after i went home, i quarrel with my mum..this time reali big quarrel..she was so angry with my maths results tat she scolded me..i just canot stand her loh..scolding me once is enough..i just take it tat she is scolding the wall and i will ignored tat..i just canot stand her for scolding me non stop tat she keep shouting..she asked me to jump down the window if i not happy or i can choose to leave the house if i wan to..i was so bu shuang tat i shouted bac saying tat"now u treat me like tat then in future be prepared tat u will be sent to the old folk home..and u better be knocked down by a car..even if u die , i wont cry for u wan.."seriously i said tat in a fit of anger, i dun mean wat i sae..i know tat i am veri rude and bad, but cant be helped..she keep saying tat i am hopeless, stupid, and sleeping..but in fact i hav tried my best liao..anyway i just hate her cos she asked me to be a prostitute, no such mother would sae such things to their daughter loh..duno why my dad eyes so blind, like this kind of women..then she was so angry with wat i said tat she wanted to beat me with my dad's belt and the bamboo stick used to hang clothes..then i throw the food on the floor to let her clear the mess..eventually, she didnt mange to hit me cos after tat i locked myself in the room..tat nite i had to go without food..had to live with water in my room..my brother wanted to leave some food for me but my mum asked him to throw away..so i just got no food to eat..sometimes i hate myself for being born in the family..other ppl families can be so happy yet my family is always quarrling and fighting..she said tat she wanted to call my teachers to disgrace me..fine loh..call all u wan..i am not scared..anyway is not totally my fault wat,..who give a damn..she always want to scare us by threatening tat she will jump down the window..but i wont fall for her tricks cos she has said tat since i was sec sch tat time..aiya cant bluff me..anyway yesterday she wanted to do tat, but i didnt bother abt her..i still stay in my room cos i know she dun dare one..afterall she just wan attention from my dad wat..then hor yesterday becos of her got headache cos i cry too much liao..wa lao waste my tears..
then todae, the maths lecture wasnt listening cos i dun even understand wat he is talking abt..anyway i think this topic die liao lah..must base on last yr memory to understand..later i having celebration for my classmate birthday, after which will meet tanu to go je for walk walk..long time never go there liao ever since tat thing happened..
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