dad made an effort to celebrate my belated birthday by treating us to eat outside..initally dun feel like going cos too many things haven do, this and tat also never do..just dun feel like going out..i am seriously veri tired..i always got no time to do tutorials and revise my work during the weekends just becos every week got weekly test..and becos of tat many things are jammed up..i feel tat this weekly test is reali over liao loh.,.i feel tat the tests are reali too much compared to j1..in j1, i still got time to do tutorials and take my own sweet time ..now not at all, and i have cut down time on going online..results reali veri bad, mostly AO for all subjects and the weekly test for phy and chem also fail..sigh..actually failing now seems normal to me..dun reali feel sad now, whenever i fail a test becos i am used to it le..guess wat the chem paper got 8/42..ya man, felt so "proud" of myself getting such "gd" results..but the funniest part is i am not the lowest, which i find it weird cos i am already the lousiest in class..of cos mum scolded me alot when she asked abt the results..ya, but wat to do, i just keep quiet and let her scold all she wants..i understand the worry tat she faced, but i am worried too just like her..just tat i dun show..i am scared tat i am not able to go uni and if tat's the case i will have to work extra hard to earn to pay to go private uni, which i dun think i can afford it given our current situation..sometimes i feel tat my parents have made the wrong choice by sending me to go jc..cos they insist tat i canot go poly..becos they have the mentality tat poly students are the louier one, but tat's not the case..
somehow i stil feel disappointed over someone..i guess i still haven gotten over it, reali a bit sad..sigh..wanted to make the move but i am scared tat things will be out to be ugly..to sae the truth, its a bit upset up to now..duno why either..
felt bad when the 3 gers spent quite a lot on my present..think tat they shouldnt buy the lip gloss for me cos i have 4 tubes at home le and i haven even one tube, now got extra one more..duno when can i finish using it man..maybe in future can buy other things for me like mascara, eye lashes or some other stuff tat i dun reali have much..cos think when i going to work will intend to buy all those..
and i think the G string is useless for now cos i intend to keep it til i am much older..
tues went bac to fhs becos i was sa bo by yh and ms ang pls me to go there to help her get bac her dance fans..think they want to save on the taxi fare cos no one knows how to go fhs except me cos i come from there obviously..things still remains the same..mot of the teachers are changed and mostly all grow fatter..teachers who used to taught me cant recoginise me, so didnt reali bother to call them..duno how to face them also for retaining..went bac to look at mm room..it was all locked and close..duno why either, whereas the robotics room is veri happening, full of ppl ..luckily didnt see mr ling..pricincipal also came bac tat day , duno for wat reasons when he is no longer fhs principal anymore..luckily didnt see him also becos i also wuno how should i face him if he sees me cos he knows me as the "Indonesian ger"
talking abt mm, i think i learned quite a bit from there..at least i know how capacitor looks like and how it works..last time used to thought why must have the blue fat thing on the circuit board..kay now i know, it uses is to discharge current when the battery runs flat..and last time they used to use the black chip for burning programs using competition, now i know tat it has a name..and gd thing i learn how to solder things which its not veri easy..i always like to play with the flux and waste the sch resources..
todae veri sick seh, cough, flu and sore throat..todae i got a sexy voice sia..think yeterday i eat too much chili liao when i know i am already starting to have sore throat, took 2 small bowls of chili..yh sae i siao seh, but i like to eat chili, cant control the day without chili..
tml is parent meeting session seh, scared seh cos duno wat teachers will sae abt me..
my relatives just came to singpore, ya man, they super rich lah..spent money as if water..they gave my mum a colour hp with radio but no camera, but i think the phone will be mine in future cos she also duno how to use..these few days mum not at home til late nite abt 11, felt so shoik cos no one to nag me.. sick and more sick. throat feels veri uncomfortable..must blame on me for eating the whole packet of oreo without drinking water after tat..
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