Wednesday, June 09, 2010

~i am damn damn emo and sad now ~

let me emo my sadness over this entry abt the new job.haiz first day of work i alrdy dun like the working environement liao..first when i stepped into the workplace, i see its all 50+ old aunties and a few 30+ aunties..only one or 2 youngsters nia, but all of them sit super damn far from me and i didnt get a chance to talk to them at all sia..so yeah firstly this situation alrdy made me sian diao liao..then secondly my neighour sitting beside me totally nv bother to talk and look at me at all..she really treats me as transparent sia..all she knows is keep eating..lol, seriously i didnt know she like eating so much..and i realised she is always slacking away..supposedly perm stuff should be busy one, but i dun understand why she so free one can surf net and read newspaper during office hrs..even if i have nothing to do on first day, i alrdy tried very hard to pretend to find something to do..

thirdly, i was very pissed wif the person who keep asking me to redo my work cos her instuctions given not clear..walao i redo 3 times til i black face and kinda pissed off la..then i was quite fed up til i ask her to double check my work before printing the letter heads cos its damn hard to print esp when all the words keep eating onto the letter head..SERIOUSLY cos i do til i was damn frustrated cos the printing of the letter head is damn mafan..

and wat makes me more emo is none of them bothers to smile to me and treats me as transparent..wa lao i know i am a temp only, but at least acknowledge my presence la..at least smile to me wat..i wan to smile to them but most of them giv me tat stern look, but to bond and click wif them man..haiz haiz wat is this working environment man..i feel it sucks seriously ! so wat i am getting a high pay now, the working environment just sucks totally.. and when its lunch time everyone just go off for lunch themselves, as usual all the auntie gang will go for lunch together and talk abt auntie topics..they nv even bother to ask me if i wanna join them for lunch or nt..haiz..onli this nice malay lady say wanna show me ard the campus..but i told her i once work somewhere near before so i know the place pretty well..but yeah she is really the only one tat i feel is the nice one in the whole office..the rest just canot make it seriously la..

then mon was my first day, then ly suddenly msg me hw's my job then i was damn happy la, cos i thought at least i can have lunch wif him, but he says he is eating wif his friends, so yeah then i dun wan to join him liao cos dun wan to be extra sia and eat wif them cos its gonna be a bit weird.. then tues i was damn sleepy, but luckily i had to go lv 2 for my treatment, then i went out the office for 2.5 hrs then slack down there..seriously the atmosphere there is much much better la..then me , ly and shu yi was down there chatting..she ask me wat kinds of guys i like and ask me to rate ly in front of him..then i gav him 6.5 but ly heard it as 3..then he abit sian diao, but i tink when he heard i gave him 6.5 he smiled i tink cos i cant see his expression..but yeah tis shu yi was trying to fix us together..then i was kinda pei seh la, cos shu yi is the rumored ger wif him, but from the way they talk, i tink they dun reali like each other..hehe..then she keep asking me to rate all the guys over there, then of cos i giv tat thick eye brow guy 8 cos he is relai shuai man..he is my eye candy man..actually the guys over there is reali much much better looking than our sch guys..seriously i can feel the diff..the way they dress and talk is just totally damn diff feel.they have a special charisma which engin guys dun hav de.alright so tues after the treatment, i joined his friends for lunch and he intro me to his friends..but i relai feel abit weird lei..although the guy sitting beside me did keep talking to me, but i stil feel weird joining them cos afterall i am not their friends..so yeah at least i know ly likes wat kind of gers he likes and he likes cheese fries cos tat shu yi was saying abt his favourites then she asked me wat kind of guys i like..i say not much preferences, nice to me can alrdy..then she say we can be together cos we have common interest tat is to eat cheese fries..lol wat lame thing man..anw i tink he is not bad la, aiya should have rate him higher then perhaps more chance man..

anw i decided to take up this job cos of him de..partly to get closer to him, and partly becos of the high pay..then he keep asking me to quit the job but i bu se de, cos its not easy for me to enter this job lei and i can onli manage to jell with him for one wk nia cos after this wk he is having holidays alrdy..sad man..after this wk tink i will be more emo man wif all the old aunties.. ;( then today i wanted to jio him for lunch de, but since ytd i feel damn weird eating wif his friends so i decided not to ask him for lunch liao..so yeah i decided to walk ard the canteen hoping to bump into him..initally i didnt saw him de, then when i decided to walked bac to the office he called out for me..then he was teasing me saying tat " u reali eating alone ah?? then i give him tat sad face.." then he laughed and keeping saying to me "quit that job la !" walao i was thinking tat i joined for ur sake one man, how can i giv up this pt of time..no no no i must endure although this old ladies damn stuck up and arrogant..actually its not relai my business la, as long as they dun disturb me can alrdy.

and today one of the collegue was very angry wif another collegue then her attitude was damn bad and rude cos she scolded the F word so loudly in the office and i was totally stunned man..cos i didnt expect got ppl who is so attitude..then she say i am not going to do this shit work and she was scolding like cats and dogs..wa lao i was thinking deep inside me...i thought this place is a high class place to work in, but looks like i am totally damn wrong..her personality is just damn ah lian..and today another colleague was bitching abt other ppl on the phone and the way she talks is just damn ah lian also..wa lao seriously i duno if are they educated or nt? cos they way they speak just turns me off seriously..haiz how can i endure these kind of sucky environment...and this HR manager also damn attitude also, cos the way she "scold" ppl reali damn hurting sia..cos she was saying this colleague then the way she talk to her is reali rude la..wa lao i hear liao also cant tahan..let alone the person tat is being scolded..

haiz tmr i need to clear alot of shit work..i am damn damn shagged and lost now..cos nobody explained to me hw does things work over there,..many at times i wan to ask them de, but all of them so hao lian and fierce i reali dun dare cos is scared they tink i am an undergraduate why seems no brain one..haiz haiz..

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