Friday, August 24, 2007

~i feel touched by her words~

last fri when i was walking towards the bus interchange to take a bus home, then halfway through agnes saw me but i didnt saw her so she called out for me..so chatted for quite a long time before heading for home..we talked abt how's life in uni for her and my classmates tat have manage to go NTU...she feels tat uni is more of independent learning and not as spoon feed as before in jc..yup, my close friend is struggling with her course cos she have never taken econs before..from wat my friend describe uni life as, i reali feel like entering and studying in uni seems to me like a nightmare cos they sae tat tutorials and lectures are quite useless so have to depend on ur own to do research to gain further understanding, but duno is it true or not lah..wait til i can enter uni then i shall see for myself..but something i do believe tat its not easy to survive in uni..but i am kinda touched by her words cos she say " we will be waiting for u over here..(refering to NTU) " yup i am also not tat confident tat i can do well enough to step into the entrance of local uni cos i am scared off by the physics paper last yr when the style and type of questioning has changed drastically..but nevertheless i will still give my best shot this time round though i am not tat confident..
my dad was telling me the last few days tat my cousin was kinda ostracized in class cos she is a repeat student, having to come bac sch to repeat jc2..they feel tat having a repeat student around in class just spoil the whole environment for studying and they sae tat all repeat students are stupid..but seriously as a repeat student i dun feel likewise cos not all are stupid lah..there are some who are lazy to study and just refuse to work..of cos its unhappy to hear such comments but i guess it's the usual stereotype tat ppl will give to a repeat student so i wont reali take it to hard..of cos if u want to proof them wrong then just work reali work and make sure they become speechless to comment..dun ever give up just on watever they commented cos its still not the end of the day and there is still a long journey to go..
lately my dad has been playing in the stock market since its a gd time to play since the shares are reali cheap to buy for duno wat reason..maybe there is some crisis or watever lah..so i decided to chip in a bit since the previous time i earn $300 within a few days..but this time round not so lucky man..i almost lost abit of the money tat i chip in cos the shares just seems to be not going up..damn shity lah..but seriously i think its best not too invest too much money cos this kind of things are reali unpredictable and dangerous to play of u dun have the capital..maybe at one moment u can win alot of money but if u are on the unlucky side, then u can end up homeless after losing all ur hard earned money..so moral of story is not to play with large amt then u wont die so terribly..
i have finally survived through this week cos the mission impossible has become possible =)..yup, it seems tat this week everyday have been sleeping for 3 hrs onli so i am kinda drained out already..generally i can do much more questions compared to last yr..thinking of how i did last yr, i think its kind of reali pathetic man..but that chemistry paper is a killer paper lah..they so niao with the time when they give us so many questions to solve..it is mission impossible to finish wat..dun think i can score in prelims but probably not towards the failing range (except for gp)..maybe just not doing tat well ba..lately i have been mesmerizing a teacher's figure..haha, duno wat am i doing also..instead of coming to sch to study seriously, ended up looking at tat teacher's figure..but reali cant be helped !! cos it seems tat everyday i bump into him de leh..i dun wan to look also canot..haha, i think my behaviour is getting from bad to worst man..
i am left with 2 months now...after nuahing for this few days i must have sure tat i must study hard and after end of nov i will play reali hard..yesterday mum was calculating how much she spent on my piano fees and indeed its not cheap ah considering the money is gd enough to play in a stock market..she was kinda disappointed tat my failed my grade 8 sec time again..of cos i was scolded by her the whole nite too cos she still no results..worst still i got exactly the same marks as before, no improvement nor deprovement..aiya i told her many times liao i not the musically inclined type and moreover tat grade 8 cert is so hard to get lah...most of the ppl need to take many time before they can pass..seriously i feel like giving up liao cos seriously i have no idea where have i play tat bad so much so tat i was so marked down on my 3 pieces..sigh..

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