~the parent meetin session~

sat veri sick, with a slight fever and iw as in sch waiting for the parent meetin session..wanted to go home and not turn up for the session cos i am just too tired becos of the medicatioin but both my parents insist tat i must go..but seriously i dun see why i must be present loh becos i will just be there stoning and keeping quiet becos i am veri sian to hear the same things over and over again for 2 yrs le..my mum always ask the same things and teachers will always give some standard ans tat i can even predict myself..so i see no pt in going and as if i go for the interaction between teachers and parents, my results will be gd and improve..no rite?all these reali have to depend on urself and nobody can help u unless u help urself..
overall the session was a bad ending, cried practically in front of all teachers and after everything ends i also hide inside to cry..duno why either, maybe i just feel veri pressurized and my mum keep giving me lots of pressure..both ms lim and mr sim feels tat my mum is giving me lots of pressure..duno how they know also, but its true..wat they need to do is to encourage me rather than giving me more pressure..mr sim saes tat i set high standard for myself..actually wat he sae is true to a certain extend..last yr i reali set high standard for myself but this yr i set my targets lower le..they told me tat my learning attitude is ok..its becos i retained once b4..so i know how failure is like, so i tell myself tat i musnt fail again so i started to piah last yr..i learned my lesson liao..once a failure doesnt mean a failure, as long as u are determined, one day or so, there will be a day tat u will be succeful..ppl who never experience failure will never felt the pain and understand wat i am truely wanted to sae..oftenly, they take many things for granted..duno why it seems to me tat mr sim seems veri no patience to talk to my mum..maybe he finds my mum too kiasu and naggy le..even i cant stand it man..both yh and me also cried in front of the teachers tat;s like so qiao cos didnt except ppl to cry except me, cos i cry veri easily..but i think her situtaion is worst than mine..duno why i totally not close with my parents at all..i see other ppl so close with their parents but not me,,.mum onli cares abt results..whole day onli ask abt this until i veri "FAnn" of it..she never ask personal qns b4..but dad wise also seldom talk , but he is the more understanding one, he dun reali give pressure..all he asks is i do my best can le..so veri often, i live in my own paradies..usually talk abt personal preoblems to friends tahter than parents and this relai shows how "Close" i am with them..
my worry tat i am facing now is i scared i canot make it for my gp..so far, this 2.5 yr, hardly make it for any tests and exams..teacher sae onli A,A, A then can get higher chance of going to uni if fail gp..if all Bs, then veri little chance liao..but do u think its possible??NO..worried seh..