this few days doesnt seem to know why i tink so much man..i cant figure out too ! anw it can be a gd thing tat i am starting to reflect abt life once a while..perhaps sometimes wanna slow down my footsteps to see where i have gone wrong and improve on it..life is always uncertain and i will nv know how things will go through my life...anw my friend was telling me abt her god father and i was wondering, who are actually my relatives ah? my parents nv showed or intro me to any of them since young, so i nv know who they are..looks like i am really someone who lives in my own world who duno who are my cousins, aunties and uncles and relatives..perhaps they do exist, just tat i duno who they are, cos afterall i came from a broken family who has totally broken ties wif my aunties and uncles..aiya seriously wat is so gd over snatching the money left behind by my grandma..and so wat those aunties and uncles are damn rich..i serioiusly cant be bothered..i am just contended wif my simple life...i am not really sure of the story why things turned out this way since i was really very young tat time..
and i was counting how many close friends in mind, and i could count it in my 10 fingers..seriously its pathetic..to me those hi bye friends arent really close as compared to close friends cos we hardly can talk xin shi to them..and i feel tat as we grow older our friends tend to spend lesser and lesser time wif u cos we will be busy wif their work..as such, ppl like me who are still studying get to see them less often now as most of my friends have alrdy stepped out of student life and stepped into another phase of life, which is the work life..i guess only through often meet up then we can only maintain our close friendship..well, student life has its own gd thing and bad thing, it depends on how we perceive.honestly speaking, i was really happy when the 3 of us sat down at CAN A to talk rubbish cos its really damn long when we really sat down for dinner..i guess such simple meals just make ppl like me easily contended...at times, i also envy ppl who has a bonded family as i nv felt this kind of strong bonding in my family..it seems tat everyone is living in their own world in my family..bro is overseas for so long, and most of the time he cant be bothered to call bac..mum and dad nv really sat down for a real proper dinner also, so ppl like me cant be bothered also since everything in the hse lacks unity and bonding..and honestly speaking, i nv eaten a proper dinner before where all the 4 of us gets to sit on the table having a simple meal..tat's just my life..which explains why many at times i am just super heck care abt life..so now i am trying to change my way of thinking and improve for the better..
anw tmr is the camp..honestly speaking i gt the same grp as him and i was also offered to go another grp also..haha didnt know i "so popular"...lol..anw i dun really feel like being in the same grp as him cos i feel awarkward cos afterall i used to be his eyecandy, though not sure now is it or nt..and its pretty weird esp if i have to dance mass dance wif him cos i duno any other guy liao..i would rather find a stranger to dance wif, at least i wont see tat stranger again..aiya duno lah..wat's the reason of going this camp? i guess i am just bored needa expand my social network of friends...
and seriously this recess wk i am totally damn damn busy and screwed..got super alot of online lect to catch up wif..project and assigment..roar, this is damn irritating ! and i am forever lagged behind one..seriously uni life just sucks..
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