sun i felt tat i am very zai man cos i slept in the toilet instead of working..since hm is not around to work with me, then i feel reali kinda sian la to work continuously for 10hrs alone and moreover i was late 1.5hrs for work and by the time i reported for work its already lunch time le..so if lets say i were to work start at tat time, it will be super obvious tat i am super late for late so i decided to hide at one corner of the hospital to wait for the next shift to start which is 3pm.so meanwhile for tat 3hrs plus wait, i roam around the hospital finding a place where its not obvious tat ppl can see me or rather i wan to find a place where no one could recognise me..but somehow luck is not on my side lo..cos i kept on bumming into one of the supervisors tat are in charge of us.duno he knows me or not lo.then i have to pretend i never see him and kept on lifting my head down cos i dun wan him to see and recognise me..eventually i managed to find a cosy sofa seats just outside the clinic to sleep but somehow i got irritated by ppl in the hopsital cos they kept on asking me to put on the mask then i damn zzz le..wa lao i wan to sleep lei..put on mask then very hard to breathe lo..so i got irritated man so bo bian decided to find a clean and nice smelling toilet to sleep into the toilet bowl..somehow its not reali tat bad sleeping there lei cos someone the toilet is kinda ulu then no one will go this toilet so i can stay in there to sleep for very long..so when 3pm clocks i then got out of the toilet and started my sec shift..so meaning i MIA for one shift..haha..after which went to start working, but tat day seriously no ppl de lo..so super shoik cos pay also double but stand down there slack nia.got to knew quite a no of ppl tat day too and heng got them then times passes kinda fast..else i sure bored like hell..
then mon me and hm was assigned to work in the dental centre..wah there reali super slack man..can slack whole day and nobody to supervise..super gd man..but we dun like the auntie and the daughter who is paired us with us to work together cos both of them damn bossy..always like to boss us around..wa lao i not first day at nuh work la..so pls stop treating us like newbies and asking us to do this and tat for u..tat first day at dental reali sian lo cos the afternoon shift ppl all so lazy and eat snake de lo..no initative to help ppl at all de lo..esp tat guy who is working with us..always sit down there to look at wat we are doing nia..wa lao wat kind of guy is this man..so ungentleman man..at least try to help out when we busy la instead of staring of us at wat we are doing.but anyway sec day was better cos we got to work with 2 guys tat are reali nice..i think practically they did all the work for us and we were just there to zhuo bo and relax nia..hehe..cos me and hm decided to let the 2 guys settle the "booth" liao cos the day before we kana tat lousy guy then do until super tired man..so after tat we smart liao..let the guys be the one tat help out with the "booth" for everything..but thank god got tat 2 guys cos with them time somehow managed to pass faster..one of them was quite a joker and initally we thought he was a malay cos he super tanned due to playing soccer..then along the way we kept on guessing each other age then he overestimate my age lo...when i hear tat then i damn sian liao..duno why now i feel like being 18 or 19 yrs old..22yrs old sounds abit old liao man..but both of them are 2 yrs older than me..no wonder i felt tat they were somewhat different from tat lousy guy who is the same age as me..but tat day this "malay" Guy damn funny la so he ate my fried tapioca without realising tat i already eaten half of it cos he thought tat i tear it instead of bitting it..so when i remembered tat and told him tat, he has already eaten in his stomach..tat moment, everyone of us laughed like siao lo cos never seen such a noob guy before..worst still he stil can forget to take his bag home when we are off work til i ask them "whose bag is it?" wah tat day he reali damn pei seh like anything lo cos he somehow throw his face in front of me and hm..haha..so now whenever i see him i kept on laughing at him.. ;)
then tues nite when i got home duno why i suddenly got very emo..cos suddenly everyone is attached lately within a short period of time and i kinda feel the pressure lo.now thinking bac i finally understand the pressure tat my ex was facing tat time...last time i am not like tat de, but duno why now i am starting to feel like this..perhaps i am reali not young anymore..need a companion to pei me for life..somehow everyone has found their happiness le, but i have yet to find my mr right and now everyone has lesser time for me cos everyone have their other half to pei.somehow tat kind of feeling reali makes me feel sad and empty lo...and worst still when i heard tat ans and sentence from my friend i was kinda upset though i somehow know the ans liao..initally still intended to be nicer to him de, but looks like now i dun wan le..in fact now i tell myself tat i should wake up my idea liao and stopped being so chi qin anymore cos so chi qin also no use..eventually at the end of the day if the guy still dun like u then u will feel more sad..somehow i feel tat i am the super chi qin type though i always like to look at guys, but tat's just eye candy..not those serious type de..but once i get serious i will be super chi qin..i waited 1.5yrs for an ans from mr XXX but sad to say at the end of the day i got no ans and through this 1.5 yrs i have to meant my broken heart myself and its seriously not easy when u are deeply in luv with this person..somehow he is the one tat appears in ur life everyday and one day he just totally stepped out of ur life..how would u feel? tat period of time i felt tat i lost everything..time just seems very hard to pass without him cos i think i too chi qin liao,hoping tat one day things will revert and turn back time..but hope was dashed and i felt totally to the rock bottom at tat period of time..i couldnt study and my mind was just filled with regrets for not cherishing him earlier on when he is around..now thinking bac i think i am reali not fit to be a gd gf..(someone who didnt even bother to care and concern for him)..tat's why now i told myself tat i will change my personality and show more care for my next one cos i dun wan to filled with regrets again..but now i have finally stepped out of his shadow..he has found his mrs right and i am happy for him..;)
though now i kept on saying tat i wan to give up on him liao cos i feel super tired le when everything dun goes well..but heart still cant die lei..haiz..what can i do to stop liking him? i dun think he has super gd personality and character either, looks is just average..but just duno why i still prefer him out of the guys i like before..and he kept on appearing in my life how can forget him..at least my ex did disappear slowly and get out slowly of my life, and tat's how i learn to forget him..but this one abit hard cos he kept on appearing in my life..haiz..wat can i do to forget him? unless he stay far away from me then perhaps i will stop my liking for him..sigh..duno la..first time like a person for so long other than my ex..qm qm ! I SERIOUSLY NEED TO WAKE UP MY IDEA ! one of my guy friend always say " Now wat era liao, gers can chase after guys liao la.." but my stand will still hold cos i think gers who chase guys will feel very xin ku and might not get their happiness eventually..so moral of the story is to wait for the right one to jio u..got once my friend did ask me before? why is it tat one should always like the other half more when ur other half might not like u as much..cos its kinda unfair..so my ans to him was" luv just works this way..cant be help.." of cos it would be gd tat both parties can luv each other as much as they do, but sometimes we just need to face up to reality tat things are not always so smooth sailing...and so tat nite my guy friend was chatting with me for a few hrs on msn..he thought tat i feel very sad no one likes me,but ITS NOT WAT I AM THINKING RIGHT THERE..its the pressure tat i am feeling (the pressure that my ex felt tat time)..so tat nite chatted with him til 1.30am and next day need to wake up at 5.40am for work...zzz so i onli slept for a few hours nia..sian la..
but wed i felt better..no more emo feeling liao..duno why..perhaps i thought it through liao..so chi qin also no use de unless miracle happens..which i doubt so..haiz..then wed i was assigned to work at kent ridge ring and morning was super busy cos onli me and one ger was in charge of taking temperature, but my job more relax than her cos i onli need to write the temperature on the sticker nia..whereas she need to keep on changing the temperature plastic thingy..but afternoon super slack lo..practically did nothing tat afternoon..;) today was worst cos govt suddenly announced tat we are bac to yellow zone so the hospital cut down alot of the tracking system liao which is super gd la..no need to wear tat super thick mask liao..onli need to wear surgical mask, which is better for our complextion..haha..but today suddenly felt tat there are too much staff liao..in fact overstaff today so many ppl are zhuo-boing around..then get to know this young supervisor which is 1 yr older than me..so qiao tat he is lab guy friend..and today when i was working, my student mum called me and i got reali scared to pick up the call cos i am afraid to talk to student parents de..so after thinking wat things to ask, then i decided to call bac..heng wat she wanted to tell me was just to change timing for her 2 daughters..haiz..now i got 2 students to teach.kinda not bad la cos more easy money to earn..but somehow i dun feel like teaching the younger sis lei..i abit dun feel like earning her money lo..her mum told me tat her daughter wants me to teach cos i very nice..but seriously speaking i dun think i am gd at teaching la..i am more of leanient and slack la..;)
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