crying out cos i feel hurt..

seriously i dun understand why cm sometimes use tat kind of attitude and tone to talk to me, when i didnt even sae bad things abt her..duno why i feels like she doesnt seems to like me like tat..i wont blame her for perferring yh over me becos everybody has their perferances..but why must she sae hurting things right on my face..last week she said tat "this hand writing is so ugly.."initally she tok tat the paper belongs to mine, so she said tat on purpose..but after tat she realised tat she make a mistake and she immediately appolgised to yh..at times, she also call me names..wa lao i was quite angry at times, wanted to quarrel with her but i try to control myself from doing tat..seriously i duno how long can i keep my temper..if one day i reali lost my temper then dun blame me ..seriously why such things always happens to me arh..i hav lose him already and i dun wan to lose another frien just like wat happened in sec sch..the days eating alone, keeping quiet the entire day and crying secretly in toilet, is a veri terrible feeling..the days when you beg for ur frien's forgiveness becos i throw temper at her when she appologised to me, is a veri veri terrible feeling also..seriously i dun wish to happen such things again between me and cm..she also dislikes yi guang..duno why..i think she is mad..she puposely sae mean things and steo his foot puposely becos she dun like him for being talkative..i think wat she does is veri gup fen..not i am helping yi guang..ppl didnt do anything wrong then why treat him like tat..seriously i feel veri hurt..so far i am hurt by 3 ppl altogether since i was young, not counting my mum, for wat they sae..seriously wat should i do??should i control my temper and let her sae all she wans or should i just throw my temper at her.hai~~~so troubled...anyway i am thankful tat my friends duno my blog's website then i can write and scold all i wan..seriously yh and cm duno my website but they do know tat i hav a blog..so todae is a new mon..lets hope tat everything will be a fine day..