haiz i feel damn emo now man..duno why man, suddenly feels that i do nt have much friends to go out wif.seriously sometimes really feels that i need a companion man when u have no studies to keep u occupied..and i am getting seriously sicked of shopping already man..practically shop every wk and i am kinda spending lots of money on clothes, which is wasting money man ! hmmm but i cant reali find any other activities that i can do man..and i dun like buffet activities cos now i am kinda fat, so wanna cut down on food..so i try not to sugget go for buffet..and last wkday i feel damn sian la..everyday onli got 1hr work for me to do nia..then the rest of 7.5hrs sit in front of comp zhuo bo..seriously its just too boring la ! this job is seriously more slack than my ex company job..in fact if they dun wan to extend me i wont find it shocking cos hiring me is seirously wasting the sch's money when its sch holiday and there is nothing much for me to do also..
seriously 1 month of eating alone at work and emo-ing in the clinics reading magazines during lunch has somewat made me relatively quieter person..actually its not i dun wan to talk to ppl..there is no one for me to talk wif..and thur my "neighbour" is finally leaving and they had a mini celebration..although the cake seems temping but i didnt eat it cos partly i not close wif them dun wan eat their stuff, cos it doesnt look nice on my personality..and secondly although they did ask me to eat, but i declined cos abit pei seh..but i was stunned when thur my neighbour finally ask me to eat the cake, cos i thought she totally dun talk to ppl one..but yeah the ppl there kinda unfriendly la..if they wanna extend me, i also tink twice man..such a boring and unfriendly work place i also sian..i rather go out find a better working environment and get lesser pay ! at the same time i can widen my social circle..hmm this comin sem i intend to take up a cca le..hopefully my cca testinomial wont be so plain..
and ytd (sat) went for a flea market..whoo ! somewat i managed to get some cheap clothes out there..bought one off shoulder top and a jeans skirt for $13 in total..haha not bad ah, its super cheap !!! my top was $5 only and somewat the stall that i bought from, her clothes material all not bad one..of cos i will buy from her as compared to other $5 stall whose clothes material is lousier..and dawn and down there selling her clothes man..oh man, hers is freaking cheap also, and all damn nice also..but too bad her clothes all damn small man, afterall she is a model and i am rather big size..so cant wear ;( so didnt buy although there is alot of nice ones..lol if not i sure buy alot !
haiz anyway i am damn damn sian man..today decided to nuah online and do nothing..seriously there isnt much stuff for me to do..i am damn damn bored ! tmr is mon again..haiz everything starts again..i doubt i haven been happy for long alrdy after i started working this job..i have lost my smile..haiz. and i tink really no hope for me liao..wan to talk to this ly, but i dun dare at all ! forget it liao man, anyway lets nature take its course then ! if he likes me then i will be happy..if he dun like me it doesnt reali matters to me also..
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