actually was feeling better in the past few days but somehow things became worst yesterday..i was brighten up the day b4 yesterday becos at least my phy did quite ok..initally still thought tat i will fail for phy but came out to be i pass..so at least tat day wasnt tat sad..but duno why i still feel sad over the results even though it is nothing much..how should i revive on my chem and gp arh??sigh..just pretty worried..one thing tat i wont deny is tat dragon babies are much more smarter than rabbits..and duno why i feel veri stupid and slow when everyone understand and i dun undertstand..nite classes are starting next week from 7 t0 9pm..i am still considering if should i go cos by the time i finish it will be veri veri late le..
lately has been cutting down time spent on going online..onli go online abt twice a week on average nowadays, last time used to go online everyday cos i veri "Eng" tat time..j2 reali no life at all..always dun have enough sleep and ended up dozing off in class..
so wat is the quarrel with my mum?yesterday reali had a big big quarrel with her..duno why tat time i lose control of myself and i fight bac with my mum cos i am reali reali reali veri angry tat time with her..she make a big fuss over my lousy results and she keep scolding me when i am already veri "FANN" and demoralised liao..so when a person is reali angry, he or she will do things tat she or he dun usually do..and yes i am reali angry cos my mood isnt veri gd liao and she keep scolding me over the results when the results doesnt reali mean tat much, as if it will affect ur A level like tat...and she keep scolding me for waking up the nite at 4 to do hw cos i sleep veri early and many hw are left undone..so obviously i need to wake up to do it cos i need to hand up..and she saes tat i disturb her sleep when i wake up cos the lights are on and she cant sleep..i am already veri nice tat i want to wake up to do my hw, not like last time i dont even bother to wake up, at least the word here is "Bother" to do things and at least i show some degree of hardworking..and she scold me for this...of cos i am damn angry becos wat ever i do she also not happy with me..i am already veri nice tat i didnt sae she is biased cos its obvious tat she is nicer to my brother..she give extra pocket money to him and i am receive lesser than him and she pays even thing for him, phone bills, class funds, etc, then me leh, i pay everything myself..sometimes i have no money then its none of her business..then todae morning we quarrel again lah then i was in my room crying and i have been crying since yesterday liao so my eyes are reali swollen and it pains cos i cry too long liao..then my dad came in and tell me dun cry liao..he ask me wat problem i have and he understands wat i am going through, not like my idoit mum everything also duno when keep scolding ppl...then duno why my dad suddenly cry when i cry..anyway tat's rare tat my dad will cry cos this is the sec time seeing him cry..guys tears are precious cos its hard to see them cry..haha..anyway duno how long will this cold war ends, just dun feel like talking to her..
todae quite stress in chem lesson cos chua keep looking at me to see if i understand..can see tat todae he go quite slow..surprisingly i understand wat he talks abt, maybe i have learnt tat topic b4 when i am in j1..sian arh..next week onwards starting test til late may, its like no rest at all..i shall look forward to the gd friday and maybe i get to sleep more tat day..long time never sleep for 8 hrs liao..
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