adults dun like ppl to sae " go and die lah" and i often used tat but i dun literally meant tat way and i have no intention to curse the person..mum was saeing me cos i was scolding her some time ago and i did noted tat he did told me once before tat this phrase seems like u are cursing the person to die and he dun like it..hmmm..somehow i have been saying this for many yrs le..want to change also difficult..
many of my dad's friend has passed away one by one due to cancer..somehow i feel tat cancer is a deadly illness and u may leave the world anytime without any signaling to ur family memebers..somehow i think tat the most pitiful is their children..they have no one to earn for them and they need to start everything from scratch despite the emotional pain tat they need to dace..tat egg seller uncle was quite nice to my dad in the past, then now he passed away..somehow feel abit upset for him..seeing him like tat makes me feel tat we should reali cherish wat we have when they are still around..sometimes see my dad so old liao still must work for us, reali pity him..moreover he got alot of health problems plus he is going to the mid 60s soon..so abit scared and worried for him..whereas for mum, she is still tat energetic, cant be reali bothered abt her..anyway she still got lots of enegry to scold ppl..
lately have been feeling quite happy..no idea why also but indeed seeing "Her" sometimes do makes me feel happier,..past few days reali scared to ask qn cos later teachers will sae so simple also duno..andi scared teachers dun understand wat i am asking cos many at times they dun understand wat i asking and i am not gd at conveying wat i want to ask..somehow i feel tat asking friends is better cos most of them understand wat i am talking abt..duno lah, maybe teachers' frequency and my frequency different..
now i think must abit thick skin to clarify my doubts le..if not like tat confrim A levels canot do well..at most get a scolding from them if i am reali too stupid to understand wat they are trying to explain..sian~~~
prelim is just less than 2 weeks and i haven even started revision yet..stress...yet every day i sleep automatically at 10..die seh, like tat duno how can finish my revision..now even hardly got time to go online..
look forward to the prom nite which is going to be held in dec..venue not confirm yet but most prob i am going..
hai~going home to study again..sian wat a life i have..
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