Friday, April 07, 2006

~a week of update~

lim is coming bac, how arh? somehow i feel tat i still dun wan to stay in tat class leh..not tat classmates not gd, its the teacher tat i couldnt adapt to..todae chem test comfirm plus guarantee chalk will get an F cos half the paper leave blank cos i got no time to see the qns at all..and those tat i got do, ans is mostly wrong so can prepare to fail badly..somemore, i onli studied the day b4 the test, can hardly rmb the facts cos i slept onli a little bit..but bo bian cos at least i studied study, i dun wan to let myself down when actually i know and i never study..at least i can tell myself tat i got study but blame it tat i am not smart to solve the qns..how arh??seriously worried how will be my future be shaped and pathed..A level is still abt half a yr more to go, veri fast in a blink half a yr will come le, without u realising it..just like four months has gone in j2..hard to believe but yes it is...days have been reali busy, hardly got time for myself to enjoy myelf..no time to watch tv and sleep..whole day are just busy with test and exams and tutorials..others?nothing at all..i long time never go out with friends le ever since last yr..whole day is study and study..so tired and irritated already..reali no life at all..last yr at least not so bad, still got time to relax, now not at all..sometimes time to eat in sch also dun hav, just to rush out my hw..I AM REALI SICK OF IT LE!!!!!!!!!!
thinking of it to be exact its 1 yr le..so fast sia..this 1 yr didnt reali happen anything great, sometimes quite upset over things..but never mind, hope tat things will change for the better..and the 3 wishes tat i hope for the upcoming yr...hopefully things will be in a gd light and i will be veri happy le..todae kq mentioned something abt my hatch day to them and i find it weird and pei seh..haha..duno why either..qm is always so shy..hehe..and lately have a new eye candy le..realised tat he is another ye xiang, always like to pluck his moutache or watever u call it or small hair on the chin..i always laugh secretly when i saw tat..yh also saw tat and i think tat time he saw tat, opps...laughing at ppl kana caught..he look super blur and quite cute to a certain extent..abit boy boy arh..duno why the type of guys tat i see is boi boi kind, haha, maybe i deprived of childhood and like small little boy..hehe..but he abit short seh..i have been looking up for JT ex classmate, tjio..duno why i quite admired him leh when i am in jj..went to look at his picts, the new tjio tat i see no longer look guai to me anymore..can see tat he go clubbing veri often...the MOS..
happened to see wan yi online and she talk to me..sometimes friends reali need to contact with each other..i asked ant maril and yi hui results and maril failed for gp and duno if she is repeating her j2 or not..sigh..i feel worried for her too..and i am also worried for myself cos my gp also super lousy..her english so gd and failed then me will be even worst..sigh..i guess she must be veri sad ba..if i am her, i also canot take it..i guess this is the worst setback for me ba..but one reali need to have a setback once then u will truly understand how to treasure things more..just like me..i take more pride in my studies now as compared to the past when i dun even care at all..
lately ppl have been calling me qm, which i find it weird cos seldom ppl call me tat..ok last tues went to the nite lect from 7 to 9pm..reach home reali late le..i am still considering if i want to go or not..see her mushroom hair reali make me feel like laughing at her sia..anyway enough of tat..
last week also happen something happening..the family dispute is back again..last sun came a letter from singtel asking my dad to pay the phone bills which cost abt $300 0ver cos my dad used to be one of the partnership in the past..mum is just seriously angry cos she sees no reason why she should pay..i dun understadn why my tat uncle is so irresponsible arh..why must he push all the debts to others when he is the one who owe ppl and disappear after tat..wat is this man?he is happy when he wins in the court and my dad lose, but wat do he gain now..wife leaves him after cheating his money, no children to take care of him when he is old and he still owes ppl lots of debts..all the precious things tat are built from my grandma are gone just becos of him..becos he gambled all the money away..
sigh..this week end reali got alot alot of things to do, can hardly take a breathe..got lots of tutorials to do and it seems tat long time i never touch le..yawans..

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