my mind is still wondering at his place..how ah?i reali duno wat should i do..life seems so empty and incomplete without the prescence of him..somehow i feel tat i find it hard or little chance to interact with guys becos my dad is too conservative..he said tat i canot get too close with guys becos he scared tat i kana cheated by them..oh pls..i am so old liao..19 already..i know wat is wrong and correct and i know who is gd and who is not gd..sometimes over protective of daughter isnt too gd...eventually she will suffer becos she isnt exposed to the real world how it looks like..
i overheard the conversation mum told her friend saying tat my dad dun wan me to work after A level..he want me to tutor ppl and dun work..i was thinking u cant protect me forever..there will be a day when i need to face the real world eventually, its just how fast or how slow it is.mum object to it, but i guess by tat time, i will defy him becos i see no pt in staying at home doing nothing..i rather earn some money to buy things tat i wan..first time hearing my mum saying the rite thing..actually mum wanted to guve abit of freedom but dad dun allow..sometimes i think he too conservative until i canot tahan..both my parents have their gd and bad..mum is just too kiasu towards studies, she cant afford to lose, whereas dad is too conservative..sigh,.,.i am not close with either of them..
A level is approaching..half a yr more to come..i have yet to start reveision, but i think in june holiday , i shall start to piah...somehow i think its reali scary cos it will determine ur future just based on those few hrs of papers and exams..gp is still my greatest concern for now..but i have yet to do anything abt it..
ppl sae i am quite blur..hehe..am i??hmm...anyway todae just take passport photo..cost onli $2..they sae i take already veri nice, but i dun think so leh..look so ugly man..but lots of the gers look veri pretty..anyway past few days just took class photos..wa, my class fun shots are unqiue to others..we carry weapons seh..overall quite nice, but i look veri ugly as usual..
then tues got some SAF guys come to yj to sing for us..oh my god, one of the guy is so cute and shuai man..first time dun want to leave the audi cos just want to look at the cute SAF guy..hehe..i am still thinking of his cute look and actions up to now..he kicked pingy to sing with him and i was like oh my god, how i hope i am pingy then can sing with them..and he hold pingy hands..so sweet man..hehe..never mind..can forget abt day dream abt him cos anyway i wont get to see him again..
tml sch shall be used for the tolling centre..initally veri happy cos shorter day but end up still the same cos the sch veri smart seh..ya, anyway yj forever like tat one lah, always like to make use of free time..anyway next week like got lots of holiday..shoik arh..
actually now, i got so many so many things to do, but just dun feel like doing anything seh..so sian..todae test, i never study at all, believe??not usual qm man, cos she will usually study until veri hard, but the truth is i reali never study cos too tired liao, so just wake up 3.30 todae to study but i cant finish study, so bo bian, just have to based on memory and my organic chem sucks, todae all 10 marks all duno..onli left kinetics tat i can do..abit pathetic lah, cos if tat one i all correct then i should be able to pass..if not, i will fail..
the three of us are having private tution with mr chua every tues..ya, must take the chance to get free tutoring cos hire tutor must pay and i long time never ask my tutor to come and teach me liao..i think 1 yr liao never see him seh..anyway he is also busy with his studies..
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