Monday, January 09, 2006

~reali hope tat there will be a day mr C will talk to me again~

i was looking at wei jie picts..he reali changed alot..haha, became veri handsome now..there is a pict with yin mei and him, he was putting his hands around yin mei waist..haha, tat's quite sweet..abit surprised he so daring, not like the past wei jie tat i know.i was looking at their graudation picts..lots of ppl look chio..somehow feel abit sad, cos i haven graduate yet..but never mind, this yr i will go..yi hui reali became prettier le, just saw her graduation pict..kay, now i am starting to leave long hair then by the time graduation day will have wavy hair,,haha..one thing i realised is tat make up reali do make lots of difference..lots of them look chio and sweet,,but one thing i dun like to make up cos it will just spoil my complexion..gosh, todae chem lesson sucks..she just talk like some machine gun, as if i understand like tat..but they sae after some time mr chua will take over..yes, hopefully they quickly change her..and i can get bac the teacher tat used to teach me but tat time i didnt cherish him..surprising tat shank and me are in the same class!!but he always never turn up..duno why..maybe he too pro liao le until can skip lesson..
i have sorted out my feelings and thoughts le..i will give them my blessing..reali..even though there is some slight feelings for mr C, but I believe tat time will help me forget him plus my determination..hopefully we are still friends, who will still talk openly like wat I usually do with my close friends and not those “hi-bye” friends and hopefully not strangers anymore..ya, tat’s wat I have to sae..seriously this few days has been doing some serious thinking, it seems tat I have reali grown up abit..i am going to be 19 soon..in a blink, I will reach early 20s le..i am still wondering aimlessly..i have no idea wat exactly I want in future and wat exactly I wan to study in future..i think maybe after “As” reali need to do some serious planning and work towards wat I reali want my future to be..somehow I feel tat my thoughts have become more matured as compared to the past qm..in the past I dun think of such things cos maybe just cant be bothered..my failure in my studies indeed did make me awake and stop being so slacked..seriously tat was my worst setback I got ever since I was young, next was failure in relationship..2004 in my most unlucky yr cos I was retained and at the same time my piano gd 8 exam fail..anyway I guess mr C indeed did make me became more matured in terms of thinking..somehow I did learn something from him and wana sae thank you to mr C..
in 3 months time going to be 19 soon..the so called 18 yr old will be gone sooon..sigh..i am getting old..even jia he thought tat I am 20 something liao..anyway do I look tat old?and he is graduating this april in ntu..tat’s fast, I think he stay together with us for 2 yrs le..anyway he is 6 yrs older than me, but why does he look so old arh? tat’s weird..kay, this yr dun reali hav much wish..just hope tat tat mr C can start talking to me again, treating me as one of his friends and nothing else and hopefully everything in j 2 will go smoothly and blessed me with gd health cos nowadays keep falling sick..i think I am not as fit as last time le..this few days I have been thinking tat indeed I dun make a gd gf..mr C is always there whenever I need him and I am always not there when he needs someone..hopefully can reali see him steeping onto the red carpet in a few yrs time and maybe stay happily ever after..now, I think I truly understand wat’s the meaning of luv after this 2 yrs of learning..yh wanted to introduce some guy to me but I am not interested now cos just not in the mood to engage in relationship now and its not the right time now..the failure has made me scared of luving again..
this few days dun reali have much appetite, not sure why but I dun think its due to mr C..and this few days has been quite sincere in praying even though I dun reali believe tat my god exist..somehow I just want someone to listen to my prayers..
guess wat todae I saw ac’s ex gf at jp went I was walking along some shops..intially I still thought I see wrongly cos my eye sight is reali bad..then later I decided to be kpo abit, I turned bac and walked bac to where I see them, pretending to look at something else but actually looking at them..she seems to be shorter than I expected..still thought she veri tall sia..and I did noticed tat she speaks Chinese and she has got a super sharp voice, and it sounds weird to me..and there is this guy , same height with her walking quite closely together but they are not holding hands..so I was wondering are they couples?but one thing tat I am certain tat the guy I see in the pict is different from wat I saw plus he got highlight his hair..somehow I was laughing inside my heart cos its just too coincidence tat I happen to meet her at nite, somemore she duno me yet I do know who she is..
todae’s gp test is just too difficult..dun even understand wat the entire passage is talking abt, even the main points, which is veir bad..passage talking abt globalization, but wat the heck is globalization and duno some abt politice stuff?it just make me turn off once I read the passage..anyway most of the qns I just anyhow do lah..and this thur got a gp test AGAIN!!! Oh man, tat’s so sian..
now then I realized tat teachers also use friendster..my maths teacher added me and I was pretty shocked cos I thought teachers wont do such bo liao things..i thought tat they got far too much things to do liao..anyway I reali like his car..oh gosh, it looks reali nice and polished..and just realized tat he got a gf!!cos his status was in a relationship..but I was wondering why he isn’t married yet arh given tat he looks old le plus he reali veri old liao..

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