Friday, June 10, 2005

~dun wish she will end up like me~

Bin was spotted with him thrice holding hands by her mum friends and they told her mum abt it..she was forced to break up with him but bin lied to her mum tat they hav broken up but actually she didn’t..hai~~think she going to hav a hard time..hopefully both of them could overcome the obstacles and stay happily together..i seriously dun with to see the ending to be like mine..
I wished tat in the past I could tell openly to my parents abt the relationship and not being so secretive in everything..i dun like being secretive neither everytime..but I hav no other choice..becos I know tat the consequences would be like Bin;s one..so I hav to be secretive all the time..but I do know tat everyone has their tolerance level, I wont blame him for his final decisions, in fact I respect his final decisions becos every problems started out becos of me..there is no point staying together when one finds tiring to stay with me..i dun wish to force ppl to stay with me..i wan ppl to stay happy with me..anyway I got used to this emptiness and loneliess life already..for my next relation, I will bring the guy bac, if he is willing to meet my parents since my mum did mentioned something abt future bf..at least they know who I am going out with and I dun need to play "hide and seek" anymore..plus I dun wan to make the same mistake again..hopefully god can find my sec bf and he will be my last bf liao..i dun wish to be heartbroken so many times..i dun hav a strong heart to take the blow..
From next term onwards, I will change everything I hav, just as to mark a new beginning and to start afresh..
Kay nite..sleeping veri soon after I finish my stuff..

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