Wednesday, May 25, 2011

~lets put an end to the hesistant feeling..~

sun went to remove my mole.but apparently i felt tat my mole kana disfigured cos it became darker than before.duno is becos its normal cos i read online it is supposed to be darken cos it will be "dried up"..wah if really disfigured then jialat man.i shall giv another 1 more wk.if its still like tat, then i will go hospital see doc alrdy .. ;( anw i should hv removed it in the hospital man..duno why tat day suddenly so chong dong see ppl do, then i do..i must be crazy man..cos i always wanted to remove this mole since jc alrdy. but apparently SG is ex.no money so nv tried removing.

anw mon met up wif his household for dinner..and he is rather nice to offer a ride to me..initally i was quite hesistant to take his ride one, cos u know i am supposed to distance frm him now as i cant fall for him any further..but apparently i just heck alrdy, anw its just a ride, nothing else.but anw i tink tat will be the last time i am taking his scooter.. want also no more chance.lets just face up to reality ya..

ytd i booked my air tic back to Sg alrdy.i will be bac on 29th june.actually i really kinda dun feeling like leaving this place as it gets nearer to departure date.can i not leave you suzhou?? i hv grown feelings for you over this few mths.once i am bac in spore i wont be close to him anymore.doubt we will even hav a chance to bump into each other in sch.actually there are various reasons why i dun feel like leaving.one of the reason is him.second reason is tat i really enjoy the freedom i enjoy here.totally no restrictions to do anything in sz..though in sg i dun really hv much retrictions too..but afterall its a diff feeling when you hv your parents in sg to take care of u.

today went running wif him after so many mths nv run le cos leg injury previously.initally intended to postphone the run to nxt wk wif him cos he wanted to run kinda late, but i wanna reach home earlier to do report.but end up i still run cos somewat i hav the momentum to run today, so dun wan my momentum to die today.i was damn proud of myself tat i actually manage to run quite a lot without stopping alot though i do feel abit bad slowing down his speed really alot cos i can feel tat tat's not the usual speed tat he ususally run..but i told him tat u just run at ur own speed..i will catch up wif u..cos i am a person tat needa a person to run in front of me so tat it will giv me the momentum to continue running.if i were to run alone, i will definately stop and rest a lot off time which will defeat the purpose of running.anw its kinda quite a nice run wif him though its just tat 45 mins of run.haha ok la, actually i am abit of chen ji making of the chance i hv.cos anyway i hv less than 1 mth to spend wif him alrdy.after i reach sg, everything will close case alrdy. sadded man.hai ~

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