Monday, June 06, 2005

~my day in christ church~

was watching the love at dophin bay once i reached home..which is quite late already..tian bian has finally became a famous singer and producer zhang was so happy for wat he did for her and having seen her with such a succeful career now, he started tearing in her concert and tian bian answered his qn in her concert saying tat she decided to walk the journey alone even though it might be veri lonely..then after tat producer zhang was heartbroken and tears was rolling down his cheeks..anyway the show was so sad, almost cried when i watch this show..i wanted the ending to be they together but the girl onli treats him as an idol when he told her tat he luv her..so sad..in the end, tian bian went bac to the guy tat she met at dolphin bay where they first met..
then yh told me tat sometimes i am to straightforward liao and ended up could hurt ppl at times when i talk..hmm..but my pattern always like tat one wat..i just dun like to beat around the bush just to say one thing..but i reali hurt ppl meh??how come i didnt realised it at all..
then yh also do know tat last wk she siad something veri insulting abt me..then yh asked her not to sae me until like tat..anyway i was quite angry tat time..wa lao i will always rmb wat she saes loh..sometimes i am just a bit slow, isit wrong tat i am slow??must she sae until i duno like wat..
sat went out abt 11 and reached home abt 9.30..duno time can pass so fast outside..then initally wanted to study on the train, then this particular couples standing in front of me so the er xin..the guy is so old, fat, tall, dates a girl who is a xiao mei mei, think abt sec1 and so short..guess wat they were touching here and there, feel veri distracting to read anything instead i was watching the show..realised tat the girl like to hus the guy but the most she can onli touched him til his armpits cos she too short.,.i feel like laughing out but i control myself..so in future must find bf of the same height or either taller by abit..if not we will end up like the couple tat i see..too difficult to do anythink they wan..
kay reach the control station only got 4 ppl turn up cos last min they got something on..anyway my trip wasnt wasted..victorina and sherman changed alot..she last time during pri sch used to be so big size, now she super slim and small size..for looks think she okok onli but christ said she veri chio..i think the chio one is wan qing..she is also cute , maybe becos of her hair ba..
then we went to acs barker there, near bukit timah area..oh my god tat doesnt look like a sch loh..more like a hostel to me..there also got a big big swimming pool..canteen look more like a cafe to me..no wonder ppl always sae tat ppl over there reali rich..now i noe..has 10 dish courses and i eat until so the full..not to mention tat the host veri yan dao!!!!this is more like a church gathering..there is also a table og hwa chong guys beside us..then got to know a rew friends from different age groups..then thye were telling me abt jesus..initally i listented to thier story but later i began switching off cos i started to find it boring..i just smiled and nod my head just to entertain them..kay i seems bad..seems like christian not as boring as wat i think..yes the bible is quite boring to a certain extent but some quite meaningful..then seems like in a church can reali make lots of friends..too sayang i wasnt a christian..then i told christ tat in future got any church events can ask me go if i am free..then i accidently made a veri sensitive remark til the host said something tat they are not trying to brainwash us but they are sharing things to us abt wat they believe..after tat i was thinking..opps..i said something wrongly but christ they all didnt sae anything..
then after tat i went to christ church cos she got the key and nobody is there..so i just stayed there..somemore must wait fot tat guy to come to her church to return the things bac..while waiting, i read the bible, played the piano since nobody there..then we also chat cos no long never chat with her liao..she is my pri best friend till now i still consider her as my gd frien but difference is tat she is in poly..her course comewhere near alpha centre, if got chance to ever go there again, maybe can go there find her again..then she asked me a veri gd qn..since u area a buddhist, then who is ur gd??ya hor i also never thought of tat..seems like i onli pray just for the sake to show my mum tat i got pray..everything seems like a myth to me..so dun reali believe everything my mum saes..kay then this guy came then i opened the gate for him..then he said"u were there for the west and east rite?" then i was shocked and i asked him how he knows..then he told me tat i am wearing tat "cooking shirt" wat and he said was veri unique..then i smiled..is tat a compliment of is tat a bad thing??christ told me tat i seems to be wearing for the star awards like tat..her discription abit too kua zhang liao lah,.,she said tat attracted alot of attention..oh my god then in future i dun wan to wear it anymore cos got too much comment..then tat guy asked me wats my name..then i just introduce myself too him..but he cant get my name correctly..is my name reali tat difficult to rmb meh??hmm..tok veri easy..ppl always like to call me "qing ming jie"..then he asked me how i find the programm and abt jesus,.,then i duno how to ans cos obviously i wasnt listening to ppl talking..so i just sae "eh...then i smiled bac.." think he should know wat i trying to sae ba..
after tat went to bugis there to shop and see clothes..didnt know tat there got so much nice clothes yet cheap..in future can go there buy..anyway my legs were hurting cos i wore high heels then got blisters..aiyo in future i dun wan to wear liao until necessary..i feels like she reali nice frien..i did told her abt wat happened this yr and last yr..she said tat having been through this, u will know tat who are actually ur true friends and who are not..she asked me to kan kai dian..but reali difficult wat..not i dun wan to try but reali canot..seriously i did thought of dumping away the things from ta, since they no longer mean anything to me now..there shouldnt exist any luv between us cos we also no longer together liao..hai~~but i still cant bear to throw away eben though i always sae i wan to throw away..maybe i just need a person to help me do the job then everything can then be settled..she told me tat i am not tat quiet anymore as compared to last time..pri sch tat time i seldom even talk at all..then most i talk is less than 30 sentences in sch..horrible rite??hehe..but now at least got improvement liao..so not too bad..wondered will the dream tat i dreamt of will it ever come true??does god reali exist??if there is can they tell me in my dreams again..i reali wish to know the ans..
todae lessons veri veri bored..mind not working nowadys..was reading tat alvin account..oh my god he didicate a love message for the ger..wa sweet..wondered who is the ger..tok he veri guai one..so he is deeply in luv..ohh i see..last yr see him in mm competition doesnt look tat he this kind of pattern..kat now i know..last yr maril told me tat he kept looking at her..hmm..cant be her rite??okay i am just onli guessing..anyway it was reali sweet i think in a ger opinion..wondered wat does the number represent??isit a luv code or wat>>hmm..

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