last wed was V day and when i stepped out of NTU, saw lot of ppl setting up stalls selling clothes and V day stuff..quite cheap, but i dun dare go there see cos pei seh la..somemore the person who sell the clothes is a guy leh.anyway tat day the sch was filled with valentine atmosphere..i could feel tat happy occasion..
last fri went to buy last min CNY goods, damn cheap la, cos last day before they pack up for the CNY..Sat went to chinatown to count down for chinese new yr.again its damn cheap after 12 midnite cos everyone try to clear their stock liao.$1 for just a bottle of cookies..haha, bought alot since its damn cheap.seriously i think those ppl are smart lah, they come after 12 cos they know things will be damn cheap after tat..next yr i shall stay after 12 to help them clear stock..haha..yup, tat day also saw fireworks,quite nice..a pity dun hav a bf, haha, else it would be quite nice de.. tat day also saw an actress, zeng xiao ying.she quite tall and i notice her cos she was wearing damn red and her hair was like some lion king hair style, those explosion type of hair style, tat's why i notice her.she was talking inside the crowd and indeed it is super squeesy la..i was sweating like mad.. and before we go chinatown, went to my dad's friend house to visit him.got $20 as ang bao.consider not bad liao cos last time when i am small tat time onli got like $2 or $4 as ang bao..
sunday got ppl give hamper, seems quite ex cos got XO wine and bird nest..but think it wont have any use to me cos i cant drink the wine cos i dun like to drink..he also give bah gua, super nice since long time since i last ate it, but its super fatting, so lately everyday i have been exercising alot so can burn out all my fats..this yr, in all i got $50 in all for ang bao..$20 from parents and $30 from dad's friend, quite pathetic indeed..but better than nothing cos lately dun have money to spend..moreover i dun go visiting, got $50 consider not bad le..so sun, mon, tues and wed stayed at home to watch tv since there is nothing for me to do and moreover now got the SCV preview, got alot of nice shows man..everyday i watch til 2 to 3am then sleep..super pro man..and i wake up at 10.30am the next morning..its seems tat lately i am gaining weight cos i eat alot of bah gua, oh man..time to slim down le !!
reunion was quite sucky la..actually it wasnt like a reunion dinner la, everyone dun eat togther de and everyone eat at a different timing..food taste reali bad cos mum dun wan to heat up the food liao cos she sae alot of work to heat up the food.sometimes i feel like we are not a family at all la, cos we dun stay unitied at all and i dun feel the warmth at home..sigh..-shake head-
tues my brother went bac to army, ate curry fish head, quite nice but not exactly cheap cos they jack up the price cos new yr mah..suddenly felt so nice to eat the curry fish head cos its been yrs since i last eat tat..seriously i was quite happy tat my friends got send my CNY greetings, duno why le, at least i do feel some warmth, somehow i feel tat i am not alone.i could still feel tat friends still rmb me de..haha...
my idol, wu zun got tatoo..sigh, abit disappointed cos i got a perfect image for him and tat tatoo spoils everything..but eventually i still like him lah cos he sooooo cute and shuai la, esp in tat hua yang shao nan shao nu..oh my god, everyday i will confirm watch tat show de..duno why i dun like guys wit tatoo cos they juz seems ah beng to me or loan sharks, whichever la..
thur went to do my passport since it has expired, $80 man, to me i think its quite ex la..tat amt i can actually buy lots of things wit it..but bo bian need to do juz in case i wan to go johor..
sometimes i am thinking if am i reali tat dumb and useless tat no one wans to hire me..cos my mum always sae tat..at times i do feel dejected cos i feel tat i am reali stupid, else, i wont also be a retainee..tat time i was so dishearted tat i told myself tat i dun wan find job anymore cos i spend so much effort to find but juz canot find, so i took 1 wk break during the CNY, spend the time to watch tv instead of looking for jobs.
somehow i feel tat i become more depressed lately..duno why also, i snap at ppl veri easily, esp my mum..last time used to be veri happy de, always smile and laugh the whole day, but ever since i have been copping at home, things have gone bad..mood swing veri easily and i am always in a foul mood..not to mention tat results might be out this fri, this further made me more worried and scared, in fact added more strain to me..
wanted to ask him out for dinner or lunch during the weekend with cm togther since me and cm was talking abt them.but it seems tat both cm and i are disappointed tat they never reply..they didnt know i got ask them out, juz tat i told cm not to mention my name tat i sugested it..seriously i have no motive at all , just purely wan to go out eat onli mah..why is it tat they are so scared of us de..hmm..dun understand..anyway i dun hope any thing in return also la cos i know its not possible and moreover i wont wan someone like his age again cos i have been hurt once and i wont wan myself to sink into despair and sadness again becos of huge obstacles tat need to be overcomed..i have little liking for him onli but i believe this wont last long either cos i have forgotten how he looks, just rmb his thick eyebrows and his fierce look..
sat have piano lessons, not again man..sian..tat mother of mine is so fann, cant hope to move out of my house soon..gosh, results are coming out reali soon..so scared, hope i will overcome my troubles..this time if i dun do well, i need to suffer the pain myself le, not like last time there is someone to lean on his shoulder to cry on..parents cant help either, at most they juz nag and fann u..
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