Saturday, November 24, 2007

~why cant u give me a leeway??~

tues has finally finished my exams and somehow i am kinda disappointed with my classmates cos it seems to me tat i am reali tat insignificant to them in class tat they have forgotton to tell me abt the class gathering til i took the initiative to ask one of my classmate. the thing tat upset me was tat everyone knows abt the gathering and yet i didnt even know the gathering was held straight after our last physics paper..maybe i am reali tat insignificant to them..=( since i thought tat i wasnt "invited" to join the class gathering, so i shall not turn up despite knowing tat the gathering was held on tat day cos i dun wan to be an unwanted guest when ppl didnt even invite u at all..and it seems tat none of them notice abt my absence, perhaps this is something tat reali breaks my heart..to me i have no close friens in this class, dun even mentioned abt having a gd friend.in this class..at times i reali feel tat i dun belong to tat class at all..partly i manage to survive for tat past 9 months was becos of the presence of yk and jy..yes, though initally i find it hard to live in a guy's world where most of their topics are just games and more games and nothing else, but later i came to got used to it le..though living in a guy's world is tough for me, but somehow i have gotton to understand guys better now.
thur was reali a terrible and unlucky day for me..thur morning pei my mum to see doctor for some body checkup, after which we proceeded to expo since things are on sale over there..and who knows my stupid shoe spoil and everything just drop out at the expo..damn, tat was wat i was thinking at tat time..(WHY must it spoil at tat time !!! ) as usual ppl look at me like some alien cos i was handicapped in my left feet since i have to drag my feet in order to move tat broken shoe along with me...after which in the evening, i meet up with the guys and their friends at bugis for steamboat..somehow i still feel tat marina bay's steamboat is much better compared to bugis steamboat even though price are quite almost the same..i guess tat steamboat at marina has much much more variety compare to bugis ba..seriously tat day i am reali damn full and i think i am going to gain weight after this buffet..oh no !!
todae (sat) was a veri tiring day..i was out the whole day from morning to midnight since i have to meet JT in the early morning for kbox..yes, this is my first time going for kbox though previous time my friends did jio me, but i was too busy with studies at tat time.haha initally i was reali shy to sing esp in the mike since it will be veri malu if u sounds reali veri bad..but later somehow confidence build up in me and i became less scared and pei seh to sing in the mike.and he sings so well lah, hor?? my singing power is not even 50% of him man..tat's the difference between a pro and someone who dun sings k at all.and from this i realised tat singing is actually not as easy as wat is preceived as and somehow u can get reali tired after singing for hours..after the singing of k, we proceeded on to creative since i am buying a webcam on behalf of my brother..the resolution of the webcam seems quite gd but tat mp3 seems reali damn noob cos it is a super old model and worst still, it doesnt have a build in FM..no wonder they sell it so cheap as a package..after tat went to meet my teacher and yk and jy they all..oh man, i must say tat the preaching session is reali damn sian to such an extent tat i decided to switch off even before the preaching session starts..duno why i just dun like to listen to those religious talks despite i have my own religion as well..i feel tat all these talks doesnt interest me at all..well, maybe tat's the difference between the past gerneration and the present generation..today night mum quarrelled with me over the piano issues, as usual i expected already..i reali cant stand it when she kept pestering me abt the piano thing once after my A levels exams are over..cant i just take a breather and have some proper rest?? why must she always fann me with all these issues when i told her tat i told her right from the start tat i dun like playing piano at all and i have no interest for music at all..why must force me to get tat grade 8 cert when i told them tat i WILL NOT teach piano at all be it future or now cos i just dun like..so i dun see the point in forcing me so hard when i dun like it at all..the more ppl use force on me, the more i will oppose them cos i reali dun like ppl to use force on me, rather it would be better if they reason out things with me..mum scolded me for being honest to my piano teacher abt my opinion abt piano..she said tat she wasted so much money on me and yet this was wat i told my teacher..but i still felt tat i did nothing wrong cos i am just stating wat i feel and everyone has their rights to choose wat they wan wat..she scolded me for starting work next week cos i am more piah towards working than concentrating on my piano..then wat she wans man???stay at home for 24 hrs just to play piano and do nothing else, sorry then this is not going to work for me..i am not going to be a frog in a well..seriously all these issues have reali pissed me off like anything, which explains why i am still awake at 3.3oam just to vent my anger on the blog..now, everyone in the music sch knows abt me and everythings arised becos of my mum..
tml i will be out again the whole day, seriously i dun wish to talk more to her, else we will agrue more..hai~~why are life always tat stressful???

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