my gp teacher was saying to me last fri, tat did i study veri hard lately cos my face has slimed down..seriously i haven been studying reali reali hard, but i am reali real veri tired, duno for wat reason and my neck and my whole body often aches..every since i came bac sch, i have been feeling reali tired and hardly get enough sleep..i also duno wat i am busy with, maybe my piano ba, cos usually after i go home have to play piano and after which i will be veri tired le, so i go sleep without doing any homework..weekend was just onli spending time playing piano..i reali did nothing but music and it take me 2 days to finish watever i need to study..and yes todae morning was my exam..so i woke up reali early to practise before i went for the exam..hopefully i didnt wake up my neighbours..seriously at the end of the exam, all i can sae is everything is gone case..the person outside the examination room asked me so this is the how many times u are taking?? i told him sec..he said tat its not easy to pass grade 8..some ppl can pass the first time but usually ppl will take more times..hai~~i am super sad when i stepped out of the examination room cos i played too much wrong stuff due to nervousness and i am just sway to get a strict examinator this time round cos he dun give enough time to let me think of ans and he expects everything to be answered in 3 secs..and i feel tat he is kind of impatient, judging from the expression tat he gave me..worst still i cant understand his english tat well cos his english is quite slang, so i requested nicely for him to speak slower..then i think he was giving me tat pissed look..from this, i think he will confirmed marked me down liao..and when i was going out of the room, i took a glance at my results since he didnt cover properly..wah, the marks tat i scored is way below passing mark...i reali canot imagine tat my best piece actually got the lowest mark and my lousiest piece actually scored better than my best piece..this is something tat i reali canot understand and how could it be tat i did worst than before when previously those pieces is i anyhow play de..so i told my parents abt it and they said tat are u sure that the grades belongs to u??probably it could be someone else?? aiya i duno lah..i am not scaring myself, most prob wat i see is correct..so my parents are totally no mood after i told them this..mum was scolding obviously cos she sae tat she spend so much money on it and i still canot pass (Not confirm yet) ..dad kept quiet, but i believe tat he also feel disappointed abt it..just tat dun wan to sae..hai~then how was i feeling? of cos no mood lah, cos i spend so much effort and time learning and i canot pass..my mind was so lost and no mood tat i ordered the wrong things when i was eating at coffee shop after the exam..dad was saying, so left this 3.5 months time..this time must reali piah now..hai~i also think so..this is something tat is not mission impossible, actually there is still time and it can be done if i put in lots of effort now..i am just veri veri tired now..at the rate i am going, veri soon i will burn out cos my body isnt feeling veri gd now..seriously i am veri veri demoralised over my piano exam and everything in life.. =(