~nearly wanted to puke out~

kq was telling me something yesterday morning abt wat THAT GUY told her in the msg and she did show me the msg..cm still sae tat i hear liao confirm will be veri happy in my heart.but not reali leh, i dun feel happy at all, feeling was just neutral..ya, it was some praise abt me..ont want to sae wat the praise was abt cos super pei seh and later ppl will puke lah..ya, i nearly puke after seeing the msg cos those things came out of him..if other guys sae those then maybe not as bad..i am known to him as the korean looking ger..actually heard alot of different version of wat nationality i came from..china used to be a decription for me during my sec sch..then when i come jc, ppl sae i look like some jap, or korean..but none of this is correct..i am a singaporean =)ya, i was thinking he is veri stupid leh, sae all this things to kq, then obviously she will tell me wat..cos we are always together as a grp..then duno why so sway happen to see him when we are going to the class..both me and yh was smiling but i gei siao never see him cos super pei seh lah, somemore i also duno him..ya, gei siao is the tatic i always use when i feel pei seh..
yesterday just got bac my gp, maths and physic paper..i laughed at my mark when i got my gp paper cos its reali super bad and lousy..7.5 marks out of 33 marks..i think add language mark in total will add up to abt 30% out of 100..seriously i want sad at all cos failing go is no big deal cos i always fail..abit surprising i am not the lowest in class cos got other ppl lower than me..at least i am not the worst..ya then still got bac my phyics paper, got the same mark as zr, both of us highest in class which is so qiao..its seems tat ppl from my cca all veri smart..not saeing tat i am smart..i abit slow and stupid, but this and last yr got study..2 yrs b4 never even study b4, tat why always get F..seriously i wont show my C, AO,AO results to my employer in future, i will just dump it aside, tat shall teach me a lesson for not studying and slacking so much..seriously i think tat a person attiude reali matters a lot, wether or not u can succeed reali determine on ur attitude and determination to strive..actually i think zr smarter than me cos some of the qns just happen to get correct by luck..actually i also duno how to do also..eg was one like they were asking me why i got correct but they got wrong when they draw the almost the same reaction force arrow..i told them tat becos i prefer right than left so i draw right loh..ya, tat's reali a crap ans but tat was wat i was thinking when i was doing the paper..sometimes luck reali matters alot in taking exams..ch kept "complaining" why i get better than him and the way we argue just sounds funny..haha..the other side of the class quite quiet, all those guai guys and gers sit there..i think i talk super loud loh, whenever i speak, teachers can always hear my voice in the background..
then afetr sch went to bugis with yh cos she wanted to buy some clothes, if not seldom will see me leaving sch so early..seriously there quite cheap..saw a few tat i like but i find it mafan to try cos hands were carrying lot of stuff, my tys, and some food tat i bought from the bugis street..tat day reali super crowded no matter where i go, abit sian to squeeze with those ppl..and ya, saw lots of chio bu and lots of ah beng..OMG, the chio bu reali damn chio cos their eyes super nice, they make their eyes until super black until its so nice..nowadays also quite crazy abt fake eyelashes..for the time being wont buy cos i seldom go out, spend most of the time in sch, maybe after i finish this yr, then i will learn more abt make up stuff from bessie..she like super pro loh..i reali know nothing abt this kind of things..
CNY coming, gonna have lots of time to rest and zhuo bo abit..ya can wake up later..think sat will have lots of ppl in chinatown, confirm wont have fresh air to breathe man,just dun like ppl to smoke cos it stinks!! duno this yr got fire crackers or not..reali look forward to it..yh was suggesting tat on the marathon tat day we go have "reunion dinner" in probably some restuarants, but just scared later veri ex then no money to pay then will have to wash their dishes for them..
saw ppl selling V day present le, wondered V day tat day will do wat hor..hmm..maybe gonna be like normal days?seriously cant reali rmb why i canot make it for the V day last yr with mr C,but ya i think i am always full of excuses one lah..actually tat time i do know tat he was quite unhappy abt it but i didnt want to bring this matter up cos just scared later will quarrel and strain the relationship..somehow i feel tat many things are just my faults..except once a while he mood not gd then abit fierce when he talk..ya i will try to learn from my past mistakes if it is within my means, becos somethings are just out of my control..i dun wish to happen tat either..
actually this few days have been thinking tat actually i can start to accept guys who are younger than me abt, probably abt 1 yrs old..duno why arh, last time reali against the idea of liking younger guys..actually i think i click better with younger guys cos they childish and i also abit childish then equals to more childish..haha..and duno why i dun reali dare to look straight into tat guy tat used to observe him from far, maybe pei seh ba..i will try to look somewhere else, not body but surroundings..
seriously i dun feel any chinese new yr atmosphere in me, duno why leh, maybe i dun celebrate ba..my house onli hang 2 lanterns then no more liao..food also veri limited..if got ppl come then we die already cos nothing much things to entertain them..kay, last of all, happy new yr to all..=) enjoy ur day..

~the sec time blogging todae~

wa todae veri "eng"..somehow after exam can go off liao then must stay bac for cca, then happens to end early just for me and lina..we are the latest to come and earliest to go off..actually we are supposed to do some poster stuff for publicy but after one hr i am still zhuo boing rather than doing the stuff tat i need to do know, tat is to find picts..but reali abit sian to do now..
my friends are working now..and i am studying..ya abit sian..cos j2 like no life..its worst than j1..i am thinking of working in shangarila after A..there everything also pao if u work late..got high CPF even though u work partime..bessie also wanted to join me too..probably will get veri close with her in future cos she just live opposite me..somehow actually pri we already know each other liao when i was taking sch bus, but i didnt know tat was her and i got no idea of her presence..actually her mum and my mum know each other and her mum still know something abt which i cant even rmb when i was young..
finally know who is maril bf..hmm..he look seriously beng to me..still thought he from jj, but its not..wondered how they get to know each other one?duno why i think he is a sweet talk person by judgeing on looks..somehow i feels tat he is person who change gf frequently just like changing clothes..dun reali like guys to sweet talk cos they sae one thing but mean one thing..being sweet and sweet talk is different..maybe being sweet will mean wat they sae.. btw maril look sweet and pretty in her prom dress, except abit "lou"..haha..but overall still pretty..

~exam has finally finished!!~

almost a week didnt touch comp liao..hands getting abit itchy le..ya, the 3 papers not reali easy..actually i dun reali know if i reali know how to do or not..or should i sae tat i have no confidence this time..ya..guess wat the past few days sleep reali veri veri little..yesterday onli 1hr 45 min and after go sch for exam le..the day b4 yesterday slept slightly more than 3 hrs..ya tat's pretty bad and surprising i am quite awake now..dun feel reali tired for the day even though i onli slep for 1hr 45 mins.
i got this reali bad habit tat i always like to do things veri veri slow, always taking my own sweet time to do things and study..just like the past few days..i always thought i got lots of time initally but later i realised tat i got no time to finish studying during the nite then i will start to panic..ya, tat's reali bad..and i cant stay focus for long..when i am studying i will tend to divert my attention to somewhere..past few days were thinking abt my sweet memories, and ya i did smile when i think of it..duno why leh..but tats the past, it shall just remain as a past history..i also did think of wat citeria i wan for my the other half maybe in another few yrs..ya thinking abit far stretch but my citeria always change one..maybe in a few months time i will like another pattern of guys..
i realised something of ppl who are always so slow in doing things, ya and tat's ppl like me..ppl who are always so slow in doing things tend to be more patience compared to those ppl who always like to rush here and there..not saying tat i am veri patience but i am slightly more patience than my group of friends..seldom will see me angry..
todae exam finish liao then slack for a few days..after tat chinese new yr will go out one day, rest of the time will spend on sleeping..reali lost quite a no of hours sleeping, looking like some panda now cos got dark rings..yuck!!kay, now still must go cca and tat's so sian..from 12 to 5!!!and duno go there for wat..sian man..think later will just day dream ba, pretending to listen but actually i am not..haha..ya got to go..

~i dun like my name..~

mr chua keep callin my name as "qing ming" and i reali dun like it!! somehow i heard some guys behind my class laughing at my name and yes i dun like it..
past few days were looking at this guy..duno why, dun think i like him but i just feel like looking at this guy from far apart..and yes he is 1 yr younger than me..he is just average looking, tanned, look sporty to me but duno if he is sporty or not..and actually we do know each other lah..but lately i want to avoid him, but instead i always keep bumping into him when i want to avoid him..why arh?the more we dun wan to see the person then the more god let u see him.. and tat's bad..
kay, dun think i have feelings for mr C anymore after i came to know tat thing..and yes i finally did it given my determination and i have finally decided to face reality le..i will just move on..even though i stil read hs blog, it doesnt mean tat i still like hjm, i just want to know what's happening around him, just like wat i always do with my friends..dun think i will ever meet him again..unless we decide to meet up one day. probably the break up was the last day we get to see each other le..last time not counted cos i also not sure if i have seen him or not..ya, but seriously even if i want to meet up. but i dun dare to open my mouth to ask him out to eat lunch or wat..maybe i shall just wait for this day to come ba..but yes, i do cherish this friend of mine afterall i did learn abit from him..bessie was saying tat i am abit matured yet childish and naive compared to others..haha..tat's was the first time i heard tat..yesterday the cca super sian loh..presentation abit sian, and there is 5 new comers, all quite nerd looking..ya there isnt any shuai ge..anyway they quite enthu lah, not like us,ya u know i know can liao..no need to sae..but seriously i think this cca quite pathetic lah, ya man, duno why i join this cca also..hai~
CNY eve going to chinatown at nite, probably to eat and buy stuff..maybe will try to dress up abit tat day cos afterall its new year so must look pretty abit..ya..maybe if got ppl invite me to their house to eat steamboat, then i will go..otherwise will stay at home to rest for the 3 days cos i think i will be quite tired after the block test..dun reali go visting cos there is some family problems between my relatives and us, some sort break ties liao..so i dun have much ang baos..sometimes even less than $30..and now got some fun raising in sch..
yesterday during the enrichment period was the time we zhuo bo..we are supposed to tell our buddy abt 3 things tat they duno abt us..then i talk crap loh..saying tat i am 18 this yr, going to be 19 soon..and 10 yr down will be married..they laugh but tat's wat i can taught abt mah..ya sound abit bull shit..miss lim wanted us to break the barrier of mixing around with onli our sex gender but seriously i find it difficult..afterall i am still closer to gers..u will often see me sticking to gers but now guys..unless tat guy is my bf lah, then different case..and i was made the PE rap, ya this is quite a nice post..i was one when i was in my jc1 in 2004..seriously why ppl always ask me to bve PE rap when i dun look sporty and on at all..most of time i like to nuah and slack..ya..
yesterday also saw mun shee, ya became prettier cos she dyed and permed her hair..just said hi to her then i we go liao cos she seems to be in a hurry, maybe to meet her bf?
tml no need to come sch..quite shiok lah, but this weekend is crucial cos got lots of things to study..need to cramp 3 subjects information in this few days..die sia..
hey ya, anybody interested to come my sch sort of "Funfair" on 11/2 can msg me..duno if is it going to be nice but there will be food on tat day but need to pay lah..yup tat's all..

~i reali dun like my name sia~

mr chua keep callin my name as "qing ming" and i reali dun like it!! somehow i heard some guys behind my class laughing at my name and yes i dun like it..
past few days were looking at this guy..duno why, dun think i like him but i just feel like looking at this guy from far apart..and yes he is 1 yr younger than me..he is just average looking, tanned, look sporty to me but duno if he is sporty or not..and actually we do know each other lah..but lately i want to avoid him, but instead i always keep bumping into him when i want to avoid him..why arh?the more we dun wan to see the person then the more god let u see him.. and tat's bad..
kay, dun think i have feelings for mr C anymore after i came to know tat thing..and yes i finally did it given my determination and i have finally decided to face reality le..i will just move on..even though i stil read hs blog, it doesnt mean tat i still like hjm, i just want to know what's happening around him, just like wat i always do with my friends..dun think i will ever meet him again..unless we decide to meet up one day. probably the break up was the last day we get to see each other le..last time not counted cos i also not sure if i have seen him or not..ya, but seriously even if i want to meet up. but i dun dare to open my mouth to ask him out to eat lunch or wat..maybe i shall just wait for this day to come ba..but yes, i do cherish this friend of mine afterall i did learn abit from him..bessie was saying tat i am abit matured yet childish and naive compared to others..haha..tat's was the first time i heard tat..yesterday the cca super sian loh..presentation abit sian, and there is 5 new comers, all quite nerd looking..ya there isnt any shuai ge..anyway they quite enthu lah, not like

~This sun going to take money~

this sun gonna take $300 from the government becos i was within the top 25%of the cohert..ya man then my dad was asking me whether i want to invest these money into the stock market and i think i am going to take a portion of the money and give him to invest on the stock market..anyway i do pity him cos he got knowledge but he no money to invest so i will lend him some..ya, weird why am i so nice nowadays..and my mum dun allow him to touch my brother money cos she sae tat he need it for future use when he want to be a doctor..ya this was she said but will it come true?tat's hard to sae..
exam next week le..gosh..haven touch a single thing yet..tat's bad..think going to burn midnite oil soon..

~gp paper is just super diffcult~

yesterday gp paper is just super difficult, testing us on politcs..seriously i got no idea abt politics cos i feel its not my business and i am not interested in knowing wat is happening..i always read life and home, other than tat i dun reali read..so if ppl ask me abt entertainment news abt whoever artist, i confirm will know..haha..anyway i reali write crap on the test paper, think going to get 0 or 1 mark for this AQ..
todae run for some marthon and its 3km..and the place tat we ran past was super ulu, those farm areas, more like some rural areas..just came to know tat AVA is at yishun..always i was wearing the wrong things todae so canot run tat much, just scared tat later will happen some pei seh things..haha..ppl who are smart will understand wat i saying..after pe was reali tired cos long time never run le..actually i walk alot with cm rather than running..and todae my chem teacher is finally gone for half a yr, and it was replaced by mr chua..first lesson was nice and funny..he still rmb me and one thing is tat why cant he still get the pronunaction correctly arh, he still call my name as "Qing ming"..he sae can rmb my name veri easily..anyway he realised tat he like to call shank mr lau..yes instead he look matured, why do i feel like he look more and more fierce..seldom see him with a smile..duno why whenever his lesson i always laugh, todae practically the whole lesson was laughing away cos of some jokes tat he made on some ppl..i reali pity xin yi.. always kana made fun of becos of her mole..seriously i also have, but mine not veri big compared to her..haha..anyway i still feel tat his pace is abit fast leh..
anyway todae some guy in my cca sae tat our cca no chio bu then some more all so ugly, who will want to watch our "Magic show"..he mentioned some names but i guess its better not to mention online in case its sensitive to some ppl..i know and she know can liao..anyway i reali feel like beating him up cos he dare to sae ppl, why dun talk abt himself..he is neither gd looking wat still dare to sae so him..small boy go home and sleep lah, so mean to ppl..i shall be mean to him then..who ask him to sae my friend..just now in front of teacher still act so guai, everything is just a show..kay got to go le..

~ am i devoted~

bessie is reali a veri nice person..on tues, she called me to borrow some maths..tat day she thought tat i was sick cos my throat deosnt feel gd tat day as i was talking to her, then after tat she came to my house with a packet of strepsils..i was pretty touched by her, even though tat pkt of sweets doesnt cost much..i seldom see ppl so nice to me, even bought strepsils for me when my throat isnt feeling gd..haha, maybe tat's wat i call sincerity ba..price of gifts doesnt reali matter, most imptly is sincerity coming from the bottom of our heart..
yesterday went home with her again after cca..its just amazing tat we could talk abt mr C all the way from yishun to boon lay, since she was asking me abt him..i told her everything since i feel tat there is nothing to hide abt even though i was the one being dumped eventually..anyway tat was the past and i should just continue to be the current me..i told her abt how we break up and all those and she also sae she salute me becos of the way of breakup..why arh?i thought couples who nned to break up has to face to face, becos i feel tat it should be the correct way, instead of sending sms or whatever method of breaking up..seriously i duno wat's the norm of how to break up with a person before the break up, i just do wat i think and feel is correct..anyway if there would be a chance again in future, i will still do the same way..i shall just maintained this uniqueness of breaking up with a person..haha..maybe i am starting to know why does his relationship always so short..maybe i do know the ans..
she was saeing tat i look like someone who isnt devoted towards relationship, judging by loooks, but she said tat once she knows me well, she said tat i am actually quite a devoted person..haha, tat's onli true to some extent..i always sae this and tat guy veri handsome but i usually dont mean wat i sae..she was asking me if i would like such a nice guy like oys..hmmm..my ans is nope cos feelings is something hard to explain..like means like and dun like means dun like..no matter how gd he is, no feelings means no feelings..moreover i dun reali like guys to be younger than me..yh was saeing tat she predict tat i will take after my mother's path..haha, tat's hard to sae..imagine tat my parents age gap is 14 yrs old and they even manage to stay together until now, its condsider quite gd liao..
need to perform some "Magic show"..need to give my leader a reply by fri..seriously dun reali want to join leh cos lately going to be quite busy..got exams coming up in 1.5 weeks time, yet haven prepare yet..and this thing will be eating up lots of my time till 11 feb..but i dun know how to open my mouth to sae i dun wan cos afterall she is my friend..i am just scared tat i might hurt her feelings cos she is veri enthu in this..
anyway next week reali busy..maybe need to sleep lesser le..

~reali hope tat there will be a day mr C will talk to me again~

i was looking at wei jie picts..he reali changed alot..haha, became veri handsome now..there is a pict with yin mei and him, he was putting his hands around yin mei waist..haha, tat's quite sweet..abit surprised he so daring, not like the past wei jie tat i know.i was looking at their graudation picts..lots of ppl look chio..somehow feel abit sad, cos i haven graduate yet..but never mind, this yr i will go..yi hui reali became prettier le, just saw her graduation pict..kay, now i am starting to leave long hair then by the time graduation day will have wavy hair,,haha..one thing i realised is tat make up reali do make lots of difference..lots of them look chio and sweet,,but one thing i dun like to make up cos it will just spoil my complexion..gosh, todae chem lesson sucks..she just talk like some machine gun, as if i understand like tat..but they sae after some time mr chua will take over..yes, hopefully they quickly change her..and i can get bac the teacher tat used to teach me but tat time i didnt cherish him..surprising tat shank and me are in the same class!!but he always never turn up..duno why..maybe he too pro liao le until can skip lesson..
i have sorted out my feelings and thoughts le..i will give them my blessing..reali..even though there is some slight feelings for mr C, but I believe tat time will help me forget him plus my determination..hopefully we are still friends, who will still talk openly like wat I usually do with my close friends and not those “hi-bye” friends and hopefully not strangers anymore..ya, tat’s wat I have to sae..seriously this few days has been doing some serious thinking, it seems tat I have reali grown up abit..i am going to be 19 soon..in a blink, I will reach early 20s le..i am still wondering aimlessly..i have no idea wat exactly I want in future and wat exactly I wan to study in future..i think maybe after “As” reali need to do some serious planning and work towards wat I reali want my future to be..somehow I feel tat my thoughts have become more matured as compared to the past qm..in the past I dun think of such things cos maybe just cant be bothered..my failure in my studies indeed did make me awake and stop being so slacked..seriously tat was my worst setback I got ever since I was young, next was failure in relationship..2004 in my most unlucky yr cos I was retained and at the same time my piano gd 8 exam fail..anyway I guess mr C indeed did make me became more matured in terms of thinking..somehow I did learn something from him and wana sae thank you to mr C..
in 3 months time going to be 19 soon..the so called 18 yr old will be gone sooon..sigh..i am getting old..even jia he thought tat I am 20 something liao..anyway do I look tat old?and he is graduating this april in ntu..tat’s fast, I think he stay together with us for 2 yrs le..anyway he is 6 yrs older than me, but why does he look so old arh? tat’s weird..kay, this yr dun reali hav much wish..just hope tat tat mr C can start talking to me again, treating me as one of his friends and nothing else and hopefully everything in j 2 will go smoothly and blessed me with gd health cos nowadays keep falling sick..i think I am not as fit as last time le..this few days I have been thinking tat indeed I dun make a gd gf..mr C is always there whenever I need him and I am always not there when he needs someone..hopefully can reali see him steeping onto the red carpet in a few yrs time and maybe stay happily ever after..now, I think I truly understand wat’s the meaning of luv after this 2 yrs of learning..yh wanted to introduce some guy to me but I am not interested now cos just not in the mood to engage in relationship now and its not the right time now..the failure has made me scared of luving again..
this few days dun reali have much appetite, not sure why but I dun think its due to mr C..and this few days has been quite sincere in praying even though I dun reali believe tat my god exist..somehow I just want someone to listen to my prayers..
guess wat todae I saw ac’s ex gf at jp went I was walking along some shops..intially I still thought I see wrongly cos my eye sight is reali bad..then later I decided to be kpo abit, I turned bac and walked bac to where I see them, pretending to look at something else but actually looking at them..she seems to be shorter than I expected..still thought she veri tall sia..and I did noticed tat she speaks Chinese and she has got a super sharp voice, and it sounds weird to me..and there is this guy , same height with her walking quite closely together but they are not holding hands..so I was wondering are they couples?but one thing tat I am certain tat the guy I see in the pict is different from wat I saw plus he got highlight his hair..somehow I was laughing inside my heart cos its just too coincidence tat I happen to meet her at nite, somemore she duno me yet I do know who she is..
todae’s gp test is just too difficult..dun even understand wat the entire passage is talking abt, even the main points, which is veir bad..passage talking abt globalization, but wat the heck is globalization and duno some abt politice stuff?it just make me turn off once I read the passage..anyway most of the qns I just anyhow do lah..and this thur got a gp test AGAIN!!! Oh man, tat’s so sian..
now then I realized tat teachers also use friendster..my maths teacher added me and I was pretty shocked cos I thought teachers wont do such bo liao things..i thought tat they got far too much things to do liao..anyway I reali like his car..oh gosh, it looks reali nice and polished..and just realized tat he got a gf!!cos his status was in a relationship..but I was wondering why he isn’t married yet arh given tat he looks old le plus he reali veri old liao..

~a deeply and shattered heart has came to realised one thing~

yesterday couldnt just concentrate on anything, i was tossing and turning around my bed after i came to know abt wat has happened..practically i canot sleep for the whole nite, i think i onli slept for abt 2 hrs yesterday..sigh..the entire day i was just thinking and thinking..indeed i do know tat i cant expect mr C to stay single forever, afterall he is a guy plus he is quite "old" le..but just duno why my heart breaks whenever i knew tat mr C belongs to someone else le within a short time..one thing tat i am veri certain for now is tat mr C heart's has changed..at least now i do know tat i dun place tat much of importance in his heart in the past..somehow i feel tat being too devoted and planting too much feelings isnt gd..instead sometimes it will bring more hurt to a person..at least now, i can tell my heart to stop having feelings for mr C le, but i need some time..maybe it will take another 1.5 yrs to do so..i also duno..it reali depends on my determination to do it..anyway i do learn something..luv is something tat is 2 sided..if 1 is willing to give everything to the other, however if the other wouldnt want to accept it, it will be pointless and useless to put in so much effort in building up a relationship..i am a person who are always not serious with things, but whenever it comes to relationship and work, probably i will try to be more serious..in the past i wasnt serious in my studies, i slacked all the way, and end up i got retained..so this is wat i got for slacking..i should sae a punishment ba..but life in j2 now seems veri difficult..i am starting to learn new things..cant reali absorbed tat much cos i am a slow learner..
todae, i was reali sad..i just refused to talk becos i was pretty upset abt tat thing..bessie could see through me and she was asking wat exactly happened..i didnt reali tell her much, cos i knew tat this is something tat friends cant help u..onli u have to help urself..seriously even up to now i dun understand why is it tat others can easily forget abt their ex and moved on to find another new luv, but why just cant i do the same thing???maybe i think i hold on too tightly to my past relationship and i just refused to forget things..maybe tat explains why i am so sad when i knew abt tat..
indeed yesterday i feel like crying after i knew abt tat thing cos i just felt like a knife stabbing right into my heart..ya tat's how i feel..sometimes i think tat maybe mr C was once used to be my first bf, tat's why it made it veri difficult for me to forget him..
i reali think tat telling all these to my blog is better than my friends cos they always sae the same thing..at least i can find ways to let out my feelings..seriously i do feel quite hurt, is it wat it surpposed to be..i guess the onli way to stop thinking so much is to drown myself in studies...after telling all this, i feel lighter now and the impact of hurt is no longer tat painful as compared to yesterday..but seriously i hope tat i mr C marriage will invite me in a few yrs time for his marriage cos i abit curious how he will look like when he got married and how chio his wife will look..hopefully tat will be his final gf..
ya our sch is organising duno wat and we are surpossed to come out with a plan on tat day..our class has decided to wash cars..i was quite shocked when i heard tat cos its not easy at all...it looks easy but exactly it is not..cos i tried washing and waxing a few cars b4 when i was in jjc..and tat's all for todae..

~sigh..wat should i sae..~

sigh...currently i feel heart broken when i knew something..maybe i haven forgotton everything..maybe through this busy yr, studies will help me to pass time and forget abt everything in mind...hopefully once i finish my A levels, it will become a new start for me and start everything afresh..even though its a brand new 2006, i guess afterall its not a new start..hai~~duno how to sae also..sad is all i can sae now..its been like so long le, maybe its time tat a new should replace the old, but somehow i still feel sad..sigh~~i guess as time goes by, i will try to accept the fact ba..facing reality is always so cruel, tat's all i can sae..
just got bac my gp promos scipt..eassy quite badly done..fail by 2 marks and compre just pass by half mark..and tat's bad..and currently my gp teacher always like to "eat snake"..like tat go on also duno how..confirm canot pass gp in A..she didnt teach much le..phy teacher still alright lah, except tat she is weird..anyway i am reali gona stuck with tat chem teacher for my rest of jc life..i ask other teacher if i can drop out of band 1 and go band 2 or 3 instead, but she sae canot..so no choice..i guess i reali have to get use to her..hopefully i can get kick out of her class and get to transfer to another class..anyway this few days quite free, not much things to do, except tat i haven revised for my blog test..sian man..study and study...

~2006 HAS STARTED~

sch starts le and it reali sucks cos i dislike my new chem teacher cos she talk super fast and i catch no ball..i was just dreaming away..it seems like i am doing wat i am doing when i was in my chem class in 2004 when mr chua was teaching our class..die man..i reali feel like transfering out of this band 1 class..even though the name band 1 sounds nice, but the teacher sucks..so no point..in time to come my results confirm will be affected..
starting of sch got some hw le..so sian...need to do some reading first, if not i canot understand..wa lao reali feel like complaining leh, cos i just cant take it..i shall complain to my mum abt my this lousy teacher..
todae came to sch then some ppl sae why i suddenly slim down so much and look veri pale..johnson was still asking if i got go for any slimming centre..aiya, of cos no..i was quite sick recently..even up to now, i still haven recover from my cough and i think it has lasted for almost a week le..my mum got ask me to see doctor but i am just too lazy to see any doctor, just grab some medicine to eat it..todae our class got 4 new comers..one guy was quite cool..i mean his name..and this yr j1 not alot leh..saw lots of ah bengs and but chio bu and yan dao..this guy was pretty gd to me todae but i duno his name cos duno why he help me take graph paper and the cups when i also never sae i need it during chem pract..
the day b4 new yr when to orchard cos got some relatives come then muct pei them..and its so sian..she keep shopping for things and i am so sian cos those clothes she look at are veri matured and not suitable for my age to wear..she gave me lots of those braclets and neckacles until i got so much..dun think i am short of anything now..
sian tml its a new day..and i dun look forward it..cos its just too sian..
and i got a bad new man..my brother realised tat i have got a blog but he didnt know my website..he keep threatening to tell my dad abt it tat i have a blog but i decided to stay calm so tat he cant threaten me and i have succeded..haha..

my true colour

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