~money gone just so fast~

weekend went shopping then spent like $50 on shoes and assessories alone..wah..i see liao also heart break cos it seems tat whenever i go shopping, my money just flow away damn fast..haha..i bought 3 shoes..one stylish beach wear slippers,one sandles and one heels..my mum says tat i damn crazy bought so many shoes bac in a single day..hehe..cos i wanted to change away my cui slippers tat i have been wearing for yrs..and also wanted to change my white heels to a sandles liao once my sch reopens ;) wanted to change watever i have been wearing for yrs cos if not damn sian to see the same attire and footwear everytime man..but i must say i damn zai man cos i shop for 6hrs to get all these things..but once u stepped in there, practically most stuff u will wan to buy de..so i initally wanted to buy more stuff de, but realised tat i short of money man then lazy to go out press money at the atm, so cut down on the items tat i bought..but i kinda happy cos i finally bought a sunglass liao cos have been yearning and eyeing to buy one since last time but dun have the time to reali search for one..my mum said tat i siao also cos she said where can i wear sunglasses to..i told her can go out wear wat..it reali makes alot of difference to your appearance man..in fact looks more stylish even though ur dressing are quite cui on tat day..i did tried looking for a shorts but apparently some shorts looks just okok nia..not unique or special in any sense at all..then those nice one is expensive..so dun care liao la..anyway i rarely wear tat too..
yesterday was a boring day cos i slept kinda late on sat nite.(.at 3am), so i veri lazy to wake up go tat sentosa play beach games with ch liao which is 11am la (so early)..but anyway i also slept til 1pm la..also cant make it in time to meet them..wah, this is the first time i wake up so late, in fact i break my record liao cos i always wake up kinda early le..so yesterday went out with my mum and brother to settle his hp contract..then i damn pissed over my mum "niao-ness" to continue the plan my brother wans..cos pay $100 for a hp quite ok wat..then she was complaining tat this is ex..i hear liao also irritated cos she keep fann-ing me saying tat i should pay for my brother hp bills when he is gone for 5 yrs overseas..i mean i dun reali need 2 phone wat..u wan let me use 2 phones then tat's ur problem la..dun wan also nvm wat..its not as if i am doing some big business to tat extend tat i need to have 2 hp..in fact having 2 hp means my mum will fann me and pester me more..lohz..so i rather not have 2 hp..
haiz~today i feel damn bored too at work..nothing to do again..in fact finish my work too fast liao until i reali zhuo bo and offer help to help my colleague set up her new set of comp cos she seems very noob..haha..when she asked me how to download msn, i was super stunned cos its such simple things and yet she duno..i finally found someone who is more noob than me in terms of IT le..yawns..this week having some early christmas party with my colleague with the sales ppl..i predict there are sure lots of nice food after the last bbq tat i last went for with them..seriously now i see gd food also no appetite liao cos i have been eating too much gd stuff liao..and there is buffet lunch/dinner with 106 ppl at some orchard hotel..i am still thinking whether to go or not cos my stomach reali have no room for gd food now..;) and my marathon for exercise doesnt seems to be working out reali well though i have been running everyday..apparently my weight doesnt seems to decrease lei..;( so sad la..
then next week need to attend a formal function man..i damn sian to go cos just wear until super formal with black and gold dress code as theme..wa lao, where to find such dress with such colour combi..my dress not so formal one lei..sian..yawns..i reali feel like sleeping now..super tired now after having lunch..

~to go or not to go~

u know what, just now tat guy tat i used to like jio me to sentosa tml..but i abit sian to go cos i know tat once i attend his church events then in future sure ask me go his church events liao..but most imptly if i were to go sentosa tml, this particular guy friend of his must go else it would be super damn sian lo with all gers nia.some more this friend of his gt super nice build.. if tml go sure can see lots of nice views.hehe..tat time still rmb him teaching me play basketball..wah,tat's such a memorable day man..but all these nice memories still doesnt appeal me to go tml lei..hmmm..let me consider once i am bac from shopping tonite..if tml reali veri sian then i meet then up tml then..another factor tat i am considering is i have no shorts, then how to go tml seh and this holiday going sentosa with them liao..go twice veri sian de lo..

~dinner at yishun~

yesterday my colleague sent me email at 4.50pm when 5pm is my time to leave office..then i see liao also half sian cos i was abt to leave office liao when ppl shot me email ask me to help her do stuff.of cos i could have followed my other colleague and bo chap and wait for next week then help her do since she sent out her email so late, but aiya i am always the nice one in company..my small boss always tell me:" aiya dun bother helping those sales ppl do their stuff when they send out their stuff so late.." aiya but i always felt tat its not too nice cos afterall i can understand tat they wanna get a deal from customers asap so tat they can hit their sales target ma.or rather i think i am just too nice to ppl,dun dare to offend ppl so i wanna be neutral towards my stand.then another colleague of mine also see me like so "Eng" so asked me if i am free..then i told and smiled to her tat i am super free..i guess she can see tat i am reali zhuo bo-ing away from the way i surf net openly cos i cant be bothered to pretend to be hardworking since my 2 boss not around...so she also asked me help her do stuff..but at least i think she is more polite lo..at least bother to ask for my opinion if i am free or not..tat other colleague didnt even bother to ask and expect me to finish for her..but initally i was expecting alot of emails from my colleague whom she asked me for opinion de..but i stunned when i onli received one of her email..aiya such things so little and easy nia..actually no need ask me if i am free i would also do for her de..i guess i still have the schooling mentality..to me work is just like sch homework..i reali felt the work load is kinda little considering the amt of sch work tat i have..anyway i guess my 3rd colleague also wan me to do stuff for her when i was abt to leave cos she was hinting me tat am i going out tonite..so i told her ya i was..from there i can infer tat she wanna ask me do stuff liao..but i reali dislike this when ppl always last min ask me do stuff when i was abt to leave..cant they just pass me earlier on when i damn free tat time..but anyway i just bo chap cos if not i forever cant leave office de man..but if yesterday i didnt went out to meet them probably, i might stay on to help her do stuff then can at the same time earn extra money..who cares man..anyway my company is damn freaking rich..and lately my colleagues have been giving out lots of chocolates to us and i think my table is reali filled with chocolates liao..aiyo this is bad man..later get fat then i wasted all my effort running everyday liao..
initally reali dun have the intention to meet up with them de cos its kinda sian to travel so far just to eat dinner at yishun then after tat go home..but if got something to do over there after dinner, then of cos i would be more than willing to go la..but wt kept on jioing me go and moreover partly i was sian to go home so early do nothing, so i decided to give in..cos initally i have plan to go somewhere after work liao..but eventually my heart still flicker and wasnt veri firm in my decision, so i still went eventually..but eventually the dinner somehow was kana cheated man cos i saw them ordering such nice looking food then i thought maybe can try out theirs..but it turns out to be some pasa malam kind of food and its kinda not worth it paying for tat meal when everything is all cabbage and veggie..my first rxn when the dish was served to me was "HUH?" i gave tat shocked look to tat cashier and wt cos i was expecting some rice or wat..ok never mind..lesson learnt cos picts can be deceiving..after the dinner when to shop around for a while and northpt has reali changed alot and expanded too..at least now i can take more than 5 mins to finish walking ard the shopping centre.then after which they proceeded home and me and wt took the train bac to boon lay..since it was still early and i am sick of shopping in JP so he suggested going to the nearby park walking around to kill time..so i say ok lo..but i almost forgot tat JP tat side has a park cos i never went there before cos its so cui man and tat place is reali fillied with "blackies" and no females at all..seriously if he is not around, i reali dare not stepped into tat park man though its quite an open space..too dangerous man unlike my park downstairs my house.hehe..but yesterday nite i guess tat chat with him was nice..i guess guys after army are reali veri different in their way of thinking..at least they are no longer tat childish anymore..i told him lots of things abt my stuff as to my exceptions towards guys and of cos i am not saying tat my guys friends around me are not gd guys, but in general i have this tendency to condemn guys..duno why also, maybe i seen too much of those bastard guys and they have reali left a bad impression..many at times just dun feel secured at heart..just duno why also..i guess i dun have so much trust in guys than in girls ever since the past incidents and momeories..
today i am out the entire day..i guess i am going bac home reali late tonite cos reali dun feel like staying at home facing the four walls..so decided to go out later to spend money and shop for some clothes..maybe buy a pair of shorts if there is a nice one later..i think if i wear tat jjc shorts to sentosa sure kana laugh and tease like mad one lo..but at least tat short is much more better than yj shorts cos its shorter..wanna buy a sunglass too..ok later i shall eye for one if there is a cheap and reasonable one too..

~weekend shopping~

today's work is kinda relax too..initally early in the morning, i reali had nothing to do de..in fact i was zhuo bo-ing...but as usual today is month end...so i decided to help my colleague settle her stuff since no one gave me work..so must take initative to help out when everyone is busy..cant possibly sit there surf net when everyone busy ma..so i was busy til lunch time..after which i am reali zhuo bo liao..since big boss not around then i heck liao..no need pretend to be hardworking liao..then after lunch continue my daily rountine of surfing net for shopping places..i guess tat's wat tat interest me most..this weekend i am gonna some warehouse sales, so i wont feel bored liao..hehe..but of cos pocket will break one hole la..but this time i think i reali need to spend lesser liao..canot man this month reali spend abit much le, so need to control..
yesterday finish work damn early..cant wait for 5pm to reach and clock and i am the first to leave office yesterday since i was reali too sian and bored..cant wait to step out of the office asap..lohz...after which met up with kh cos gonna get some track shoes from him..then ate dinner at jp...but i realised i shop jp until super damn sian man..no sales at all and nothing much to shop too..tml i shall go my warehouse sales and buy those sales items. =) actually today they are having some "outing" at east coast park de, but i cant go !!! cos i gt work..sigh...veri long never go there liao..wanna go there enjoy the nice air and i yearn to Reminisce the days when i was there viewing the nice sea view and the cool air breeze brushing across my face....;) tat feeling is shoik man..
wah..now starting from next week, every fri i got company event..wah..next week got some christmas party at my supply centre...then they going to drink and open buffet again..( as usual) as for me, i think i will drink abit since i rarely drink..at least try those expensive wine tat i never try before..hehe..then next next week got some company event at some hotel at town..it comprises of dinner and dance and lucky draw..haha i hope to bring my lady luck with me on tat day ! ;) then can win some expensive stuff home..and hopefully tat day i can sit with some shuai ge man..i yearn to see tat nice build guy whom i met outside the lift helping me to open the door..he is such a gentleman, how i wish i could have a bf just like him..haha..yawns maybe i just day dream too much..hehe..and after tat week, it will be christmas week and tat will be the time when i leave my company liao and sch shall starts..i yearn to spend my time with friends cos its so fun..not saying my colleague not nice to chat with..in fact they quite funny to joke with de,but somehow friends and colleagues are always different feeling.duno why huh...for now, i am just waiting for 5pm to reach and meanwhile looking for songs to dl into my mp3..yawns..

~kinda pissed over tat bastard~

yesterday was a damn boring day at work..sit there surf net nia..though got abit work to do, but i think i can finish in an hour time if i reali concentrate and do it within an hour if i not distracted la..then i think my big boss knew tat i got nothing to do since i think she saw me surfing net then i guess she asked me to pass a wire cable to my colleague at the next building so i happily went cos i reali damn sian sit at office do nothing..at least can go out walk walk and breathe some air..tat's gd man..then yesterday i think i damn heng lo cos my colleague was buying 4 D and one of the cleaner asked me if i wanna buy...so i bought having the mentality tat i wont win de since i think its reali kinda hard la..so i bought big and choose ibet and i actually won the congrulation price! but i onli won like $6 nia..ok lah..better than nothing..i still earn $5 in return..hehe..gd enough for a meal..actually initally i duno tat i won de..its when my small boss called my hp to tell me tat i won then i know de..else i also duno man..i think i reali damn blur man..win liao still must let ppl inform me..haha.but i must say tat i kinda heng huh..sec time buy this then won money liao..
then yesterday my idoit student fang wo fei ji again..wth man..she always take things for granted and when i reached her house, i was told by her maid tat she is not around..in fact she didnt even know where my student is since she didnt came home the day before..haiz..sian so ytd made a wasted trip.
and yesterday tat stupid bastard brother of mine actually fight with me using his fist and pushed me..wa lao he so rough man..even before i fight with him i already lose him liao cos he use so much force on me man..so i kinda bu shuang cos he is younger than me and yet so disrespectful to me..wat the heck and i reali hate his stupid arrogant attitude..so wat he is a scholar and so wat he is smart..character is just damn shit-ty..i will be freaking happy once he will be gone for 5 yrs for next yr feb..this shit-ty bro of mine always like to threaten me and i hate ppl threatening me man cos i just feel its not the way to do things right.this is damn ass..i think i sound super pissed now ..(yes indeed i do whenever i mention abt him) ..worst still is today tat ass steal my money and heng i check my money before i went out of home for office today's morning.if not today i sure no money eat man..and i reali hate it when he took my money and still deny not taking it..wat the hell man..i hate this kind of lousy character man..take liao still deny..cant possibly be my mum or dad..so must be him and moreover yesterday i had an argument with him yesterday, confirm plus guarantee chop is him ! argh freaking damn ass !!
today at work is kinda relax too cos i was surfing net most of the time too and planning out my timetable..sian,..no one timetable same as me..haiz..need to have gd "camping" skills to change class man..if not i sure go tutorial alone..
i think the current job tat i am taking now is very relevant to life sci tat i took earlier on..cos they talk abt PCR and enzymes and antibodies..now finally i can understand abit liao..;) previously reali duno anything man..i am just bindly following and keying things without understanding.but i must say my office reali got lots of smart ppl..some is doctor, some first class honours..etc..aiya in short, all of them are veri zai ppl..anyway i am thinking of cutting my fringe, but i am abit bu se de cos i scared later after i cut my fringe, then i will look like ah tiong..so the qn is when should i cut man,,then at least sch reopen not so ugly by then..;)

~leg hurts man~

ytd knock off kinda late cos i was rushing something..or rather not rushing la..its more of dun wan go home so early, so stay in office do my work which is supposedly due today..but eventually it didnt do at all cos ended up chatting with my boss..and i realised something..the faster u do things, the more ppl will approach u to do things for them and i experience tat yesterday cos initally i reali had nothing to do..damn sian..sit there surf net nia, but cant possibly sit there the entire day zhuo bo and pretend ma..so i offer help to ppl and who knows more and more ppl keep asking me " hey qin min are u free ah? can help me with this?" though i got something to do tat time, i just agree to help them do lo..wat to do, cant possibly say no right? jialat thing is my colleague do things damn slow lo..even i am a temp do things much more faster than her man...but at least those things tat i help her do is easy easy one...heng not those difficult ones if not i half sian liao..but i realised this particular colleague keep complaining de lo when her work load so little nia as compared to mine in the past..seriously the company has reali wasted their money on hiring me cos i was told by my small boss tat the previous temp also sit there zhuo bo until veri sian even though she surf net for veri long..haha..sometimes we can reali surf net til veri sian lo cos if i wanna surf net i will watch youtube or watever de..but i think tat one too much liao la..canot man..her suitution just sounds so much like me now..haha..
and yesterday went to jog in the nite though kinda late liao..but heck la..cos yesterday ate so many fattening cakes and food, need to run to burn those fats.and duno why my feet hurt so much..dont tell me its becos of running in slippers?..or just muscle pain due to the long hours of wearing heels..aiya i duno lah..all i know is my feet hurts terribly til i need to run very slow in order not to feel the pain..
then yesterday went bac to explore the electric photo frame tat they gave yesterday..wah, its reali gd stuff man..tat particular gadget not onli can have constand photo change, and it also can watch movie and listen songs with tat small screen..wah zai man..then dec has reali lots of of birthday celebrations to attend..abit broke liao huh..but at least now i working, still not tat bad la..if not i sure broke and no money eat de lo..and my brother has just managed to settle my clothes thingy le..wa lao i see the cost of sending over the clothes damn ex man though the clothes itself veri cheap nia..i guess in future i not buying from overseas liao cos everything seems to add up to the same price as spore eventually though spore clothes not so nice la..
then today i decided to be special..wear spagatti strap to work cos wanna be different today..abit sian of tat office dress sense liao for the past 2 days..so everyone was saying" wah..today so sexy ah.." i was like" erm...then i smiled.." i dared not wear to sch ma, so i wore it to work lo..everyone in the office was freezing cold, except for me when i felt so so nia..everyone said tat i am damn zai man..dun feel cold at all despite wearing so little..haha..i told them tat i am not scared of cold at all cos i am trained since young..but i guess in future i am not wearing these kind of clothes to work liao cos i think my big bosss kinda dun like the way i dress..sian..cos she was saying wah today u wear until so "hiao"..i duno if she means it sarcastically or just joking nia..aiya since she say tat then in future i think i better dress more conservative then..but i do ask my small boss for her opinion tat is it tat today i reali dress until too "Hiao" liao..then she said tat its ok wat..she even told me to heck abt her cos my big boss even herself also wear until like tat..some more showing cleavage at times..so i am considered ok liao..
and i reali get pissed at times at my brother cos he kept on "chopping" the entire comp at nite just becos he wanna talk to his gf..sometimes i wanna use then he dun let me use man..wth man..of cos i am abit pissed la..i dun understand why he got so many things to talk to his gf de lo..reali got so much things to talk one meh>? why he not sian one meh everyday talk the same thing and moreover i reali think its reali useless to face the comp everyday when mentally they are there for each other, but physically they are not there for each other..seriously wat's the point lo..i would rather end this relationship and move on in life man..anyway i doubt his relationship will last for long de la..5 yrs gone for sydney, i bet he is sure to change heart de la..i believe he is also one of those mei liang xin guys also la..
got this extract from a blog :"Nothing is more important than a true relationship
Hey friend, U know who u are.. thanks for scolding me.. thanks for waking me up.. what u said is true.. Maybe i never really love a girl wholeheartedly before.. I thought over this line for some days already.. but i find out.. of all the gals i met.. there is still 1.. only 1 gal i knew tt i feel i wish to spend every spare time i have with her.. 1 that i wish ppl could see us together.. 1 i wish to let the whole world to know tt we r together (if we could b together)..
But again.. at this pt of time.. i would like to say sorry to this gd female friend on mine.. I need not explain why i say sorry to you.. Guess u will understand.. My apologies my friend.. May u find your true darling.."

~gd stuff to eat today~

i have been very determined lately to go exercise everyday cos i want to lose weight in this holiday..serious liao..not joking this time round.then today since its our company official buy over of applied system company, then we have this grand opening ceremony, but heng i am not invovled, so i am the only person to stay inside office to take phone call..tat's the best part of it cos i dun like to go there listen the long boring speech..so i happily stayed inside my office and surf net and staying in office being served by ppl..they served me with cake and i was told tat the cake cost $300 just for around 3kg lik tat..omg, when i heard tat i was stunned..but seriously speaking, i dun think that cake taste reali nice lei though its is from some hotel..then after tat, had a buffet lunch, but i was offered with go 2 places to eat..one western style and the other malay redang chicken and etc..so obviously i choose the nicer one la..then noon time take tea break eat some other nice food from the western buffet...haha wat a gd life i have here.
then lately i saw something which i shouldnt see on my brother hp" honey..i have come menses and i reali hope to have ur baby..haiz..when i was tat i was super damn shocked and in fact i couldnt accept the fact tat he has changed so much .." haiz..
and today my colleague say tat i changed alot..they say i look like some korean ger now and i look kinda "sexy" today cos i wore a kinda short dress since today got event ma..haha..and i was kinda irritated over this particular over this stranger cos he gave me tat lustful look when i was waiting for bus..immediately, i gave him tat "wat the hell look.."haha..wat's just me.

~first day bac to work~

yesterday was out the entire afternoon til nite at town to watch movies with the guys.we watched the "coffin"..Movie was not bad i feel..but alot of inferring skills are needed.so ppl like me who have poor interpretation dun understand obviously..after which went to have dinner at some "Food court.." intially wanted to eat pastamania de, but i on budget man..so changed venue to eat..but i think eventually i spent equally much on food cos after tat still went to buy "Cripy chicken" from the taiwan store and drank bubble tea..its been a long time since i ate so many things at one go..
then today was my first day of work..feel reali kinda lost man cos i duno wat to do for the first day of work though last time i work here for quite long liao.stupid email damn cock up and system network got alot of problem for me..so entire morning was busy waiting for the new zeland ppl to so solve for me.but those ppl also cock one man..take their own sweet time to get back to me..haiz..feel super lost now.duno where should i start from now and i am not assign anywork to do..so i just offer my help to my colleague to see if they need help.apparently, today i am taking free pay man cos i have yet to do a single thing since morning. and just now went to walk around the pantry, oh my god, there is super lots of gd and nice stuff over there..chocolates and sweets..i am seriously tempted to eat man, but i must ren !! canot eat ! today i also dress kinda nice for work cos first day of work ma, so need to give ppl a gd impression ma..then i guess the rest of the days then i heck to dress liao cos no motivation to dress up man.all gers and not much guys..even there is, all uncles sia..no point dressing so nice man..no one to attract here..and this ti gou colleague of mine was so happy when he saw me again..he said : " wah, pretty ger is bac.."haha..then i said..eeee, dun make me puke.." then everyone laughed..aiya duno why i feel disgusted when he talk to me man..sometimes i dun mind
filrting around with him a while too la cos if not i too bored liao..and my feng shui is reali not gd man..the previous seat tat i sat on last time was taken up by the temp ger liao..sian..so now so secret thing must look behind for boss or ppl before can use..
tml also another slacking day for me sia..cos our company is gonna merged with another company so we are having some cut cake ceremony and eating gd stuff again..shoik man..;) i reali came at the rite time cos this entire nov and dec there are reali lots of company events for me to attend to..hehe...yawns..i am reali veri sian today man..those ppl from the other dept kinda dao man..see me like bo chap..whereas ppl from my dept damn friendly..i guess we are veri close liao..tat's why..i think company has reali wasted their money hiring me cos i relai zhuo bo in office man..keep surfing net like no body business....

~broke period~

yesterday night i just calculated how much did i spent on clothes and assessories and i realised tat i spent like $70 after buying many many sets of clothes..omg, when i hear that i was shunned cos i never spent so much money on clothes in a single day before.so i decided to cut down the cost liao by deducing the no of things tat i wanna import from taiwan..actually the clothes are reali damn cheap but becos the shipment itself its super expensive, so overall it adds up to be quite expensive..but comparing the price in spore, of cos it still cost slightly cheaper than spore la..moreover, the clothes over there are more stylish and trendy..the most impt thing is tat its uncommon in spore and i like tat.
seriously i have been pretty bored and nuahing away since exams finish cos i have reali nothing to do..somehow there isnt anything to do except surfing net..in fact i feel reali restless without studies, somehow the feeling is just very empty within me..and i cant wait to go sentosa soon cos i saw so many friends of mine taking so many nice picts at sentosa, it certainly seems veri nice and its been long since i last went there..and i hope to go to this particular place tat i always wanna and yearn to go whenever i go sentosa..but one thing is the most headache is tat i dun have shorts lei cos i onli own one shorts nia and tat shorts is reali cui man..cant possibly wear tat to beach man..else those guys will laugh at me again ! jialat la..

~the torture-ous period is finally over !~

you know something, the past few weeks when i finish my bio CA tat nite, i saw him in ntu..the moment i saw him, i was like oh my god !! he is just so near me, but yet i feel so far from him..sometimes i reali think tat do i reali still feel for him cos tat time when i saw him i reali felt nothing but my mind always says tat i still likes him..this is so confusing man..it's the heart thingy tat i am confused man cos i always yearn to see him in ntu fpr so many months ever since i stepped into ntu, but when i saw him i felt nothing at all.logically, i should be happy abt it, but i wont lei..haiz..then it turns out to be another mo mo ren who came to my mind when i was studying tat time..weird rite? when i always say tat i dun like him at all..wa lao i think i am damn fickle man..duno who i like...this is reali bad.
tat tortur-ous 2 weeks was reali freaking hell for me cos i rarely get much sleep man..everyday like 7hrs sleep if never go sch, then sometimes never sleep at all if i cant piah finish study the day before..and becos of this, many pimples started to pop out liao lo..overall i would say the paper reali not easy man..i think i sure ta pao my life sci liao..jialat..u know wat when i saw tat paper i was like omg i got almost half the paper duno how to do or rather i didnt study those minor details and they came out..haiz,..i reali need to pray hard tat i dun fail cos i reali dun wan take bio again cos my brain reali not for bio man..
actually first time taking exam in ntu i am kinda excited cos i am curious how do they conduct their exams..and in fact the style is reali veri similar to a levels..and i realised something recently also..uni can be a fun place or either a veri lonely place for a person..if he/she knows no one in uni, then life would be seriously super sian for him/her..but i guess i am lucky to enter uni this yr though i was slow ppl by 2 yrs..at least i am not lonely and perhaps i was lucky to met those yj guys, if not life would be reali sian for me man..and maybe i wouldnt be tat open to topics to talk now.
then exam period 2 of my colleagues msg me as to how am i doing now..then one of them even as me if i am attached ! lohz..i told him i am always single and available de..so i joked bac to him asking if he wanna intro me guys and he told me tat he onli have china guys to intro me..haha..like tat i rather not have man..but seriously i duno why ppl always like to ask me if i am attached or not..do i look like i have lots of bf those kind..cant be lah..i predict tat next mon when i go bac office, my entire company sure ask me this qn again..confirm plus chop man..and yesterday after exams, this guy was like "Hey, dun have so high expectations la.look around ppl tat are beside u.." haha..i smile bac when he said tat cos its not i have high expectations..reali..i already lower super alot liao..
and i am so happy today after weighing myself cos i lose like 2.5kgs man..shiok man..exam time is the time when i slim down cos of stress and insufficient sleep..i shall continue from now on for my exercise marathon..continue to run 12 rounds per day if possible after work or during weekends.if not i am certain tat i will surely gain weight again after working in tat office cos there is just too much nice food for me to eat over there.i wanna lose my face lei..but abit hard man..haiz..
and yesterday when i finished my last paper i reali felt super relaxed cos its been reali a long long time since i could reali relax and do nothing..everyone has their own programs after tat but i didnt reali have, so decided to head down to town to sign the contract since initally i wanted to do it today, but eventually i spent all my time today surfing net for clothes..next sem i shall try to dress nicer man..haha..seriously one month holiday for now seems reali too short..initally wanted to go thailand de but i cant find any cheap tickets and all those cheap tickets onli start flying next yr when sch starts..so i guess the furthest i can go now is malaysia ba.this weekend is gonna sian liao rotting and doing nothing.and mon is going to be a stress time for me liao cos i forgot everything on my office work le..cant possibly ask my colleague say" hey how do u do this huh.." this sound as if i am some useless employee over there receiving high pay yet duno anything..i am reali scared of this kind of feeling man.how..jialat..

~i gonna do mission impossible again !~

sian, this few days have reali lost touch with my comp cos i haven been going online these few days cos i was reali busy with mugging bio for 5 days..tat's just show how slow my studying speed man..seriously the moment i see bio i reali hate tat subject to the core cos i think i reali take alot time to memorized stuff..past few nites when i was preventing myself to fall asleep cos i am reali short of time liao..need to sleep less and study more le..so i decided to go the kitchen to find some food to eat, then whenever i see my current weight, it just turns me off and i keep telling myself tat i am not going to eat supper anymore ! but heng eventually i still manage to keep myself awake for 1 day til 4.30am..zai man..i never slept so late before..haha..but the rest of the days i could barely stay til 12.30am ;( ok this week i wan to perform mission impossible..i always think tat its whether u got the determination to stay awake or not..if u do have tat will, then no matter wat u would stay awake de..
then this wed actually i got a bday celebration again de..but i didnt go partly becos i got to teach my student, and also i cant cancel my lessons so many times cos it would reflect very bad on me..so i gonna give up going for tat celebration though my heart yearns to go cos highly chance eye candy might be there too..but never mind, i always believe tat there is another chance to meet up with him in dec again ;)
and i reali wan to preach abt my student man..i reali cant take it teaching her anymore..she always give tat attitude and i am reali starting to think if am i reali so bad in teaching tat she always forget wat i explains and say or the problem just lies on her side ( refuse to take learning seriously )..this week session just pissed me off though i wanted to show her my "ulgy" face, but i guess i shouldnt be as a "teacher"..
for now, i have decided to take it easy liao..as long as i dun get retain in uni, then i will happy..everyone has at least touched their past yr paper, but wat i have done? NONE ! and NO REVISION DONE also ! jialat man..sometimes i reali need to console myself man..then today's life sci test was kinda not easy and straightforward cos we reali need to study super in depth to know the ans..heng we got some tips from our nice friends, somehow know some ans for some of them..but i must say today's the feng shui is gd cos we managed to chop a gd place to "Discuss" our ans..actually i was reali bold enough to talk and discuss ans with my friend ..but she is equally bold with me to talk to me also..haha..if kana caught sure gone man..
wed nite i break my record of talking on the phone for an hour cos yk was asking me for the qns for chem paper 3..he is lucky tat i still keep the papers man cos i believe all his papers are gone and misplaced..seriously this is my first time talking over phone abt studies for so long..usually its just chop chop Q & A session..haha.
weekend gonna pray hard for me man ..actually mood today kinda bad cos of some mo mo thing, but i guess forgive and forget is the best policy tat i should practise..

~heart is kinda as cold as ice berge now~

hai~now at this period of time, whenever u stepped into the ntu library, you would see everyone mugging away with their books..stress man..and yesterday the management test was kinda sort of cheating test cos everyone was practically looking as each one's ans openly and some even had an open discussion..such a gd test how can not enjoy man..first time get such a gd test..haha..after which went out with they all for dinner at JP...ate KFC and i went home to weigh myself and i gain 1kg bac..damn it ! if i knew it would happen, then i wouldnt wan to eat fast food with them cos whenever i eat fast food sure gain weight man..;( si everything is bac to normal again..sian, today need to go running again to burn away the fats..and lately, i realised tat from recent months, my heart has grown to be as cold as an ice berg now or rather made of diamond tat can hardly be touched or moved by things..and i also realised tat i am kinda firm with decisions now as compared to the past..i am not as fickle as in the past considering 3 or 4yrs bac..tat's me for now..as cold as ice berg now..(perhaps need external force or external factors to melt this ice berg of mine) then perhaps things would be better..;)

~looking forward to holidays~

weekend i just received a mail from my boss..they are going to have a christmas celebration on 23rd dec and its held in some hotel in town..which means tat day i gonna dress nicely for tat occasion..sian..duno wat to wear man..dun wan dress like a kid cos ppl there have super gd dress sense..later super malu if dress sense is cmi..anyway weekend was not very productive cos onli study bio..zzz..i think i am seriously not the sort of ppl tat can study bio cos my brain cant take facts..i am stare for a pg for 2 hrs and still get nothing out of it..haiz...gonna fail liao..exams is coming up in less in 2 weeks, and i haven started most of the preparations yet..tat's my style man..everything last min piah and study (results then come out like shit..)weekends also have too much distractions liao..brother kept on disturbing me..parents keep quarreling over some issue but i cant be bothered..my dad thinks tat my mum is having affairs over..whatever man..tat doesnt concern me..cant be bothered over this issue..all i know is i dun have time for my studies now with my studying speed now..at times, during the night i was hoping to get some encouragement and motivation from ppl around me, but these ppl made things worst by creating more fann issues for me..haiz..sometimes i get so vexed tat i decided to go running for 12 rounds..i guess this is a gd way to escape from issues..somehow u feel better after running away all ur sweat and fats..duno why lately, got the motivation to slim down when in the past i wasnt tat health conscious.maybe i guess the figure has reali frightened me and also peer pressure from ppl around me has motivated me to excercise more and eat less !!
ok for now, i gonna jia you man..and put in my best !