if u like him, just let him go and u shall just watch him secretly and pray tat everything for him will be going smoothly..yes, i shall just do tat, but heart wise not ready to let go though time has past veri long..had the sec sexually edu, someone sae tat luv is abt being there for another..somehow it sounds veri familiar to me cos he did sae this once b4..likewise the video clip also mention something tat he once sae b4..i was wondering does adults think alike>?how come their thoughts just seems to be the same..hmm..anyway among all the guys i like b4, i guess he is the one whom i have the greatest feeling for..the rest didnt reali have much chance to know them better as a whole..maybe tat explains why heart still not ready to let go..
seriously i never seen such attitude teacher b4..initally i still pity him for being handicapped but later i changed my mind..in fact, i think he deserve it..he sae me until duno like wat..even yh who was down there was angry with wat he sae and he is just being unreasonable and showing me attitude..kay FINE, i wont argue with him since he is a teacher and i shall give him some respect..initally i reali want to cry liao cos he sae me until like some downgraded shit..kay, i didnt retaliate and just sat down there quietly..yh sae tat i should have sae bac instead of keeping quiet becos he is just unreasonable plus it just shows tat i am someone nice to bully..he asked me to hurry the person to send me the income tax slip for 2006 when it is a govt thing and he is saeing as if my dad is the one in charge of the income tax, which something can be hurried..i just feel tat he is just being unreasonable plus he is not fit to be a teacher when his attitude is so bad towards students..no wonder so many students dun like him..the angriest part is tat i made every effort to search for him everyday when everytime he is not around and he saes tat i didnt even bother to look for him..
friendship between us has somehow became further and further away..duno why either..but somehow became closer to the 2 guys. at least we talk more to them now, and got share more things abt one another now..
todae look for mdm ho to talk..wanted her to move me and yh out of her class and she agreed but the head saes canot so bo bian must stay in her class for the rest of 4 months..sigh..duno leh, i just want to get out of her class cos somehow i feel we have different frequency and watever she saes i also dun understand..sigh..wat am i going to do..she said something like for my case, the most i can get is D or E..then she added tat if i work super hard now then the most i can get is C..sigh..was veri hurt when i heard tat..going to cry le, but never..
later in the afternoon went to chat with ms lim..ya she is the nicest teacher i ever seen..talk abt our inner feelings now..somehow both of us cried when we are talking halfway through..duno leh, somehow i feel my heart veri tight..need to release some tension by crying..its been long since i last cry..maybe i need to do some reflections of myself..
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