~upset~

just got bac my chem and gp paper..chem pass but didnt do weel considering i am a retainee..gp comp paper pass by 2 marks, which is a miracle..think the next mon compre paper sure to fail cos last yr my lowest mark was 12/50 and highest was 18/50..so hopefully this yr can hit a least 20 like tat then at least not too bad..hai~reali scared then for maths i got F sia..reali F this time..this is the first time getting F in my jc life..cant beliveve tat maths tat is my best subject is the worst now..hai~~anyway the paper was reali difficult..test more on thinking qns rather than applying wat was learnt..i hate myself for giving away 9 marks..during exams cant reali concentrate cos must sit there for 3hrs sia then i reali canot tahan..then halfway i did daydream cos mt mind reali tired liao..plus most of the qns i leave blanks cos i lazy to think and do cos difficult mah..if easy then ok lah..i reali worried sia, duno whether this yr can i make it to j2..i reali veri veri STRESSED!!!!!!!!!!! sia..i did thought of duno wan to study anymore and contiue to be wat i was in the past..i reali veri tired sia, study hard yet get this kind of results..then wats the point of studying???i dun feel like studying anymore, feel like droping out of jc and go poly..i didnt reali talked much in sch cos i was quite sad..so i just kept quiet,,then my class change a new chem teacher..wa lao she suxs loh..why must we change our previous teacher..she so the impatient and lousy in teaching...she got this black face everyday..she her liao also sian diao...wa lao she going to teach us for the next 1.5 yrs..sway sia..
then last 2 days i was walking slowly from the park to my house cos i reali veri upset, then a guy eating ice cream came running behind me and laster ask me for my hp no cos he said his frien wanted to make frien with me..i was thinking :"siao why should i giv strangers my no..."after which i rejected him and i just walked off without turning bac cos i dun wan to think tat i wan to make frien with his frien..anyway i dun think they are gd ppl also..anyway the guy tat approach me is quite gd looking except tat complexion is bad..anyway i also not interested in this kind of ppl..all i know tat i am veri sad tat time..aiya i should hav "play" with him a while sia..i should hav say:" eh i dun hav hp, u wan my house no?" then i shall see his rxn..maybe he will faster zhao...haha..yeasterday then told my mum abt my maths..she didnt scold me..weird, but just sae me abit.,..actually i am quite happy tat i got B for physics..so far this is my best results..but the fact is tat i dun like physics!!!
and i got this qn to ask..is the power of luv reali tat great..why isit tat ester and yi guang became so pro..last yr he did motivate me to study but i am just too lazy to study..to many ppl they like veri rou ma like tat but i think to her, she will think tat he is a sweet bf..to sae the truth..there is still a thing in my mind..