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my mum's gd friend was chatting with me on the phone..she was asking me abt him cos she some sort know something abt him..becos my mum did tell her abt him..she was asking me abt his look whether he is handsome or not?and his height and his character, etc..she said tat she wont tell my mum abt it but i know she confirm will leak out some of the things to my mum, so some of the things i didnt tell her the truth..becos tat time my the other mum's friend also said the same thing and ended up she told my mum but luckily i didnt sae any impt things..so i learned my lesson le..i will sae onli superficial things..seriously i hope tat she will talk to my mum tat i am a grown up child liao le..there will be a day i will leave her..she cant protect her forever..she always things my guy friends are bad ppl..true, there are some, but not all..majority are not..she didnt even see my guy friends b4 and she claims tat they are bad..wat logic is tat?me and him didnt work out also partly becos of them..seriously i am veri scared to go into a relationship cos wat if the same problem surface again?i will be veri heartbroken one leh if this happens..this problem isnt easy to solve at all, cant be solve even in a day, it needs both parties to work together to solve this veri difficult obstacle..sigh..
she was saying tat i always keep quiet and keep things inside my heart..true..i assume tat ppl can understand wat i feels and think..but she sae tat i need to speak out so tat ppl will know wat i am thinking cos not all ppl will know wat i am thinking unless they are my close friends..but i am always like tat, cant sae want to change means can change liao..after all it will take alot of time to change..
tues went to shape my eyebrows cos just want to try try..never shape it before..the person use traitional method, she use the string to make the shape and its just veri amazing considering its just a string..seriously its not easy to ding ppl using traditional ways to shape the eyebrows and make the face smoother..anyway all auntie sae not pain but i think super pain lohz..cheat my feelings sia..i keep ouching cos its just veri pain..i didnt want to make the eyebrows until so fine cos just scared tat it will be veri ugly like some ppl i seen..so i choose to make my eyebrows thicker..anyway there isnt much difference, except it looks neater now..they sae fine eyebrows look sexy but to me it makes no diff..they are still eyebrows..
my mum went to dental just to do polishing and do filling on a tooth and it cost $60..oh my god, its just so ex man and she sae consider cheap liao le..seriously i dun know the market price of doing these services cos i always do these for free..i always feel veri happy after they help me polish my teeth cos my teeth wont look so yellow..then i will smile more radiantly cos no more yellow teeth..hehe..to me, having a white teeth is impt ..duno why ..maybe it makes a difference to a person..
i have been wanting to poke ear hole ever since sec sch..i duno sae how many times liao still haven poke yet..haha..actually last yr i did went into the shop going to poke already but ended up i change my mind and decided to leave the shop cos i just have no guts plus i scared pain..haha..maybe i after A levels i will still consider want to poke again or not..
this few days cant sleep well and its all becos my mum and brother keep quarrelling and they disturb my sleep..my mum will purposely switch on the stupid buddha song until super loud so tat he will wake up and in turn i also wake up..its so annoying..she wanted to take revenge on my brother and it seems like both of us kana..and i am veri sick of listening the buddha song everyday..its just like listening to the song in funeral..she sae tat listen to tat song will bring fortune and gd health..i was saeing her tat if like tat everyone will be rich liao loh..this is just puer supertistious..next week is going out week..got chalet and concert to attend..she sae tat her friends are performing..i guess it must be something to do with church..maybe they are celebrating for the last time b4 they move ba..seriously i feel veri sian in this holiday..hw, hw and hw, this is stupid!!!!why cant i study hard last yr and get promoted last yr, then like tat i will be enjoying this yr liao loh..sigh..my other friends who are most of them in jj still tok i am enjoying life now..but sad to sae its not..i still to suffer in this sch for another a yr..sigh...i abit regret why so slack last yr..todae the sch is super ulu..so far i onli see 2 students..actually i came sch becos i got something to do if not i wont not travel so fast for cca..i abit sian of cca liao..feel like quitting and concentrate on studies..later will be going to tanu house to get some stuff from her..