this week many things happened..most of which are really unhappy stuff..Monday took half day leave, or rather mc to SGH to visit the eye specialist for my eye..the initial plan was to do a follow up and discuss with the document which treatment should I seek for..but duno why ended up I did the electrolysis procedure on the day..It was a mini operation which lasted for half an hour..and I waited bloody long just for my turn..and doctor say that this will be the temporary solution at the moment. If the lashes grow back and touches my cornea again, I will have to do another electrolysis again or a eye lid surgery..so pray hard that the lashes wouldn't grow again cos I dun wan do the procedure again cos its really very painful.Nurses poke needles on my eye lid to numb the area so that they can poke the needle into the roots of my eyelash and zap it with current. So obviously with current, its really painful and worst, it bleed a lot !! really grouse and disgusting !! but what can I do man, I just gonna tahan the pain not having to shout out. and the good thing about the procedure is I get free mc after that...doctor ask me how many days of mc I wanted..wanted to say 3 days to cover the day itself and 2 days to rest, but when I thought of some work that was unattended for me and I am supposed to submit them to the client by tues, so I decided to be nice to the company and take 2 days leave.1 day to cover my mini operation and one day to rest.
But people are really so ungrateful ! come back office on Wednesday manager called me up for a chat..The chat in fact is some lecturing session which makes me feel stupid and dumb..he keep asking me why aren't I performing recently..i should be the one asking this back ok cos I am not doing my scope of work that I used to did in the past and sourcing crews are really not my field of expertise and I sucked at it cos I did source for them before while covering for my ex colleague when she was on leave. Come on la, am I wrong? no one teach me anything and I have to figure them myself slowly and this take time too ya ! you want 50-60 CVs in a wk..how can it be attainable for someone who has zero knowledge on this field. Please be realistic CAN !! and now you come blaming me that I have one year of experience and yet I still doesn't seems to know much..come on la, other agency also got recruiters who specialized in a different field. You don't expect me to cover all area of knowledge when even my current job scope I am still learning plus when I am hired, its agreed upon that I look for white collars crews not blue collars..now I am doing double work !! whatever la, to me I am really pissed at those comment.. don't wan promote me jiu forget le cos I dun wan to be promoted either cos I feel I have reached that level yet..but that is not the issue, I am pissed at the whole organization.. I dun like doing things basing on my feel and by guessing..This is what I am doing now to source for blue collar crews,..and when I made a mistake in giving unsuitable cvs, I get blamed..in the first place, you should ask yourself, did you provide me with the training that I always wanted..i have told them earlier that I feel that training is really very important to me. I do not want to do my work with that uncertain feeling of guessing if he is right of suitable for the opening. Hai ~ so I was angry and I really thought of what I really wanted to do in my next phrase of life as I was already thinking of tendering.. actually I longed wanted to tender but I always wanted to tender in dec after getting aws. but somehow I must be out of my mind to tender last Wednesday after I came back from my mc..my supervisor didn't want to accept my letter cos he felt that I wasn't serious about resigning and he ask me to think about it carefully again. I told him that my stand will still be the same and fri I gave the letter to him again and he accepted..i felt relieved that I have finally tendered but now what worries me is what am I going to do in my next phrase of working life..i do not want to work as recruitment consultant anymore..wanna change a new industry..got some agencies poach me but I dun wan cos I am tired of this line liao..its really very results oriented and if you don't perform well, you are out of the company ! I MUST BE CRAZY TO RESIGN NOW cos that aws could actually be used to sponse my Sydney and melbourne trip in nov ! hai but sometimes really buay tahan liao so no choice.
tues also celebrated dear bday. went to restaurant eat and nothing special happen actually..i am lousy at preparing surprise. even the present he alrdy know is a bag but I changed design last minute.the restaurant was lousy and I wont want to go back again. portion so small and charge so ex ( $34 ) for a main course..zzz
thur and fri had hair treatment and facial..seriously sometimes I really doubt can online deals stuff be purchased or not cos some really lousy to the max !! the hair treatment was damn lousy and I really doubt if the hair dresser really pass her exam or not cos the way she put the hair treatment on my hair is using bare hands !! wth usually people will use a glove and brush but she use nothing ! just dig out the treatment from the tub and apply on my hair ! sibei professional la !!
kay tmr is another working day again !! sian !!
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