Saturday, July 19, 2014

i was awake by this scary nightmare that i dreamt between him and me

         
            Last weekend was a fruitful fun weekend with dear becos we finally went JB after so many months. However the main reason that i wanted to go JB is becos my spects broke while I was teaching L sianz but anyway I did my spects over there and manage to collect on the spot. That’s really awesome ! and the good thing is its cheap J After which we had an awesome dim sum in KSL and dear left to help out his friend with the wedding proposal while I continue my shopping in city square. That marks my wonderful weekend with shopping and eating...
            And now I have two schools to teach now sianz. But lucky one sch is co-teach so no need prepare much for lesson. And this week while I was teaching the technical class, some students ask if I am ang mo cos they say I speak with a slang..diaoz do my skin and face look ang mo?? Then the students say my English not bad..lol I smile cos duno what to reply. But I seriously duno where I get the slang from really…BFF ask me the same qn that time too..i myself dun even realised that I speak with a slang until someone tells me. But anyway these students really makes me vomit blood. I am very certain after this job I wont want to be a full time teacher..The pay seriously not worth...
          And today I was woke up at 8am by a super shocking weird dream..I was so shocked that it totally wake me up immediately when today was supposed to be weekend..it concerns BFF haiz…I hope it wont happen cos under such situation if the dream really came true I wouldn’t know what to react..what I am scared of is most of the dream that I dreamt of always come true ! Although my heart has 50% of wanting that to happen, but I must tell myself that I must draw line. Our friendship can only stop at BFF and nothing more. At times I really wonder his occasional texting with me, does it means that he is bored or could it becos its been quite some time since I last talk to him..Sometimes I just dun wan take the initiative to talk to him although I kinda free and wanna find people to talk to for entertainment. I just wanna drift away from him because this man stirs my heart L I not sure if I enjoy his company or I just find him attractive. Either that the second reason should not be coming out from me because I am attached…oh well, this dream really scared me off. Somehow duno why I have affinity with him..same month bday and he share almost the same name as my brother..perhaps in our previous lives, he could be my older brother…if not why everything is so similar with my brother now…

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