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then nowadays, duno why i keep smelling cigrattee smoke near my room..i reali veri irritated and i kept complaining to my mum.i feel like scolding the F word and shout out to them and ask them not to smoke..becos they are polluting my room..but in the end, i dun dare ..i complain so much but did nothing..
then is all the alvin the same pattern arh..the alvin tat i know is disgusting, despo to find gf, whom both gers and guys hate..and the new alvin tat i know becos he is sitting in the library beside me and talk to me out of the sudden when i didnt even know him..he asked are u a foriegner??then i said no and my tone was like veri bu shuang..becos i find him irriting and kpo, asking many stupid questions..then ester and agnes were laughing at the way i talk to him..then later he said tat i look like some ah lian..then i was thinking i look like ah lian also none of ur business..better do ur pw lah, xiao didi..anyway i just ignored him and continue sufting net..then he still sae dun u think tat sufting friendster is a waste of time and stupid cos he saw me sufting tat..when he said tat i feel like boxing him becos i find him veri irritaing and kpo..some more he is a stranger to me..anyway i dun wish to see him sia, seeing him onli spoil my mood..
then last week the meal was nice..now then i realised tat thousand island is veri nice..the host was telling us ways of eating esp gers, becos she says tat if guys were to see gers doing some rough actions then they wouldnt ask them out in future..reali meh???guys reali tat particular meh???i tok they heck care one..anyway i didnt pay attetion to her cos i onli interested in eating..anyway i had a hard time eating the chicken becos i duno how to use the cutlery..why cant we use hands to eat then can chop chop..anyway tat was the rule for western dining..i also dun think tat i ever hav the chance to go there eat unless ppl treat me then dun sae lah..
after which, last week went junction 8 to take neoprints cos was dragged by ppl...seriously i dun like taking neoprints becos i think tat i look veri ugly in neoprints plus its a waste of money..i rather take picts during hp man..at least i look nicer there..hmm..
then last week i am quite upset over some friendship problem..duno why whenever i am upset or wat, the first thing tat i will think of is my blog and not my friends..its not tat mt friends are not as impt to me, but its just tat i seldom tell me friends abt my problems unless they ask abt it..i always keep everything to myself and ending up feeling suffocated..i still think tat my blog is my gd frien cos i always share wat i feel..its alright tat my blog cant talk bac to me, but at least i do feel better after at times after saying out..whenever i am alone or wat, i just feel like having a person beside my side just to talk to me, but hor there is always no one..i always cried when i feel lost becos i cant solve the problem by myself..isit tat i am born to be a loner??i feel tat at times i shouldnt hav born man..sersiouly i miss the days in pri sch..i never got sad b4..its onli this yr and last yr then i know the cruelity of many things..first is the reality tat i got retained..first few months of this yr, i dare not face the reality tat i am retained..but later i got used to the word retainee then i started accepting the fact..secondly, its the failure of luv..actually such things will occur to everyone in his or her entire life, its just a matter of time 0nli..but most imptly, one must learn to accept the fact tat luv is a giv and take..
anyway to conclude wat i said life is just a learning process...
then yesterday the chem paper just sux, its a killer paper..die like tat how to pass promos!!!!worried sia..wa lao i spent 2 days just to study fot this test but yet i cant do,..duno is i stupid or wat, retained one yr liao still canot do..for last yr case, i dun hav the facts in my brain so i cant do..but this yr, i got study still duno how to do..i just think tat i always think straight, i cant think things out of the box..maybe i should do something to my brain, maybe play more computer games??hmm..anyway now i just set up a neopet cos i see the guys play like veri nice like tat leh..actually last time i created a pet during sec sch but i forgot my password liao..
then hor yh now got 3 guys want to jio her at the same time...wa lao i think she must be veri happy sia..seems like pretty gers do hav a lot of guys to jio..anyway one of them gave her 6 roses..actually thinking of it, tat AJ guy quite romantic leh..but he ended up got rejected by yh..cos she find him too matured after finishing his army, cos he planned to far ahead le when yh onli looks at the present..then the other is a gd catch,..(terence) ..so now they trying out.,,then yh always ask me why guys do this and tat and wat does it mean..i just sae wat i think, anyway the choice is hers..then cm saes she wans to break up with her current bf cos she saes tat the guy always never msg her..but i still think tat is it worth breaking up with a person just becos of such small things??it is fate tat brings 2 persons together...maybe she should cherish wat she has now..
then yesterday nite, vincent called my house to sae tat retainees are invited to the prom nite this yr..but must pay $80..wa lao if free then i confirm will go one..hai~~my friends are graduating this yr and i am still in j1..going there will make me more sad..
anyway todae, tat garnish was scolding the 100 of us for skiping the workshop...die now must do detention for 6hrs..and is from tml onwards to next fri..plus i must pay $30..i reali die this time cos i bluff my teacher tat i and my mum went to hospital to visit my aunt and she called my mum to check just now..then she realised tat i bluff her liao..aiyo my mum should hav play the show with me..anyway i dun think she knows wat i bluff teacher, but i did tell her tat i am going to bluff my teacher tat my grandfather die..but she asked me not to giv tat excuse so i didnt use it..so i thought of another one..die man know tat she know just now then she msg me and tell me tat i should hav be honest with her..but u think i dun wan meh>>i just dun wan to pay the $30 mah tats why i lied wat..now tat i confirm will hav to pay liao plus i will hav a bad impression for her liao..and this time i will hav a bad conduct due to poning sch for no valid reason..die..then in future got anything tat i wan to apply also canot cos i got bad conduct..anyway i reali confused now..i duno how to face her tml..she confirm will ask me why i lie..hai~~~~how sia..tml i will hav to start doing my detention til veri late b4 i can go home..duno wat i hav to do also..hopefully dun ask me to clean toilet sia, if not i will cry man...anyway garnish said tat if we still continue to pon then we will be suspended for sch for 2 weeks...i still thinking of poning during next mon but looks like i dun dare now...i am scared tat i will be suspened..sigh..this is the worst time i ever get a big trouble in sch..die man...how how???????????