Friday, July 22, 2005

they sae i am a lesbian~

when we were walking to yishun library, on the way we talked alot..yh told me tat at times i give her the feeling tat i am a lesibiancos i always look at gers and not guys..and i always sae they chio and something like tat..i seldom comment on guys saying tat they are shuai..so they think tat i like gers more than guys..and so they think i am a les loh..ch also said tat last week, cos i was looking at some of my ger friends picts then he always asked me why i always look at gers pict and not guys..the ans is veri simple..becos i am not inerested in them plus they not tat eye catching to me..my definition of appealing is tat he no need to be shuai, he just need to be cute and always hav the smiling face, then sure will attract my attraction..those yan dao guys no longer seems yan dao to me liao..instead cute guys attract more of my attention..hehe..anywayi am 100% confirm tat i am straight..i still like guys, dun worry, its not like wat they sae loh..oh pls, if ever one day i were to bacome a lesibian, i will bang on the wall sia..but i 100% sure it wont happen..then we were also talking abt relationship..we share abt out exs story..both of us feel tat we ant a serious and lasting relationship...and not those short term realationship..if like tat i rather choose not to hav cos its like wasting both parties time.in the end, onli both parties will be hurt..i still want a guy who is devoted and caring towards me..i dun like guys being fierce..u will never know one day if he were to be angry, he might beat u up, so veri dangerous sia..anwyay i reali hope tat my parents can accept who i hav accepted to be my bf in future..hopefully everything will go smoothly.
and duno why my chem teacher always thought my name is serene..do i look like i got eng name like tat..i tok ppl always sae tat i look veri cheena..anyway she always like to catch my shoes, saying u not wearing the correct colour and all not shit..then i always reply, okok..this is the sec time liao..but who cares man..alot of ppl is wearing the incorrect colour..i am not going to change anyway, i shall let her sae until she sian then she will keep quiet liao..
duno why there is something tat kept hinting me tat i am going to see something but i didnt get the hint til on wed..actually i dun reali know how to express the feeling but everything just happened like tat..on tues, i saw a lr passing, then on wed, when i was walking towards yishun mrt, i saw a smae lr as his one except tat its black..then duno if it is concidence or wat tat near my house bus stop, i seem to see his lr passing by when i am inside the bus going to alight soon..seriously i duno if i hav seen it correctly or not cos my eye sight reali terrible..anyway if it is, then tat's quite qiao cos its hard to see any lr..seriously in my entire life, i didnt even see a single lr b4 til last yr..so seeing 3 lr in 2 days is consider alot liao and tat makes me feel weird tat someone is telling me tat i am going to see something related to lr, and it seems veri true..duno why sometimes weird feelings do come true at times..
then this few days i super tired and busy..i hav got too much hw to do cos i stack it there for veri long liao, still haven touched yet..seriously i am veri worried for my chem , at the rate she is teaching cos i dun understand wat she is talking abt..i am also starting to loss interest in maths liao beocs the teacher make me dislike maths now..yipiee, next yr can relax a bit cos no sch lectures but workshop..then heard tat there will be a makeup session then got hand on sessions on tat..wa seems not bad..i curious how will i look like in make up..haha..
kay todae then veri stupid loh must run 7 rounds the track cos i didnt wear proper attire..then they so sweet sia pei me run..haha..anyway i didnt complete all cos i reali veri tired sia..then todae maths lect the teacher teaching not bad, he also look quite shuai but he damn fierce sia, i so scared of him sia..kay to night still must go online to do gp cos tat mr heng sae tml deadline so die die todae nite must do finish..

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