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anyway zai rong (finally rmb his name liao after so many times)..called me just to sae hello..this is not the first time liao..sometimes i do feel veri tired saying so many hello to him..sometimes just feel irritated..and i will think huh is he abit too "friendly" liao..
he gav me a feeling tat i should avoid him as far as possible..duno how should i explain the feeling but it seems weird..duno weather is my institution correct or not..but i shall see..maybe i will onli talked to him during cca time..
and milli ex bf is slyvester (the singapore idol)..find it hard to believe but is the truth cos there is a pict online on the friendster tat chows tat they are together b4..but duno why she still put tat pict online when she is attached now..maybe she just wan to show off ba..anyway he still looks ugly now..still got the ah beng look ..no diff from the past..
then wed got a slight fever and headache..duno why..now ok liao..initally wanted to go home to rest but since most of the things are with me then i should go..anyway cm lost her nude pict which she saved in the cd..but when she realised tat it is already gone in the cd drive..but surprisingly she got it bac the next day,..wondered who took it..i think most proberly is a guy cos tat time when we were using comp..all are guys..no gers are around..so i think tat guy must hav seen the picts and must be drooling again..and she hor reali hopeless lah..think she too zhi lian of herself and all her friendster picts so the...she can reali attract alot of pervert guys..then i say to her"pls lah..can u pls put something more decent."then think she likes to see bikini gers..cos whenever i am looking at my friends then she will look to see big char siew bao gers..sometimes i think is she a homosexual..
was talking to zai rong through cca cos lina too quiet liao then got nothing to talk to her..we were talking abt "HL milk" and full of oil (angela)..but i am not the one who gac the nick name cos i not so bad to giv such hurting names..now the most hot topic for guys is the full of oil.,.anyway its funny lah..
then yesterday went to northpt since they dragged me there..yh needs to buy earing while cm needs to go buy photo bk..so i was just dragged there cos initally wanted to stay in sch..later then we went to waston..tat trip is the most interesting cos i learned alot of dirty stuff..was seh like tat in future my brain will be polluted liao..and i finally know what is a tampon liao..last time ask him wat is it and he told me to ask my mum..so now i know..then intersetingly now there is a new kind id condom tat can vibrate..hei interesing sia..now 2 for $9.90..wa so the ex..but weird how to they vibrate ah..ponders..hmm..anyway since i was so curious tat i took up the box to take a closer look..then sway man got a guy suddenly walk past me then i so pei seh..was blushing like hell sia..then later i put bac then cm and i were laughing..after tat we went to mac to study since its still early..then ms ang sae tat those ppl who went for obs last yr will not be going this yr..instead they will be going to raffles marina for a camp..dun think i wan to go obs cos like a torture leh..canot bath for 5 days plus later will hav sandflys and all those stuff..maybe go the raffles marina..then ms ang said tat maybe we can diao dao da yu over there..hehe..then immediately cm so awake liao..aiya she for ever likes to see cute guys,,wa thinking of the nice food over there..wa yummy..
then hor sometimes i think i am still veri childish given tat i am now 18 yrs old liao..maybe its time tat i should be more matured and start thinking critically..veri soon i will be and adult in 3 yrs time and veri soon i will get married..tats fast..last time ms ang once told us b4 tat she used to sae tat she wans to get married inli if she reaches 27..but later duno how ended up marrying at 25..so will my plans changed.,.hmm..duno also..see if the guy is worth to marry earlier or not..if not then dun marry at most..i will lead my carefree lifestyle..and hor my way of thinking is too simple liao..how should i upgrade myself so tat my way of thinking will be more complicated..sometimes its gd to be a simple ger with no motives..but if i continue to like tat veri soon ppl will climb over me went i go to the society to work which will be in 1.5 yrs time..so how??seriously i am veri scared to trust ppl now esp guys..cos i reali duno wat they sae is the truth or are they lying..i just canot see through them..neither am i smart to know wat they are thinking..
todae feels so sleepy in class..want paying attention to wat mr sim was talking abt..anyway the maths hor reali canot make it liao..hai~~~study yesterday still duno..duno why..sometimes i do feel like i am reali useless leh especially todae..i cant even do a paper tat i hav learnt..some more i am a retainee..sometimes the new j1 can even do better than me..hai~~i reali veri tired liao..my brain is reali not working anymore..i just think tat everything is against me..i reali feel veri sad..and reali feel like crying..i am going to breakdown veri veri soon..so how??indeed i see improvements..but sometimes i can reali do veri veri bad..duno why also..but i am happy tat the last chem test i got 97% fot the test!!!this is the first time i do so weel for chem..but hor still i feel veri sad..anyway my mum just feels happy tat i get such a gd grade for chem..now seldom see her scold and nag me liao..cos i always like to sae "how old am i liao..i know wat i doing lah..no need u to tell me.." this is my favourite words tat i like to sae to her,,anyway..duno lah..i still feels veri veri sad..weekends are coming but yet i dun feel happy at all..think tat weekends are worst..i will start to imagine things again..wondered when can i get over it..cm asked me to find a bf..but i dun wish to go into such rubbish again..never ever again in my jc life..unless tat guy can reali touched me again whoever he is..i am reali tired to sae abt such things liao.,.so in future dun wish to talk abt such things cos i cant be bothered anymore..