Thursday, July 20, 2006

The feeling of very lost..

my blog has unknownlingly has music when the weird part is i duno even know how to insert music into my blog.and duno how come suddenly has jiang nara song in it..weird...
what am i gd at? haha..ans is daoing ppl.mr heng tat day was saying tat this ger doesnt seems to recognise me after i never teach her..i was down there smiling away..ya, i admit tat sometimes i do dao him cos duno wat should i sae to him..but this onli happens to some ppl onli..doesnt apply to all..ppl tat i got talk to, i will usually wont dao them..the minimum tat i will give them is a smile..seldom will i forget my friends faces, but names sometimes will..the mm guy was quite happy when i added him becos he thought tat all along i forgot him liao but atcually no lah..i was just pei seh to look at him in the past cos of wat they sae..so i pretended tat i duno him all along..sometimes just want to fake innocent tat i duno him..
tues was at giant shopping for bread..happen to saw zay ya so decided to sae a hi to him since he didnt saw me..yup, he changed alot, became a little matured after yrs od didnt see each other..somehow i feel tat he has became a totally different person..tat day it was nice of him to pei me walk the long route when his house is just nearby..
he said tat i have become more naughty..hmm..should i take it as a compliment??Haha..hmm..anyway i told him tat the past qm and the current qm are no longer the same..and the smart and hardworking qm no longer exist and the current qm is stupid and lazy..actually i myself do realised tat i have changed over the yr..somehow after the talk with him, i do feel the anxiety for the A levels..he is piahing veri hard now, i think tat i should reali start working hard now..slightly 3 more months to A levels and less than 1 month to prelim..and everything shall be over ..nobody could actually believe tat i actually retained when in the past in sec sch, i was the top few stduents in calss..but we are both the same, play too much and didnt study tat why retained..
he even has a driving licence now and he was asking me if i have one..hmm..i shall consider if i want to have one after my A levels..seriously i got lot of things to fo after my A levels..
got bac my results slip recently..bad until duno like some shit..seriously i got too much things to start with until i duno where should i start from..sigh..the next few months will be a tough period of me to go through..mum was more and more worried day by day and she was saying tat i must be mentally prepared tat i canot go uni and be prepared tat i need to go a private uni..sigh..i kept quiet..seriously currently i am undergoing alot of stress when u feel tat alot of things u still duno..the feeling of being lost in a big sea is indeed a difficult task tat i need to overcome now..sigh...work is getting more day by day.. and i can hardly finished when most of the time i am veri tired after reaching home..sigh..ms lim sae tat sometimes its gd to let go and not to hold on too tightly..but somehow letting go abit do makes me feel a bit guilty when i am thinking tat i have so much hw to work and yet i am still using the comp..

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