Monday, January 12, 2009

~i feel kinda demoralised lately~

haiz...duno why lately moral feel super low man..seems like sch haven start for long and i am already so demoralised liao..haiz..i also duno why am i so demoralised..i guess most probably it should be due to sch stuff ba or just family issues..but i guess the factors that contribute to this demoralised feel is more of sch stuff rather than family issues.cos i seriously cant be bothered abt my house stuff cos i am already so busy liao, where gt time to take care of house issues..

and today was the first day of the lab lesson..wa, i reali gt fed up when tat stupid PHD student kept on asking me to change and amend changes to my drawing when others onli did it like once or twice nia..but mine lei, almost 5 to 6 times..yes ! and i reali show tat black face liao and "throw my pencil" cos i gt reali fed up with him cos cant he just tell me wat to change all at one go meh..instead of telling me one by one..and moreover today i am kinda tired liao since the night before i slept kinda late, so naturally i dun have much patenience for him huh..moreover i made drawing most cos my my drawing quite CMI man..so naturally i gt irritated when ppl keep asking me to edit my drawing when i wan to chop chop and get done with it.

and today gt super lots of foolscap and pens man from some unknown speaker giving a talk..i think tat pen can last me for the whole 3.5yrs in NTU man cos i think my house reali can sell open a pen shop and sell pens liao..i think counting my house pens plus my office pens should have ard 100+ ba..lohz..haha..anyway the subjects tat i hate most for this sem is practically physics, maths and computing and my digital lifestyle elective ba..lohz..in fact there is onli one subject tat i enjoy now cos its the onli thing tat i am confident of doing well, which is chem ! tat digital lifestyle is super damn boring and dry man..for ppl like a computer noob like me naturally find tat the info given has overloaded me, but i guess no choice man..perhaps thinking in another light, i might learn more things abt comp stuff and gain more knowledge.. ;)

CNY is coming up soon..yeah i am looking forward to tat occasion cos i can finally recharge my "Batt" liao cos i think now my moral super low le..need some time to recharge my " Batt" to regain my confidence again..and looking forward to V day too cos i supposed NTU sure have lots of activities for valentine day too ! cos last yr i was in NTU doing some stuff and i past by tat area and i reali feel the "romantic atmosphere" in sch, so i just wonder how will this yr like..haha.. ;) hmm,..but vday wasnt very meaningful to me every yr since this special one has yet to appear..i guess probably soon in yrs to come, Vday might be a special occasion liao when tat special one has appears .. ;) but i always like to say : "lets nature take its path" and i guess this theory will still holds..

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