today somehow i am feeling quite down..somewat i just couldnt focus on anything i do..stayed at home initally to start my report, but ended up my mind just couldnt focus over ytd HTHT session.i guess my heart was feeling impactful over certain things..i feel tat perhaps your presence really did affected me..hai qm qm qm ah, how now?? i still needa face him for another 1 mth..pls tell me wat i can do to forget him when he is always appearing in front of me..hai ;( giv me another 1 month and you will slowly fade off from my mind when i am back in spore. i will drown myself and start fyp early.drown myself busy with sch work and mug really hard.i guess tat's the only way to make me forget ur presence..actually i nv thought tat ur presence will affect me cos so far not much guys hav impacted me in a way, except my ex..looks like i am really serious this time, but fate just dun exist for me..so lets be it ba..i am tired alrdy..
apparently currently i am trying to avoid him in a way..duno why also, when supposedly i should cherish the time spend with him for the last 1 mth cos when we are back to spore, there wont be chance anymore,.but apparently it turn out likewise, so its kinda an irony..watever it is today dinner i somehow avoided him..dun dare to eye contact him, tried to avoid him if possible.when he talked to me i just smile smile and reply him with a short sentence.honestly speaking, i duno wat's wrong with me man.perhaps i am just trying hard to forget him so tat i wont like him tat much..and i cant forget a person when he keeps on appearing right in front of me !!! argh ! tis is damn fann..
sometimes i really tink tat is the dream tat i dreamt of is it true??? "i rmb smt like " the gal is you.." pls enlightened me !! i really hope tat its him who said tat.but looking at things now i doubt so..anw pls just end my torture quick and fast,..i dislike the feeling of the long dragging torture..;( qm qm qm jiayou, i can defintely survive it through.all you need is just determination.perhaps i guess ytd HTHT session was a wrong one.i shouldnt hav HTHT with him, i should hv waited for the last nite of the mongolia trip then i tell him wat i feel abt him.now tat i hv said wat i wanted to say, i feel very weird now facing him.i guess i need him to break the ice now.if he doesnt break the ice, i guess i will remain cold towards him from now on cos i just wanna forget him. ;(
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