~even my mum can see tat i am sad..haiz~

ytd my mum ask me why am i so guai come home so early..seriously i nv been so guai come home so early before and worst til it's in the evening..so my mum feels weird..partly i came bac early was becos i now quite low budget liao..cos everyday has been spending lots of money once i go out..so bo bian have to stay at home now then like tat chances of spending money is lesser.so ytd seems like first time in my this 1 month holiday where i really sit down to watch tv from 7pm to 1am..cos usually i am not at home de..then ytd went jogging also since nothing to do..actually i have tat stupid issurance exam to study and its like on 4th and 8th jan..i totally haven study yet man..nvm this few days i tink i going to mug liao..i dun feel like failing again cos quite jialat if i were to fail all 3 exams..


then ytd my mum can see tat i am sad cos she say why i like no mood like tat..haiz..actually tues nite when i saw the grades i were pretty fine de..in fact i no feeling at all..not sad at all cos last sem i already tried tat feeling le..so this sem even do badly also no kick to me liao..my feeling is immune..and actually ytd she was rite to say tat i am quite sad actually..but i dun reali know wat i am sad abt...actually my mind has lots of things tat i have thought through,but just cant reali figure out which one i am acutually sad abt.

today i think i shall spend my new yr eve at home..cos now reali no money liao..seriously i feels like going marina there to watch the fireworks de..but then later go out spend money again..sian..

tml going out from morning til nite..yeah !

anyway tat guy who sold me his hp feels kinda guilty tat his hp is not reali working so he decided to give me his china clone iphone for free ! whee ;) so it cost like $9 each for two 2nd hand hp..wah damn worth it la..

~not another sad-ness of results~

ytd i was happily out with him when suddenly i told him tat i would be getting my results soon and he suddenly struck my mind tat actually ytd 12am i could actually view my results le..i still thought today then can view man..so on my way home i was pretty scared and emo cos i knew tat i wont do well this time..just as i predicted and i am right..this time the results equally cui as last sem..sian diao man..very soon nxt sem i will be out of 3rd class liao if i continue to do equally bad..nvm nxt sem i must find a gd elective to help me pull my grades liao..if not like tat my money is gone man..


anyway ytd he was reali a damn lousy consoler la..somewat i just felt very very different from mr A..haiz..maybe i am right..he is just not the one i guess..somewat everything is just very very different.. ;( and i haven told my mum abt my results..tink she will also sian diao like me when she hears my results man..

ytd also woke up at 12pm then after which went to vivo again and i bought a $20 dress from my favourite shop..abit xin tong cos i bought alot of dress and yet i all haven wear before de and recently i quite poor liao cos everyday go out spend alot of money..and after tat ate xlb with him..all i can say is i didnt eat alot ytd..in fact super little cos i wore a belt and it kinda obstruct my appetite to eat..and i order super alot of "balls" til tat poor ben ang kinda finish my most of the balls i end up ordering..and then the xlb i think i onli eat 10 plus nia..somewat i think its not so nice man..and the char siew bao also..we ordered 6 but i ate 2 nia..seriously this bao is reali a killer man..once u eat one of the bao u will somewat feel abit full liao..so ytd left super duper alot la..heng the person nv charge us for wastage..then after tat since i was damn full til i wanna puke so i dragged him to walk with me for another bus stop though as usual he damn lazy to walk, but end up he also bo bian have to walk with me..


haiz ytd tinking bac, somewat i still tink tat he is just not the one..yes though i reali agree tat i feel happy with him cos we joke around and we are nv serious..but then somewat something is just lacking..i guess he shall just be my playmate for now..someone tat can entertain me..

~i feel kinda cheated~

ytd i woke up at 12pm..wah power man..i have nv woke up so late before ! the max is just 11 plus..alrights after tat i watched tv til 3 plus then after tat i go collect the phone from the person tat i bought from the sch portal..i still the guy tat i am meeting is some shuai ge man, cos his voice sounds very nice on the phone..but went i met up with him.. his looks and his voice is just from different ends..haha..alrighs tat's not the issue..i was kinda sian diao when the phone tat i got was a 2nd hp with so many many scratches when orginally he said tat he nv use the hp at all and he even claims tat its UNUSED before he sell to me, but once i saw the phone i knew tat i was somewat kana cheated..initally i wanted to shoot him bac saying tat " i thought u said its unused? how come so much scratches and so many problems with this phone.." but end up i didnt cos i dun dare to say cos anyway the phone onli $18 nia..so cant ask for too much..but yeah at least he shouldnt bluff me in the first place ma tat its brand new and never use before..tat's worst la..its like cheating me la..anyway i went bac to try out the phone..its has lots of problems la..the joystick super insenstitive and the phone cant charge properly..i got fed up charging with the phone cos the pins just have lots of problem..so i decided to call him liao to ask him how to charge..then he say he would give me a china phone for foc if this phone reali cant work.,.i wonder why he so nice to give me foc phone..must be another cui and problematic phone again..haiz..now i think i reali cant trust ppl man..i thought my sch ppl should be honest enough considering they are students, so wont go ard cheating ppl..but i am WRONG ! darn ! i reali felt cheated of my $18..dun care man, if this phone reali too problematic, i going to request a free phone from him liao..who ask him to bluff me in the first place !


and today is my first day working at the store..i was half sian when they post me there cos i do until i damn shagged man..the place is so small la, wan to slack also cant cos the room onli got 2 ppl plus me..lohz..and i reali have to work non stop and help out the both of them to clear their shit..wa i reali do until damn sian cos somemore the place is reali damn freaking cold and i cant do my work properly..cos i was down there flu-ing and shivering..lohz..this money is reali hard to earn man..nvm i shall ask the person to help me get out of this place, i wan to work in my last wk venue..she says she might call me bac there..whee..ok tml i going out with playmate ! hehe..

~johor trip~

ytd went to johor and the custom has already changed much til i cant find my roadside food stalls tat i always patronized..sad man..ytd intended to tabao some food bac from there de, so bo bian i cant find the place with my friends so we took a cab down to eat saefood restaurant..and its super duper cheap cos we only pay $8 for each person and we ordered 4 dishes man..so its pretty worth while..and hor johor secret receipe is half price man..so gd la..so i ordered my giant curry puff again and while the rest ordered cakes..and once we reached there, we took a cab also to try ba gu tei (rou gu cha) and the pig trotters..actually its my first time eating rou gu cha cos i always dun like eating those black black chinese food..but apparently bo bian the shop onli sells tat so i have to eat those things instead,,rou gu cha somewat i think taste ok,.but pig trotters i didnt try at all cos i see those thick layers of fats already quite er xin, so dun dare to eat..i think i still wont like to eat those black black stuff, so somewat is not appealing at all..i still prefer spices, more towards the thai or indo food..always then after tat went to buy the tao sa piah..thanks to my mum man for aSKING me buy so much tao sa piah for her friends...then i reali look like some auntie carrying 3 box of tao sa piah home..my friends name me as queen of tao sa piah la..lohz..after which shopped in city sqaure and there kinda lots of sales, but surprising i bought nothing home though i like a shoe kinda very much..kinda tempted to buy but i stopped myself..cos i intend to shop in vivo nxt tues with him liao..so i should save money now. ! then after tat will be going xlb buffet at nite..whee ;)

just now i was finding the email tat mr x wrote to me yrs ago cos i was pretty bored..nothing to do man..somewat my heart just feel sad when i read tat entry..haiz..

~christmas eve was perfect !~

omg, this bday cake is really damn cute la !

kinda bu se de to eat man

wed came down to work and u know wat i was assigned to do? i was asked to help the person in charge to do test..wah so shuang man..but of cos i duno anything abt the test la..so i was given 3 mock paper with papers so basically i read through all those ans and see if which qns are repeated again lo..then i will just copy the ans provided for me..heng i pass the test in 1st attempt, if not i have to help her redo again til i pass man..phew..so tat's my job for the day..after which went bac home to change my attire for my bbq event..seriously tat condo is reali freaking ulu man and me and wp lost our way here man..but overall i feel tat the condo is pretty nice esp i like the swimming pool man.. ;) in all the bbq was great..food they ordered was reali nice esp the cakes...yum yum i always love cakes..tink tat day i reali ate lots of cakes man..and the chicken tat they bbq..its reali fantastic..or maybe i too long nv bbq liao so everything taste great to me ! and tat day i gt a winnie the pool towel as exchange present..once i see tat i half sian liao..cos my house so many towels liao la..alrights anway tat nite since we couldnt catch our transport bac..so we share a cab bac home

then ytd christmas eve still need to go bac sch to work..but ytd job was more tiring man..i have to carry things and push things around..practically like some guys job la..cos it requires alot of physical strength la..alrights after which went down to collect the small bday brownie cake for tat playmate cos christmas is his bday but i celebrating with him earlier..then somewat tat insurance office ppl call me to ask me to join them for their christmas celebration then i bo bian have to buy the brownie for my boss if not cant expect me to go empty handed rite ! haiz..heart man pain man,..ytd spend so much on brownies itself..initally wanted to buy chocolate for the boss de..but then i have no wrapping paper with me..so its kinda weird to give ppl like tat la..so last resort i thought of brownie liao..and his bday cake initally i wanted to customized by putting "happy bday ben ! =) " but then i thought it was too common..so i thought of something else..then suddenly shuai ge came to my mind..so i ask the auntie help me draw "ben shuai ge" on the cake..then she laugh..wah seriously its damn malu la..actually i dun mean ben ang is reali shuai la..i just wanna kar jiao him only..sees wat's his reaction for seeing such weird wordings on the cake, then he also smile smile..and hor those hearts on the cakes i didnt ask them to put at all la ! ( i swear man) and the cake ppl kpo put so many many hearts liao..almost all the cake all full of hearts..when i went to collect the cake i was like omg so many hearts ! how am i going to give him man ! LIKE DAMN PEI SEH LA ! aiya but end up i still thick skin give him eventually..then after we finish our dinner at thai accent, i ask him go the vivo rooftop then we eat the cake together..then we so "heng" manage to get a gd spot cos 2 FAT couples were kissing aggressively away..then we watch this entertaining show while we eat our brownie..and both of us quite bad keep teasing and laughing at them..after which initally wanted to shop for our clothes de..but then the shop tat we wanted to patronized has closed ! haiz..so early close man..sian diao..so nxt wk we going bac there again to buy..yipee and nxt wk i going xlb buffet again with him..can try and eat the xlb again..this time my target is to eat 24 xlb..

tml i am going off to johor liao..whee..hopefully can buy lots of stuff man..i looking forward to my trip tml with my jc friends..hehe..

~dad is just super duper suay~

sun nite i came bac home and mum sounded unhappy..and the reason was my dad bike was stolen right after we bought for 2 days..wah seriously man, i wasted my money on buying this bike..darn i reali curse the person bad luck for stealing my dad's bike la..wa lao tat bike was kinda ex de..(abt $250) de, but the person sell it to me at very cheap price and i believe tat the person who stole the bicycle see the bike so gd so tried to steal the bike when my dad was away for 15 mins at our jp library there..darn man..tat person is reali an ass hole..so now i have to look one for him again..this time i think i going to buy those real cheap bikes liao cos no point, i tink buy ex bicycles will also kana stolen sooner or later de..

anyway ytd i stared out my job in sch..$12 job reali damn slack man..first i was asked to post letter..after which do some labels and attached the drawer keys out..and tat's out i earn my easy money..today was supposed to meet up with the uni clique for xmas celebration, but then it was somewat auto silent cancelled cos somehow no one rmb tat..haiz..sad la..i already bought my gifts cos initally i thought it was still on..

yawns today i feel so sian la..nothing to do..morning go to sch just to work..after tat slack liao..maybe later i shall think of where to repair my hp..this sat perhaps might be going johor with those 2 girls..hopefully it would be an enjoyable trip..today duno why i just have tat envy ppl mood..come on man qm, dont be despaired..1 wk has gone and time pass reali damn slow man....why do i have tat feeling man?

~pathetic prawning~

his final bday card !

ytd yh came pretty late so we went to shop around in J8 for many many hours..hmm in all there not reali a nice place to shop man..then 7 plus we reached our destination..all i can say is ytd is seriously reali very very pathetic cos we onli caught one prawn for 2 hrs..then after we bbq it, the prawn taste very hard cos we overcooked it..so i didnt try any nice prawn at all in the end..seriously prawning is reali not easy man..u need to be fast and quick before the prawn get off the bait..haiz..ppl sitting beside us all manage to prawn so much la..its just onli us who prawn so little nia.. ;( anyway then after tat when to thomson there to eat the prata..but sad to say tat prata tat he brought me previously has closed..so went to other famous prata shop which other ppl claims,..so i tried the durian prata and it cost $3.50..its kinda ex in fact, but nvm try once a while is ok..overall i feel tat prata reali not bad la..just tat maybe the durian taste reali cover the taste of prata liao..the cheese prata is also damn nice..alrights next time i will go there again to try..and ytd the heng thing is tat i manage to catch the last train and last bus home from bishan la..i was super panic tat i has no transport bac man..and all thanks to them la..still say gt so much time..end up can also panic herself..she was scared tat she has to train from raffles to her house..but heng everyone of us manage to catch our transport bac..

and today later i will off to work from 5-10pm..haiz..abit sian man to make calls again..yawns..

~shopping at vivo~

baked cheese ..yummy !

i am so in love with this heels

ytd thought will be starting work in sch, but end up the person say next wk..wah actually those ppl reali damn bo liao man..cos ask we all to come down us to talk to us for 10 mins or so..wah heng i stay here man..so ytd end up going shopping at vivo again..saw lots of sales on going, but i bu se de spend money buy cos this month not working ma..sian..wanted to shop for his present and up to now still duno wat to get man..sian..my friends exchange gifts also haven get..haiz..so ytd the telemarketing job was not bad at least..7 nice ppl did survey for me..most of which are young guys..thanks ppl man..anyway i am off to meet my jc friends for prawning liao..whee.. ;)

~i failed my exam~

haiz...ytd i told myself tat i am going to study the entire nite, but ended up i fall asleep as usual..so ended up i onli read 3 chp out of the whole 300+ pg of textbk..actually i already prepared to fail when i stepped into the exam cos how to pass the exam when u studied so little nia and hor those i study de i also dun understand, so in other words i duno everything..and ytd everyone tat took the exam was so old la..i think i am the youngest liao..everyone gave me tat look when i stepped into the study room to study..its either i am wearing too nuah or just they think tat i am just way too young..ok la, ytd i wore shorts and everyone was in formal attire..but i see the reason why we should wear formal wat..come on, its just an exam lei..why do u need to wear until so nice..anyway after which went shopping at suntec, marina sq,and raffles shopping centre..i was looking ard for the christmas present and his bday present..haiz these 2 present make me reali headache sia..i seriously duno wat he likes..those he like de reali too ex liao..out of budget for me..i now seriously wan to faint liao man..everytime go out need to spend so much money..heng now still earning abit money , if not i reali go broke..alrights then after which went bac to sch for the training..wah i seriously feel tat this job is reali damn xin ku to talk man..u need to find ppl to do survey for u.and this survey is freaking long la..15-20 mins like tat..where gt ppl wan to do for u man..even if i were them i will also hang up the phone..so far onli those very "eng" auntie will do for u..guys mostly hang up my phone..some even obvious they lied or just give excuses not to do..alrights today i am working for 2 jobs in sch..hehe..so much money..tml i am going out with can n yh..probably prawning or sci centre..whee ;)

~i guess i know where's my heart le~

ytd had the hair cut and finally my looks look neater now..at least look more fresh now..hehe...and ytd had a chat with the hairdresser and i was pretty stunned by the things i drew ytd..actually i already knew tat all along from guessing, but i didnt know my guess was so accurate..oh man..

after which met up with him to town..seriously town area reali nothing much to shop man..clothes not reali nice at all...and its somemore ex..ytd i was just tagging along with him to see clothes hoping to find something tat he will like so i can gave it for his bday..but then his taste all so high and cost just way too ex le la..i no money to buy such ex present for him..looks like i reali no idea liao..should hav gone vivo ytd..at least there much more better to shop..then ytd intend to eat the xiao long bao buffet de, but then end up there is no seats available cos its fully booked..so bo bian end up eating thai express at holland..and i ate my favourite green curry chicken with extra spices..hehe..after which walked around to see if there is anything to eat but apparently we are just too full to eat anything le..but ytd i felt something..perhaps i dun reali like him..or should i say i have been treating him as activity partner all along? hmm..cos somewat the feeling is like gradually getting lesser and lesser day by day..all i know is i feel happy when i am out with him cos at least he can somewat entertain me just for tat a while..haiz..pls tell me tat i am wrong..

tml is my exam and i haven study a single pg..die 4 pg out of 200+ how to complete in half a day? i am goin to be so dead..haiz..9am exam tml..wish me luck man..

~i am broke !~

haiz..2 days in a row and i am broke..sun went to meet them for bday celebration then end up spending $20 for cakes and lunch..after tat had nothing to do so shop around with them in bugis..but then there nothing much sia..so gin suggested to go town and off we go ! the new shopping centre are pretty all quite similar man..practically sell all similar stuff as the usual shopping centre..if there were sales might be better though, at least i might be more interested to see and try those clothes...so tat day reali home pretty late cos we sat down to sit and talk at some cafe at heeren there..

ytd (Mon) went to ecp early in the morning...initally intended to wake up early to study for the test de, but then hor i lazy man..so end up i woke up late and went to ecp le...in short the day was damn shagged cos we had to cycle for 3hrs..but then thanks to ah lim for helping me to cycle all the way..initally i was still very hardworking help him cycle de, but after an hr i gt reali shagged le..hehe ;) but cycling double bike relai quite shuang man..hehe..after which we went off to new york to have our early dinner..the cheese marcoroni wasnt reali nice in fact, but then the cheese is quite nice la..

then ytd i came home was pretty bad mood liao cos my hp spoil then cant manage to repair...then my mum add to my anger la..i was kinda broke liao and wanted to get my atm card to withdraw money, but she die die dun wan give me..so i reali gt damn pissed off cos hello, its my account , not her account and i know how to spend my money wisely..its not as if i will spend all my money away..so today i gt reali damn pissed off tat i decided to set up an atm card with my other ocbc account liao..initally i reali dun intend to get an atm card for tat de cos tat account is meant for my studies not to be touched de..but then now i reali must tink of ways to help myself liao. if not forever under tat eveil women threat can die man..now i shall tink of a place to hide this impt atm card which can help me survive those crisis..and ytd i was bloody pissed off cos my debit card account she also took away the letter tat has the password in it tat was issue by the bank..so yeah ytd i reali explode man..how can i not explode when everything she wants to control this and tat just like some dictator in the hse..darn !

today i am finally going to cut my hair short liao..and hor today my eyes still very swollen even up to now..sian la and later still need to meet him..he surely ask why my eyes like tat de la ! reali very pei seh to say i cry til eye swollen..zzz..

~should i giv up?~

haiz..i gt so many things in mind right now..should i give up this stupid planner job but then i feel bad cos i promised the boss to take the exam liao..cos holiday reali damn sian need to study take exam man..the textbk is around 200pg ++ but then i onli need less than 10 pg..and thur is my exam liao..and i am still happily playing again..and when fri i came down to the office..tat boss keep talking non stop abt their company and this and tat..i almost fall asleep hear him preaching..but then the enjoying part was just watching video of where they went..the gd thing tat i like abt this company is they travel overseas very often and i am looking for this kind of jobs when i graduate cos i like to travel and see the world without me having to pay for it ! then after which went to shop somewhere ard there and walk to chinatown there to buy some daily nessities..then saw chen wei lian singing there ! wao, his voice is reali very nice..and ytd i had nothing to do, so decided to pick up the textbk to read a few pg, but ended up falling asleep man..and the rest of the day i went 12 rounds around the park.. (400X 12m) then after tat watch tv the whole day. and today i am off to suntec and bugis for bday celebration..hope time will pass faster by then..mon i will be going cycling.tues perhaps meeting him..

haiz..qm is kinda confused now man..should i give up??? or let thing be the way it is?haiz..why everytime always like this de man..

~qm is feeling down..i have no idea also !~

ytd as usual i keep emo-ing and feeling down..no idea why..heng got ppl chat with me online then i feel better..i think i reali dun like to be kept alone...if not i will emo man..seirously i have to and must find a job, if not i reali will go crazy man..heng nxt wk i gt things to do liao..this wk totally nothing to do man..and i reali very sad over certain things man..cant explain why also..and now i am going off to meet tat agent..haiz..this is such a chore..i think halfway through i might give up man..and today mel my sec sch gd friend chatted with me..she is still kinda nice..i shall plan a meet up with her soon..she is going bkk from 6-8 jan but i cant becos of tat darn exam..nvm i shall go with her after my nxt sem exams.. sun i will be meeting my jc friends..whee !

~haiz..why am i so emo now ~

ytd i was online the entire day from 2 pm til 10 plus..8hrs online reali make my eyes quite painful..somewat i gt lots of things to do online..searching the net for music scores for my student..dl songs..blah blah..now i am going to plan my timetable...haiz..ytd i was reali emo man..i felt total emptyness in me..duno why..its either i am just too bored or i just feel tat i have nothing to do to keep me occupied..haiz..i relai dun like this kind of feeling as in nothing to keep me occupied..i think i reali need to find a job soon by hook or by crook cos i seriously cant stone around nuahing and doing nothing..i need to do real stuff..and partly ytd i was emo becos last min my schedule have to change..so many ppl last min pang seh cant meet up..that means i am even more free..but then now i also have to study for the test,,quite sian actually..the textbk they lend me reali damn thick seh..i almost wan to fall asleep reading through it.

ytd i thought through lots of stuff..cos reali nothing to do so will random think ma..i have been thinking maybe my new theory reali doesnt work..so afterall its still better to revert bac to my old way of thinking..or perhaps time is a factor? i dun know reali man..it seems tat i have been doing too much or rather putting too much effort..perhaps i should reali have tat heck care attitude like wat i have in the past..sometimes i reali regretted the decisions i made..i shouldnt be so fussy in the past man..i should be contented with wat i have..but now its reali too late for regrets le la..its gone and reali far reached from me now..haiz haiz..

i am seriously damn bored man..later still need to teach piano..actually i gt lots of activities in mind right now, but then it seems tat no one is free..and now i have to tink of wat to get for him as his bday present le cos i dun wan give ppl a lousy present..maybe i reali wan to bake a cake for him for his bday..but then i going to buy those reali make kind..hehe..start from scratch would be totally impossible with me,..

at least today i feel somewat better le...duno why..i hope tml will be a better day..tat tues after exam hm asked me a very gd qn..i also duno how to say and ans her also cos even me myself also uncertain abt the ans..like wat i say i am getting tired le as time goes by..like wat i always say i dun have unlimited battery life..sooner or later my battery life will run out and by the time i will just bid gd bye though the outcome might not wat i want..sad to say last time it reali did happen..somewat i still prefer him..no one else can reali replace him..is it my expectations too high or am i just picky? aiya i also duno la..sometimes i will think of him occasionally but its no use..i think my heart is just pretty empty now..i need to find things to entertain me and keep me busy..so i wont be thinking of al these..

~exams ended ! ~

tues last paper was thermody..tat paper reali die as expected..even smart ppl also say hard..so means reali hard liao..haiz...just hope dun do tat bad can liao..anyway tat day after exams i was went with ah ken to do the survey in sch which pays us $15 for one survey for 1,5hrs like tat..seriously the incentive not bad wor..all we need to do is just to talk crap and then got money liao..seriously my sch got lots of jobs lobang tat give very high rates..i like man.. ;) after which i was late for my interview..but somewat when i got down i felt like this job reali quite unusual cos i asked the person wat job is this then she cant tell me actually..so actually after everything i heard from the colleagues i finally realised tat the job is actually called a financial planner..anyway tat boss asked me if i willing to try out the training if he provides me with training, then i say ok lo since its free anyway..if half way i dun like i shall drop out then..but then its kinda bad la..but somewat life is just like tat..if i am not the cut out for insurance cant possibly force me to take up tat job rite..so i shall see how it proceed..maybe it might be another route for me to take other than engin path..after tat went off for shopping at vivo with hm and ken..and i bought 1 dress and 1 top again at a sales..whee so happy..

now exams have ended but i have nothing to do..quite boring actually..some more i need to study for 3 exams for this entire month just becos i decided to try out tat part time job tat the boss has given me for tat training thingy..so tat 3 exams is part of training..sian man..haiz..weekends then go out liao..

~emo emo seh~

haiz this sec last paper made me reali reali emo and sad man after i stepped out of the exam hall..guess wat this maths paper is reali cui to the max..duno why i just duno how to do alot of the qns...darn ! hopefully i wont tabao..i am just scared tabaoing nia..first time do paper so many duno..partly is becos i didnt practise and i onli see the ans..wah win liao man, thermody nxt and last paper up..i must make sure i do well for this paper..at least hopefully can pull up abit of my maths grades..

and my bro he is happily in taiwan now..how i wish i were there now..i didnt know tat he is staying there for months, if not tat time i would have bk the air tickets during the sales promotion..and fly there now but i think he kinda poor thing man..cos he kana kick out of his current homestay place..duno why either so now he keep have to find houses to move around..actually i think its kinda tough for him being outside and overseas alone....haiz haiz haiz..and now wat..then during past few days can my jc friend gave me a surprise msg..yeah she say long time nv see me and yh le..so after exams i will meet up with her...and i think after exams ending my days will be pretty packed with meet ups..and we might be planning for a trip to KL..cool sia, but i haven let my parents know yet..think should be can de ba..all i am just scared is my exams results this time..i think surely very cui one..haiz..all i can say is today i am reali very emo after the paper..how i wish there is ppl to cheer me up now..at least talk crap with me then i wont emo so much..

and tues i will be down for job interview right after my exams..hopefully it goes well though i dun reali like the job cos its pretty far from my house..but if pay attractive i might consider..

~hrm paper~

haiz..hrm duno is a easy or hard paper..it seems tat i wrote crap for the paper sia..(Serious) and i too late min read the ans for past year series the la..so end up onli vauge rember the ans..but then points roughly there la..heng..then sat nite i was damn stress ! i read the notes like everything also duno..then very scared liao..then i msg hm wat is value chain analysis and other stuff but she also duno ! so i ask playmate then end up somewat he knows abit so he explained online to me..but then he also play cheat de la..he goggle most of the ans out de lo to explain to me..still say he very smart..lohz.he trying to zhi kuah sia..alrights, today time to piah maths le..2 more paper left..jiayou man..1 wk more to endure..endure ! when most ppl already finish their exams long ago..haiz...

~disaster exam ~

quite alot of things happen lately..for now i can onli say tat friend u gonna jiayou and pull through man though its not easy..i experience it before so i know wat's is it like..yeah so jiayou ! then tues nite asked him abt his leg..wah looks like his leg reali quite serious to the extent need to go operation,..sad for him man..he said tat he is scared..i think i am scared too if i am him..today the test was reali omg..mat was reali hard..haiz..then elective i got a bad feeling i will tabao sia..cos i didnt study and mug hard..alot of things i did memorised so i cant "vomit" Out..darn..nxt paper is gona to be hrm..haiz this paper more cui..i cant do business type of qns de..alrights tml will be a day to piah again..hai ~

~exams starts !~

haven been blogging for quite some time..so last thur was my last day of sch so i decided to wear nicer to sch..then some of my friends say i seems like go clubbing..lohz..wat a "Nice description" for that.yeah tat playmate was kind of stunned too la cos he say i wear too little..lohz..watever la..tat thur nite was kinda of an eating marathon cos we went to alot of places to eat..ate curry fish head, chicken rice, rojak and drinks and yohurt after which..i ate til stomach damn full man ! then tat mean guy start laugh at my bulging stomach..but this wk fri it was my turn to laugh at him liao..who ask him to eat so much then now got stommach and too bad mine has already slim down..

then last fri i onwards i started to piah liao..but ended up also slack alot til sat nite when i realised like not much time left..then sun went to pick up my mum early in the morning..as usual i got scolded again once again once i reach airport..haiz..i reali hate her scoldings cos its reali irritating and fann man..so after which the remaining wk i piah all the way for my chem liao..and sad to say the chem paper was kinda sucky man..so many memory work then some i memorized de all forget when i tried recalling in the exam..though my brain is gd for last min memory work but then its just way too much..perhaps my brain has just overload of info liao..

then this fri met up with him after exams..went to study at some jap eating house ..surprisingly the ambience not bad man..quite a gd place to study..this time round it was his turn to teach me liao..cos my hrm reali cmi and i know reali know nuts abt tat suject..i seirously very stress over tat module la..surprising he is quite gd at tat module..then he say he help me write notes cos my notes very messy..haha..when i heard tat i was so happy cos at least got ppl summarized wat is impt for me cos i reali duno where is the impt parts..anyway first time see him so serious sia when he study..then i still laugh at him..2 wks from now i wont be seeing him cos my exams reali very packed..and in between reali no time to meet up with him..so i guess after exams then i meet him ba..alrights 9 dec i shall crash his maths lect at his sch.. ;)

and this few days tat mum of mine is seirously damn fann..she give nagging and scolding non stop just becos her mood is bad cos my bro wants to go to taiwan again ( I guess to look for his gf) then my mum was very angry over it..so she keep calling non stop..then she bang her emotions on me..wat the hell la..i already so fann with studies still annyoed me with nagging..and today i reali no mood to study seh..duno why i slack all the way from morning liao lei and now its at nite le..die man..i just feel very tired and sleepy cos i piah too much for my chem paper liao so used up all my energy..sian gonna jiayou liao..still got so many many papers more to go ...

thermody CA reali DIE

haiz tat thermody CA reali damn jialat seh..and this test reali must study last min cos if not u cant rmb the small details de..haiz....but then i didnt study in detail so many details i cant rmb..sian la..then ytd came home quite early but did nothing as usual..haiz..cos i was doing household work..wa lao reali damn waste my time man..now like not much time le yet i still quite slack..damn guilty le..today going to be a siong day man..tuition and piano lesson at the way..at nite going out..looks like today another day is gone..alrights tml onwards will start to piah le !.

tonite shall pass him the foolscrap paper tat i designed..think he gonna laugh at me again for drawing tat smiliy face..and i was so stun cos now i actually lose 2.5kgs without my mum around cos i haven been eating dinner for wks since my mum left spore..and even if i eat i onli eat maggie mee..looks like rice is reali fatting man..hehe..alrights tonite shall think of how to spend tat $30 tat i got from ace ytd..maybe shall spend on eating then ;)

~exams are coming in a 1.5 wks time ! oh no !!!~

last wed after my elective i went to vivo again to satisfy my shopping needs..duno why i feel happier when i shop for things i like..then i will feel less stressful..but then like tat i will spend money on clothes, which is not very gd habit..perhaps this is just my way of destress ba..haiz..exams coming soon a 1.5 wks time and yet i still so slack..everyday go home do nothing..now mum somemore not ard at home to control me, which makes things worst..i sleep the whole day and walk around the house do nothing..sometimes just watch tv non stop cos no one is there to control me..i feel seriously shoik without mum around la cos its total freedom..i can do watever wan at home and no one will know wat i doing, even my dad..but then the sad thing is she will bac next sun le..haiz..one more wk to enjoy my freedom, after which i will be cagged again..though she didnt call bac to tell me, but somewat i got to know it through my indo aunt..then last wed i was at vivo and as usual i had many of my favourite tops on sales..wah i suddenly very tempted to buy all of them, but if i were to do so, my mum sure will scold me la once she get bac..this time she not ard for 2 wks plus i already buy 2 tops and one pants..i predict once she come bac, she sure gonna scold me spend money on clothes again..but two of the tops tat i bought was reali worth the price sia..one of them is from river island and the other is from pull and bear..both are damn nice and can be quite sexy if u know how to assesorize them..

then thur was goodie bag day and they gave out donuts..yummy..i ate 2 of them and i felt sinful after tat..so i decided to skip dinner after tat..who knows after tat during the nite i suddenly gastric..darn it ! i think lately my gastric have been acting pretty often..i think i better eat more and rather cook something to eat though no ones cooks for me now at home..so tat thur i stayed in sch til 11pm..intended to study and piah online lecordings de, but ended up chatting with playmate..haiz..nvm somewat tat he help me destress cos tat thur i reali damn stress up cos i suddenly find tat i dun have much time for exams liao..and there is still many stuff i still duno..how can not stress rite??? hmmm..

fri i decided to stay at home cos i must STUDY le..intended to meet him on sat de, but end up didnt cos he has to send the car for servicing..then i shall stay at home to study and catch up with my studies then..but then sad to say tat day also didnt do much also..haiz..then sat was out in the morning at 5.30 to catch a taxi to conrad contential hotel there to work from 6.30am to 9.30am..wah damn shagged tat day man cos have to work up early just to get tat $30 pay..but at least it was quite worth while la cos taxi fare can claim and somemore $30 can get to pay off watever i have spend for my clothes..some more tat job was damn slack..sit there zhuo bo onli..but then the girls are pretty bitchy seh..i kinda bu shuang when one of the gers wanted to change role with me..its obvious tat she wants to take advantage of us la..darn ! tat day me and ken was kinda cui man..somewat we just dun have tat seh of the office ladies. but tat 2 gers tat ace recommended was kinda chio man..but one of them is kinda dao looking..so i didnt reali talk to them..alrights after which went off to suntec to shop a while before heading home..then bought assessories again..jialat i realised whenever i shop, i always end up buying something home.. nvm holiday i will work hard again to earn more money..then bought lots of cakes tat day also..felt sinful eating so much cakes tat evening, so tat sat nite i decided to run 15 rounds and somewat i managed to lose weight..wah not bad seh..i lose 1 kg..think holidays i will increase my rounds to 15 rounds liao cos now no time to run tat much..alrights then ytd i was at home mugging..somewat ytd study more, but then i was very demoralised by the thermody cos i seriously cant understand anything..so was pretty emo ytd..haiz..sadded man..alrights this wk i will try to piah liao..jiayou !

wed i going to get my pay and meet him..then fri i will stay at home to study all the way liao !

~a dream that i have been waiting for ~

my favourite ba hu bread ;)


mon i went to my student house to teach piano and i see her looking so much at my plastic bag so i thought maybe she wants to eat those food inside the plastic bag so i asked her if she wans..initally i gave her 2 packets of the biscuits de, but ended up i see her like so much the biscuits so i gave her the remaining 2 packets of biscuits..then she wanted to pay me de, but then i dun wan take la..so in return she exchange one packet of tibits with me..zzz la..ok then mon nite came bac home then my dad was felt seriously cool after taking the jab and i was totally lost as in how should i help him to keep himm warm..haiz..then he suggested to gave him something hot to drink so after tat my dad was feeling better..haiz..tat time how i wished mum was around..seriously i duno where is she now la..totally no calls from her for 1 week plus liao..and my dad is asking me abt she and my bro everyday..(As if i know la !) i also duno where are they ! then tat nite i dreamt of something weird but i am pretty happy abt tat dream cos i have been waiting for this dream for very long liao..looks like it will reali happens for wat i hoped for cos usually watever came to my dream will come true ! but i just wonders how long will this come true man..alrights i just gonna wait patiently..

everyday is mugging so hard now, but i still very slack sia..duno why..i see still got 2 weeks to final exam..it seems like there is still alot of time la..today i still wan to go vivo to shop watever tat i haven shop finish on last fri..die how can i make myself less slack..and moreover now mum is not around.tat makes me more slack..but i am seriously sick of washing my clothes everyday le man..its so tiring after tat and i i cant study and concentrate on my homework after tat.. ;(

~i am falling in luv with the xxx dress~

jumbo curry puff at secret recepie

my favourite dao sa piah

last wk had pretty much of mac man cos my uni clique friends are pretty crazy over the prices that they could win..but then i not as siao as them la.. i think eating so much of mac would be more of gainning weight more..so i rather not buy and win those prices cos i know i wont be tat heng anyway..and becos of this eating of mac so often this wk, i just know tat mac fries takes like one week to decompose and practically it will stay in ur body for a wk..wah siao la, like this nxt time confirm i wont even buy cos i dun wan to get fat !

alrights tues went intended to go home study de, but ended up i went for hm hall de hallowen party and she say got buffet so can eat..then later we went off to the lab to study til 11.45 before david n hm send me home..

then wed i decided to pon my elective for the first time cos i reali lazy to go and some more my chem test haven study finish so might well go home earlier to study lo..and thur was the happiest day becos our clique finally went out to eat buffet this sem..it seems tat its a pretty long time tat we nv gather together le..so yeah the xiao long buffet overall is ok, but then i feel tat its abit ex cos after a while i got sick of the xiao long bao..and ken say need to eat 23 xiao long bao then its worth the $23.40..but i doubt i got eat til 23 la..but then steamboat wise i reali nice cos the ingredients are reali fresh esp the prawns..yummy ! and not the mention my favourite char siew bao..tat's reali awesome in taste man ! too bad tat day i cant eat anymore, if not i will eat more of their baos..but then the dessert wise wasnt nice at all..sadly to eat it was kinda disappointing..then after which went off to TCC for terrence bday celebration and we went off to eat the mudpie cake..wah this is reali reali nice.. ;) tat day was a quad date and 3 singles..somehow every ger got a guy to help them peel prawns, so its somewat envy them..but then of cos i can peel myself la cos i can eat prawn without using hands to peel..overall its still tat xian mu feeling la, esp the couple sitting beside me..hehe.. ;) but then tat day i eat til so full seh then end up my stomach accumulate a "HIll" le and this is bad cos the following day i have to wear my sexy xxx dress when i meet him !!

fri comes and i was pretty excited to try out my xxx dress and it took me like 10 mins to wear and adjust the xxx properly cos this dress is freaking damn hard to wear and its reali freaking damn short..and initally i had trouble looking for a top inside but later somewat i found a suitable top to wear inside cos i cant possible wear nothing and let my bac be totally empty rite til my butt there ! wah if i wear like tat go out my dad sure will kill me ! alrights but tat day i was feeling reali uneasy cos i got kinda lots of attention from ppl cos of tat xxx dress but the feeling abit shuang after wearing tat xxx dress cos somewat it makes u slimmer..but then tat playmate keep laughing at me cos he say i sit down got a "Hill"..wah he wins liao..nxt time he eat buffet and got tummy i sure laugh at him the whole day..and thanks to him for laughing at me and ended up the whole day i have to hug my bag as i walk cos i dun wan ppl to look at my small tummy tat day..but he say when i stand up not obvious, but once i sit down its super duper obvious. overall he say its sill not bad..so moral of story is dun sit down when u wear tight fitting dress..alrights initally tat day we reali have no plans to go as usual cos spore almost no where to go liao..so i say go je library to blow air con first cos i was sweating my mad that day when i meet him..then after tat we decided to go thomson eat prata since he say there de prata not bad and when i try out the prata reali not bad wor..so after eating prata went off to thomson plaza to study...sad to say tat the shopping centre is reali cui to the max..cant totally shop and at all eating wise not much to choose from..then we stayed there til 7pm then we decided to go eat my favourite char kuay tiao but then it was raining damn heavy and we change location to vivo cos i told him i also wanted to try out the blueberry cheesecake and vivo have tat outlet..wah but once i go there ended up we did shopping in river island first..my first reaction was very happy cos it was on sales and i wanted to buy one top de, but ended up the size was too big for me ;( and for him i can see tat he likes lots of the top over there, but he budget dun wan buy and so i keep phsycho him to buy since he likes it so much, but ended up i failed to pschyo him..initally intended to buy a top for his bday present de, but its $70++ and its kinda ex man..so maybe nxt time when gt sales i buy for him..and for me, when i try out the river island hills i feel so shuang and nice la and most impt the heels tat i am wearing match my dress tat day...he also say not bad, and i think so too ;) but then i was way too tall than him..hehe..so ended up i got a dress at pull and bear and it was on sales..aiya should have come vivo earlier then maybe i will come home with more nice clothes ;) after which we went to secret receipe for our dinner and i ate one super duper big curry puff while he ate laska..the laska reali not bad wor..nxt time i shall try when i am not so full..

one wk have gone and my mum haven eaten call us at all..haiz..this home is getting dirtier and dirtier day by day and i and getting sick of washing clothes liao cos this dad of mine keep on making the house kinda untidy..ytd i still saw a millipede in my kitchen and a big crowcoke in my room..zzzz la..duno why my house so many insects lately..

~kallang area kinda sucky man~

last fri went i came to sch i had a serious terrible gastric pain..initally i was fine de, but duno why suddenly my stomach hurts so much til i cant study sia..initally intended to come to sch to listen those online recording de, but ended up i onli listen a few mins nia when i am in sch for abt 5-6hrs..wa lao seriously this is damn wasting my time cos i spend most of my time sleeping or rather resting on the table cos the pain was reali unbearable..then later i decided to go off to can A to eat liao cos i thought perhaps after eating the pain might lessen abit but then it get worst as i eat.. ;( so bo bian i decided to walk bac to lwn there to rest at the computer area then saw agnes, so i sat together with her..then 2 plus i decided to leave sch, initally i was still wondering if can i still meet him at my given state or not cos i could hardly stand up straight cos the gastric pain was reali too pain le..so i suddenly thought of milk and i went to 7 eleven to buy one small bottle of HL milk..surprising after tat the pain has disappeared before i reached je where i was surpossed to meet him..so heng lo, if not tat day duno how am i going to survive tat pain for how long man..as usual we have no idea where to go so look at the MRT line again, but this time is his turn to choose where he wan to go since last wk i choose le..so after thinking and staring at the map for very very long, we decided to go kallang to take a look since none of us went there before..but sad to say once we reached there, there is just a piece of empty land and the ice skating shopping centre is reali cui to the max..i seriously wont go there again man..then half way through the journey say this lorong geylang, so i told him tat we shall have dinner over there at nite ;) and the exciting thing reali came along at nite..we explore geylang for almost 2 hrs plus til our legs were damn cui la and we were seriously shagged to the max too..but in between the exploration, we went to lots of shops to "blow air cons" since we were terribly hot la..but bad thing when i was in geylang was that there are reali lots of tigou looking at you from top to bottom..initally i didnt realised de, but after tat i can feel tat, then he also realised too long ago but then he didnt say out til i say out..tat nite was damn happenning man cos we walked along the back alley and i say lots of interesting stuff sia..wah it was indeed an eye opener..and i saw lots of sex change guys..wah i see liao almost want to puke out cos their looks seriously damn disgusting...but then i must say tat the gers tat i saw tat nite was mostly quite pretty with gd figure..and most of them i saw was thai..so tat day somewat enjoyed myself though was quite shaged..but the frog leg and oyster in return was worth while..and not to mention the durian tat we ate along the lorong 11 tat side..its damn nice..nxt time shall go there again..

alrights tonite my mum is off from SG le..wah i canot help to be damn happy man..she says one wk she will be bac but i got a feeling she will go longer than tat given her pattern..whee ! i am finally free for a few wks.. ;)

~feels happy for my student~

my elective test i didnt study much the day before cos i fall alsleep halfway through..but then when i woke up i realised tat i totally reali have no time to study finish liao..so i take it easy liao cos anyway cant finish studying de..but heng got friends to copy ans..hehe..so not too bad..then tat day when i was studying in the library in the afternoon, my student suddenly msg me tat she scored 31 out of 50 and she seems very happy abt it..yeah i think its quite a big improvement for her..she said tat somewat wat i taught her came out for chem..hehe..so gd lo..all i hope tat she continues to work hard and do well..cos no pt if i wan to help her but she dun wan help herself.alrights then tat day went bac home early to mug my material sci test then the test study reali like nv study at all la cos all not inside lecture notes at all de..sian la..but then as usual that nite i say i wan to piah but end up half way fall alsleep again la..wa sian la and not to mention tat this lecturer is reali damn smart and alert sia..he ask we all to circle the ans instead of writing the ans out so tat we cant copy..smart sia !..but ytd after exam finish i feel so shuang la cos finially can rest abit liao..so ytd nite went to cut hair and eat dinner at hm house there..then reach home kinda late..then today gonna meet playmate again ! but then this playmate always reali damn lazy tink of place to meet de man..always like to find excuse tat fri i not studying so i can brainstorm ideas where to go..zzz la..he is seriously lazy to crack his brain man when i think he more ideas than me la since he go out much more often than me..

~sick~

end up last fri we didnt go wild wild wet at all..so endedup i stayed in sch to listen finish my online lect but end up also haven listen much cos i was busy chatting..lohz..seriously time is gone so fast ! anyway after which met up with him then went bac to the same island creamy since starbubs there is totally filled with kids la..but nvm tat's not the issue..so i tried their icecream since this time i teeth ok le..hmm their ice cream reali not bad wor..alrights..then after tat went to the bukit timah hawker to try the so call very nice carrot cake and statay beehoon..but i try le not reali tat nice lei..its somehow a disappointment when the newpaper cutting is there..then tat day reach home kinda early since we had no where to hang out..alrights nxt wk i shall tink ok of better place to go liao, if not this is seriously bored..then fri nite and sat did seriously nothing..jialat la..then sun nite i was sick la..having fever after drinking my mum's soup..duno why it happens also la..so end up i feel like puking, but cant puke either..the feeling is just very xin ku..so tat nite went off to sleep early..then ytd was holiday but i was mugging my elective away..seriously wat is HG803 talking abt !!!!!!!!! i study til damn sian la..wan to memorized also duno wat it means also so cant memorized..sian..tonite donna mugged terribly for my elective and my material sci test on thur liao..gigi liao man..tat one totally nv touch at all..

and anyway i reali hopes tat my mum wil leave next mon then i will free out of cage for a few wks then maybe i can go out slightly later then reach home..

~dental check up~

haiz..tues like come to sch reali waste of time sia..i think next time hrm i dun wan come liao man..i come also nv listen de,end up stone there do nothing..than ytd lecture for material structure also listen like never listen like tat..cos mostly also dun understand..sigh now reali like damn demoralised sia..so many many things to catch up with..my tutorials reali gone case man..from tutorial one til now i haven even touch for every subjects except maths..gigi liao..but yesterday after lesson somewat i feel better cos at least i am getting out of sch to visit dental..something to be happy abt cos i have been wanting to treat my teeth le but then previously it was too ex..so i was pretty stunned by tat trainee dentist cos he is just one yr older than me..and the feeling tat he is doing checkup for my teeth feels reali weird la..it just feels weird tat someone of ur age checking ur teeth when usually the dentist tat i visit are somewat usually much much more older than me..yeah now i think we friend friend liao cos ytd the tone i started out talking to him was kinda friendly, but after tat i reali kpo alot ask him this and tat abt the checkup procedure cos i reali kinda bored sit down there for almost 2 hrs to let him screen the things tat are needed in his paper...he still someone use mechanical pencil draw my teeth for some markings la..then i was reali stunned la cos none of the dentist done tat before..but nvm la i think should be ok let him be gunnie pig cos anyway i am not his first liao..but then ytd i was abit sian diao cos i thought i could polish and do the fillings ytd le but then he told me still need to do x rays and stuff like tat so in total i still need to come for another a few more sessions..wah seriously quite mafan man, but anyway its cheap so i shouldnt complain much liao..the x rays i took ytd onli cost $15..seriously its damn cheap man..but anyway this dental build reali not bad wor..hehe..but then ytd i went to the hospital didnt saw any shuai ge lei..i thought tat dental area usually have alot when i was working at as a triage over there tat time..

but ytd i was damn bloody pissed off cos i was reali irritated when i cant find the place to tat hairdresser house liao and i was already late and tat hairdresser dun like his customer to be late for appointment de, so i was kinda stressed up liao and wat reali pissed me off is tat my mum keep calling me for 20 over calls just for nothing and she just wanted to check/track me where am i ytd after visiting the dentist..so i was reali damn bloody pissed off cos she is just reali super irritating and she called at the time when i was already so fann looking for tat hairdresser house liao..then end up tat hairdresser also quite attitude man..he cancelled my appointment and changed it to another day cos i was late by half an hour cos i reali got lost at sembawang..then he told me he got 10 customer after me..so he dun have a choice, so placed me some other day..wah ytd i hear liao quite angry cos i came all the way from dover then u ask me to wait another day..seriously this is damn attitude..so ytd my day was reali very very bad..and worst still is when today morning tat siao mother of mine duno why early in the morning scold me liao..i was damn pissed off cos she always like to rack up past history again and again and keep saying the same old thing then i was so angry tat i decided to go off early to sch..haiz..fann man..all i hope now is to look forward to fri..and anyway this fri we going wild wild wet and its gonna be just me,ken and hm, and of cos david.. ;) after which will go off to meet playmate.. ;) and recently i want to go taiwan cos the tickets are cheap and its 2 for 1..but then all my friends tat can go all has IA..sian la..i think its not easy to find friends who can go holiday and travels around with u..

~whee ! i am kinda happy ~

last thur came to sch was reali a waste of time..at least ken was smart not to come sch cos tat day came to sch reali do nothing..then end up spending most of the time doing my material sci assigment then the worst thing was i was caught 100% plagarized,,wah i seriously didnt know tat lecturer reali tat zai to catch ppl to copy on the net and the exact websites also can point out to us..wah BEST ! I Salute tat lecturer..i was reali stunned when ken msg me the fri afternoon when i was with playmate at creamyisland at adam road there..once i saw her msg i called her immediately then she told me tat mine was 100% and hers was 20%..and the worst thing is i did tat for 2 days and she onli did for 2 hrs..alrights lesson learned liao, next time need to be smarter and more alert..then thur after thermody peer tutoring i stayed over at the lab to do my assisgment..i do tat assigment til so xin ku la, but i think my marks surely marked down de man..alrights chill man..means final exam i need to study harder liao..sian..alrights fri came to sch do finish my hrm project..wah i reali seriously damn stress this project cos i dun wan give ppl crap and rubbish work so i reali spend alot of time on research and hopefully tat i dun give rubbish..alrights i reali try my best to write well le, but well my english is cui is all along, so cant be helped if i cant meet their expectation..so i left sch tat day at 2pm to meet playmate..tat day since i had to go to my student house at hillview there so decided to go somewhere nearer so no need to travel so far..so sat down in the island creamy, but i had no chance to try the ice cream over there though i heard tat their ice cream cos i seriously having tooth ache tat day..if i were to eat then i will confirm tat the next day my tooth sure gone case de..as in will be super duper pain til i cant eat..so can onli get tempted by playmate eating..he ate mudpie which is equally temping me too la, but i cant eat either cos its ice cream mudpie..lohz..anyway tat shop has reali a cool concept man..i wrote and drew something on the paper and clipped it on..aiya thinking bac, i should have wrote "qm and XXX is here !" instead of some lame stuff tat i wrote..lohz..alrights after tat went to have our dinner and it was reali damn full la cos we ordered super alot of food tat day and we are seriously irritated by those drinks stall uncles cos they keep asking we all to buy drinks from us then we keep saying later and later but end up we didnt buy at all..we bought the dessert instead..hehe..alrights after which proceeded to my student house..wah her house all i can say is super damn ulu..duno why everytime rich ppl house always so ulu de..the street lights damn dim la and i can hardly see anything..tat day i was happy cos he volunteer to pei me to my student doorstep when i didnt ask him to pei me at all cos i anyway i knew tat i am going to lose my way either..but i think he knows i confirm will get lose de..anyway thanks playmate man..tat was kinda sweet and nice of him ;) that msg tat he asked was kinda nice too..jialat i think i am reali stepping into his world liao man..but then my student tat day was crap la cos she jio her 2 friends to study with her so her friends bombard me with alot of qns but end up she didnt prepare much..wa she reali damn rubbish sia cos end up she did nothing and she still dare to try zara shoes in front of me when she is surpose to study and ask qns..i think her friends are more sensible la..at least they are more guai and dun talk rubbish..i did ask if playmate if he wanna comes to her house to teach them also but i think he finds kinda weird so he went off first..cos anyway i dun think melody will mind..yeah so ended up tat day i left their house at 12.30 am sia..so late but heng got her mum to drive me bac..wah all i can say is her house is reali freaking big and her mum is reali awesome..big and totally spaceous for leg room..i am seriously impressed... ;)

~tml gonna be a chem tutor again~D

ytd after the piano class i decided to ask her wat qns she have for me cos last wk i promised to teach her de, but then cos i was at the airport last wk and its too late by then by the time i reach her house. so i decided to zun bian teach her ytd..all i can say is her chem reali quite jialat now and next mon is her final exams liao and she duno most of her basics yet..wah like tat how to take exam sia..if she have asked her earlier maybe there is still chance to catch up..now reali like some big moutain of qns duno can help her or not sia..then she asked me if sat i free to come her house teach her or not. but then i cant cos mon i have got thermody test and i need to revise..so i gave her an alternative either today or fri nite..but then fri nite i initally intended to spend it with playmate de, but looks like i gonna shorten the meeting time with him..cos she pleaded me for quite some time and gave me the kelian look tat i gonna help her..then i see her so kelian so decided to help her and see wat i can help her..but then tml nite i wont be going to the usual house tat i usually go to..this time to her 2nd semi-d house..wah i heard its a 4 storey semi-d and its freaking big..alrights tml nite i shall see..and ytd i was stunned to know tat her dad owns a ferlari sportcar and a super duper cool sportscar too..in totally they have 5 cars..wah this family is reali super duper freaking rich..i guess i can never be even half as rich as them man..

~sch starts and everything seems ok so far !~

last wed went off to the airport to send my relative off while my mum pei my dad to hospital for his operation..somehow still duno the results yet and if my dad is fine, probably mum will be flying off somewat this month for some wedding dinner overseas...whee i hope she flys man then there will be no one to nag me liao..but then if she flyes then there will be no one to help me wash and iron my clothes le..hmmm...anyway tat day heng i didnt got my way lost in the airport cos usually i will get lost, but somewat after tat 2 trips to taiwan and jartaka i became more "smart" in recognising the ways in the airport..but then i reali got freak out when i lost my way finding their staff canteen and wat makes me more fed up was i need to carry tat 10kg luggage for my relative when we go around looking for tat canteen.

after which thur was back to studying since playmate didnt msg me to meet up so i assume we will be meeting on fri then..but tat nite he msg me telling me tat his knee has some problem and has problem walking properly now..wah when i heard tat i knew it tat he must have injured his knee when he was playing soccer and i was totally rite ! haiz..poor playmate...think he cant play sports for a few wks liao with his leg like tat..

last wk i was still very "HArdworking" helping him solve his maths partial differential eqn la cos tat day i do on the spot with him reali cant get the ans so bo bian go home do again..i started doing at 3 something am til 4.15am i remember, after which went off to sleep at 4.30am..cos i knew tat if i nv helped him do the next day he sure spend like 2-3hrs just on one qn super waste time..so helping him to save his time thinking..

so fri initally planned for the meet up de, but then since his leg cant reali walk, then i shall take tat time to study then since i got lots of things haven catch up either..sian la..then last few wks so many give us mooncakes then i dun dare to eat so much so its reali very fatting..and so majority of them are eaten by my parents..last sat was worst man, i cant imagine tat i spent at 6.30am cos i started doing my hrm from 1am til 6.30am...wah this time i reali put in lots of effort to do lo cos i dun wan give ppl crap work cos its not reali nice..and i feel stressful in this project work too cos they are reali too smart..i guess those part tat i did might not be even half tat expectations..but nvm i have already tried my best le !

sch reopen test was so far not too bad..maths and chem so far was a breeze..chem was a breeze all thanks to our senoirs man ;) and next wk gonna go cut my cui hair and do my dental le..finally man..alrights i am off to teach piano le..so many many things haven do yet...=(

~i am kinda bad mood and frustrated~

oreo cheese cake that we made in hm hall tat time

ice cream buffet ;)

sat after going bac home and going for my jog i did seriously nothing at home from 5pm onwards til the night then seriously i was damn guilty la cos i already pschyo myself tat i need to piah tat nite liao..then so sun i decided to piah again..chiong all the online lects for chem and material sci..its indeed super duper shagged for me cos i need to listen like 7-8 online lects but apparently i didnt manage to finish it in a day la cos i got distracted after a while so decided to surf online net and do something else..then ytd i did nothing again in the morning cos my relative came to our house and she is seriously damn noisy la..talk so loud and i cant reali study also..then the afternoon went to my student house to teach piano again..she bought prata for me to eat...tat's so sweet of her..;) but anyway this wed i gonna go her house teach her chem sia cos she says she knows nuts abt acid and base then i see her like quite kelian totally like no hope in chem like tat so i decided to help her though i myself dun reali have time for my studies liao..and now i am reali struggling hard to catch up all the stuff from sch reopen til wat the teacher has taught us..haiz..and i think after this session i teach her, i got a feeling i am going to be her chem tutor very soon cos i think in future she will bark her with chem qns liao the min i come to her house..duno is a gd thing of bad thing..but of cos if i am free i am willing to help her la. but then if i am busy then i will surely sian diao liao..if holidays she were to ask me to teach her i am more than willing to coach her in her studies everyday cos i dun hope to see her getting to ITE either..then ytd nite after came bac piano went for a jog in the evening then proceeded to study my material sci again..but then at 10pm i received an irritating call again from tat pervert...this time i was quite pissed off liao cos i already quite fann in my studies then somehow this guy irritates me more..so my tone was reali very harsh ytd..i asked him wat he wans again then he hang up the phone..damn bloody idoit man..i seriously wanted to call the police liao cos i reali have enough of his nonsense..but then my parents doesnt reali care if i call the police or not so i just bo chap..the thing tat puzzled me was he even dares to call my house first before calling my hp..wa lao this guy is seriously very daring..i thought of calling the police cos past few days i realised tat someone somewhat steal my house metal door screw..somewhat it looks like someone wants to break into my house like tat..so i am kinda scared tat it might be done by the same person who calls me..anyway just hope tat i am thinking too much..alrights then after tat went online to relax abit and check my email for my project stuff..but then ytd i felt kinda sad over him..duno why sometimes i just feel tat i dun have unlimited battery like wat he says...certain times i just feel like closing one eye and ignoring everything, but then apparently its kinda hard man..alrights i gonna look on the bright side man..but then i was happy when he still rmbs to buy me tat pong piah tat i asked him to get from malaysia..;)


alrights today i was kinda bu shuang cos the moment i woke up in the morning, tat irritating mum starts nagging again and i am already so stress liao so i talked very rude to her..then she was telling my relative how unfilial i was to her and the incident on the police case she decided to recks up again..wa lao i think tat incident reali damn bo liao la..just becos we quarrel over something then she calls the police..i think she is just siao and crazy man..then i was reali very irritated over those ppl nagging at me so i decided to leave my house for sch since anyway i gtg so for project meetings..so might well get out of the house asap to stop hearing all those fann stuff..and today hopefully the project meeting can come out with more stuff to discuss if not seriously damn waste time man cos my schedule quite packed liao..tml need to teach my student chem and perhaps go hospital a while to pei my dad since he having operation tml..thur/fri need to meet playmate for his maths tuition..then after tat all my days will be gone..i got 2 tests after sch reopens..all haven study and touch..haiz..all i can say is my time management seriously sucks..

~watching F1 at suntec bridge ~

whee ytd i was kinda happy when i was out with playmate..duno why also..somehow its an non explainable feeling..hehe..ytd he was reali super late la..then i waited like for 45 mins cos i came pretty early cos i am the one always late so i feel kinda guilty..so decided to be early for ytd..chey end up in the end he was late cos rizar was talking to him at the mrt control station cos he was working there..no wonder i msg him he never reply at all la..then i waited til i almost fall asleep cos very sian man..alrights then after tat proceeded to town for our ice cream buffet..surprising when we reached there, there isnt much ppl at all..i waited like 10 mins then can go in le..overall the food not too bad lei..in fact it was worth the money tat we are paying..but then i realised ppl like me who likes cakes so much cant reali eat much cos u will get sick of the cheesy taste after a while and will seriously feel very bloated after eating..the ice cream also sia..first serving was quite ok, but sec serving onwards i eat til pretty ni of the ice cream liao..cos the flavours tat i take all taste the same sia though the names of the ice cream are totally diff..anyway playmate didnt eat much as me as i thought cos he sounded confident tat he can eat alot but too bad i still win him..;) so we ate for 2 hrs plus in between with rest break la cos cant possibly eat non stop for 2 hrs plus..then he talked abt his army life and jh and his army friends..i wouldnt surprise tat he claims tat he often bring joy to his bung mates and army friends cos somehow he is someone tat ppl can click along very well with..alrights then after tat we went to suntec area to view the F1 and it was a last min cos he say ytd was the preview trail or wat...since i never see before and it was quite a big thing in SG, so i decided to go see see despite no tickets at all..so stand at the bridge to see lo then i got quite a gd view of the racing..wah the impact is seriously damn great sia and its super duper noisy and loud til ur ears can be quite hurting man..and i am seriously impressed by the speed they race..in a few sec everything is gone and they are at the other side le..wah zai man ! then after tat still early then reali nothing to do so walk around marina and suntec to see got sales or not..but too bad dun have though ytd i got money to clothes..i am "Mean" ytd cos i kinda wanted to pshycho him to buy clothes though this wk he budget kinda tight cos the clothes at the suntec basement reali nice wat..but then too bad..so after tat walking around the basebase where the food area is, we still cant find a place to sit down cos both of us are seriously full due to the buffet then we dun reali wan to eat much too..so ended up we went to a small cafe in front of carrefour then he ordered a sandwich to eat while i help him with one of his maths tutorial qn on partial differential eqn..wah i do one hour still cant get the ans and the pissed off thing is my ans is quite similar to the form of the final shown ans so which means my intermediate is careless..wah sian so i gave up le then i go home redo again for him then finally can get ans liao..hehe..can finally do one qn reali can feel tat shuang dao feeling ! alrights then after tat we pass by a betting booth so i bought $1 of the bet since there is no queue at all but sad case la i onli got 1 no correctly then other 3 no tat i choose all differ by one no difference nia..if not i would have get 4 correct then at least can win abit of money..wah so wasted man..

alrights today i am to start to piah liao..tonite shall go for jogging burn all away the sinful fats intake tat i took ytd..this wk is gonna to be shiong for me..so many tests and tutorials to catch up with and not to mention abt projects..haiz..no time man..

next wk we might be going adam road again..whee i miss the ice kachang over there..haiz..i think i am reali getting to start feeling for him liao..duno is it a gd thing or not..somehow of all guys tat i like before i think i put the most effort on him..some i would just take them for granted if i dun like them or i never treat them as nice as compared to him when i like them cos somehow this guy is different from other guys in other ways..he reali got the healing effect when he talks to u man..duno why either..

~one wk of recess wk ~

wed i was kinda bad mood de duno why either..perhaps i feel reali fann got so many things to do and its never ending de..then at nite somehow i feel better after talking to him online..weird this guy somehow can entertain me and talk crap to me..watever it is thanks man play mate ! then ytd went for the thermody tutoring..haiz..all i can say is i am reali super cui as compared to them cos i think they abit sian diao i ask dumb qns and somehow like wasting their time for coming..i think my tutor reali speechless and feel kinda xinku get me as his student man..hehe..but bo bian wat thermody reali very hard wat then i cant understand..i not so smart as tat guy who is first class honours and still come peer tutoring sia..lohz..then after the peering stayed bac in sch to listen david teach us the chem lect notes slide by slide..wah i think he reali explains better than the lecturer sia..the moment i hear the lecturer talk then i reali turn off liao..then after which went for our supper cum dinner at chc there..

and today i gonna meet playmate again..whee.. ;) going to eat ice cream buffet,.hopfeully the queue wont be long ba if not i reali sian diao le..anyway i have been thinking something but i am not sure of the ans either...he has reali totally diff personality as mr A and the type of guys i like..so i myself not reali sure if i reali feels for him or not..maybe yes ba but i cant be certain tat it will be long cos of certain reasons..all i know is i enjoy my time being with him cos somehow its not bored being with him..looks wise he is not bad la but then i dun reali care abt the looks de, so he is just qiao tat he is kinda shuai..anyway kinda envy the 2 of them..guy so nice to the ger and long time reali nv have tat feeling liao..outsiders like me see liao so envy la ! maybe sometimes think bac reali regret certain things..hmm..but on one hand it can be pretty scary once the honey moon period is over cos i feel kinda sad for one of my friend..haiz..wat is relationship all abt man..i seriously duno man..many at times one of the party just take each other for granted then the other party suffers in pain..yes i know tat feeling cos i took mr A for granted tat time and i kinda regretted tat..so i told myself tat i musnt make the same mistake again...anyway friend hope things will be better for u yeah..

one week of holiday is coming man..its seriously not time for enjoyment man..relative is coming on sun then i guess mum will be out for most days ..gd for me man cos no one will nag at me..and today she and dad had a fight over money..haiz..sian man everytime also mention abt money..is money reali tat great meh..i see my dad like quite kelian then no money to play stocks also dun dare to ask money from me..so i gave him my bank bk and ask him to take out the money himself..it i never do tat, i guess he will still continue quarreling with my mum man..actually everything comes from my mum la, why is she so bo liao to consfiscate both my dad and my bank bk..so end up both of us damn kelian no money...but heng i still got another account with my dad..at least i still got some money to survive man..haiz..and this wed my dad is going for operation soon.hopefully he will be ok man..alrights i gtg meet playmate liao..hehe..tml i will piah liao..tonite shall enjoy first ;)