yawns, i reali miss the time in cny when i can sleep til 2pm in the afternoon..now i feel super sian la..cos not enough sleep man..haiz..and yesterday my student's sister who haven seen me for long say that my arms has slim down..wah, when i heard tat i was super happy inside my heart but of cos i didnt reveal tat happiness in my smile la..so just say tat perhaps my arms look tanner now so maybe will look smaller..haiz..today go sch for nothing man, cos i dun even understand a single lecture..basically just come to sch to copy things nia..lohz..and this sem all my tutors kinda cmi lo..all canot explain things de..so gigi liao man..but heng all my peer tutor all very zai.. ;) so learn from them better than learn from all the tutors.
this weekend gonna be busy le..got 2 cny visiting to go to..on of them is my jc friends' house and the other is my sec sch mates house..actually not reali close to my sec sch mate but aiya once a yr gathering just turn up lo..
Friday, January 30, 2009
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
~cny for 2009~
this yr cny was nothing much..just stay at home watch tv for the entire day since there is this free SCV channel during this period.so watch tv like siao..then sat night pei my mum go buy last min cny cookies and goodies..wah her actions and everything is damn auntie man..go out buy things with her damn dui lian cos she can reali negiotate with the stall holder til she lets her to buy those cookies at half price..i must say her talking skills quite zai man..so all the stuff we bought this yr are super damn cheap, (Thanks to tat auntie spirit of her)..
then sun was cny eve...so we set off to chinatown in the late evening after eating our dinner..this yr surprisingly we bought nothing home cos my mum dun find it reali cheap though its even after 12am..i guess economy is bad man..no one wan to lower their price and sell off the things at super cheap price.but wat interest me more tat day was i actually saw Nat ho and his gf when i was standing in the crowd..and he was standing just right beside me and he is super close to me lo..but kinda feel ke xi when i knew tat he is attached cos i am wondering earlier on in sch if he is attached..so now i know..anyway i guess all gers would sure be like me envy-ing his gf for having such a cute bf..and i think he is kinda sweet and romantic cos i heard him saying those mushy stuff to his gf and taking a video right in front of everyone in the crowd..so obviously i heard tat and seen everything since he is just super close to me..but too bad tat he duno tat i am from NTU, if not i doubt he wil do all these intimate acts right in front of us..haha..and wat actually makes me envy his gf is tat Nat Ho hug his gf in his arms as they walked through the crowd just to protect her from being pushed around..and yes, its super squeezy and i had a hard time getting my way out too..i guess if i am the girl, my heart would surely melt le..haha.. ;) and duno why seeing them so loving, suddenly have the "urge" to be attached cos i feel tat the girl is reali very xin fu being well taken care off..but yawns, tat seems a long way for me man..but its alright la cos i have no rush for tat for the time being..and tat day saw lots of ang mo in chinatown too with their chinese gf..all looks kinda sweet to their gf man..haha..i dun mind if my brother wans to intro me some ang mo guy after he reach syndey..perhaps should try something new and see if can adapt or not.. ;)
then sun was cny eve...so we set off to chinatown in the late evening after eating our dinner..this yr surprisingly we bought nothing home cos my mum dun find it reali cheap though its even after 12am..i guess economy is bad man..no one wan to lower their price and sell off the things at super cheap price.but wat interest me more tat day was i actually saw Nat ho and his gf when i was standing in the crowd..and he was standing just right beside me and he is super close to me lo..but kinda feel ke xi when i knew tat he is attached cos i am wondering earlier on in sch if he is attached..so now i know..anyway i guess all gers would sure be like me envy-ing his gf for having such a cute bf..and i think he is kinda sweet and romantic cos i heard him saying those mushy stuff to his gf and taking a video right in front of everyone in the crowd..so obviously i heard tat and seen everything since he is just super close to me..but too bad tat he duno tat i am from NTU, if not i doubt he wil do all these intimate acts right in front of us..haha..and wat actually makes me envy his gf is tat Nat Ho hug his gf in his arms as they walked through the crowd just to protect her from being pushed around..and yes, its super squeezy and i had a hard time getting my way out too..i guess if i am the girl, my heart would surely melt le..haha.. ;) and duno why seeing them so loving, suddenly have the "urge" to be attached cos i feel tat the girl is reali very xin fu being well taken care off..but yawns, tat seems a long way for me man..but its alright la cos i have no rush for tat for the time being..and tat day saw lots of ang mo in chinatown too with their chinese gf..all looks kinda sweet to their gf man..haha..i dun mind if my brother wans to intro me some ang mo guy after he reach syndey..perhaps should try something new and see if can adapt or not.. ;)
Friday, January 23, 2009
~interesting comments..~
my comments on gers liking bad guys : i kinda agree with this cos too guai guys are kinda boring as in they are too serious liao and cant make u laugh at all..humorous guys are certainly a plus point to guys.. ;)
as for the sexy part i dun reali have comments cos i myself is not even sexy at all cos i dun usually dress like tat..ok la, once a while i do dress like tat, but its not for show off..rather i wanted to try out something new.. ;)
~i felt so fat eating so many ba gua.Zzz~
wed evening decided to go to sch despite i have no sch..at first i was reali reluctant to get out of the house de cos wanna stay at home to nuah and its reali sian to walk so far and dun feel like going anywhere..but since i promise my friends tat i will come for the peer tutoring lesson liao so bo bian canot pang seh them so i have to dragged myself go there..and partly becos i tell myself tat since i duno most of the stuff for physics..so ok la, so just go lo, else later accumulate too much liao then sure die de man..so the first impression tat the tutor gave me was kinda turn off cos i feel tat he is a bit weird ah..but later i think after a while i think he is more of cute liao cos his facial expression quite cute ah til i almost wanted to laugh whenever i look into his face..so my friend also laugh along with me when i gave her "tat expression".i think siao liao man,i got this habit to giggle and laugh at ppl whenever someone's actions is very weird..hmmm..this is bad and mean man, i think i need to stop this stupid habit of laughing liao,if not i will get my retribution..lohz..but he is the first peer tutor tat reali impressed me cos he is someone who is reali passionate in teaching,as in he dun mind teaching students til veri late and he is not calculative on the time to end and pay itself so i kinda pei fu him when he said why should i earn so much money for..wah this sentence tat he said reali impressed me liao..then my mind starts registering tat he is a nice guy liao cos rare to find ppl who dun wan earn money when they teach tuition..and most importantly, he is super patient and yes, i like this kind of tutors man..cos i quite slow de, need patient tutor to coach me de..so i have met the right person liao..whee !! so in future he shall me my saviour for my studies liao..if not this sem sure gigi liao at the rate my physics teacher teaches us.. ;( then after which sat down with them at mac to eat dinner and gossip til 9pm then after which i headed home and they head back to their hostel..
yesterday i felt like new yr mood liao cos my friend brought ba gua for us to eat..and since my house haven bought anything for cny, so i gt hook at eating the ba gua liao and before i realised tat i eat too much, all the ba gua all end up in my stomach liao..lohz..so i decided to skip dinner to compensate for the fats tat i have taken in..lohz..but the jialat thing is tat yesterday night when i was at my student's house to teach piano, my student's mum gave me cheeze ba gua which is already pre wrap and can easily be opened and eaten anytime..so since i was curious how does cheeze ba gua taste like, so i decided to try a small piece since i told myself tat i canot eat ba gua anymore liao cos its fatting..but who knows the more i start eating, i cant stop liao..so shit la,ended up eating lots of packets of the small ba gua..wah..so yesterday i felt so sinful tat i became super hardworking tat i decided to go running for 12 rounds despite i very tired and late liao when i reached home..cos bo bian ah...then yesterday my student mentioned to me tat i have taught her for a yr liao..but seriously i didnt realised tat i taught her tat long liao..in fact to me its been kinda a short time nia cos we always cancel lesson de..wah, tat one yr has gone so fast without realising..but i feel tat she didnt reali progress much for this 1 yr leh..duno is my teaching cui or she just cant be bothered to learn seriously..haiz..and now i think i am no longer scared of those blackiees liao cos at most they will just stare at u nia as u are the onli girl on the street cos there are reali no women at all at tat ulu place at nite..i have trained my guts for this past 1 yr liao..so i not scared liao..
then today went gym in sch...wah the gym quite cui man..all guys and very little gers..so i kinda sian liao..so i onli tried a while of the arms and leg exercise cos i gt sian easily after a while...so whenever i go gym is equvilant to wasting money cos i always go there play play with the machines nia..not reali exercising..yipee ! weekend is super long man..i gt til thur to nuah...and sun going to chinatown to buy cny goods liao..yeah ! ;)
yesterday i felt like new yr mood liao cos my friend brought ba gua for us to eat..and since my house haven bought anything for cny, so i gt hook at eating the ba gua liao and before i realised tat i eat too much, all the ba gua all end up in my stomach liao..lohz..so i decided to skip dinner to compensate for the fats tat i have taken in..lohz..but the jialat thing is tat yesterday night when i was at my student's house to teach piano, my student's mum gave me cheeze ba gua which is already pre wrap and can easily be opened and eaten anytime..so since i was curious how does cheeze ba gua taste like, so i decided to try a small piece since i told myself tat i canot eat ba gua anymore liao cos its fatting..but who knows the more i start eating, i cant stop liao..so shit la,ended up eating lots of packets of the small ba gua..wah..so yesterday i felt so sinful tat i became super hardworking tat i decided to go running for 12 rounds despite i very tired and late liao when i reached home..cos bo bian ah...then yesterday my student mentioned to me tat i have taught her for a yr liao..but seriously i didnt realised tat i taught her tat long liao..in fact to me its been kinda a short time nia cos we always cancel lesson de..wah, tat one yr has gone so fast without realising..but i feel tat she didnt reali progress much for this 1 yr leh..duno is my teaching cui or she just cant be bothered to learn seriously..haiz..and now i think i am no longer scared of those blackiees liao cos at most they will just stare at u nia as u are the onli girl on the street cos there are reali no women at all at tat ulu place at nite..i have trained my guts for this past 1 yr liao..so i not scared liao..
then today went gym in sch...wah the gym quite cui man..all guys and very little gers..so i kinda sian liao..so i onli tried a while of the arms and leg exercise cos i gt sian easily after a while...so whenever i go gym is equvilant to wasting money cos i always go there play play with the machines nia..not reali exercising..yipee ! weekend is super long man..i gt til thur to nuah...and sun going to chinatown to buy cny goods liao..yeah ! ;)
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
~i felt so sinful eating a container of cookies~
today i ate almost half a container of CNY cookies tat jeremy passed me after my maths tutorial lesson..initally wanted to buy home eat de..but since i lazy to bring bac the big container liao since its so mafan and bulky esp with tat NTUC plastic bag tat jeremy pass me so just open in the lecture to share with them to eat..so i reali eat half a container of the cookies..i think i quite zai man..haha..even guys also lose to me lo..but i think i sure gain weight after eating all these cos i think its super fatting..lohz and today ate laska..so even worst lo..jialat tml i confirm wanna go running liao..if not my 1 month vigorous exercise all gone down to waste liao..and today decided to go for my first peer tutoring lesson and i was shocked when i entered the tutorial room cos how come gt 2 tutors to teach me..wah if i gt 2 of their brains then i sure become a genius liao cos i think their studying methods are reali very different from ppl..i duno how they can gasp the concept so fast sia..and one of the tutor are also first sem student, but he told me he pon all the lecures for physics..and apparently he knows everything when he teach me..though some of which i couldnt reali udnerstand cos of his chime chinese..but nevertheless at least i learn something today..so at least i did learn something today. ;) now my aim is to jiayou and work hard for this sem..if i dun work hard then reali dui bu qi myself man..if i dun do well, at least i have tried my best liao and maybe i woudnt be sad afterall..
Monday, January 19, 2009
~kinda elated over my drawing ;)~
yesterday was finally the last day for the add/drop period..and at last i could finally stop camping for electives liao cos the past 2 weeks i reali wasted lots of time on doing tat and still get nothing eventually so its kinda half sian..so yesterday decided to try my luck again and camp for another 1.5hrs of serious camping..but still sad to say i gt nothing..so this sem will be kinda slack liao..but slack wise not reali tat slack la..the contents this sem quite tough esp physics,maths and computing..i am now kinda quite lost in all those subjects.so jialat lo..then now bo bian need help from my peer tutor to teach me..and i so heng to get back the peer tutor that taught me last sem..wah she reali damn gd and thanks to her tat i gt a B for physics..if not for her teaching, probably i wouldnt get a B for tat le..so this sem must jia you again and pay attention when she teach cos in lectures i dun reali pay attention and was kinda switch off cos i couldnt understand a single thing at all..haiz..so tat's uni life..and its abt self studying to get gd grades..
and today was another lab lesson and it's a drawing lesson again..u know wat, i was super happy when the "teacher" said tat my drawing is very gd and nice ! my heart was immediately filled with happiness when i heard tat cos no one commented my drawing nice at all since young..in fact i think my drawing all along quite cui de cos i no skill in drawing ma and moreover most of the time i smoke my way through without going through the normal procedures..but today i reali put in effort to draw cos i dun wan to be like last week tat idoit teacher keep asking me to redo so many times until i so pissed off..so this week i smart liao and be more serious le.
and today i went for my first lesson for the manufacturing of econs lect..wah tat lesson is super boring and crap man, just like the management with humor..i think i reali damn lucky to get a slot last min man..else i think i will still stuck with digitial lifestyle man..though tat elective is not bad la, but super dry lei and sian lei..and moreover i think tat if the qn were to twitch a bit, then i sure duno liao cos the ans cant be found inside the notes..so i think better dun take first until ppl experiment with tat module first. but if tat digital lifestyle didnt clash with my current elective then perhaps i would wan to take up this too cos can at least learn something out of it..but too bad..and the worst thing is tat i am appointed the leader of the grp project..ZZZ..haha, cos i scared i cant reali be the leader cos u know i am more of those bo chap type..tat leader position abit not suitable for me..but as all my grp memebers all taking 21 AUs, and i am the free-iest liao so they put me and sabo me as leader..ZZZ..haiz..all i hope is i dun hai the grp can liao cos now my responsibility quite huge huh cos need to coordinate meetings and stuff like tat and i never done all these before..so duno how la..so i will try my best la cos i dun wan the grp to be becos of my bo chap attitude suffer in return..so i must jiayou and see wat i can do then..
and today i just saw his LR in sch man..wah he is just so near me (perhaps a few km nia) and i think we just dun have the fate la cos i always hope to bump into XXX but always never see XXX de lei..aiya i think i should just wake up my idea liao..
and today was another lab lesson and it's a drawing lesson again..u know wat, i was super happy when the "teacher" said tat my drawing is very gd and nice ! my heart was immediately filled with happiness when i heard tat cos no one commented my drawing nice at all since young..in fact i think my drawing all along quite cui de cos i no skill in drawing ma and moreover most of the time i smoke my way through without going through the normal procedures..but today i reali put in effort to draw cos i dun wan to be like last week tat idoit teacher keep asking me to redo so many times until i so pissed off..so this week i smart liao and be more serious le.
and today i went for my first lesson for the manufacturing of econs lect..wah tat lesson is super boring and crap man, just like the management with humor..i think i reali damn lucky to get a slot last min man..else i think i will still stuck with digitial lifestyle man..though tat elective is not bad la, but super dry lei and sian lei..and moreover i think tat if the qn were to twitch a bit, then i sure duno liao cos the ans cant be found inside the notes..so i think better dun take first until ppl experiment with tat module first. but if tat digital lifestyle didnt clash with my current elective then perhaps i would wan to take up this too cos can at least learn something out of it..but too bad..and the worst thing is tat i am appointed the leader of the grp project..ZZZ..haha, cos i scared i cant reali be the leader cos u know i am more of those bo chap type..tat leader position abit not suitable for me..but as all my grp memebers all taking 21 AUs, and i am the free-iest liao so they put me and sabo me as leader..ZZZ..haiz..all i hope is i dun hai the grp can liao cos now my responsibility quite huge huh cos need to coordinate meetings and stuff like tat and i never done all these before..so duno how la..so i will try my best la cos i dun wan the grp to be becos of my bo chap attitude suffer in return..so i must jiayou and see wat i can do then..
and today i just saw his LR in sch man..wah he is just so near me (perhaps a few km nia) and i think we just dun have the fate la cos i always hope to bump into XXX but always never see XXX de lei..aiya i think i should just wake up my idea liao..
Friday, January 16, 2009
~zhuo wen xuan concert~
933 FM deejay (ding zhi yong)
last thur night was zhuo wen xuan's concert at NTU and it was indeed quite enojoyable though it onli lasted for probably abt 1 hr like tat when we almost waited for 1 hr before we could enter the LKC lecture hall..and the sad thing is we were placed to sit in the last row of the lecture hall..zzz, so its kinda sian la..perhaps this teach us a lesson as to not to cut ppl queue in future cos those who came later gt to sit right in front of the stage..anyway i think those ppl who plan this sitting arrangement abit cock up de lo..shouldnt those who came earlier get to sit in front rather than those who came later? hmm..so since we were sitting super far from the stage so we cant reali see her clearly..but the concert was indeed a very gd one..i was reali memerized by her voice cos her voice is reali bravo man ! (Super clear and her live singing just sounds super like her album with no out of tune)..i guess lots of guys must be memerized by her that day cos even i being a ger is already so memerized by her looks and voice le..how can guys not be memerized by her man..but the sad thing was they dun allow us to take photos man, so bo bian can onli watch..then after the concert went off to the so call "ah fang" coffee shop to eat supper with those group of ppl and after which proceeded home to sleep ;)
yesterday was kinda a tiring day cos its a super long day with lots of break in between..so waste kinda lots of time man.and yesterday i reali suffered another elapse of shock cos i didnt expect wat i see to be like tat..in fact the shock i suffer was twice/thrice as much as before cos last time i could still even laugh and giggle away with my friends when i know and see tat..but yesterday i couldnt reali laugh out cos i was utterly shocked by wat i see..cos i reali didnt expect things to be like tat..in fact it was a totally different thing and feel from wat i seen last time and my jaw reali drop man and i look seriously damn serious cos i think i kana too much shocked at one go le..probably i need to be influence more to this kind then perhaps i will then take it easy and feel nothing abt it..gosh, i think i reali wan to be a nun liao cos i think human nature and the realistic of life is just so terrifying..oh man !!!
nxt wk my dad gonna for operation soon le..today he still say" if the operation doesnt go well, then...." wah tat sounds so unlucky lohz..haiz..anyway just hope for the best for him la..this weekend gonna busy with sch stuff again, esp the add/drop thingy cos this week ending liao..finally man, cos if not this thing is damn fann man..cos ppl is forever holding on to their electives dun wan to give up til last min..and tat's the time when we can then get wat we wan if we hardworking camp la..yipee and 1 more wk to CNY..and i am get my break finally..
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
~bro flying off to sydney soon in less than a month~
yesterday received a msg from them and i duno if should i go from this sat CNY pre gathering or not..cos initally already wanted to go le..then some more eye candy going..so the more should go right..hehe..but later i think i should take into other factors into considerations too..so i guess most prob should not be going le...though i abit feel like going chinatown to shop for CNY food cos my house reali got nothing now ! kay nvm, i shall see how it goes then and decide on sat then..
and my bro is leaving on 11th feb le..less than a month he will be gone le..duno will miss him or not cos he will be gone for 5 yrs man and wont be bac after he finish his doctorate in vet..so watever stationary tat i have now just give it to him cos i guess sydney standard of living sure very high de...who knows papers, and pens all very ex..so i will just give all my office pens and papers to him then he can save all his money on other things..wah..the down payment for a month rental is super damn ex man..$1400 for a month..its super damn ex when spore u onli rent for probably $500-$800 ++ ..but sometimes i do admire my bro as in he is reali bold enough to stay in a foriegn country tat he has never stepped into before..i guess probably i do not have the courage like he does..perhaps i might wan to try this out when i am older and earns more money..probabaly by then i will enjoy travelling the whole world provided if i gt the money..hehe..tat kind of freedom is damn shiok man.. ;)
and today i am going to watch zhuo wen xuan sch concert le..and i jio my bro to come since i decide to be nice to him for once..hopefully tonite will enjoy it ba ! haiz..i am now kinda seriously lost in physics and maths..jialat..all i am scared is later accumulate too much then later like JC ta bao..wah, tat feeling of ta bao-ing is reali kinda terrible man..haiz..
and my bro is leaving on 11th feb le..less than a month he will be gone le..duno will miss him or not cos he will be gone for 5 yrs man and wont be bac after he finish his doctorate in vet..so watever stationary tat i have now just give it to him cos i guess sydney standard of living sure very high de...who knows papers, and pens all very ex..so i will just give all my office pens and papers to him then he can save all his money on other things..wah..the down payment for a month rental is super damn ex man..$1400 for a month..its super damn ex when spore u onli rent for probably $500-$800 ++ ..but sometimes i do admire my bro as in he is reali bold enough to stay in a foriegn country tat he has never stepped into before..i guess probably i do not have the courage like he does..perhaps i might wan to try this out when i am older and earns more money..probabaly by then i will enjoy travelling the whole world provided if i gt the money..hehe..tat kind of freedom is damn shiok man.. ;)
and today i am going to watch zhuo wen xuan sch concert le..and i jio my bro to come since i decide to be nice to him for once..hopefully tonite will enjoy it ba ! haiz..i am now kinda seriously lost in physics and maths..jialat..all i am scared is later accumulate too much then later like JC ta bao..wah, tat feeling of ta bao-ing is reali kinda terrible man..haiz..
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
~i am feeling happier today ! ~
yesterday reached home kinda late liao and was feeling pretty shagged, so just did 1 qn of my maths tutorial and i just went off to sleep liao since yesterday i think my mood was feeling kinda bad cos of insufficient sleep..so i need more sleep to replenish my bad mood..haha..so woke up pretty late today since lessons didnt reali start early today..so our first lesson was effective comp..wah, indeeed it was an interesting first lesson to start off with cos i feel reali relax when i am in this tutorial lesson.. ;) wat make me more alert was when there is a few shuai ge in our tutorial grp when previously there is totally none at all..so at least there are a few eye candies to look at to entertain me and make my day a better start..haha...but afterall its still not easy to make friends with them la since we are all strangers..in fact even if we are in the same class, we rarely will talk to each other..so seeing from far is just gd enough..and yes i like the feeling of being a secret admirer cos its kinda exciting..haha..but once if my eye candy knows tat i admirer him, then i guess i wont like and admire him anymore..perhaps tat's a weird logic, but i believe many gers are like tat..cos they dun like the feeling of guys liking them bac just becos they like them..cos this kind of like is not like, but rather its more of returning the "Like" they have for them..
then today i finally saw my union SP after a sem by coindence...wah, he still gt the X factor and seh (Feel) when i saw him when we are queuin for our goodies..surprising from far and among all the guys, i could onli spot him easily from far..duno why, perhaps my eyes can onli easily spot guys tat i find attractive to..haha..those not my type tat i like perhaps i will take slightly longer time to spot them ba..but now i think i know wat kinds of guys i like liao..cos hm also made the same conclusion as me..so i think i rougly know i am right liao..but saying is still one thing..finding our other half is another issue as in we will look into their qualities and characters into considerations...by then looks is no longer an issue anymore..in fact character will come first...
after which went off to the malay class for our first lesson with hm..tat teacher's class is kinda funny huh..esp the expression he gave..but my overall comment on my first malay lesson was kinda tough cos i think reali need to spend alot of time to learn language cos everything need to start from scratch..and uni dun reali have much time..and my learning pace for language is kinda slow man..so duno if i should reali take up this module or not cos i lazy to memorize those whole chung of alien malay words when i dun reali have much time...hmm..
then today i finally saw my union SP after a sem by coindence...wah, he still gt the X factor and seh (Feel) when i saw him when we are queuin for our goodies..surprising from far and among all the guys, i could onli spot him easily from far..duno why, perhaps my eyes can onli easily spot guys tat i find attractive to..haha..those not my type tat i like perhaps i will take slightly longer time to spot them ba..but now i think i know wat kinds of guys i like liao..cos hm also made the same conclusion as me..so i think i rougly know i am right liao..but saying is still one thing..finding our other half is another issue as in we will look into their qualities and characters into considerations...by then looks is no longer an issue anymore..in fact character will come first...
after which went off to the malay class for our first lesson with hm..tat teacher's class is kinda funny huh..esp the expression he gave..but my overall comment on my first malay lesson was kinda tough cos i think reali need to spend alot of time to learn language cos everything need to start from scratch..and uni dun reali have much time..and my learning pace for language is kinda slow man..so duno if i should reali take up this module or not cos i lazy to memorize those whole chung of alien malay words when i dun reali have much time...hmm..
Monday, January 12, 2009
~i feel kinda demoralised lately~
haiz...duno why lately moral feel super low man..seems like sch haven start for long and i am already so demoralised liao..haiz..i also duno why am i so demoralised..i guess most probably it should be due to sch stuff ba or just family issues..but i guess the factors that contribute to this demoralised feel is more of sch stuff rather than family issues.cos i seriously cant be bothered abt my house stuff cos i am already so busy liao, where gt time to take care of house issues..
and today was the first day of the lab lesson..wa, i reali gt fed up when tat stupid PHD student kept on asking me to change and amend changes to my drawing when others onli did it like once or twice nia..but mine lei, almost 5 to 6 times..yes ! and i reali show tat black face liao and "throw my pencil" cos i gt reali fed up with him cos cant he just tell me wat to change all at one go meh..instead of telling me one by one..and moreover today i am kinda tired liao since the night before i slept kinda late, so naturally i dun have much patenience for him huh..moreover i made drawing most cos my my drawing quite CMI man..so naturally i gt irritated when ppl keep asking me to edit my drawing when i wan to chop chop and get done with it.
and today gt super lots of foolscap and pens man from some unknown speaker giving a talk..i think tat pen can last me for the whole 3.5yrs in NTU man cos i think my house reali can sell open a pen shop and sell pens liao..i think counting my house pens plus my office pens should have ard 100+ ba..lohz..haha..anyway the subjects tat i hate most for this sem is practically physics, maths and computing and my digital lifestyle elective ba..lohz..in fact there is onli one subject tat i enjoy now cos its the onli thing tat i am confident of doing well, which is chem ! tat digital lifestyle is super damn boring and dry man..for ppl like a computer noob like me naturally find tat the info given has overloaded me, but i guess no choice man..perhaps thinking in another light, i might learn more things abt comp stuff and gain more knowledge.. ;)
CNY is coming up soon..yeah i am looking forward to tat occasion cos i can finally recharge my "Batt" liao cos i think now my moral super low le..need some time to recharge my " Batt" to regain my confidence again..and looking forward to V day too cos i supposed NTU sure have lots of activities for valentine day too ! cos last yr i was in NTU doing some stuff and i past by tat area and i reali feel the "romantic atmosphere" in sch, so i just wonder how will this yr like..haha.. ;) hmm,..but vday wasnt very meaningful to me every yr since this special one has yet to appear..i guess probably soon in yrs to come, Vday might be a special occasion liao when tat special one has appears .. ;) but i always like to say : "lets nature take its path" and i guess this theory will still holds..
and today was the first day of the lab lesson..wa, i reali gt fed up when tat stupid PHD student kept on asking me to change and amend changes to my drawing when others onli did it like once or twice nia..but mine lei, almost 5 to 6 times..yes ! and i reali show tat black face liao and "throw my pencil" cos i gt reali fed up with him cos cant he just tell me wat to change all at one go meh..instead of telling me one by one..and moreover today i am kinda tired liao since the night before i slept kinda late, so naturally i dun have much patenience for him huh..moreover i made drawing most cos my my drawing quite CMI man..so naturally i gt irritated when ppl keep asking me to edit my drawing when i wan to chop chop and get done with it.
and today gt super lots of foolscap and pens man from some unknown speaker giving a talk..i think tat pen can last me for the whole 3.5yrs in NTU man cos i think my house reali can sell open a pen shop and sell pens liao..i think counting my house pens plus my office pens should have ard 100+ ba..lohz..haha..anyway the subjects tat i hate most for this sem is practically physics, maths and computing and my digital lifestyle elective ba..lohz..in fact there is onli one subject tat i enjoy now cos its the onli thing tat i am confident of doing well, which is chem ! tat digital lifestyle is super damn boring and dry man..for ppl like a computer noob like me naturally find tat the info given has overloaded me, but i guess no choice man..perhaps thinking in another light, i might learn more things abt comp stuff and gain more knowledge.. ;)
CNY is coming up soon..yeah i am looking forward to tat occasion cos i can finally recharge my "Batt" liao cos i think now my moral super low le..need some time to recharge my " Batt" to regain my confidence again..and looking forward to V day too cos i supposed NTU sure have lots of activities for valentine day too ! cos last yr i was in NTU doing some stuff and i past by tat area and i reali feel the "romantic atmosphere" in sch, so i just wonder how will this yr like..haha.. ;) hmm,..but vday wasnt very meaningful to me every yr since this special one has yet to appear..i guess probably soon in yrs to come, Vday might be a special occasion liao when tat special one has appears .. ;) but i always like to say : "lets nature take its path" and i guess this theory will still holds..
Friday, January 09, 2009
~heart almost want to drop liao~
yesterday was the day when i think i reali gt free pay man cos my student didnt reali want to have lesson since she was tired..so she kept on initating a convo with me and i wanted to pull her bac to track with her playing cos i feel bad as if i am "Cheating" her money by talking crap with her ma..but apparently she doesnt wan..so not my problem liao..then wat suddenly lightened up my spirts when i was totally feeling at the rock bottom was when i saw the msg tat hm send me saying tat she manages to camp an elective for me liao..initally my mood was reali at the rock bottom liao, but once i heard tat news i was super happy and my heart almost want to fly to the sky liao cos she camp onli for 10 mins nia and gets a slot liao, but i camp 4 hrs get nothing..so the problem just lies with the luck..lohz..
then after which went home happily and the moment i stepped into my house, i asked my dad for his medical report..haiz..he told me tat its some tumor..tat time my heart reali drop to the rock bottom man feeling kinda sad when initally i was super happy like mad..cos this tumor word doesnt sound veri gd lei..and i duno is it a form of cancer too ? haiz....so was kinda worried for him now,but apparently he still takes it positively lei..haiz..duno lah..i just thnk he so kelian, so old liao still kana such things at his XXX..but he is operating soon in 2 weeks time, hopefully he will heal by then..haiz..
then today went to JP with eat with them since we gt 4 hrs break lo..super waste time man..so went off to eat pizza hut, and i ate super alot lo of cheeze and the pizzas..weekends going to piah running liao man..i am not going to let the fats stay there for long ! lohz.hehe..
and yesterday my colleague asked me a qn abt XXX..and my ans is still uncertain lei..cos i myself also duno the ans..so i guess she might find me fickle minded man..but its not i wan de, cos the feeling is very different from last time lei..as in the ans is not tat straight forward so i cant give a definite ans..so for now all i can say is " time will tell everything.." and i guess the phrase is very useful and true cos it really tells everything after a period of time..perhaps a few yrs or if fast might be a few months..so for now, my ans is still "i DUN KNOW !"
then after which went home happily and the moment i stepped into my house, i asked my dad for his medical report..haiz..he told me tat its some tumor..tat time my heart reali drop to the rock bottom man feeling kinda sad when initally i was super happy like mad..cos this tumor word doesnt sound veri gd lei..and i duno is it a form of cancer too ? haiz....so was kinda worried for him now,but apparently he still takes it positively lei..haiz..duno lah..i just thnk he so kelian, so old liao still kana such things at his XXX..but he is operating soon in 2 weeks time, hopefully he will heal by then..haiz..
then today went to JP with eat with them since we gt 4 hrs break lo..super waste time man..so went off to eat pizza hut, and i ate super alot lo of cheeze and the pizzas..weekends going to piah running liao man..i am not going to let the fats stay there for long ! lohz.hehe..
and yesterday my colleague asked me a qn abt XXX..and my ans is still uncertain lei..cos i myself also duno the ans..so i guess she might find me fickle minded man..but its not i wan de, cos the feeling is very different from last time lei..as in the ans is not tat straight forward so i cant give a definite ans..so for now all i can say is " time will tell everything.." and i guess the phrase is very useful and true cos it really tells everything after a period of time..perhaps a few yrs or if fast might be a few months..so for now, my ans is still "i DUN KNOW !"
Wednesday, January 07, 2009
~i kinda lost hope liao~
haiz..this few days i am really fann cos mum keep finding fault with me again..then i really very fann and fed up liao when i camp 4 days for electives but still get nothing..then my mum keep fann-ing me with money..whole day keep scolding me tat i never give her money when she helps us wash clothes and cook everyday..wa lao i mean its her obligations to do all these since she is a housewife,wth man i dun understand why she always like to complain ! come on la, tat's her job now..and my job now is to study..and i reali hate it when she use those hokkien vulgar on me, cos i find it super crude and tat's explains why i always dun respect her and treat her as my mum cos she is a bad example to follow man..sometimes, i think i am starting to get her bad influence liao, but i controlling not to be like her cos i believe many ppl will find it crude, including me lo..so i must refrain from speaking those crude stuff and learn to be more ang mo speaking liao, if not alot of guys sure get turn off de..but sometimes ppl always say "Like mother, like daugther.." hopefully i dun follow into her footsteps man..at least ang mo speaking not as bad as those hokkien..haiz..sometimes just wonder why is she my mum man..
then wed was at home since no sch..so decided to camp in the morning, afternoon and nite..and i am really quite demoralised liao cos i reali camp for many many countless hours liao and saw quite a no of slots but still cant manage to get the elective tat i wan cos i was just slow by a few secs....haiz..or maybe my house internet speed kinda slow in refreshing man..by the time, its already refreshed, the slot would have taken by others..haiz..now i desperate liao..as long as there is any slot, i shall just go for tat..if not have to prepare for the worst liao.. ;( and i suddenly realised tat i need to sell ba gua for my union camp ppl..and dateline is this sat..lohz..and i totally forgotton abt it til jeremy ask me for the sales..so jialat lo now..aiya right from the start they shouldnt sa bo me as SA cos u know i am those bo chap type de..nominate me sure gone case de,..cos i doubt i can help the group in any way..
and today went to sch for 1 lesson nia..abit stupid la. but at least manage to queue for zhuo wen xuan tickets,..so not too bad..yeah so next thur gonna attend the concert liao..yipee..for now, gonna go for my piano class liao..sian..sit here for 4 hrs le, but get nothing..yawns..abit feel like giving up liao..
then wed was at home since no sch..so decided to camp in the morning, afternoon and nite..and i am really quite demoralised liao cos i reali camp for many many countless hours liao and saw quite a no of slots but still cant manage to get the elective tat i wan cos i was just slow by a few secs....haiz..or maybe my house internet speed kinda slow in refreshing man..by the time, its already refreshed, the slot would have taken by others..haiz..now i desperate liao..as long as there is any slot, i shall just go for tat..if not have to prepare for the worst liao.. ;( and i suddenly realised tat i need to sell ba gua for my union camp ppl..and dateline is this sat..lohz..and i totally forgotton abt it til jeremy ask me for the sales..so jialat lo now..aiya right from the start they shouldnt sa bo me as SA cos u know i am those bo chap type de..nominate me sure gone case de,..cos i doubt i can help the group in any way..
and today went to sch for 1 lesson nia..abit stupid la. but at least manage to queue for zhuo wen xuan tickets,..so not too bad..yeah so next thur gonna attend the concert liao..yipee..for now, gonna go for my piano class liao..sian..sit here for 4 hrs le, but get nothing..yawns..abit feel like giving up liao..
Monday, January 05, 2009
~camping skills really cmi~
yesterday was camping for my electives and lab..omg, i think i am damn retarted and slow at camping..whereas all my friends are so fast..this just shows tat ppl who dun play games are damn slow in reflex ! anyway gotton an electricitity module, but i hear the word electricity also sian liao..lohz..so just pray hard tat i get a slot somewhere else..haiz..anyway i so happy my lab finally changed liao..yipee !! yesterday still panic like siao scared no space go in..haha..
Sunday, January 04, 2009
~sch reopen~
today is first day of sch reopen..the library is freaking full of ppl man..see liao also sian..anyway this sem must jia you liao..i just flip the lectures notes and realised tat my brain has one rusty since so long never touch anything liao except working..lohz..tonite hope tat ladyluck is with me and let me camp tio wat i wan to camp..if not gonna sit in front of comp everyday to camp liao.. ;( yesterday nite was kinda busy with doing some administrative stuff,so was kinda busy..
Friday, January 02, 2009
~sentosa and east coast park outing~
wed was the last day of 2008..but apparently this was my first time in history when i didnt go out at all for countdown or watever activities..instead i was at home packing my table stuff and listening to music.and the day just pass by happily with me watching the TV marathon from 7pm til 2am..since i didnt went the countdown at vivo since i predicted tat it will be going to be super packed with ppl..so its a better idea to stay at home to watch the live telecast instead. ;)
thur met up with my ex JC classmates for our beach outing..initally still thought i super late liao but end up it became tat i am the first to reach cos everyone is even more late than me..initally the turn out was quite disppointing cos suddenly some ppl didnt turn up last min..and mr chua was supposed to come and meet us tat day too,but he went off suddenly when he see tat no ones is there..but the thing is we told him to meet us at 1pm but he came at 12.30pm..of cos sure no one de wat..then we had our lunch at some place in vivo..tat place kinda cheap considering its vivo..but serving size abit small huh..then after which set off to palawan beach for our activities..tat day was kinda crowded with foreigners.so its kinda hard of chopping a place to put our stuff too.but tat day was a fruitful one though the onli 3 of the gers including me did nothing..in fact tat day was more of a ger's talk session rather than playing with them in the beach..so after everything ended, me and wp went to window shop at vivo..decided to try out some clothes tat i cant afford to buy in river island..omg, when i try out all the clothes i super like them man cos its super nice and all their cutting just makes your body super slim..wah if onli i am super rich, then i would buy all the clothes and my day would surely be damn happy.but too bad, i am not rich to own all of them or rather even if i gt money i also bu se de buy cos its super expensive..but tat shopping trip with her was indeed quite fruitful cos i learn how to dress up liao and also wat kinds of materials is suitable for me..hehe..
fri had to wake up super duper early just becos i duno how to get to east coast park from my place..and moreover all of them stay around the same area and its pretty sian to travel alone man..so bo bian have to meet up with them if not i sure bored to death along my journey..so we tried cycling and cycled for 2 hrs and ended up my butt feels super painful til i cant reali walk properly after getting down from the bike..but yesterday me and hm tried the duo bicycle..feeling quite cool huh, but i think the person who is sitting in front must be very zai in cycling, if not sure will kana accident and bump into tree or lamp post..haha..and the person is me who experienced tat in the past when i am starting to learn cycling tat time..after which sat down in mac to cool down and have our ice cream and after which set off to geylang for our lunch cum dinner..
actually i duno why i suggested go geylang too cos since we are so near the east side liao, so might well go there try out nice food over there..but i must say yesterday at geylang it was indeed an eye opener..i saw lots of things which i always yearn to see in the past but never have a chance to go there..so yesterday finally got to see wat i always wan to see liao..haha..seriously i almost wan to faint and puke when i see the "quality" of girls on the street jio-ing business and those ti gou ah pei also make me damn turn off man cos i didnt expect the customers to come from tat age group..oh man, it seems tat i have totally wrong impression of the type of customers liao..i still thought its those middle age guys, but it turns our to be all ah pei..and they are gd enough to be my grand father liao..lohz..and i reali almost wanted to puke when i saw one of those gers trying to make tat ah pei high by tickling his face and arousing him..oh god, wat on earth is this man..young gers playing around and have fun with old ah pei?? wah i think if i am a guy u give me free service i still wan to tink twice man cos the looks really cmi man, i think the entire street me and hm most chio liao.haha.looks alone already win them more than enough..but we do saw those reali not bad ones..but its super rare..most of them are reali cui until canot comment..the street totally have no youngsters at all, in fact i think we are the onli ones..the guys was kinda scared tat those gers will approach them so they faster wan to siam and get out of tat zone area..haha..i see their expression also wan to laugh man..for me, i dun feel scared at all man though el said tat a few guys did look at me from head to toe..cos i felt tat its still so early and its in a daylight, they sure wouldnt dare to lay any fingers on me de la..unless they are so bold enough..in fact i think its more of exciting and interesting trip yesterday walking past those areas..
but yesterday our dinner was kinda tiring but a nice one cos we kept on walking in circles just to find frog leg's porridge..but i must say geylang food is reali nice, esp their frog legs..i didnt regret travelling there to eat yesterday though prices there not reali cheap compared to outside place, but was reali worthwhile..but the long walk under the sun at geylang has somehow burnt my skin cos my skin was burning red yesterday and it was painful man..heng my mum didnt saw my back getting so tanned with tan lines, if not she sure nag at me again..but of cos today morning wake up she did realised tat my hands gt darker..so she started to nag me abit liao..
ok next mon is sch reopens liao..feels abit sian liao cos gt to start mugging again..in fact i still dun have the momentum to start my engin yet..sian..this sem i am going to change my dress sense style liao..haha..so happy can wear new clothes liao..yipee ! sometimes duno why whenever i dress nicer, i tend to feel happier in mood and whenever i dress until quite cui, i feel kinda sian..i guess perhaps its pyschological effect man.. ;) and mon gonna camp for my lab and electives liao..gonna wish me luck man cos i wan to chop chop and get done with this cos its super time wasting man..
thur met up with my ex JC classmates for our beach outing..initally still thought i super late liao but end up it became tat i am the first to reach cos everyone is even more late than me..initally the turn out was quite disppointing cos suddenly some ppl didnt turn up last min..and mr chua was supposed to come and meet us tat day too,but he went off suddenly when he see tat no ones is there..but the thing is we told him to meet us at 1pm but he came at 12.30pm..of cos sure no one de wat..then we had our lunch at some place in vivo..tat place kinda cheap considering its vivo..but serving size abit small huh..then after which set off to palawan beach for our activities..tat day was kinda crowded with foreigners.so its kinda hard of chopping a place to put our stuff too.but tat day was a fruitful one though the onli 3 of the gers including me did nothing..in fact tat day was more of a ger's talk session rather than playing with them in the beach..so after everything ended, me and wp went to window shop at vivo..decided to try out some clothes tat i cant afford to buy in river island..omg, when i try out all the clothes i super like them man cos its super nice and all their cutting just makes your body super slim..wah if onli i am super rich, then i would buy all the clothes and my day would surely be damn happy.but too bad, i am not rich to own all of them or rather even if i gt money i also bu se de buy cos its super expensive..but tat shopping trip with her was indeed quite fruitful cos i learn how to dress up liao and also wat kinds of materials is suitable for me..hehe..
fri had to wake up super duper early just becos i duno how to get to east coast park from my place..and moreover all of them stay around the same area and its pretty sian to travel alone man..so bo bian have to meet up with them if not i sure bored to death along my journey..so we tried cycling and cycled for 2 hrs and ended up my butt feels super painful til i cant reali walk properly after getting down from the bike..but yesterday me and hm tried the duo bicycle..feeling quite cool huh, but i think the person who is sitting in front must be very zai in cycling, if not sure will kana accident and bump into tree or lamp post..haha..and the person is me who experienced tat in the past when i am starting to learn cycling tat time..after which sat down in mac to cool down and have our ice cream and after which set off to geylang for our lunch cum dinner..
actually i duno why i suggested go geylang too cos since we are so near the east side liao, so might well go there try out nice food over there..but i must say yesterday at geylang it was indeed an eye opener..i saw lots of things which i always yearn to see in the past but never have a chance to go there..so yesterday finally got to see wat i always wan to see liao..haha..seriously i almost wan to faint and puke when i see the "quality" of girls on the street jio-ing business and those ti gou ah pei also make me damn turn off man cos i didnt expect the customers to come from tat age group..oh man, it seems tat i have totally wrong impression of the type of customers liao..i still thought its those middle age guys, but it turns our to be all ah pei..and they are gd enough to be my grand father liao..lohz..and i reali almost wanted to puke when i saw one of those gers trying to make tat ah pei high by tickling his face and arousing him..oh god, wat on earth is this man..young gers playing around and have fun with old ah pei?? wah i think if i am a guy u give me free service i still wan to tink twice man cos the looks really cmi man, i think the entire street me and hm most chio liao.haha.looks alone already win them more than enough..but we do saw those reali not bad ones..but its super rare..most of them are reali cui until canot comment..the street totally have no youngsters at all, in fact i think we are the onli ones..the guys was kinda scared tat those gers will approach them so they faster wan to siam and get out of tat zone area..haha..i see their expression also wan to laugh man..for me, i dun feel scared at all man though el said tat a few guys did look at me from head to toe..cos i felt tat its still so early and its in a daylight, they sure wouldnt dare to lay any fingers on me de la..unless they are so bold enough..in fact i think its more of exciting and interesting trip yesterday walking past those areas..
but yesterday our dinner was kinda tiring but a nice one cos we kept on walking in circles just to find frog leg's porridge..but i must say geylang food is reali nice, esp their frog legs..i didnt regret travelling there to eat yesterday though prices there not reali cheap compared to outside place, but was reali worthwhile..but the long walk under the sun at geylang has somehow burnt my skin cos my skin was burning red yesterday and it was painful man..heng my mum didnt saw my back getting so tanned with tan lines, if not she sure nag at me again..but of cos today morning wake up she did realised tat my hands gt darker..so she started to nag me abit liao..
ok next mon is sch reopens liao..feels abit sian liao cos gt to start mugging again..in fact i still dun have the momentum to start my engin yet..sian..this sem i am going to change my dress sense style liao..haha..so happy can wear new clothes liao..yipee ! sometimes duno why whenever i dress nicer, i tend to feel happier in mood and whenever i dress until quite cui, i feel kinda sian..i guess perhaps its pyschological effect man.. ;) and mon gonna camp for my lab and electives liao..gonna wish me luck man cos i wan to chop chop and get done with this cos its super time wasting man..
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