Friday, October 22, 2010

~i feel like crying out now~

i feel like crying out now but somewat i couldnt cry out any tears..its been a long time i felt like crying, i guess its yrs tat i last cried cos afterall ppl like me dun cry easily.i tink nxt time i should reborn as a guy rather than a ger cos i feel tat i am more manly.not sure why i felt tat..but i feel damn stress now..project kinda screwed and i was kinda upset over the sentence tat this particular grp member said to me..true indeed tat he is smarter than me la, but then can u not be so direct..haiz this is really hurting to ppl, esp to ppl like me who alrdy has low moral liao..i guess lately i am kinda emotionally unstable..moods swing kinda bad..get emo easily..can i just leave SG for now and hinbernate? i feel tat going sch also meaningless..now i know why maril always dun wan go sch..agnes cant be always there after sch for me cos she will be graduating this yr..and nxt sem i will off for GIP...haiz wat can i do now..haiz at times i really hope tat i can talk to someone who is super mature and guidge me and give me advice..cos i hav been bottling up kinda lots of stuff in my heart..so feel kinda vexed at times..but at times i just couldnt be bothered..anw sometimes my attitude towards a person can be very cold at times and yes i am referring to him, cos i felt tat i am kinda stalked..watever it is, i just dun feel comfortable..everything tat i wore and do, he also notice, its just zzzz...cos i dun like..if u wanna notice me, then just dun TELL ME>.cos i dun wan to know..so tat i can be myself..watever it is i am just tired, so at times i might be snappy towards a person too..watever it is i am just trying to say tat i am bad mood now !

anw ytd nite i was really touched by agnes msg..thanks for spuring me on ! the msg really did motivate me ;)

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