~afterall i still cant escape the principal eyes..~

few days bac went to the canteen to eat with my friend..so i saw tat principal, wanted to siam, but it seems tat she saw me liao..so she asked me how am i?? why is it tat she always ask me the same question whenever she sees me man..so i say ok loh then smile bac..then she say "jiayou.."i think she is quite nice, just duno why some students dun like her..hmm..the students always sae she damn traditional, but i feel thinking wise not tat traditional lah..

few days bac also sat down to talk with the drink stall uncle for the first time..actually he quite nice to talk to ah..i am quite surprise tat he still remember me as i the honeydue girl..he said tat i am a veri weird person cos whenever i buy things from him, after tat i dun look at ppl de and it seems tat i look veri dao so he didnt talk to me..chey actually i am not dao one loh..i didnt want to talk cos he is a stranger to me mah, cant expect me to chat with a stranger when i dun even know u tat well wat..then yesterday also took class pict for the teacher's day, kinda tiring after taking so many shots..of cos some pose tat my classmates tat they made are quite funny...then my chem teacher also told me yesterday tat nobody pass chem among the 6 ppl who take the old syllabus..all F except me who get AO..so he was laughing out when he said tat..haha, he is implying tat the results are too unbelievable until he laugh or wat??anyway cant be blamed for such results cos time reali too little liao and moreover its such a killer paper, so its not surprising tat we got this kind of results.. gp this time still F, but got some improvement compared to the previous time..i am just short of tat 1 mark to get an AO for gp..and its makes the results slip so ugly lah with tat F..the rest of the 2 subjects still not bad..at least still worth mentioning..

tml is celebration for teacher's day..haha..i shall try to look out for idol still its been a long long time since i last seen him and i am just curious wat is he selling tml..haha..maybe i will visit his stall if i happen to pass by..

~prelims are over~

prelims are finally over...yeh!! something which i dun feel this yr is tat i dun feel tat lost anymore as compared to last yr..i remembered last yr at this time i was feeling totally lost cos it seems tat i duno most of my stuff yet, ended up crying most of the time due to the heavy stress tat i have to endure by myself..of cos this yr duno why such feelings no longer exist anymore..perhaps this yr i have more confidence to take A levels le..
my brother was saying to us tat probably he has a high chance to be send to taiwan for training and onli one person will be selected to go for this trip and this time it will be representing singapore..and he said tat if he were to be selected then he will be gone for a yr, so he asked if i will miss him??i told him i will onli miss u when i need to consult u on my studies..haha..actually i duno lah, probably i will miss the noise tat he made at home..=( but the cool thing is family memebers can get a free trip to taiwan to visit him..wah tat's cool cos i never been to taiwan before and i heard things over there are cheap and u can shop like mad..
one of the sch teachers said the past few days tat A levels is a test of diligence, but i beg to defer cos i think its a test of intelligence and diligence..nevertheless still have to do well despite wether is it a test of diligence or intelligence..todae i am going to be a hairdresser for my mum cos i am helping her to dye her white hair..haha i think i like to help ppl dye hair than to study..wat's the use of studying when i dun see the use of any applications tat i have studied before..hai~Sian man..tml having lessons again..

~i feel touched by her words~

last fri when i was walking towards the bus interchange to take a bus home, then halfway through agnes saw me but i didnt saw her so she called out for me..so chatted for quite a long time before heading for home..we talked abt how's life in uni for her and my classmates tat have manage to go NTU...she feels tat uni is more of independent learning and not as spoon feed as before in jc..yup, my close friend is struggling with her course cos she have never taken econs before..from wat my friend describe uni life as, i reali feel like entering and studying in uni seems to me like a nightmare cos they sae tat tutorials and lectures are quite useless so have to depend on ur own to do research to gain further understanding, but duno is it true or not lah..wait til i can enter uni then i shall see for myself..but something i do believe tat its not easy to survive in uni..but i am kinda touched by her words cos she say " we will be waiting for u over here..(refering to NTU) " yup i am also not tat confident tat i can do well enough to step into the entrance of local uni cos i am scared off by the physics paper last yr when the style and type of questioning has changed drastically..but nevertheless i will still give my best shot this time round though i am not tat confident..
my dad was telling me the last few days tat my cousin was kinda ostracized in class cos she is a repeat student, having to come bac sch to repeat jc2..they feel tat having a repeat student around in class just spoil the whole environment for studying and they sae tat all repeat students are stupid..but seriously as a repeat student i dun feel likewise cos not all are stupid lah..there are some who are lazy to study and just refuse to work..of cos its unhappy to hear such comments but i guess it's the usual stereotype tat ppl will give to a repeat student so i wont reali take it to hard..of cos if u want to proof them wrong then just work reali work and make sure they become speechless to comment..dun ever give up just on watever they commented cos its still not the end of the day and there is still a long journey to go..
lately my dad has been playing in the stock market since its a gd time to play since the shares are reali cheap to buy for duno wat reason..maybe there is some crisis or watever lah..so i decided to chip in a bit since the previous time i earn $300 within a few days..but this time round not so lucky man..i almost lost abit of the money tat i chip in cos the shares just seems to be not going up..damn shity lah..but seriously i think its best not too invest too much money cos this kind of things are reali unpredictable and dangerous to play of u dun have the capital..maybe at one moment u can win alot of money but if u are on the unlucky side, then u can end up homeless after losing all ur hard earned money..so moral of story is not to play with large amt then u wont die so terribly..
i have finally survived through this week cos the mission impossible has become possible =)..yup, it seems tat this week everyday have been sleeping for 3 hrs onli so i am kinda drained out already..generally i can do much more questions compared to last yr..thinking of how i did last yr, i think its kind of reali pathetic man..but that chemistry paper is a killer paper lah..they so niao with the time when they give us so many questions to solve..it is mission impossible to finish wat..dun think i can score in prelims but probably not towards the failing range (except for gp)..maybe just not doing tat well ba..lately i have been mesmerizing a teacher's figure..haha, duno wat am i doing also..instead of coming to sch to study seriously, ended up looking at tat teacher's figure..but reali cant be helped !! cos it seems tat everyday i bump into him de leh..i dun wan to look also canot..haha, i think my behaviour is getting from bad to worst man..
i am left with 2 months now...after nuahing for this few days i must have sure tat i must study hard and after end of nov i will play reali hard..yesterday mum was calculating how much she spent on my piano fees and indeed its not cheap ah considering the money is gd enough to play in a stock market..she was kinda disappointed tat my failed my grade 8 sec time again..of cos i was scolded by her the whole nite too cos she still no results..worst still i got exactly the same marks as before, no improvement nor deprovement..aiya i told her many times liao i not the musically inclined type and moreover tat grade 8 cert is so hard to get lah...most of the ppl need to take many time before they can pass..seriously i feel like giving up liao cos seriously i have no idea where have i play tat bad so much so tat i was so marked down on my 3 pieces..sigh..

~i duno how should i survive next week!~

this whole week was just prelims..generally the one week holiday is onli abt studying,national day also has to study =(, so sian.. but this holiday i didnt study tat much as compared to last yr..i must admit tat i am not tat hardworking compared to last yr and my efficency of studying has decreased alot..hai~i am so tired of stuying!!! actually i am kinda scared and worried abt A levels too cos its onli like 2 month away and it seems tat i am not tat well prepared..afterall i am still abit worried abt it though it seems tat i look bo chap..hai~~
the papers tat i did so far is onli ok for maths..seriously i feel happy when i did the maths paper cos at least i know how to do most of the qns and i think this yr prelims is easier than last yr ah..physics wise is reali no ok though some of the friends say tat physics is easy..i am just a physics idoit and i cant do physics also cos i dun see the logic behind physics. gp surprising was comprehensive enough for me to ans the qns..cos usually i dun even understand the general idea behind the text..
last week my maths teacher msg me out of the sudden..i was kinda shocked seriously, thinking if have i done anything wrong?? and after i called him just to realise tat its some small matter...i think he also want to spot check on me if i got study too lah, cant be so bo liao to call to tell me tat thing..i mean u are a teacher wat, so u dun have to tell me watever on how u get out tat marks for my daily work.. and by the way i didnt do any tutorial this yr, but in case he duno yet..hai~i duno next week how am i going to survive?? i have chanks of facts to memorize and i have yet to study and i am onli given 2 days to finish everything before mon comes..oh no!!!turning bac, it seems tat time flies reali fast ah, its august now and veri soon i will be graduating..wah tat's great..

~i am reali reali tired~

i am reali reali veri sian studying from day to night and worst still my whole body keeps aching..neck kept feeling veri suan and pain too, all these made my studying terrible..i reali feel like telling my dad tat i want to give up liao!!! somehow i feel tat the more i stay still at one place to study then the slower the facts goes into my head..its seems tat i get to the saturation point veri quickly..everynite i still say tat i will bun midnight oil, but ended up sleeping quite early..i think this time the prelim is gone case liao, i have yet to finish even half of wat is required and i onli have 3 more days to finish studying..i feel tat i have no life at all now..whole day is just abt stuyding and sleeping..
wed during the celebration i suddenly have the urge to lie on his shoulder, haha, not becos his shoulder are attractive to lie on (Though it might seems to be), but i was reali tired so just wanted to lie my head on someone else shoulder just like wat i used to did it on my girl-friends.but too bad he is a guy, so i cant do tat..as i was sitting with them watching the events, i thinked of the days when i was with my friends..of cos such days cant happen again but i reali missed the days with my girl-friends..i reali wonder how are 2 of my girl friends doing in uni now..should be enjoying life liao ba..
this few days also watch the korean drama tat i have been watching for months..oh my god, the lead actor is so shuai,tall and well build..haha, if he can be my bf then tat would be gd (haha, as if)...well, i have many things to do after A levels..want to earn money to buy things tat i like..its seems tat spending the money tat u earn feel shoik, when u no need to ask money from parents..wed just bought a pair of jeans since its was on sale, but becos i dun have money to buy another pair of jeans tat i have been eyeing for,so bo bian have to forgo buying tat pair..
its seems to me tat army life is kinda shoik, cos i see my brother always sleep and eat the whole day and he is so stress free lah..todae he has an ambulance attachment and he is late for 2 hrs or so cos he overslept..i wonder how his officer will punish him man..should be another guard duty again ba..of cos he is not going to say tat he overslept, i told him to say tat he is having stomach ache during morning, but i duno if his officer will belive or not since stomach ache cant be checked de wat..

~i expected this since the day i returned bac to sch~

past few days, my brother was saying tat his birthday is coming liao then he is asking me wat am i giving him..and this made me suddenly recall of xxx birthday cos somehow xxx birthday is near my brother birthday..it just shows tat xxx no longer place tat importance to me, else i would have remembered it..anyway happy birthday in advance (though i doubt tat xxx will come to this blog.) somehow me and xxx automatically didnt talk after tat incident, and i expected it somehow..though at times i did thought of taking the initative to talk first, but i cant find any topic to start with and moreover i am quite scared to talk to xxx ever since tat thing..i also duno why...hmmm...of cos its glad to know tat xxx is doing quite well in life (i supposed) , in fact i am happy for xxx too..
yesterday dad was saying to me tat " why do i see tat u have no friends in class? and i seldom see any interaction with ur classmates..is everything ok in sch??"ok i shall analyse why my dad asked this qn...in the past my friends would at least call my house to talk abt stuff, but not now, so i guess dad is kinda curious abt wat i am doing in sch...ok this is something tat i expected ever since i returned bac to sch cos "Clicks" have alrady formed and its kinda hard to join in also, so learning to be independent now..however, if it was in the past, i would feel veri sad, but not now cos i have learn to accept this fact..so everyday mixing around with my repeat friends is just enough for me..i reali cant wait for A levels to finish and get out of this stupid sch..
todae national day celebration in sch is super lousy and bored too lah...we had to sit under the sun just for the sports event and of cos i cant tahan the heat lah, so i just run around the sch..meanwhile my classmates asked me to join them in playing cards , the heart attack game and somehow it was quite fun and managed to make me less bored..of cos todae was looking around for idol but somehow i think he is not in sch, the other one was running for some event..haha, gotton a chance to see him run even though it was reali sunny..
past few days have started my revision le..oh man, i reali cant imagine tat i have to go through this nightmare again (reffering to studying for A levels) cos its reali reali veri xin ku..tat's explain why some ppl choose not to retain despite the fact tat they didnt do well..duno why i always fall asleep halfway through studying and i often fall asleep after eating lunch or dinner..and i am kinda worried if i can finish everything at this pace of constant falling asleep..hai~~still i have to endure on cos i dun have a choice now..

~i am feeling old!~

past few days mum was saying tat i will not earn enough to save up for future plans becos by the time i were to finish my uni education, i will be 25 by then and after 2 to 3 have to talk abt marriage..and i haven even build up my career lah unless i marry late..looking bac, i reali think i am ageing veri fast ah..in the past, i look veri childish but now my face look lightly matured now..and its kinda obvious when i stand with my class gers cos all of them look veri young lah..though its onli 2 yrs difference but somehow i look older than them, and maybe can be called a "Da jie"..past few days was just staying bac after sch to study and do homework since i reali need to start revising for exams liao..i cant be tat nuah anymore since this time is the reali last chance for me..so i was decided to dig out the past A levels papers so i will be more familiarize with the qns..i think i wouldnt want to care abt prelims anymore..of cos if i can do well in prelims, then maybe it will boost my confidence, but if fail i will work harder..somehow next week have to come bac sch for self revision but i confirm wont come cos its just wasting my time travelling to sch and bac home just to do my own revision..aiya the sch always impose those stupid crap rules tat we have to follow..so wat i dun want to follow?? i think i can study at home better than in sch leh..sometimes i think the sch onli stand in their position and not us..at times i just feel tat wat they are doing might not be veri benefical for all the students..
yesterday my classmate was asking me if i got eye candy in sch..i told her tat of cos dun have lah, all the guys so young de and not matured at all..but i didnt sae tat i do admire 2 guys in sch..of cos they cant be revealed but somehow todae is the last day of sch before the exams and i finally gotton to see them again =)
next week will reali start piahing like mad..dun its seems like its abit mission impossible to study everything, but still i will try my best lah..i reali hope to finish A levels asap cos i want to start finding a job asap cos i finally now the impt of how great money is..in the past i never felt tat money was impt but after going through this yr, i finally realised it..and yes, i do want to save up for my uni education, i dun wan to be like wat it was this yr, not having the money to go private uni, so bo bian have to retain again..i reali hope tat things will turn out well this yr..