you know something, the past few weeks when i finish my bio CA tat nite, i saw him in ntu..the moment i saw him, i was like oh my god !! he is just so near me, but yet i feel so far from him..sometimes i reali think tat do i reali still feel for him cos tat time when i saw him i reali felt nothing but my mind always says tat i still likes him..this is so confusing man..it's the heart thingy tat i am confused man cos i always yearn to see him in ntu fpr so many months ever since i stepped into ntu, but when i saw him i felt nothing at all.logically, i should be happy abt it, but i wont lei..haiz..then it turns out to be another mo mo ren who came to my mind when i was studying tat time..weird rite? when i always say tat i dun like him at all..wa lao i think i am damn fickle man..duno who i like...this is reali bad.
tat tortur-ous 2 weeks was reali freaking hell for me cos i rarely get much sleep man..everyday like 7hrs sleep if never go sch, then sometimes never sleep at all if i cant piah finish study the day before..and becos of this, many pimples started to pop out liao lo..overall i would say the paper reali not easy man..i think i sure ta pao my life sci liao..jialat..u know wat when i saw tat paper i was like omg i got almost half the paper duno how to do or rather i didnt study those minor details and they came out..haiz,..i reali need to pray hard tat i dun fail cos i reali dun wan take bio again cos my brain reali not for bio man..
actually first time taking exam in ntu i am kinda excited cos i am curious how do they conduct their exams..and in fact the style is reali veri similar to a levels..and i realised something recently also..uni can be a fun place or either a veri lonely place for a person..if he/she knows no one in uni, then life would be seriously super sian for him/her..but i guess i am lucky to enter uni this yr though i was slow ppl by 2 yrs..at least i am not lonely and perhaps i was lucky to met those yj guys, if not life would be reali sian for me man..and maybe i wouldnt be tat open to topics to talk now.
then exam period 2 of my colleagues msg me as to how am i doing now..then one of them even as me if i am attached ! lohz..i told him i am always single and available de..so i joked bac to him asking if he wanna intro me guys and he told me tat he onli have china guys to intro me..haha..like tat i rather not have man..but seriously i duno why ppl always like to ask me if i am attached or not..do i look like i have lots of bf those kind..cant be lah..i predict tat next mon when i go bac office, my entire company sure ask me this qn again..confirm plus chop man..and yesterday after exams, this guy was like "Hey, dun have so high expectations la.look around ppl tat are beside u.." haha..i smile bac when he said tat cos its not i have high expectations..reali..i already lower super alot liao..
and i am so happy today after weighing myself cos i lose like 2.5kgs man..shiok man..exam time is the time when i slim down cos of stress and insufficient sleep..i shall continue from now on for my exercise marathon..continue to run 12 rounds per day if possible after work or during weekends.if not i am certain tat i will surely gain weight again after working in tat office cos there is just too much nice food for me to eat over there.i wanna lose my face lei..but abit hard man..haiz..
and yesterday when i finished my last paper i reali felt super relaxed cos its been reali a long long time since i could reali relax and do nothing..everyone has their own programs after tat but i didnt reali have, so decided to head down to town to sign the contract since initally i wanted to do it today, but eventually i spent all my time today surfing net for clothes..next sem i shall try to dress nicer man..haha..seriously one month holiday for now seems reali too short..initally wanted to go thailand de but i cant find any cheap tickets and all those cheap tickets onli start flying next yr when sch starts..so i guess the furthest i can go now is malaysia ba.this weekend is gonna sian liao rotting and doing nothing.and mon is going to be a stress time for me liao cos i forgot everything on my office work le..cant possibly ask my colleague say" hey how do u do this huh.." this sound as if i am some useless employee over there receiving high pay yet duno anything..i am reali scared of this kind of feeling man.how..jialat..
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