~weekly update~

Relationship with my brother is reali bad..we always quarrel last week..duno why I and him totally not close at all..i find him veir immatured..this and that also want to complain to my mum and one thing is tat I dun like his character..always like to see ppl msg without their permission..sometimes, I find tat some of the guys tat I know is the same pattern as my brother, so immatured..but wat to do??they are still young, cant blame them for so imatured..
Somehow I feel guilty when mr chua scold us in class on mon for doing badly for the weekly test..he scolded ppl who never put in effort and leave a lot of blanks..duno why if he is referring to me or not becos I leave 2 page blanks cos I just dun hav the time to finish..life is getting more and more sian day by day..every week also got test..sometimes up to 2 or 3, dying soon cos I cant catch a breather..then my chem. Now so lousy, couldn’t even get the fundamental for organic chem. Right, duno how am I going to proceed on also..
Tues ran 2.4km continuously ..6 rounds track without stopping much cos it’s a test mah..(NAFA)..time clocked was 15.40min..quite qi ji tat tat day cos run quite fast considering nomally I always the last few runners and the normal timing clocked was 17 min something..maybe normally I am just lazy to run fast cos I slack a lot in pe lesson esp during running..but weekend normally got go running cos I am motivated to have slim legs so must be more hardworking abit to train to have nicer legs..i yearn to have pretty babe legs’ she..CT period was a chit chat with our buddy..we talked abt our problems faced and I was told tat my greatest problem is tat I lacked confidence and many times I am veri blur..yes, in fact many ppl have told me already b4, but nothing much can I do to raise my confidence level up to now..still as pei seh as ever..
Quite glad to hear tat J wanted to treat me a meal on the day b4 14/4 becos at least he rmbs as a friend..haha..it’s not the meal tat matters..as long one is sincere then I will be veri happy le..gifts not reali impt to me, sincerity counts a lot..wed after cca was reali a surprise for me..initally just thought tat will be going home together with her, but duno why suddenly pops out an anjana and out of a sudden there is a cake..anyway I always kana “cheated” by her sec time liao..but I guess this is her way of making a surprise for me..anyway I was quite touched and happy lah becos this is the sec time my friends celebrated with me and since young my parents never celebrated with me b4 except one yr when I was veri veri young and to be exact, this is the 3rd cake I receive so far starting from the day I am born..abit pathertic, but never mind cos I am used to it already..tat’s why whenever ppl celebrate with me, I will feel veri happy..duno why either leh, maybe since young parents dun celebrate birthday with me and I find tat never got a chance to be a birthday ger..actually I also hope tat my mother will have party or anything but I know she confirm will not want given her character..
Thur , me and ger 1 was asked to meet ms lim to have a talk..ya, it was regarding the drastic drop in results from j1 to j2..somehow I feel guilty after talking to her..she feel tat we should start having the urgency for “A” levels le , but somehow I still dun feel tat..there is half a yr more..seems veri long to me..but one thing I know tat time flies veri fast without u reaslising..
The present from the 3 of them was reali an “Interesting” gift..first time receive such gifts and it was an undergarment and some make up stuff..hehe..duno who thought of tat idea man..actually dun need to see I also know liao, its her loh..anyway its not exactly a G-string, duno wat is it called either but dun think this will come handy now, maybe perhaps when I am older then will have more value in wearing it..haha..anyway wont deny its nice lah..but still I wont wear it now..
Week ahead is more stressful cos I got 3 tests in a week..sigh..tired and tired..duno why I feel disappointed abt tat thing..i guess wat I hope for wont reali happen ba..but I reali hope tat there will be miracle..