this sem have been pretty close wif agnes and yh..after sch we will find each other for company..lol..tat's the benefit of being single..but anw nxt sem i will be overseas, then both of them shall accompany each other but once i am in yr 4 i will be totally alone..haiz sian cos they would have graduated by then..so this sem is somehow my last spending time wif them..actually duno why these few days when i am at home my mind kept on drifting alot..totally cant focus at all..darn..tat 07 CA i only spend one day to piah finish and i am totally drained after tat cos imagine i have to piah the whole syallbus in one day cos the day before i was too slack thinking tat i have alot of time to study.but i was wrong.so ended up i didnt study finish the 2nd part which explains why i duno how to do much of the qns over there though i could have done it cos i did rmb wat the lecture thought on the online lect, just tat some ans i am not certain.darn, if i have studies, i would have scored better.anw i am damn happy tat my elective got an A for both CA..so i shall depend on my last CA liao..hopfefully overall can get an A then it will be damn shoik..actually this elective really damn shoik..cos the 2nd CA both me and hm didnt really study much or rather we cant really rmb much stuff cos we didnt really study hard for it.so we have to practise our eye power to copy, and luckily we copied from the rite person..lol.
anw this few days i was thinking over my china trip cos it seems tat i dun really have much time before i fly off..to be exact i onli have ard 1.5mths left..shit tat's damn fast..actually i am really scared of lots of things, just tat i dun show nia..i really scared all of us will be split up cos the chances are really high from wat i see now..i guess some of us will be split to shanghai and suzhou..i have really too much fear and concerns tat i cant stop worrying abt..haiz..i scared of having no one to accompany me over there cos afterall i am in a foreign land where i duno anyone..i scared tat i will be damn blurr and cant find out ways and directions to travel ard cos i am really bad in directions.i am too many concerns to worry abt !!!!!!!!! haiz how how how??? money not really an issue now cos i have the money liao.so all i have to do is to be more thifty, dun anyhow spend things, but i tink i sure splurge one, cos the things over there cheap like dirt, sure buy lots of stuff.
and these 2 days ly kept on appearing on my mind..i duno how things will turn out in the nxt half a yr..i scared i wont come bac safety or rather i really duno how i will become like? i might change for the better or change for the worst..who knows..i really scared i dun have the chance to tell him tat..really tempted to tell him wat i feeling deep in my heart. but i really dun dare leh..i scared tat if things turn bad, i will lose this friendship, but if i were successful then might chances some progression..aiya but i always look at the bad side, so i choose not to tell him wat i feeling inside.but i really feel like telling him before i fly off cos i scared i will regret..and i am not really sure why i tend to get very emotional esp when i am leaving the ppl around me for long.cos i really not sure wat will happen to me in the nxt half a yr..duno i seem like a dying person who want to cherish my last moments tat i spend wif my friends for the remaining 1 month plus.cos i tink i will be alone in china after tat.
and ytd went out wif playmate to clark quay cos we wanted to try the pizza at timbre, but ended up there super alot of ppl and the queue was damn long, so ended up i suggested going riverside indo restuarant cos its been yrs tat last ate there.and they serve super nice food, but we reached there, it closes down !!!! then ben was really damn sian cos we took really long to find tat place and he was sweating like mad..and the sian thing is tat it closed down..=_= so walking endless we endedup in the shopping mall having ramen at one autentic jap resturant..its kinda nice, but then kinda ex..anw nxt wk might probably go out for shopping wif him cos he wanted to get tat nerdy black spects.actually i wan to get it too, but then too ex, bu se de buy.lol.and anw nxt wk i go lots of test coming up ..duno if i wanna meet wif him to shop leh cos quite stress..he say he is free la.then he gave me tat expression then i smiled..he say its me who is not free ..
anw while taking train wif agnes to meet him, then agnes ask if he got chance or nt..i said abit hard leh..its really hard though i am kinda close wif him..cos i know him too well liao la..abit hard to be couple.i dun like the too sou feeling..and moreover its kind of impossible la..if we like each other will be together liao, no need wait til now then get together.its been 2 yrs liao leh cos this yr i will be celebrating his 25th bday..anw today really have to piah liao..16 online lect waiting for me..freaking damn stress.sucks man.forver cant finish.
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