haiz..u know what, i am seriously damn lost now..i am stuck of nowhere now duno wat to do cos duno where should i start from..argh..so fann !!!! damn it, i reali hate tat kind of feeling man..duno why i always feel so lost everytime de lei..and today tat maths test screw up made things worst..then make me even more lost and emo..aiya i just want to get out of this stressful place and go somewhere else where i can be myself and relax all i want..now i just want to be alone so tat ppl wont keep fann-ing me..tat house is forever so fann..whole day endless quarrel..now tat my brother is gone tml, i think the next target will be me le..so whenever if possible just try to stay out of house if can then i can get peace liao..so today i reali didnt went home and stayed in sch..the feeling of being in sch overnight seems not bad though my environment all guys..but i bo chap cos i doubt they will do anything to me de la. anyway its a sch..i believe they dare not try anything funny ah..
tml my brother will be gone liao..somehow i do feel abit upset though i always dun like him..duno why..maybe afterall he is still my brother.and he is gone for 5yrs..so duno how will he changed after tat..i think maybe he will become super open minded after he comes back..one yr to taiwan has changed him so much..i wonder wat 5 yrs will do to him..yawns..i got thousand and one million things to do now..duno where should i do and start from..and today i reali very demoralised over the stupid maths test liao cos tat idoitic teacher give so little time..then end up no time to think..i seriously got a shock from tat teacher cos the previous sem maths tutor tat i got was super gd..this sem math tutor reali cui until like shit lo..i guess this time i will probably fail my test man..haiz..nvm, lesson learnt..next time i must think and process my brain faster..
and last weekend also never do much stuff..spent most of the time sleeping and stonning, so wasted lots of time man..but i dun wan de lei..cos i duno why the moment i start studying and taking out my lecture notes i start stonning and sleeping halfway through.,.i spend like 3 days to study tat maths and cock up in tat test.so damn demoralised liao..then yesterday pon all the lectures and came for lab nia, and tat bloody lab report took up so much of our time, so kinda pissed doing tat report huh..then today i almost turn off for every lectures cos i reali no mood to listen..haiz..in all today is just a bad day for me..but i believe tml will be a better day ;)
haiz..i am super hungry now( For once during the night), but i dare not walk around the sch cos its so eerrie and ulu here..i think i have to drink water to satisfy my hunger then..no choice.seriously staying in hall isnt tat bad i feel..in fact can learn to be more independent..sometimes we just need to try to be more independent then we can grow up..if not moreover stuck at tat childish stage..
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