~so near yet so far~

mon was their term sch holiday..so there is nothing much for me to do..seriously even when i take my own sweet time to finish my work, there is still plenty of time left for me to zhuo bo..and as usual mon i nuah at the clinics read magazines cos i have nothing much to hang ard over there.so yeah then after came bac from lunch, ly called out for me..then i abit freak out cos i thought he is suuposed to be on holiday?? yup but anyway he is here for sch project and his friend too..somewat i tink his friend is more friendlier than him..and tat's not the issue..the issue is tat damn i wear til damn cui cos i thought they sch holiday alrdy, so wont have ppl come sch one, so decided to dress down since my whole office also all old aunties, so nothing special to dress up nicely also la..so yeah tat day he has seen my cui side cos so far he have yet to seen my cui side..but tat day his attire was reali gd and i was kind of attracted by his attire on mon..i would giv him a 7 on mon..hehe but too bad, i am not telling him else it would be too obvious.sometimes i reali feel tat "i am so near yet so far.."and how should i bridge tat far-ness man, tat's the qn..cos i dun reali know much abt him.

then ytd went to watch the karate kid at PS..overall the show was not bad..hehe but i fall asleep halfway through cos i was damn shagged la...then ytd had our dinner at the douby exchange there..the food overall was not bad, and price is rather cheap and there is free refill of ice cream and drink, but i didnt reali take the drink, its more of the ic cream tat i am interested to eat..hehe...anyway ytd the movie at PS suddenly reminded me of mr A ..seriously ytd i have the sudden temptation to lie on his shoulder, not becos i like him, but rather i am kinda tired and i need something to lie on..the temptation was great cos he was sitting so close to me la..saying nt tempted to lie on the shoulder is reali a bit fake la..but then eventually i didnt la, cos i sure will stunned him..sometimes we just have to draw a line no matter hw much yearn we hopes to lie on, and i kept on telling myself to wake up my idea man..seriously i have no idea why ytd i suddenly felt tat this guy beside me is rather attractive too, esp when the tone when he talks to me saying tat" u fall asleep ah?" wa lao his tone was damn gentle la.then i was confused for a moment SERIOUSLY ..and its just ytd only..somewat the past meet up wif him i didnt felt any special thing..come on man, wat's wrong with me sia..for wat i know ytd i hope tat the guy sitting right beside me would be ly..but then like i say i am so near to him, yet so far from him..i have no idea where should i start from when he is always so busy wif sch..can u tell me how??? haiz...when i see him duno wat to talk abt, in fact i can crap more to his friends than towards him..come on qm, i duno how long can i perserve here man..the job here is just freaking damn sian and i have been sitting from morning 8am til nw and i did no work today except probably 1/2hr of updating of excel sheet and i earn 8.5 hrs pay..not bad la actually this job cos it pays u to slack..but then i have to tahan be a loner for a few mths here.. ;(