to do wat ever i wan to do, no need to think abt the other half..however, at times, one might feel lonely and wish tat there will be someone to stay by ur side..actually being in a relationship has its pros and cons..it depends on how one view it..anyway i think mr A is reali compatible with his gf..glad for him also...oh my god i reali think his gf is reali chio and sweet..but too bad, i am not a guy..if not i will jio her cos first look she gave me the sweet and clean look..haha..she is real pretty..