~the kbox session~

yesterday was out again til 11.30pm then reach home..early morning went out to cut hair at ang mo kio tat area..oh man, all could i say is tat i look like a nerd now !! yes, its super duper ugly cos my frings is super short now..if i have known tat i look veri ugly with tat veri short fringe then i wouldnt ask the auntie to cut until so short..now, i reali dun feel like stepping out of the house with tat ugly hairstyle cos i reali look like a china girl this time round if i never style my hair..oh shit lah, tml i am starting work liao, and i have no choice tat i have to go out of the house to work..its kinda sian to travel so far to work (even further than the route tat i took to sch in jc)...hai~if not for yh working over there, i would confirm reject to take up tat job..cos i thought tat with friends around, my working day would be more enjoyable at least..i reali wonder how the workplace would be like..i pray hard tat those ppl are easy to get along with..
bac with yesterday, after tat hair cut,i went to town again to sing kbox again for consecutive days, so i am kinda sian. i am pretty amazed by the voices of some of my classmates especially when i never heard them sing before cos sch never reali have a place for singing session or rather we never had a singing class..i like the way wee ping sings cos her voice is reali damn nice and her voice can reali stretch to those reali high pitch..and sorry i cant cos i find tat my singing sucks and i cant read those ancient chinese words..moreover my chinese isnt tat strong since its been yrs since i last touch chinese..somehow mind reali get rusty for chinese..haha..i think my those friends often go kbox, no wonder they are so pro in singing lah and it seems tat they remember all the lyrics in their mind le, tat's why they can follow the beat of the song, for me, i cant cos i dun remember any lyrics de, so i kept having breakage halfway through the song..
one of my friend also brought her first bf along to intro..haha, first impression not bad..quite friendly and nice to get along..both of them are the first one for one another, so i find it kinda sweet..seeing how sweet the guy was towards my friend, i reali feel like being in love..haha..yup, yesterday also happen to see an autogragh session at the ceni leisure kbox, the place where we sing k yesterday..tat taiwan ou xiang wang chuan yi looks better in person than in shows..not to mention tat he is super shuai and have super sharp and nice features.all of us sing k for 2 to 8pm and after which proceeded to have our dinner at some hong kong cafe..damn, i feel tat i have kana cheated for the food i pay cos the food taste quite bad though it is a restaurant..and moreover its not cheap after adding the service tax and GST..$9 for a plate of fried rice and the fried rice is not fried rice at all..its just pure normal plain rice with fried egg..one funny thing tat happened in the restaurant was one of my friend was super stingy and the actions tat he made are just too over..yes, it is gd to be thrifty and be budget, but not too over lah..somehow yesterday he "Clear"up the food tat both me and weeping couldnt finish and my friends gave him a nickname known as rubbish bin..but i find tat its kinda bad lah cos its not too nice to call ppl like tat mah...i think the guys cant stand him given the expressions tat they show cos most of us find him too calculative liao lah..for me, i was just down there laughing non stop cos i never seen a guy so jialat before..haha..i duno this virtue of his is a gd or bad thing..maybe to certain extent it is gd ba..aiya i duno also lah..
hai~I duno if should i look forward to work or not cos i reali havent rest enough leh, it seems tat i haven gotton enough sleep everyday cos one of the friend say i look veri tired..i also duno wat i am busy with everyday despite there is no studies now.todae i just went to NTU to meet up with yh..they are now ending their papers soon and somehow i reali fear of uni life, cos most of them say tat uni life is not easy..oh man, for now i reali fear for the grades tat i will get this yr..

~why cant u give me a leeway??~

tues has finally finished my exams and somehow i am kinda disappointed with my classmates cos it seems to me tat i am reali tat insignificant to them in class tat they have forgotton to tell me abt the class gathering til i took the initiative to ask one of my classmate. the thing tat upset me was tat everyone knows abt the gathering and yet i didnt even know the gathering was held straight after our last physics paper..maybe i am reali tat insignificant to them..=( since i thought tat i wasnt "invited" to join the class gathering, so i shall not turn up despite knowing tat the gathering was held on tat day cos i dun wan to be an unwanted guest when ppl didnt even invite u at all..and it seems tat none of them notice abt my absence, perhaps this is something tat reali breaks my heart..to me i have no close friens in this class, dun even mentioned abt having a gd friend.in this class..at times i reali feel tat i dun belong to tat class at all..partly i manage to survive for tat past 9 months was becos of the presence of yk and jy..yes, though initally i find it hard to live in a guy's world where most of their topics are just games and more games and nothing else, but later i came to got used to it le..though living in a guy's world is tough for me, but somehow i have gotton to understand guys better now.
thur was reali a terrible and unlucky day for me..thur morning pei my mum to see doctor for some body checkup, after which we proceeded to expo since things are on sale over there..and who knows my stupid shoe spoil and everything just drop out at the expo..damn, tat was wat i was thinking at tat time..(WHY must it spoil at tat time !!! ) as usual ppl look at me like some alien cos i was handicapped in my left feet since i have to drag my feet in order to move tat broken shoe along with me...after which in the evening, i meet up with the guys and their friends at bugis for steamboat..somehow i still feel tat marina bay's steamboat is much better compared to bugis steamboat even though price are quite almost the same..i guess tat steamboat at marina has much much more variety compare to bugis ba..seriously tat day i am reali damn full and i think i am going to gain weight after this buffet..oh no !!
todae (sat) was a veri tiring day..i was out the whole day from morning to midnight since i have to meet JT in the early morning for kbox..yes, this is my first time going for kbox though previous time my friends did jio me, but i was too busy with studies at tat time.haha initally i was reali shy to sing esp in the mike since it will be veri malu if u sounds reali veri bad..but later somehow confidence build up in me and i became less scared and pei seh to sing in the mike.and he sings so well lah, hor?? my singing power is not even 50% of him man..tat's the difference between a pro and someone who dun sings k at all.and from this i realised tat singing is actually not as easy as wat is preceived as and somehow u can get reali tired after singing for hours..after the singing of k, we proceeded on to creative since i am buying a webcam on behalf of my brother..the resolution of the webcam seems quite gd but tat mp3 seems reali damn noob cos it is a super old model and worst still, it doesnt have a build in FM..no wonder they sell it so cheap as a package..after tat went to meet my teacher and yk and jy they all..oh man, i must say tat the preaching session is reali damn sian to such an extent tat i decided to switch off even before the preaching session starts..duno why i just dun like to listen to those religious talks despite i have my own religion as well..i feel tat all these talks doesnt interest me at all..well, maybe tat's the difference between the past gerneration and the present generation..today night mum quarrelled with me over the piano issues, as usual i expected already..i reali cant stand it when she kept pestering me abt the piano thing once after my A levels exams are over..cant i just take a breather and have some proper rest?? why must she always fann me with all these issues when i told her tat i told her right from the start tat i dun like playing piano at all and i have no interest for music at all..why must force me to get tat grade 8 cert when i told them tat i WILL NOT teach piano at all be it future or now cos i just dun like..so i dun see the point in forcing me so hard when i dun like it at all..the more ppl use force on me, the more i will oppose them cos i reali dun like ppl to use force on me, rather it would be better if they reason out things with me..mum scolded me for being honest to my piano teacher abt my opinion abt piano..she said tat she wasted so much money on me and yet this was wat i told my teacher..but i still felt tat i did nothing wrong cos i am just stating wat i feel and everyone has their rights to choose wat they wan wat..she scolded me for starting work next week cos i am more piah towards working than concentrating on my piano..then wat she wans man???stay at home for 24 hrs just to play piano and do nothing else, sorry then this is not going to work for me..i am not going to be a frog in a well..seriously all these issues have reali pissed me off like anything, which explains why i am still awake at 3.3oam just to vent my anger on the blog..now, everyone in the music sch knows abt me and everythings arised becos of my mum..
tml i will be out again the whole day, seriously i dun wish to talk more to her, else we will agrue more..hai~~why are life always tat stressful???

~A levels have finally ended!~

todae tat physics mcq paper has somehow cock up liao..there is no time to think at all..shit lah, so ended up like the bac questions all use "guessing game"..i think i gonna do not so well for physics liao..all i hope dun get a C or below..if can get a B then i will be happy like mad liao..yeah, exams finally finish le..this week got quite a no of activities..this thur has steamboat and sun going out with my ex j1 classmates to ktv..oh man, going to be broke soon seh, plus last week spent so much money on clothes, so ended up like this week have to save up for this week activities...
todae onwards can watch tv like siao again..hooray !!!!

~efficiency has slightly decreased by quite a bit~

yes one more paper to go on next tues and all i can enjoy like mad later..somehow the past 3 days i didnt reali piah like shit, one day was gone cos i slagged for tat particular day plus tat evening went out with my brother to buy clothes since it was on sale, so was helping my brother to choose his pants so tat he can bring all those to taiwan..for me needless to say, of cos i bought some clothes bac home too..this week has been spending about $50 just on clothes itself, so much so tat mum has started to nag and scold le cos my dad will be out of job next yr and yet i am spending lots of money on clothes..but i didnt use her money wat, the money tat bought my clothes came from my savings, despite tat she still nag alot lah..i think i am just wasting money on clothes tat i will seldom wear cos its not veri practical in singapore ah..for instance i just bought a jacket or it can be use as a coat cos its quite long, and i think i will seldom wear it or either i just buy it just for pure admiration..
seriously, preparing for A levels has lasted for more than 1 month..somehow i am reali getting a little sian of studying the same old lecture notes again and again repeatedly..as a result, i think my efficiency has started to decreased lately..duno why man..maybe i am just reali sick of dragging so long..yes of cos its gd tat we have ample time to revise our work in between papers, but i think somehow the whole A levels reali dragged for too long liao lah..this yr it started early yet ended late compared to last yr..tell me who wont get sian of it..
hai~this weekend has reali piah for my physic mcqs liao..physics is my weakest subject, cant afford to get a D again..moreover tat stupid paper 2 has dragged down my marks, so have to do well for paper 1 to compensate for the lost marks..currently i have so many things thinking in mind..but duno why this time round i didnt reali feel reali happy when A levels are going to end..feeling this time round was just reali neutral..but i am kinda bu se de to leave sch cos somehow after tat i need not to attend sch anymore, especially when u need not travel such a long distance just to reach sch...i will reali miss sch and the teachers here..

~finally back from exams~

one month of suffering will soon end in 1 week time..oh gosh, this one month is reali hard to survive man, days when i have to piah like shit and study like mad and burn midnight oil til i fall sick..and everyday seems to be sleeping for onli 3 hrs out of 24 hrs for tat one whole month, which explains why i kana fever even before the start of exam..so far still left with 2 more mcq paper and after tat i will be free like a bird again, i can do watever i want and probably will find a job soon..
in general this time round, for majority of the papers, i think its easier compared to last yr paper, somehow the standard of difficulty has decreased..(is it becos we are the last batch taking le? i duno also) but at least this time round, i dun have the feeling of doing the paper til i have to cry and sweat..somehow this time round i didnt think too much and heart was just feeling reali calm before stepping into the exam hall, which explains why i am not tat stressed up compared to last yr...but i must say tat taking the A level the sec time is a different experience..somehow u are less stressed up and somehow u can manage ur time better in completing the paper cos this time round i will tell urself tat die die also must finish..of cos having expose to so many questions due to so many times of retainning has made me gain experience of how should i approach and tackle the qns...haha..tat's the gd side of it but disadvantage is i wasted 2 yrs of youth..hai~~but seriously i reali duno this time round my gp can pass or not man..thinking bac of wat i wrote, i think i have reali misinterprete the qns and probably wrote of point..its either this time round i do quite ok for gp or either i will fail terribly...but all i hope is tat wont get worst than last yr grade..somehow this time round for gp i memorized the whole set of notes tat my teacher gave cos i know tat if i were to write in my own words then confirm plus guarentee wont pass de..its not my language tat is bad, actually i always fail gp cos i dun have enough evidence and egs to back up my argument..in fact for most of my comp paper majority of them are free from grammer mistakes and spelling..of cos i dun write the same style tat i wrote for blogs cos its too formal lah and moreover i need time to translate wat i am thinking before typing..(so mafan)
during this 1 month i am also quite touched by the gd luck msg tat i received from my friends..though all of us has gone a different path, some studying in uni, some working..somehow it makes me feel tat they havee not forgotton me..haha..lately my brother has gotton a psp from his friends since he is leaving taiwan soon in dec..wah, so gd sia cos its some expensive present and tat psp has lots of function man..after my A levels i shall start exploring how to use before he take it away from taiwan..and by the way my new laptop will be gone for one yr since my brother insisted tat he wants to take tat laptop away though tat laptop belongs to mine..actually i think eventually i will give in to him cos i think calling overseas are expensive, so bo bian in order to find out how he is doing and tracking his daily activities, i have to give my laptop away for 1 yr..
ok shall end for today cos i am reali tired since yesterday i didnt sleep at all since i have to piah finish everything before i can sleep peacefully..so for the time being, have to choing for my mcq and ensures tat i must score in tat paper in order to pull up my previous papers..