actually i dont really remember what am i busy with in the whole of May..but work load has started to increase since july we are going out to schools to teach. Well, my stand is still the same. I still dun feel for teaching..or maybe i just cant teach.I took my first mc of this job on two weeks ago for my shoulder and neck pain, and also meanwhile go for acupuncture cos the western medicine are only pain killers and eating them long in the long run isnt good for the body so i shall seek the chinese aspects of the medicine to help. But problem still persists even up to now when i sit too long in front of the computer..Die, tink this illness going to stuck with me for life :( Also since i was on mc, xun bian went for an interview for the position of sourcing coordinator in the oil and gas..actually i wasnt very well prepared for the interview :( thats why even the basic company profile i said that wrongly.. once the interviewer corrected me, i knew that my chance is gone and indeed i was right. Sigh duno why that day i suddenly say the wrong things on what the company does..and since Fri = weekend le so went to enjoy like a tourist and took on the river cruise and explore the spore river..quite nice for the first time taking..haha
One of the weekend went on to enjoy at the MBS hotel. Hotel room is really small and disappointing... only fun part to me is the skypool, which i didnt use cos i didnt have my swimwear with me. but taking photos over there seems pretty nice..
life at home has been pretty bad..cant stand either my mum or brother. My brother is really a proud, arrogant shit scholar who doesnt respect his sister. Treat me like dirt and keep character is lousy shit. Owe my money that i lended out to him when he was still poor in sydney and refused to pay and because of $25 internet broadband every month come ask me for money..pls la, you are really selfish shit, you earn so much and you are the one who sign up for such expensive plans when there are cheaper plans available, and now you expect me to split equally with you. and thats not all, its $25 come on, the 10K plus that i loan out to him, i never even pester him for payment and because of such small money he keep pestering me.. I was really pissed off last weekend when he purposely changed the broadband password because i simply refuse to pay up. i seriously dun see the reason why i should pay up when he owe me 10k plus still refuse to pay me. i really dun see the logic. his $25 is peanuts compared to my 10K pls !! and i really dun like to be threatened seriously..come on, i rather get my own broadband and pay the service provider rather than letting you earn the money..you seriously pissed me off. I REALLY HATE TO BE THREATENED !! so dun think your internet is so powerful that i must be under your control.. This guy seriously has no respect for me. even when i see how he talks to his colleagues..one day he will suffer and i am really for this day to happen because he never failed before and never knew the feeling.. He will never stay so successful always. So what he is earning big bucks now. Character wise really fail horribly !! one thing for now, whenever i have goodies and lobangs, i wont share with him cos its really pointless being so nice to him because he doesnt appreciate my kind attention. Sometimes being nice to him and what i get is being threatened and calling me cheapo just because i buy cheap stuff to eat. Since you so rich, let you eat ex stuff la. i want to see how you going to spend all your savings and money and next time how you go poor.. once bitten twice shy, even next time how pathetic and poor you are, and you come begging at me again like how you did in sydney, i wont bother for you again. because this is the results of how you treat your beloved sister.
Mum wise isnt that better too. seriously cant stand her. She claims that she hated me and wants me to move out of the house as soon as possible..you think i like you also meh? i never want to go home early because the house is always like a battle field. No warmth at all and i dun even feel like having a cozy home.Everyday come home will scold this and that...peanuts problems also want to dig out and scold me but i never see her scolding my brother much.. I get angry no use cos her voice just gets louder..but when my brother gets angry, her voice just shut..what is this man, i really have no say just becos i am a person that can bully??? my bro voice is louder and whatever he says call the shots ! i really feel very unfair..mum is just baised and liked him more than me simply becos he is smarter and earned more.so she see that her future lies within my brother and not me. Whatever, sometimes i just remind her that if you want to pin hopes on him, then FINE..becos i dun see how this arrogant shit will support and take care of her next time. She is still pinning hopes on the citizenship from my brother..whatever it is, i have given up hope on both of them.. I felt that i have friends better than them who cared for me. They are the people that i looked forward sharing my woes and problems with and not them..
July will be going to sch soon. I am not looking forward to it at all cos i fear teaching and there are really conflicts between my partner and i.. Duno why she is just anal, she was saying that time that i am wasting time drafting my slides on paper rather than putting down straight into the comp..pls la who is she to question my working style.. how i want to do it is my problem, as long as i produce my slides within the deadline time. and she keep emphasizing on teamwork...she say we needa work as a team, not individual.. pls..i am really an easy going person.. is you keep finding fault and small little things that why i find it difficult to work with you..from day 1 til now, i never commented on your working slides and style, so i dont see why you want to impose your style of working and your style of presentation on me because every one has different style of teaching students. If you are not happy with my style, then i am fine.. you can wholly take over the whole lesson and i can just sit back and relax..so i dun see why she is such a difficult person to work with.. Can see she also dun gel well with other people too. always lunch alone and never mix much with other colleagues.. She mentioned one thing to me before.. she say when it comes to work, i dun care how people see me, if i find them noisy, i will move out of the room and find somewhere quieter to work in...and she really did that..ok lo, if this is what she wants, then its not my problem.. My only concern is only working hand in hand with her in July and starting from them on, our team will be dispersed and my kaki colleagues will be splited from me..i forsee myself really lonely in July. ;( We shall see !!
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