~i feel kinda touched~

wed evening i decided to go home le since i have been staying out of home for almost 1.5days liao..but at least i did call back home to inform my dad cos i know tat my dad surely would worry for me since i am a ger and out alone at nite..but i have no fear of being alone at nite in sch leh..perhaps i am used to being alone wherever i go..but initally i am very scared from 2-4am tat nite cos its super quiet and those guys tat are around me are already asleep and i dare not sleep lo cos like so eerie man..so until 5 plus then i cant tahan liao then decided to take a nap..but by the time those guys are already awake ! so i feel safer to sleep liao..if not i am kinda scared man of seeing weird things..haha ! then during evening tat day the moment i stepped into my house, i got scream again by my mum..damn bloody hell man..i hear liao also pissed so i just pretend that she is "Talking" to the wall and ignore her..i just cant tahan when she keep scolding me from the moment i reach home til the airport even after my brother departs..bloody hell, even my brother and dad cant stands her ! tat day before my brother departs was supposed to have our last lunch/dinner with him de, but apparently i was still outside and haven reach home.so i didnt join them for tat..so feeling bad abt it, so decided to go and send him off though i got super lots of things to do..so fork out the entire night to send him off..but i do feel very guility for coming home so late cos becos of me, his friends onli have little time to chat with him cos we reached the airport quite late...wah, and when i saw his friends, the first impression tat they give me not too bad lei..most of them are quite smart looking cos they just came from work so they were wearing those long sleeve shirt..so most of them looks kinda not bad..haha, got 1 reali not bad man..height and looks quite matched my eye candy's requirements lei.. ;) but aiya he is xiao di di to me nia since he is younger than me and moreover i think our character abit hard to match ah cos i think he likes smart girls judging from the way he carrys himself as he speaks...but guys who can speak gd english indeed is a plus point.. ;) but duno why i dun feel anything when my brother leaves us..not sad at all lei..in fact i feel nothing..i guess i have gotton used when he is always not at home de for the past 1 yr..my mum was reali sad when he leaves us cos she cried at the airport and the time she sleeps...i could sense tat my dad almost wan to drop tears liao, cos i could see his eyes quite watery..but i guess he held on to his tears..but my point of view of not being sad is becos i guess somehow as a person grows older, he cant forever stay by ur side, so sometimes must learn to let go and move on..

yesterday decided to wear something special to sch cos feel reali bored of wearing the usual same attire, so decided to wear something more "sexy" to have the jaw drop effect..haha..but hor the moment i hear comments like " wah u look like u got saggy boobs then i half sian liao but i still laugh out cos i think quite funny ;) .." of cos i didnt take the comments seriously cos i know mine isnt like wat they say lo (double confirm liao ! ), but my ger friends did help me adjust til everything looks ok..after tat i become more confident liao..but tat confidience is act out de, cos how can somehow who has airport wear out something nice.but nvm la i still wanna try out something new everytime.then yesterday lesson with my student was another wasting time session la..seriously i feel bad taking her mum's pay when she never learn much cos she talks non stop lei ! keep want-ing to drag her back from the convo but she just cant keep stop talking man..so i decided to get serious with her liao..cos i think previously all the time i am reali too nice to her already tat's why she dun listen to me...so yesterday i told tat i wan to be serious with her le..then guess wat she say to me ! she said tat even if i try to be serious, i would certainly laugh ! and damn shit i reali laugh and smile when she said tat cos she hit the bull eye's man..cos i think i reali cant have tat serious look lei..duno why i always smile and laugh nia..shit man !!! no wonder no ppl respects me in work too..everyone just me as xiao mei mei nia...even if i am angry lots of ppl say tat my expression couldnt show at all..so duno if this is something gd or bad..but anyway yesterday i tried to talk sense to her man cos i think she reali need to wake up her idea liao man..cos her bo chap attitude is reali too much..if she continue to like tat, then she forever cant progress de..though i like to take free and easy earned money, but i think on my part i still need to fufil my responsibility as a teacher..dun wan later her mum asked me how she progress then i got nothing to show her..then i would be too ashamed to stay on and teach her..

then yesterday night my dad brought bac lots of kuay again..oh man, then yesterday i ate 10 of the small green balls kuay, cos quite some time never eat liao, so tempted to eat man..so hopefully dun gain weight man..if not i sure half sian liao..so today i decided to be nice and brought those kuay for my friends to eat...hm said was it meant to be a valentime present? then i laughed out..but today the sch atmosphere wasnt as nice as last yr VDAy cos duno why the atmosphere just feel kinda dead lei..no surprised for any events in sch lei..still thought can see any havoc things lo..haha..anyway i was reali touched when my friends gave me those vday presents cos those presents tat i gotton was kinda sweet..thanks man my dearest friends ! though those presents are small but they looks reali nice and i guess its the sincerity tat counts, so i will keep them nicely in my house drawer as a mento.. ;) though this yr VDAY was nothing special , but i do think of XXX whenever this day comes cos i reali regretted for not turning up for this special occasion with him..now want also dun have liao..sometimes once u miss the chance means forever regret liao..so i must cherish the next time i have one ! i think i haven reali wake up from my idea leh..everytime will always look out for his lr whenever pass by there..maybe i guess its just too bad cos have yet to bump into him even up to now..haiz..duno when can i ever wake up my idea man !! qm qm gonna wake up liao !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yawns, tml Vday so sian lo..spend time with books nia..cos next week gt test..haiz..so sian ! but nxt next week gt 1 week holiday liao..yipee..tat time gonna recharge my "battery" man cos seriously very shagged liao..