~pls pray hard that my dad remains in gd health~

this few days ever since my dad says that something is not really right with his health then my mum everyday bad mood liao and keep snapping at people for no reason..i understand tat she is worried for my dad tat's why she is snapping at ppl for no reason now..but somehow i still think she should control her temper lo..i mean i am kinda fed up with her too la cos i dun think i have done anything wrong lo, but she kept on scolding me for no reason..and i understand tat she dun wan to lose a husband so soon, neither do i wan to have no father so soon..of cos i worried for my dad too la..but even though i am worried for my dad, i still need to continue on and live on with my life wat..cant expect to let my life stay stagnant right..even my dad take it postively since he says that when its time to go, he needs to go de..wah..i hear liao so sad man..cos i dun wan ppl who are dearest to me to leave me so soon ma..i mean he is such a nice father and yet heaven is so unfair to him by taking his life away so early..he still has lots of things haven done yet leh..he still haven get a chance to carry his grandchildren..etc..so i reali hopes tat he lives up to long ripe age man..and the jialat part is my dad has seen so many doctors liao and went to so many hospitals and yet none of the doctors can conclude why my dad keeps on bleeding when he urines..my dad said tat there could be quite a no of possiblies..one of them could be cancer..hai ~ when i heard tat my heart reali gt kinda upset cos this is something like an un-cureable and terminal illness..all i can do now is to pray hard that nothing serious happens to my dad now..kinda worry for his health lately...afterall he is so old liao and yet still need to earn a living for us..abit poor thing man..

then last sun suddenly gt so many ppl jio me out for gathering and meetings this week..duno why also..initally still wanted to nuah at home for a week to do nothing, but end up seems tat i need to step out of home liao..intially today was supposed to have 2 meet up session with friends de..one in the morning, the other was in the evening time, but later i didnt go cos was too tired and have something earlier on..evening time was supposed to go rock climb with them de, but i was worried for my dad health and wan to know his health results as soon as possible since he went to see doctor again, so i decided to cancel it liao..actually i am already outside and ready in my attire liao to go meet them, but last min i changed my mind and decided to head home..so now i feel abit guilty towards my friends liao for last min not going for it..haiz..and thur and fri also booked liao..so only left weekends for myself to nuah liao..thur going to sentosa again for beach picnic..initally was kinda sian to go there since i went there last week liao then now this week going again..so of cos will feel abit sian la..but no choice la, since its a class meet up session, i think i should go then since i long time never see some of my ex JC classmates liao..fri going east coast to roller blake and cycle..yipee..time to tan again..ok tat time i go sentosa came bac didnt reali gt tan at all..so i half sian liao..my legs still as fair as before..arms at least gt darker abit, but still not as dark as i wan..heng my face didnt gt reali tat tan..i think now the tan is just nice.. ;)

and talking abt expectations, my parents did ask abt my results but apparently they didnt say much abt my results, so means ok to them liao..actually this time i think i did quite ok la..not too lousy neither is it gd either after averaging it out..but my life sci reali quite cui la..tat is the subject tat i am lousiest at and i expected tat i will get a C+ grade for tat too..heng next sem i not going to see tat liao..but next sem i am going to touch computing stuff...i think i kinda sucks at comp stuff too and i think i am a noob at comp stuff too..but sec sch i did learn algorithem before due to the needs of my CCAs,but apparently last time i couldnt get it, now i think i still couldnt get it either cos reali too chime liao..few more days to sch reopens..after which i must tell myself tat i must piah again and be serious in studies liao..canot everyday shop and slack like nobody business..i must prove to my mum that even though a retainee doesnt mean tat i will always fail in life..though now my mind still have a barrier of tat retainee mindset cos it wasnt easy for me to lift up my head tat time when i gt retained..everyone gave you tat look and the stereotypes..so tat time i couldnt reali face things up to reality..always live in my hidden cage and dare not expect much cos i scared i will fail again..but at least this time i am happy tat at least the few hours of sleep everyday hasnt been paid off..at least it was worthwhile ;)

~suntanning at sentosa~

this sat i decided to nuah at home do nothing for the first time..feeling not too bad huh..at least i feel quite relax do nothing at home..wake up kinda late too and after which went off to pack my room stuff and clear my table cos my table has been pilled up with papers..after which decided to be guai for once help my mum go out buy fruits cos she keep nagging at me..if i dun help her, she sure nag the whole day til i cant tahan man..after which continue with my daily of watching tv and going for a run..

then today went to sentosa with the uni clique..wah this is the sec time i quite sunburn until quite jialat..skin feels kinda pain now though initally i felt nothing after the tan..but at nite it started to feel pain liao..seriously i still cant overcome my fear of water once it reached my chin level and when they played the tu tu train game, i reali gave up playing even before the game starts cos el already cant tahan my scream liao..so i give up better than his ear drums burst becos of me screaming non stop cos i the water level reached my chin liao..ok maybe i still timid seh, but tat phobia not easy to overcome man..at least i managed to try out some water activities like the pedal-ling..at least tat one not too bad..onli train leg muscles nia, but tat canoe-ing i reali dare not try cos scared later capsized man then i cant swim even though gt life jacket..but at least not too bad, at least i have taken a step out to be in contact with water..i would say overall the water activities still quite fun though initally i reali dun have the intention to get wet at all cos lazy to bathe outside ma, plus i going out for shopping later ma..later too dirty cant stand it ma..haha..then after which proceeded to have our lunch at somewhere in vivo..some hog's cafe i think..cant rmb wat's the exact name either..but serving super big man..enough for 2 ppl to eat..then after tat i went shopping at expo..wah, i see everything also wan to buy, but i still controlled my spending ma..cos today like spend alot liao..at the end of the day bought one office skirt, shorts and one top..so overall still not too ex cos everything is cheap in the first place..

and just now i just gt my results at 12am straight on the clock..heng this time do quite ok..in fact i am quite blessed tat i do quite ok and didnt ta bao a single one cos i reali thought i will ta bao my life sci when all my ans are wrong when i compared mine with keith ans..at least this time the results did boost up my morale for once..maybe my mind has changed liao..once a retainee doesnt always means tat you are forever tat cui and dumb..perhaps perservence and effort do makes alot of different too..i guess next sem i will continue again and strive for better results..to me i am quite contended with my results liao..as long as everything above 3.5 i sure take it easy liao..sometimes, i guess i dun wan expect too much cos i know tat my ability not there so dun expect too much cos later the higher the disappointment will be,..but getting results reali make me panic esp when tat ntu webbie damn cock up cos i cant log in at all for quiet some time..and i reali wan to prove to my parents tat i can do it de, cos my mum always look down on me but not my dad..he in the one tat always motivate despite when i do badly..tat should be the spirit man..

~buffet at sukura international~

yesterday met up with my uni click to have afternoon buffet in the noon time and this time round i think the buffet not as nice as the previous time when i went there for my 21st bday dinner buffet..or maybe cos lunch and dinner they cater different stuff cos yesterday i went the food wasnt really similar to wat i ate last time..abit feel guilty recommend them this resturant for buffet..cos not reali nice yesterday..ok in future i better not recommend anything liao cos abit stress if things dun turn out to be as nice as wat i eaten before..but yesterday i eat until stomach damn full..abit feel like puking huh..duno why..but heng didnt la after taking a walk..after which went to town area to walk around to digest our food..and after tat sat down at subway to chat before heading home..initally wanted to go shopping somewhere else de, but later i thought maybe go home watch tv ba..weekend maybe then i go ba,

~ah ping bday~

yesterday bday was not bad..ah ping looks like she had some makeover too..looks quite different from her usual style and in fact she looks really pretty..i guess the shirt and pants that she wore ytd makes a lot of difference to a person..no wonder sometimes branded clothes really makes alot of difference man..anyway the buffet was really nice..in fact i think her buffet was more towards a high end buffet cos the food really quite nice esp the dessert..i didnt really eat lots of main course cos didnt really have the appetite to eat the main course..dessert was more like an attractive one for me to eat..haha..i took lots of noya jelly for all of them to share in our table, but i think eventually i ate them all..hehe..but overall i would say the bday was quite ok, not too bored at least..at least i talked to most of them and make some catching up session with them..and ytd have a chance to eat the nice cake from the retail shop i like cos first i ate it in office since it was ashley bday then after tat i ate it again at ah ping bday..but from ytd food, i think sure gain weight liao man..some more tml go eat buffet..sure gain weight like anything..haiz..tonite sure must choing running liao..

anyway ytd was my last day so took quite a lot of picts with serena in our polished office and nice cosy supply centre before i dun have chance to step into here again..we took like 1.5hrs of photo shoot..not bad huh..some reali looks nice man..will upload it later once i get the photos..;)

anyway after the bday session we went off to town for count down..but heng ytd never take the crowded road cos i dun wan to be sprayed though there are quite a no of kids playing with tat too ytd,but we managed to siam far from them..if they dare spray of me, i sure get pissed man..but yesterday i think we spent onli like an hr there nia..cos was really tired of the long day liao plus the day before i didnt really sleep much, so make me more shag..but yesterday was a seriously bad day for my legs cos i thought there would be bus extention services during christmas eve but apparently, there isnt !!!! so the moment i stepped out of the control station my first reaction was "oh shit!!, no more bus !!" so bo bian have to take half an hour walk to reach home cos i dun dare to take taxi alone esp during the night when there is no one to pei me in the cab..and the poor me have to take a super long walk with heels and my legs feel like going to fall apart when i reach home cos super pain..didnt know will end up walking home, if not i sure change into another shoe to wear liao..haiz..but the long route to home was quite ok initally since there are quite a no of cars on the road, but later as i go further down towards my house there are lesser and lesser cars and it starts to get quieter and quieter le..and the no of ppl walking on the street gets lesser too..in fact i am the only person left walking on the street so of cos will feel abit scared la..afterall i am a girl man..and i tried to walk far away from those ulu places though its a shorter route cos there are a no of guys smoking over there ytd nite..now i can finally understand why i bro said tat he felt scared when he was walking home bac last time cos the background sound is reali to quiet liao..so i finally reached home at 1.45am..and surprising my dad didnt wait for me cos he always wait for me to come home before he can sleep..cos i guess i did call back home to tell him not to wait for me cos i know he sure wait for me de..i was thoughtful of my dad yesterday cos he isnt feeling well lately..he has some quite urine illness and the doctor have yet confirmed anything on tat cos the doctor himself also duno..so i am kinda worried abt him lately afterall he is very old liao..need to take care more of his health..

then yesterday after taking out all the christmas presents from my bag, i realised tat i have full of plastic bags of chocolates..oh man, i think its really too much.some of them are from my office desk,some are from my colleagues and friends..so many how to finish sia..maybe it can last me for months to finish seh..yesterday slept at 3.30am after bathing and packing my stuff and today woke up 1.30am cos no one fann me today since everyone is out of house very early in the morning, so left me alone in house..so shiok..actually today afternoon my mum friend got some house opening buffet de, but i dun feel like going cos i have been eating alot liao..see food now also sian liao..

~half day work for christmas eve~

yesterday slept at 2.30am cos was busy with printing stuff..so today only slept for 3 hrs nia cos i have to wake up early today to dress up for later christmas celebration..actually i very lazy to get out of my bed de, but in the end i still bo bian have to drag myself out of bed..then the moment i stepped into office today, everyone was like "wah.." cos my dress sense abit sexier than usual today cos i wore an halter neck today..but becos scared later my boss will say i wear revealing clothes again, then i bo bian i wear another spagetti strap shirt inside, at least it wont be tat exposed..some more office cant wear too revealing too..but heng my boss didnt say anything..she still say "ah min..not bad ah.." then i was like phew..cos i tok she will suan me again..actually wannna go bac home change de, but scared later no time to prepare if they were to meet earlier to help out..so bo bian bring all my stuff to office..and today i gt another christmas present again..not bad ah..but i abit pei seh cos i never prepare present for anyone this time cos last time i already bought gifts for everyone before i left..this time round reali no time to shop for presents..and tat ti gou today saw me today kar jiao me again as usual..today he drooling sia when he saw me..yucks man,...hair wan to stand liao..gosh..but never mind i no need to see him anymore liao..
today half day but practically i am zhuo bo-ing since morning..nothing to do at all except pick up phone calls and entertain customers..ok, shall wait for time to pass then and i will go off for my bday celebration le..hopefully today can walk through town cos i predict its gonna stuck with ppl..

~i think i am pms-ing lately~

duno why mood reali quite bad lately..i get irritated easily this few days..and whenever my mum speaks to me, i just cant stand it cos she quite fann as she keep interrogating me as to where i go everyday whenever i reach home slightly later than usual..and she keeps saying tat i go out with guys everyday when i didnt at all..i came home late cos i went out for shopping..but i didnt tell her cos later she sure nag at me again..all i know is i veri bu shuang when she says tat i go out filrt with guys when i didnt at all..come one la, u think i so bu dong shi meh..i know when to do the right things at the right time de and i can differeniate between right and wrong la..
yesterday was supposed to meet them to help them choose keyboard de..but last min was cancelled due they said tat they make already sort of like made a decision wat to buy liao, so i no need come down liao..but when they told me tat i am already in bus on my way to sembawang..so when i heard tat i was like -diao- cos i am out of no where..no mrt to go home, so have to take bus to somewhere where there is bus service to reach BL..the bus ride was seriously damn long imagin u are stuck in thomson and need to take the bus ride so far then can reach my house..abit sian man though i have my mp3 to pei me la..
then today i saw my eye candy, tat gentleman whom help us open the door entrance last time outside my office building while waiting for the shutter bus to holland Village..wa i think reali damn qiao lo..i always see him whenever its my last day of work..and tat time i still hope tat i can get to see him again, and my wish reali get fufilled man..hehe..not bad ah..tat guy reali gt nice build..can see tat he go gym and train one..and most imptly he gt the height and build and i think he speaks english too..too bad didnt gt the chance to hear his voice cos I was too far away from him when he was talking to his colleagues.
today is a super damn boring day at work man..i have been surfing net since morning cos i have nothing to do..even if got, i would have completed all the work in an hour..this job is getting boring and boring day by day man..everyday gt nothing to do, just sit down there rot and get free pay..and today also receive another christmas gift from my colleague..its some gift from the body shop..packaging seems not bad..but body shop stuff abit not practical to me since i dun use skin care products stuff unless its cosmetics...but i doubt so cos the bag kinda heavy man.tml is half day and last day of work too..yipee..after tat gonna rush home dress up for wee ping event and prepare to celebrate for christmas eve ! results will be out soon on 29th dec..abit scared man..hopefully wont ta bao my life sci cos i gt a feeling i will ta bao for tat module..;(
jia you 20 more mins to off work..and i will meet up with wt le..

~their jealously has made me pissed off~

sat went out til late at night since i dun wan stay at home and engage with a battle field with my mum and brother..so i decided to go out and take a breather..so went to little india to walk around and thread my eyebrows..but there reali nothing much..street is just full of "blackies" walking around nia..not much shops too..but i took bus rides around bukit timah area and explore the place over there..i realised there are lots of wine shops over there..and lots of private landed property there too.in fact tat place is meant for rich ppl to stay de cos there the things reali kinda ex huh..
then sun have to stay at home cos mum keep nagging me tat i everyday not at home..keep going out..but i now holiday wat, its not as if i am studying now or wat..if i everyday still continue to go out shopping despite busy with sch work, then she scold me then of cos never mind la.so bo bian i stayed at home to wrap my present for the gift exchange this wed and prepare gift for ah ping bday..then my mum and brother was kinda bu shaung with me as to why i put in so much effort in preparing other ppl's bday when their own bday i also bo chap..i reali cant stand it when my mum keep nagging abt this issue and raking the past to find fault with me just becos she is jealous tat i treat my friends nicer..damn it i have enough of this nonsense man..i wan to be nice to who is my business..why should u concern so much??..and so wat i am nicer to my friends than u all..my mum doesnt treat me well,. so why should i be nice to her when she even can call the police when we quarrelled tat time..i think she is just mad..a crazy women with no brain at all when she is furiously angry..but i think she should do self reflection on herself why i treat her like tat..i doesnt treat my dad like this at all cos my dad respect me and doesnt treat me as a "dog"..at least he is one who is reasonable to talk things out with, whereas tat ass mum and bro of mine cant reason out things de..so no point being so nice to them when they dun appreciate my presence at all..all they know is just scold and bully me for no reason when i didnt offend them in anyway or disturb them at all..yesterday i was so fed up tat i reali explode liao..cos i reali tahan them for very long liao..i just hate with when i didnt offend ppl then ppl come barking at me non stop til i cant have some peace..this is just so fann..and i must have scared most of my friends by the F word tat i put as my msn nick yesterday cos i was reali angry tat time..but i manage to cool down after a while so i changed bac to my usual nick..
but yesterday jason words came to my mind suddenly..he said something like :"if u like the person, then you be happy that he cares for you despite he might keep asking abt your whereabouts..but if you dun like a person and he kept on asking abt your whereabout, then one would certainly feel reali damn fann..take for instance, if your mum keep calling you non stop asking where u are, then certainly one would feel reali damn fann also..it all depends on how we view it as..we can view it from 2 pointview..one is out of concern, the other is just pure nian and wanna know where you are all the time...
this wed is my last day le..hooray..so happy yeah..i think this month earn like $1500+ with all the OT pay..not bad seh..and they told me today tat they just received a letter from mediacorp tat those big shots actors and actresses are coming to our supply centre to film some films in Jan..wah so shaung, but too bad, i would have left for sch in jan if not can take photo with felicia chin and alvin ng..and after work going to meet up with kriste they all to help them choose keyboard for ah ping bday present..duno if i know how to choose or not, but i shall try my best then..i didnt tell my mum tat i helping to friends to choose keyboard cos later she sure get jealous again when i so nice to my friends..then i reali canot have some peace de, so rather not say and tell her i go elsewhere..

~i have become deeper~

i have just finished lesson with jason and i am quite impressed by his learning speed cos he has no background and yet he can learn quite fast..not bad not bad..but just tat his fingers are reali stiff nia..but its normal la since he never play piano before..and i am indeed shagged after teaching cos i think i spent lots of my energy standing for long hours..now feel like sleeping le..and halfway through we gt kinda sian and chatted abt his gf and relationship in general..he said tat guys behaves differently once they have a gf..and they treat their gf very differently from friends..in fact their character do change when they are with their gf..haha..i didnt know tat..i just know it today nia..i always thought tat guys who are bad tempered or guys with lousy character will continue with be like this even when they have a gf, afterall i have this mentality tat "a leopard can never change its skin"..no matter how much u wanna change for the sake a person, eventually at the end of the day you would still revert to your own self..but i guess i have knew him better today cos in the past i onli know jason as a joker and slacker..in fact his mind do go through lots of thinking which i never know til today..and i realised tat guys always like to ask abt the definition of childish and matured..seriously this is a kind of feeling tat is hard to express wat exactly it is..perhaps its the way an indiviual protrays himself in front of ppl and from there ppl can guage if you are matured or childish..but childish do have its gd side too la..not reali tat cui..at least he is an interesting person which wont bored me to death..sometimes guys tat are matured can be quite tiring too as certain people might be just too far to reach his way of thinking..so guys can be quite tiring to be with too..but in gereral girls still prefer guys to be matured rather than childish..being childish just made them felt as if they are taking care of some xiao di di..haha..anyway i am off to my little india liao..update soon on mon.

~nice christmas buffet lunch at Carousel, Hotel Royal Plaza~

liyesterday was kinda busy day at work since we spent 3hrs outside the office for our christmas buffet lunch at Carousel, Hotel Royal Plaza..somewhere at town..the buffet was quite ok, not too bad..at least i managed to try the pastries cos go hotel buffet sure must start with tat if not later too fuill eating others things then no chance try the pastries liao..as for those rices and noodles, i didnt try them at all cos come hotel eat buffet must try those expensive stuff tat we never eat before ma..and moreover i rarely got chance to go such grand hotel to eat, so must try out those stuff tat i never eaten before ma..then yesterday my big boss saw me starting with desserts first then followed by main course, then all of them gave me tat puzzled look and sounded sarcastic saying tat " ah min ah, why u start with the dessert huh.." then most of them are giving me tat look..aiya watever la, tat's my style of eating..anyway the food is going to end up in my stomach anyway regardless of eating desserts or main course first wat..so it makes no difference..and i think yesterday i reali forgotton the image tat i need to protray cos i am eating buffet with my colleagues not with friends and so i should show so dining skills tat i have learned, but apparently i didnt show out at all and in fact i bo chap and enjoy my food, thinking tat they are just my friends, so i guess they shouldnt bother so much abt the way i eat my food..but thinking back, i think my mentality is gone cos i think they sure say abt the weird way i eat cos my other colleague came talking me saying tat "Ah min, i heard u start with your desserts first ah.." when i heard tat i knew tat its the big boss tat gossip behind my back liao..damn it la..i dun understand man, how i wan to eat is my business wat, why go around telling ppl tat i eat with desserts first..and yesterday becos of this buffet i gain like 1kg cos i think i eat too much pastries..haha..but i knew i sure gain weight cos cakes are fatting stuff so i went jogging after i reach home despite its already 10.30pm at nite le and there is no one in the park anymore..so gd time to jog man..next week gonna eat buffet with them too..maybe i reali find eating gd stuff abit sian liao cos lately have been eating so many gd stuff in office..perhaps wanna try those plain dishes liao..

then yesterday took quite a no of picts with my friend colleague in the hotel cos we were quite full liao then decided to get around to disgest my food in the stomach before going for another serving..so we went to the toilet and its super damn classy and nice, so we stayed quite a while in the toilet to take picts..but wat scared me most was yesterday we happened to met a xiao mei mei almost of 5yrs old and she was telling us to go up the stairs to see if there is ghost or not...then when i heard tat my hairs started to stand man, cos how can such a young ger utter such things and where did she learn it from? or did she reali seen it? tat was wat tat puzzled me and in fact i was quite scared after hearing her saying those words..then serena was saying to me tat she is ovbiously uttering nonsense when she is only 5 yrs nia, so she is too young to know anything..and tat 5yrs old just seems to be reali mysterious cos she has no parents around her..hmm..this incident is damn scary man esp when she mention the word ghost..

and yesterday carried lots of stuff back home cos got quite a no of christmas gifts..and the company gift was some gd stuff and it seems expensive cos it was bought by those sales ppl and mostly the stuff tat they bought are either branded or its just freaking expensive since they are freaking rich..then my small boss gave us a branded key chain from coach too..look nice and classy too..but too bad its a key chain, if its something else, i might like it cos this keychain not reali practical lei..but anyway its branded, so i think i shouldnt cost cheap either..and i realised tat all the gifts i received so far are quite expensive huh..maybe friends and colleagues will give different kinds of presents..perhaps colleagues will give those expensive ones cos afterall we cant buy cheapo stuff if not sure lose face de lo..whereas friends' gifts are usually not those high ends one cos perhaps afterall we are still young, so no money to buy expensive gifts yet..and afterall i feel its the sincereity tat counts la, not reali the price of the gift..

and yesterday they also offered me if i wanna drink wine..so i say ok lo..i shall try abit since i rarely gt chance to try expensive wine..so showen pour me some grape wine (i think so, not sure too wat wine is tat) but it taste like some ribena after she diluted with some water cos she say small girl canot take so much..haha..then i gulp down the whole wine in 2 portions cos i was feeling thirsty so drank the whole cup and after tat my whole face turns reali red as if i look like putting blusher like tat..but so far tats the best wine i tasted so far cos its a sweet wine and most imptly it taste like ribena..but sad thing is tat after 2 hrs like tat after drinking, my stomach started to churn alot and feel reali damn painful cos i think my stomach feel reali " hot" inside cos i think i drink too fast liao..

and yesterday lots of ppl commented on my dressing..everyone was saying tat my top looks nice, but my mum and my bro say i look super fat..so duno whose opinion should i trust man..my mum is forever saying tat my dressing is cui one, so she is certainly not trustworthy..my brother will once a while comment if he finds my dressing too cui..but i was kind of irritated with tat ti gou colleague of mine..he get so close to me tat i stepped off a few cm from him then rolled my eyes at usual cos i dun like guys to be like tat..kar jiao me is ok, but dun try to get close with me and thinking tat i duno wat u guys are looking at..wat the hell man..then yesterday wanted to wear skirt de, but thinking of my big boss comments tat she gave, i decided to wear jeans eventually so as to play safe, if not sure get picked again..lots of them say i have changed my dress sense after going uni..ya i think so too..cos last time i quite heck care abt dressing de, cos company no guys wat..wear so nice also no use..but going sch is different..so my mentality changed after going uni where there is no more uniform to wear liao, so must make sure our dressing not too cui..

today had to wake up at 5.30am just because i need to go temple pray..sian loh...i still soundly asleep then i was forced out of bed cos of going temple..seriously i dun believe in such things, but my parents forced me to go cos they have been barking me and scolding me for these few days..come on la, these kind of things need to be sincere from the bottom on ur heart..no pt forcing me, cos anyway i think i am those free thinker type though i am force to take up buddhist..then now while waiting for my lesson to start with jason, i shall just nuah..later i shall panic liao cos first time teaching my guy friend piano..hopefully my teaching wont be too cui cos i didnt relai prepare since i came home quite late yesterday..perhaps later will be out to little india to do something ;)

~interesting girls talk~

yesterday decided to go home early after work cos i think i should stop shopping liao..abit broke liao huh..i think after working for a month..i onli left like half the pay..but at least not too bad la.at least i did save some money,at least didnt spend all..then the moment i reach my house doorstep ytd, i hear my mum start nagging liao..then i reali super damn sian lo..tat's why i always dun feel like going home cos the moment i reach home feeling tired, there is always someone to find fault with me for no reason..so i rather stay out late then go home sleep then the next day go out of house early in the morning..i hope this shall be the daily rountine from now cos too tired to argue with anyone liao man..haiz..
then yesterday watch a variety show..and its abt girls opinion on what they cant tolerate abt guys..many of the issues that they raised are very valid..and i think this show quite funny esp when a group of gers talk abt guys and condemn them..yesterday i laugh like anything man cos its damn funny man after hearing the comments and views they give..one of the issue tat was raised was : though gers always forgive guys after those filrtish guys being unfaithful, no matter wat the pain is always there despite after forgiving them and i truly agree with tat cos once the hurt is in there, its kind of not possible or to close one eye to forget everything and pretend nothing has happened ...afterall our memories cant be erased or filter off as and when we dun feel like remembering..and another issue raised was some women dun like guys to keep saying "Anything" cos girls find tat "Anything" has become quite a kou tou chan among guys ( a common usage word just becos he has no opinion) and most gers dun like tat..and yes i agree with tat too ! if once a while say anything is alright with me, but too often makes me feel very tired being with him or rather more of stress making the decision solely just becos the other party has no opinion on it..the 3rd issue mentioned was some gers dun like guys to be da nan ren (as in always making the final decision himself without seeking opinion from his gf)..this is bad too..and i dun like these kind of guys too..for such guys, i feel like i am more like a pet rather than a gf cos i always have to listen to watever he says even if i might disapprove of his decisions.yeah such guys are hard to entertain and ci hou man..even if he is rich i will not wan cos i find living together with such guys is a super torture and maybe life might be a hell for ppl like me who enjoys freedom alot..and i dun like the feeling of being tied down by things cos i feel veri qing ku and torturous.and i think i dun have tat committment yet to devote to a person..or rather i still haven appreciate the meaning of commitment cos since last time i already tried to understand the unlying meaning, but apparently still cant appreciate it lei..maybe i still gt lots of time to think abt such issues..perhaps when i am older than i might worry..now can enjoy singlehood just enjoy..in future no chance liao then regret..4th issue raised was : girls cant stand niao guy"..yeah i agree with this too..i dun like guys who are damn calculative cos even before marriage they are so niao liao, then after marriage sure even worst man..such guys see liao also turn off..haha..
5th issue was : " gers canot accept non-honest guys and guys who likes to use flowery words to praise girls." but the thing is becos gers always like to hear nice praises which are not honest comments..my view on tat is once a while say nice praises ok, but not everyday cos it will seems reali damn fake tat he is lying !! and trying to hong me nia..such guys no gd...
and few days bac i was chatting with my friend colleague..she has just graduated from nus and she told me tat her friend are getting married le and she is currently 23 yrs old..oh my god, when i heard tat i was stunned..i couldnt imagine me marrying off at 23yrs old when i am so childish..how can such a childish person suitable for marriage?? definitely not me !!
my company has this promotion : spend more than $500 then can get an ipod shuffle..wah, not bad man..gd deal..anyway i just gt one since they gave it to me last time before i left for sch in aug..and lots of my colleague just came bac from hong kong and cameron highlands in malaysia,..so our pantry naturally gt lots of nice stuff to me..yeah i think hong kong lao po bing damn nice as compared to spore..i think after christmas i might be going to johor or somewhere further in malaysia if time permits, then wanna go there eat and buy cheap stuff..then today just chatted with can and she told me abt this guy she knew in IRC..seriously i think guys met online cant be trusted cos most of them are lying..and i am one of those tat lie to ppl cos i dun wan to reveal my true indentity..in fact i just wanna test out wat kind of person they are nia..regretfully, most of them are out to cheat on gers..esp when u say tat u gt a damn gd figure..then they suddenly gt interested in u..wat does this shows : " it just shows tat guys are all the same.." haiz..
today i going to teach piano again..seriously i feel abit damn sian man..dun feel like earning her money liao..and sat need to teach jason piano..kinda a bit stress cos afterall i not sure if i can teach well or not..hmm..yawns i am so sian at work today..i have nothing to do after lunch time..have been just reali sitting there and rottin away..i duno if is i do things fast or rather there is reali nothing for me to do..

~enjoying the heaven of food~

yipee, this fri going to some hotel in town for our christmas lunch..plus got some lucky draw too..but i abit headache wat to wear cos i scared later i wear until not suitable for the occasion..or rather later my boss will say why my skirt very short again, then i will be half sian liao..but u guys cant expect me to wear jeans to work everyday wat..and i cant wear shorts to work either..so wear skirt lo..

then yesterday was kinda bu shuang inside the bus cos one ti gou sat beside me when i was pretending to be asleep but actually i was peeping at wat he is looking..i was kinda disgusted cos tat damn freaking ah nei was looking at my XXX..wat the hell..air port also wan to see..this just show how despo tat freaking ah nei is..actually i was pretending to be asleep cos i wan to see wat he is up to..and tat freaking ass keep sitting so close to me..just my luck man to meet such ass and sickening dirty yellow fellow.hai..suay man..

~i am broke~

yesterday after work decided to shop around first before proceeding for home..so went to walk around..actually dun have the intention to buy any clothes home de..but eventually i still bought one shorts..haiz..but this time round the length is not too long neither it is too short..so its acceptable length..but my mum still duno i bought tat shorts yet cos i hide it! if she knows tat i buy clothes everyday home, she will sure scold nag and scold me man. So i shall wait for a few weeks before showing her tat shorts tat i bought..but anyway tat shorts is bought from an expensive shop and its worth the price considering its produced from a designer and material is kidna gd too..so its worth paying tat price..anyway today i did super alot of things in office..and today was kinda a busy day cos everyone assume tat i am free so keep sending me stuff to do..and today finally updated all my MP3 songs cos its seriously damn sian everyday listen the same songs..yipee !!

~shopping again~

sat went to JP to shop around since my mum said tat the new jurong point extention has open le..yeah the shops are not bad..clothes and assessories over there are really alot.In fact i can buy most of my clothes and assessories from there in future..no need to go else where to shop liao..but the price wise at the new extention JP is kinda not cheap as compared to the old jurong point..there are also lots of resturant now.at least there are much more variety to choose from now..gt the ding tai feng, which my brother say not bad..i think in future shall go there try if gt chance to eat lunch/dinner over there with friends..then there are much more guys shop now and its quite trendy too..but price duno la, didnt reali step into the shop to see since i am not a guy (no point stepping in also..) after which went to boon lay shopping centre to help my mum buy stuff..its been yrs since i went there..apparently there hasnt reali changed much..still as old as before..but things there are reali cheap man..tat nite i fell down at home when i was climbing up from the floor to my bed..damn it cos i think i gt a small sprain in my leg cos it hurts till now when i walk..so for these fews i guess i cant go running, if not condition sure worsen..so i just got to eat lesser then wont gain weight these few days..
then i also watched the hot shot taiwan drama..ended up falling asleep when i watch halfway..this just shows tat the show is reali so boring tat i could fall asleep...yeah i dun think the story line is nice at all..in fact quite sian..i think "it started with a kiss 2" is nicer..at least i never fall asleep halfway when i was watching tat..yawns, then sun was super tired til i woke up at 1pm..not bad ah, manage to sleep a lot and replenish my energy..i think i can reali sleep well in cold and rainy days cos tat's the days when i wake up super late when usual days i could just sleep abit nia..so after i woke up went straight to bugis...wah, when i was shopping around the bugis village street, saw so many clothes tat i wanna buy, but i gonna control man cos i think i bought lots of clothes liao and haven wear yet..and moreover i think i should control my spending liao..so eventually bought a shorts at the end of the day..but when i got home and tried on it, i realised tat i am kinda regretted buying tat shorts (though its nice and unique).. tat short is reali freaking short when i wore it..duno why when i bought it, i felt tat the length was alright, but when i wore it, it shrink up alot, so it became super short..and when i wore tat, i reali feel like my leg looks like a pig's leg cos its so short and fat..at least my mum wore like still ok, but for me, its reali damn cui and canot make it..so i guess tat the shorts shall be put aside liao..maybe i wouldnt even wear at all til my legs looks slim enough..heng tat shorts not expensive man, if not i would have wasted my money man..then yesterday also went to chinatown to buy my eye cosmectic stuff cos there reali much much cheaper compared to retail shops.as usual there are lots of ah pei..esp outside the majestic shopping centre..LOHZ..and i am headache as to wat to get to christmas exchange gift..last yr gt a dvd movie show for tat..ok la, gift still not too bad..but wat should i get this yr? abit sian to search man..aiyo headache man..but i do look forward to christmas eve tat day cos i think its gonna nice..but too bad XXX will not be there to enjoy the festive season with us..

~i am kinda tired~

i tink we are reali bored in class till we took photos in yj toilet

we look like we are going for a fight

this is nice yeah ;)

yevette this name is reali uncommon..and i realised someone actually has this unique name..not bad ah..this english name was given to me in sec sch by my best friend and i didnt use it cos it just sounds weird on me,or rather my face dun have tat ang mo look.

then yesterday work OT Till 6.45pm cos all my colleagues need to attend the D&D dinner, so gonna go off earlier..then i bo bian have to help them..the sales dept ppl are damn gan jiong cos they need us to process the order for them cos they need to hit the target by yesterday..so i am the onli one tat is free in office so i offer to help them out since i see them so panic to hit target and all my colleagues are off work to attend the dinner liao..but they are lucky enough as to at least i still know how to process the order cos the new temp duno how to do it at all since i worked in this company for quite long liao, so naturally i know more stuff than the new temp..then the other colleague in the same dept as me work damn slow la..so bo bian i also have to help her finish part of her work cos she asked me if i can help her or not..of cos i dare not reject her cos it not reali tat nice and i doubt she can finish her work even she work til 7pm..so i say ok though i am quite tired liao working so much yesterday..but think it another way round, i could earn OT pay rather than wasting at time watch TV and zhuo bo..so yeah just tahan abit tired, then can earn money to pay my sch fees..

and yesterday i suddenly have the hope to be a forsensic scientist cos i think this job is kinda cool and challenging..i like challenges cos stagnant job just made me feel damn boring and stagnant in life..but i think this job need ppl to be quite smart..but i am not..so i guess i dun have this chance to enter this unit..in the past, i also did thought of entering the police unit or CID unit too cos i hope to have a bf from the police unit cos i salute them for their dangerous mission that they they have to undergo whenever they perform any operations..i also did thought of entering the air stewardess line cos i like to travel around the world..such job is so shoik lah cos can travel around the world and see how the world is like..sometimes i yearn to travel to those 3rd world nations cos i think i wan to see how things are like over there..perhaps we are born in a nice environment, as such maybe many at times we take many things for granted..

yawns, i feel seriously damn tired now..i mean physically tired..mentally i am not tired cos sch haven reopen yet..duno why i am physically so tired man..i guess i reali dun have enough sleep everyday when i sleep at 1-2am everyday and gets up at 6.30am for work everyday..and today i feel super happy cos i am reali on the verge of giving up on running everyday liao..but now i see results le..finally lost weight cos i control my diet liao..i think should eat less rice man, then can lose weight..finally !! yipee.. ;) ok at least now i am motivated to run again..ok i am off to watch my hot shot at crunchyroll le..

~i am reali tired, need a break now ! ~

nice pool yeah at sentosa (extracted from JT blog)

the 2 min-s

haiz, lately i am just too tired with everything..i guess i really need a gd break cos i haven been reali taking a break ever since exam finished..i wanna go somewhere where i can relax myself and the best way to that is to leave spore for a holiday..but i dun have the chance to do so cos my contract finishing end of dec..maybe going to somewhere where i can go enjoy the rural atmosphere over there cos i am kinda tired of the hectic urban life liao..going somewhere where there are nature environment also not a bad idea too..i yearn to go that labrador park at night cos the sea view is reali damn nice and you can feel the cool breeze air blowing onto ur face..i guess if u were to be there, certainly watever troubles that you have will certainly be forgotton..somehow it just have tat calming effect.. ;)

and talking abt taking breaks, wed night i didnt have the intention to peep into my bro hp msg de, but since there is this prompt of a new incoming msg, then i was kinda tempted to see his msg, so i heck liao so i click on it and view his msg..after reading through his past msges, i realised tat he initated to take a break from his relationship..and his gf replied saying tat she hates him..haha..this is the usual line tat gers will say when they are angry, but does she reali mean it i duno la..sometimes gers just say tat in a fit of anger but they dun mean it..i guess maybe she dun mean wat she says la since she loves my brother so much..but usually from experience, taking a break means the relationship will usually come to an end soon..probably a few months? so if which ever party initated to take a break, one gonna prepare for the worst liao..of cos wouldnt say tat there is no chance for patch up, but usually chances are kinda low since there are already some problems existing between both parties..anyway i knew tat their relationship is those tat wouldnt last for long cos long distance relationship is kinda not easy to maintain man..to me, i feel tat though everyday chatting with bf online through the webcam also no use cos he is not physically there..its kinda useless to be mentality there for each other when physically he is not there..i guess this is something tat i learnt quite recently..and i did analysis wat i did in the past..perhaps mr A was right tat time.."mentality there, but not physically there.." but somehow i knew tat my brother is one of those jerks who hurt gers around de judging from his behaviour and actions...i think i am reali zun man..anyway wat he say to the ger doesnt reali concern me, all i hope is tat hopefully he can lessen the painful impact and hopefully he dun make the ger so upset over him cos i can reali feel tat the ger luv him alot..

then yesterday i was a kinda stressed up at work cos one of my colleague was on leave then i had to do her stuff for her and the jialat thing is tat yesterday was my day for the bidding system for our timetable..but i have reali no time to camp for my slot tat i wan..and moreover i am working, its kind of inconvienent for me to do the bidding openly since i cant open the windows screen reali big..or rather i always minimise my window screen de lo..and i was kinda pissed and frustrated over so many ppl forwarding me mails to do stuff for them when i already so busy liao..some more phone calls keep coming in non stop and my colleagues just dun wan pick up, so was kinda pissed with them too cos they are reali not helpful de lo..hear phone call also pretend never hear..wat the heck..so usually me and the other temp is the ones tat are picking up the calls.of cos if i am free, then i wouldnt mind picking up the calls la, but yesterday was reali a busy day, cant they just help out for once?? when picking up phone calls is part of their job scope too..but heng still gt wai tuck help me change my index, if not i sure alone liao..but luck is still not alot on my side cos i didnt manage to get into the lab tat they wanted to chop for..i guess sch reopen i reali need to camp liao..i reali dun wan do lab alone sia..but i was reali frustrated with the ntu system yesterday cos its reali damn cock up when i was bidding halfway, tat idoit system keep logging me out..wat the hell man, ppl gan jiong liao still play tricks on me..yesterday i was so pissed tat i reali wanted to scold tat F word liao, but i control myself cos i guess i too stress liao..seeing so many of my friends get into the same class liao but i haven got anything makes me damn panic la..and i feel reali bad asking ppl to camp for me when i myself not camping cos i cant do tat openly in office..i guess i reali owe wt a reali big treat man..if not for him, all my tutorial class wouldnt be change so fast..now all i do is to camp for lab when sch reopen liao..no choice..hopefully there will be vanacy.. ;(

anyway this weekend i am gonna occupied again..tml i think jason will be coming to my house to learn piano..haha..first time teach a guy piano..somehow it feels weird ah..i was curious why he suddenly wanted to learn piano, so he said tat he always wanted to learn piano since last time, but i guess this is not his real reason ba..i think he wans to learn to impress his gf more likely ba.. ;) haha..but guys who can play piano well can be quite memerizing esp stars like jay chou..so cool and memerizing when he can play piano so well..but if the playing kinda cui, then of cos would minus points liao cos intially wanted to have the intention to impress the girl de, but ended up make things worst by making the girl turn off by the lousy melody of music..but i wont be tat bad la, though will minus points for the guy, but i will still give marks for effort to learn cos i think piano might not be easy to learn for beginners who duno anything on music. ;) but seriously i am getting tired of teaching piano liao..cos the student like damn sian de lo..never put in effort to learn wat i taught her..so everytime keep playing the same old stuff again and again until i close one eye also can memorize liao..

anyway weekends is coming..i am going rock climb..so excited..cant wait for sun to come !! sian today rot like mad then yesterday busy like mad..seriously i reali think yesterday my colleagues shouldnt have taken leave man,then maybe i can camp for my index myself..then i wouldnt feel guilty and feel bad asking ppl to camp for me..haiz..and anyway i am reali tired of jogging everyday liao..like no diff one lei..motivation to jog is decreasing day by day..haiz...

yesterday night also had a chat with xin yi..i think she is veri zun at looking at ppl..haha..gd gd ;)

~i swear i wont buy online clothes again~

typical ti gou face that u will see in uncles...

yesterday went home slightly later than 5pm cos 4.50pm kana shoot email..wat the heck man,actually i lazy to do liao, but i think i shouldnt care and earn their OT pay instead..heck man, since they always like to give me things last min to do, i shall take my time to do and earn money..yawns, i am damn sleepy nowadays, always woke up late and ended up sometimes late for work..ok la, actually one time nia,,today also woke up late, but i change transport to taking train rather than bus, which is faster, then turn up reach office super early..

then yesterday i just got my package of parcel tat my brother gf send me..when i see the clothes, i almost fainted cos i spend so much and end up the clothes turn out to be so cui and material is super damn lousy..i swear in future i not buying clothes online liao man..cheat my money..display pict show so nice, but when turn out the actual thing is super damn cui..sian..one of them is damn jialat cos it looks super auntie when online i saw is very nice..this just shows tat we cant judge a bk by its cover.for tat particular dress, i think i am not even wearing it for once..i guess this is sure gone and sold to the garang guni in a few yrs time if no one wans it..and i think i reali not suitable to shop online at chinese web site cos i think my chinese kinda cmi man..i misinterpret alot of those chinese words, so ended up it turn up to be other things tat i buy..i think i reali cmi man..simple things also cant get it correct..jialat..then yesterday my brother still say serve me right for not studying my chinese well in the past..aiya i always think language dont reali need to study one..know means know...duno means tat's it.. tml i finally my pay for my piano lessons liao..i think i duno how many months never get pay liao since i didnt teach so many weeks due to the exams last time..but i also tired man and sian to teach her..

anyway yesterday night after the discussion on the timetable thing, went down to jog..then i realised different timing reali got different grp of guys man..early timing too many blackies running, late at nite got guys tat have not bad build..hehe in future, i think i will run at a later timing liao..see so many ppl running on the track i also sian cos they keep blocking my way esp those grp of aunties blocking the runway when they chatting and walking along the track..this weekend gonna join them for rock climbing..first time rock climb,so hopefully it will be a nice and fun activity..hopefully not those sian one..actually i also yearn to take up those sports activity during holidays like yatching, doing outdoor activities..if i were still close with him, i sure ask if he having any nice activities cos he always do such outdoor activity.just tat last time i didnt have the chance to leave spore with him.. ;( haiz..i duno wat should i do now lei..now ah really too much things going on..

~a nice wonderful weekend~

last week when me and my friends went out to chill then they ask me how are things betweenguy A and me..then i say told them like tat lo..they feel tat i should go for guy B instead of guy A cos they feels tat guy B is much more better, though personally i prefers guy A over guy B..but guy B not too bad either la..just tat i am not close to him tat much compared to guy A,so i would prefer guy A over guy B..but initally i do have many "not too bad guys" on my "List" de..but eventually i found tat some reali turns me off after knowing them better..i dun like guys who always reply me with one word ans or one short sentence..like tat i feel seriously tired man..i must crack my brain cells reali super hard and think of how to continue the convo..such guys seriously just make me strike them out of my list man..and i guess tat perhaps my friends are right abt guy B cos i think last week i manage to enter his world liao..finally he has opened up abit..actually i think he can be quite lame and funny at times la..but of cos i am the one who initated the convo last week cos i see him reali quite uncle wearing tat shirt and so i told him..cos tat day i saw this guy from far wearing an uncle shirt and when he walks closer towards me, then i realised tat its guy B..then my first rxn was like "Omg, this dressing is seriously damn cui man.."he said he dun reali care abt dressing and he told me tat the shirt was supposed to be from zara, but i think somehow it still look super uncle on him lei though its from zara..haha..but i think he crap de la, though he say he dun reali care abt his dressing but eventually he still ask me does he looks like an uncle..this just shows tat he is still concern abt his appearance afterall man else he wont ask this qn.but he say he bought tat shirt cos its it unqiue..haha..tat sounds so much like my quote man.."unqiue style.."anyway the journey bac was pretty fast cos it seems tat time just pass very fast when i talk to him on train though the journey was kinda quite long..wat suddenly make me "awake" is when he asked me something on bgr..i suddenly become turn on when initally i thought reali hard how should i continue with the convo and i am abit sian tat time liao cos i reali cant think of how to continue the convo..so was kinda half switched off till he ask tat qn abt me..
then last sat evening went to meet jun yi at je then we walked to IMM to have our dinner at ajisen..i ordered a bowl of dried ramian cos i dun like eating soup ramian cos its tasteless..but somehow i think i kana cheated cos i ordered the most spicy noodle liao but apparently it doesnt taste hot to me at all..and i doesnt taste as nice as wat i ordered before when the price is much cheaper than this tat i ordered.and the desert even cheat my money man cos the advertisement shows tat the serving quite big, but end up onli serve me 5 small glutinous balls..so its like kinda ex for 5 small balls. ;( then we chatted over the table over certain issues tat i have been wondering but duno wat solution can i do to get the best way out..so his suggestions is to be let things the way it is..yeah i think this shall be the best way out too for now..since both of us didnt wan to go home so early so went around the coffee shop area to hunt for food again and we share a plate of rojak..then walk ard the mrt station and chat a while before heading home.
then sun went to yishun to cut my hair..heng difference not tat much after i cut my hair, if not i sure hide at home for a few days dun come come out meet friends..initally dun have the intention to trime my back hair de, but tat stupid hairdresser keep nagging my back hair need to be trimed cos its veri messy so i gave in la since he keep nagging non stop, then i very sian man..after which went to justin house to help out with the decorations for his bday..though it seems easy at first, but after tat i realised tat alot of work is needed to cut and draw the words..but somehow eventually the "Happy 21st birthday"didnt hung up on the wall cos we didnt have time to let it dry since the glue was still on..so i guess he use it for his 2nd celebration the following day ba..the food tat he catered was nice and special cos the theme for food was taiwan xiao chi..so everything tat he ordered tat day was taiwan food..its kinda unusual from the usual buffet tat i ate..so not too bad la..but wat was most sineful was i drank one full cup of pearls since i like pearls so much, so decided to took 2 servings, so ended up eating one whole cup eventually.and damn it i drank tea tat day cos i didnt know tat as tea til i drank halfway and ask ah ping.then i was like "oh shit !!" i have refrain from tea since sec sch and i told myself tat i die die also must not touch tea again for certain reasons.but the bday cake was nice cos its kinda unusual from the usual cake cos there is biscuit in it..and i think they ordered from the same supplier as wei fen..but i think its kinda ex man from the packaging.tat day decided to go off earlier since yio chu kang is freaking damn far from my house and i decide to leave with eye candy together since two of us leave kinda far and i cant possibly wait for those ppl to go off together since they all live so near his house.yeah as usual, those ppl are out to tease me and him again..so both of us did get pei seh and i think he looks quite cute when he blush tat time ah..haha.
then ytd went out with my uni click to town again to watch movie and eat prata..seriously duno this is the how many times i am stepping into town for the same week liao..so i find it abit sian man..yawns, today i am kinda slightly busy with work..and editting photos at the same time..haha,..

~enjoying myself for the past few days~

lets cheers baby ! ;)

oh my god, this guy is really zai man..i am impressed..

i also wan to be piggyback..haha.

thur evening was pretty fun but i was kinda unhappy over my colleagues cos they last min gave me work to do when its already one hour left to knock off..cos they said tat they cant finish their work so need up my help..but i mean u guys know tat i am going out tat particular day wat, why cant u all pass me and email me all the work earlier on when i was slacking and doing nothing cos i was super free before that..so last min bo bian have to rush out the work for them though i am abit unwilling to do so becos they are always like this..so ended up i was late for my date with the girls...

so we went to nydc cafe to have our dinner and have our girls talk over there..the cafe at nydc is not bad i feel..the bake rice is nice esp when the entire rice is covered and bake with melted cheese..so ppl like me who likes to eat cheese alot confirm will like it..ambience there is quite alright too but tat particular night, i realised that there are lots of ppl with weird dressing passing by there and we are commenting on their attired since we are sitting near the corridor of the walk way..after which went around to take photos along the town area since the lightings are kinda nice and its near the christmas festive season..then after tat we proceeded to a bar by the name of balcony and i was reali attracted to the ambience of this bar cos its not noisy at all and the decorations are reali nice..and i like tat small water pool that they have over there..i guess this is the best bar tat i went so far. ;) tat nite, i did tried to took a snap photo of this ang mo tat is sitting opposite us but apparently my photo skills are kinda canot make it, so it turns out to be quite ugly when he is quite gd looking..haha.tat night reach home at 12 midnight and i was really sian by the fact that i still need to work the next day..yawns..

then yesterday (fri) was stock take day for me and i was not in office and instead i stayed the entire day inside the warehouse..and tat was my first time when i attended an offical meeting with my boss from new zealand..seriously i couldnt understand wat they heck is he talking abt cos its too chime liao, so just pretend to understand and when he speaks to me asking me something, i seriously dun understand wat he is asking me cos of his heavy slang and i think i gave him another reply when he wants to hear another ans..i guess he must be thinking tat do i know what he is asking me or not..aiya i think i reali need to brush up on my listening skills for ang mo cos i realised tat i always have this fear when i speak to ang mo, or rather most of the time i couldnt understand their slang.and this is quite impt to me esp when i work in a MNCs company when most of my boss are ang mo..

tat day was a seriously damn shag day for me man cos my legs and neck are really tired cos of the long hours of standing and carrying goods here and there..and i need to count every items tat we have manually so as to double check if the items tat we have do tally with the system or not..initally it was quite fun la, but after 2 hrs or so, i feel reali bored liao..actually i was supposedly to stay in office to help out the sales ppl de, but eventually my ang mo boss asked me why did i stay in office when everyone is out in the warehouse so busy..so my big boss had no choice but to let go of me and so i went to help my dept ppl instead..i guess at tat suituation i was reali stucked cos i feel tat i am being "Wanted" by two departments..and i duno where should i render my help to..but i guess warehouse work is reali not suitable for gers man...now i know why they refuse to hire gers and hire guys instead..cos this warehouse job is reali super shagged man and it drains of our energy again..tat afternoon we had pizza for out lunch and its company's treat..so shuang man..and i think i quite zai man cos i ate alot..haha..

today just now just went to work though its a sat..so sian man..then later i am going out to meet jun yi for a dinner..

~i am having a sexy voice now~

sian today when i woke up, i cant reali talk cos i was down with sore throat..so having a sexy voice now..i guess its becos yesterday i ate too much wasabi snacks in office and didnt drink water, tat's why kana sore throat now..but never mind..at least i can talk less now..then can give excuse of not picking up phone calls at work cos cant possibly request someone with a terrible coarse voice to speak to customers rite..haha..
ok today after work i am meeting my dearest tanu and ah ping and matilda..it been a long time since we last seen each other le.. gonna chill out tonight le..weekend i am preoccupied with justin's bday and some shopping event with ah ping..perhaps i will go to yishun to cut my hair on the weekends before going to justin's house for his bday..hopefully i dun look like ah tiong after i cut my fringe cos i am reali afraid to cut hair de..which explains why i onli cut my hair once a yr..not bad ah..still can save money on hair cut..one bird kills 2 stones man..hehe..
yawns duno why lately i feel super sleepy at work..everyday face the comp nothing to do damn sian man..esp when i need to pretend to be busy when i am damn free..tat's the hardest mission to do man..of cos not mission impossible la,but i am tried of pretending..and today i wore slightly nicer to work cos meeting the gers ma..then this ti gou was saying tat "wah..today wear so nice like some superstar..i hear liao laugh out loud.."and i gave tat look..u know, tat kind..but he always kar jiao me in office de, so i am used to it already..haha
anyway i think tml i gonna sweat liao cos i need to do 2 of my colleagues work when initally all of us are all involve in the stock take tml including me, but apparently my big boss kinda like unhappy tat no one is around in our dept to help take up and key in orders and ans customer's phone enquires..so when she said tat to my small boss, i knew tat i am the first one to be arrow liao since i heard my name and moreover i am the temp who knows the most things since i work here so long liao..the other temp didnt know how to key in orders ma so bo bian i have to stayed on to help them..just pray hard tat tml my colleague dun keep pestering me to do things for them then i can have peace liao..if not i sure go crazy man if they keep bugging me...
anyway my colleague told me tat i should walk more Femininely cos she says tat i walk like a boy..haha..actually i already knew tat i walk like a boy and i know i have this problem since sec sch le..actually i did tried to change and walk more like a ger,but apparently i didnt show any improvement so far..sigh..but heck la, i still prefer to be myself..why must act act and pretend to be Feminine when i am not.so i should just be myself ! i am still left with 1 hr 10 min to leave office and meet my dearest..yawns, time pass so slow today..

~damn bloody hell~

i am damn pissed from yesterday night till now so pardon me for the crude language tat i will use in this post cos i need to vent my frustrations..if not i canot xiao qi man..i think in future "Damn bloody hell" will be the common quote tat i used whenever i get angry and scold ppl..though i did tell myself once before tat i shouldnt say such unglam and crude words,cos its kinda turn off for gers to say tat..but dun care liao..whenever u are angry, anything crude just comes to my mind..so wat happens actually yesterday night was i quarrel with my brother again over the same old issue..tat bloody ****er beat me man..then i damn bu shuang..of cos i retaliate la, cant possibly let him beat me up like some fool..wa lao this kind of guy damn rough man..who knows in future he might beat up his future wife in a fit of anger..wat the heck!! besides the issue tat his actions are not gentleman, he is a freaking bastard and jerk who beat gers..wa lao whoever likes him must be blind man..well, i guess i cant reali click with my mum and brother..duno why huh..i dun have such problems with my dad at all,. in fact i rarely quarrel with him since young cos i guess our character are veri similiar..whereas my brother and my mum are quite same in character..perhaps maybe tat's the reason why my mum always prefers my brother over me..but watever it is, i reali dislike this arrogant jerk, cant wait for him to fly off to sydney..i reali find him irritating at home..then yesterday we fought til i cry man and i think the entire neighbourhood must have heard the both of us quarrelling since we quarrelled at 11.30pm like tat..almost midnight liao..and i think my voice was super loud cos i was freaking angry tat time..didnt bother abt how the neigbhours will think cos i was fit in an anger man..when i am angry i reali heck abt ppl around me as to how they will think of me..
tat's the reason why i always say tat i must open my eyes big big before marriage and confirm tat he is the right guy for me..who knows later my bf is another jerk who beat gers up and get rough with gers then i confirm go seperate ways with him de lo..so i always think guys are reali scary creatures..of cos so far none of my friends are like my brother, if not i sure get turn off de..but so far he is reali the best guy i seen so far..though i still prefers mature guys cos at least i learn alot of things from them and i dun mind being dumb in front of them just to learn more things, but it seems tat its kinda hard for me to find someone who is older than me in uni considering tat i enter uni 2 yrs later..so every guys around me apparently all same age as me..so of cos i have decided to lower my expectations liao cos cant possibly find an ideal guy tat i hope to find..and i understand tat the age gap quite big huh..so perhaps many guys haven reach the level of maturity yet..it tooks me quite a few months to understand tat depth of maturity..not easy man considering tat my mind was kinda shallow initally few yrs bac..but i tell myself tat i die die also must reach at least tat certain amt of depth if not it will be kinda hard to communicate huh..
then yesterday i was thinking bac the past one yr how my heart struggled terribly over XXX..tat time i was thinking wat the heck i am thinking man..i was touched over XXX friendlyness and nice-ness to me..and i think tat time i too lonely liao la..so mind started to wonder and waived for a week..so tat time i reali asked myself if i am ok or not cos i doesnt seems to be ok lei from my pt of view..but few days bac, XXX once again bring out tat nice-ness and i dun feel anything anymore..heng man..means i reali ok liao..tat time i think something is reali veri wrong with me man..or rather i duno wat's going on in my mind thinking abt that time..but heng everything over liao..i have stepped out of tat dark memories.. ;)
yawns, today i am reali super tired cos yesterday slept kinda late cos of tat quareel and after which went online to chat with ppl to xiao qi..haiz..i feel like sleeping now..

~i am too tired to make moves le~

yawns i am damn bored now as usual in office..its so early and yet i am already damn bored liao..just now help my colleague fix her comp again cos she change her CPU again..i think she is reali damn noob man..so easy also duno how to change..she say i veri zai, but i think its not becos i zai, its becos she is noob..i think fixing comp veri easy one wat..just anyhow fix the wire into the holes of the CPU..not meh? or rather maybe she too lazy to fix ask me to help her..actually on my part i offer my help to her la cos i see her actions like so slow..cant tahan man..if not she will take forever to finish her work.and keep complaining cant finish her work then i will help her take over..
yesterday i was also bored but there is always colleagues in my company to entertain me with "yellow jokes", if not i reali damn bored man and i reali laugh my mad after hearing their jokes..yesterday went wastons with them during lunch and i we were standing right in front of this "Durex" brand and i was curious by some of their products so decided to take it up to take a closer look..then my colleagues were down there giggling away when i asked them wat's tat thingy used for..so they just happily smiled and left my qns unanswered..
then yesterday i look super tall after wearing my new heels..then everyone was saying:"eh u change shoes liao huh cos i look exceptionately tall compared to my colleagues cos all of them are reali super damn short huh..all like 156++ nia...heng i still considered tall man in my dept.." then i smiled..but my legs hurt after wearing the new shoes cos not use to the new height..so kinda have to run slower at nite when i was running tat time..
then this friend of mine was asking me yesterday why i dun wan accept him/or why he dun wan accept me..aiya he got all the story confused man..it is nt why he dun wan accept me cos in the first place when am i interested in him? and my theory always says that i dont jio guys for many reasons..i too tired to put in effort to jio guys..so just enjoy the process can liao..sometimes put in effort also no use cos some might not appreciate de, so just sit bac and relax..moreover my theory says that its better to be loved than to loving someone..i guess my theory will not change til i aged cos i reali find it relevant and applicable to today's society esp when guys nowadays are kinda not truthworthy man..haha..but lately, i am reali too tired to take the move liao..or rather i didnt reali take any move yet la..but was thinking twice if i wanna make any move, but it seems tat my "Activation energy" isnt tat high to make me made the moved..so i shall just bo chap liao..moreover i dun like the feeling of guys liking me bac just becos i like him..if tat's the case, i would rather not like him..but sometimes during long holiday, u would just hope to spend more time with anyone u like, but tat's just becos u are sian..wanna spend a compananion to kill time..but if you are heng maybe things can get some progression..but tat kind of wonderful ending rarely happen to me de la..of cos, if its mutual liking then things would be easier to work out le..at least not much effort need to put in to make things work ;) but like wat i say, its kinda hard la..

~money gone just so fast~

weekend went shopping then spent like $50 on shoes and assessories alone..wah..i see liao also heart break cos it seems tat whenever i go shopping, my money just flow away damn fast..haha..i bought 3 shoes..one stylish beach wear slippers,one sandles and one heels..my mum says tat i damn crazy bought so many shoes bac in a single day..hehe..cos i wanted to change away my cui slippers tat i have been wearing for yrs..and also wanted to change my white heels to a sandles liao once my sch reopens ;) wanted to change watever i have been wearing for yrs cos if not damn sian to see the same attire and footwear everytime man..but i must say i damn zai man cos i shop for 6hrs to get all these things..but once u stepped in there, practically most stuff u will wan to buy de..so i initally wanted to buy more stuff de, but realised tat i short of money man then lazy to go out press money at the atm, so cut down on the items tat i bought..but i kinda happy cos i finally bought a sunglass liao cos have been yearning and eyeing to buy one since last time but dun have the time to reali search for one..my mum said tat i siao also cos she said where can i wear sunglasses to..i told her can go out wear wat..it reali makes alot of difference to your appearance man..in fact looks more stylish even though ur dressing are quite cui on tat day..i did tried looking for a shorts but apparently some shorts looks just okok nia..not unique or special in any sense at all..then those nice one is expensive..so dun care liao la..anyway i rarely wear tat too..
yesterday was a boring day cos i slept kinda late on sat nite.(.at 3am), so i veri lazy to wake up go tat sentosa play beach games with ch liao which is 11am la (so early)..but anyway i also slept til 1pm la..also cant make it in time to meet them..wah, this is the first time i wake up so late, in fact i break my record liao cos i always wake up kinda early le..so yesterday went out with my mum and brother to settle his hp contract..then i damn pissed over my mum "niao-ness" to continue the plan my brother wans..cos pay $100 for a hp quite ok wat..then she was complaining tat this is ex..i hear liao also irritated cos she keep fann-ing me saying tat i should pay for my brother hp bills when he is gone for 5 yrs overseas..i mean i dun reali need 2 phone wat..u wan let me use 2 phones then tat's ur problem la..dun wan also nvm wat..its not as if i am doing some big business to tat extend tat i need to have 2 hp..in fact having 2 hp means my mum will fann me and pester me more..lohz..so i rather not have 2 hp..
haiz~today i feel damn bored too at work..nothing to do again..in fact finish my work too fast liao until i reali zhuo bo and offer help to help my colleague set up her new set of comp cos she seems very noob..haha..when she asked me how to download msn, i was super stunned cos its such simple things and yet she duno..i finally found someone who is more noob than me in terms of IT le..yawns..this week having some early christmas party with my colleague with the sales ppl..i predict there are sure lots of nice food after the last bbq tat i last went for with them..seriously now i see gd food also no appetite liao cos i have been eating too much gd stuff liao..and there is buffet lunch/dinner with 106 ppl at some orchard hotel..i am still thinking whether to go or not cos my stomach reali have no room for gd food now..;) and my marathon for exercise doesnt seems to be working out reali well though i have been running everyday..apparently my weight doesnt seems to decrease lei..;( so sad la..
then next week need to attend a formal function man..i damn sian to go cos just wear until super formal with black and gold dress code as theme..wa lao, where to find such dress with such colour combi..my dress not so formal one lei..sian..yawns..i reali feel like sleeping now..super tired now after having lunch..

~to go or not to go~

u know what, just now tat guy tat i used to like jio me to sentosa tml..but i abit sian to go cos i know tat once i attend his church events then in future sure ask me go his church events liao..but most imptly if i were to go sentosa tml, this particular guy friend of his must go else it would be super damn sian lo with all gers nia.some more this friend of his gt super nice build.. if tml go sure can see lots of nice views.hehe..tat time still rmb him teaching me play basketball..wah,tat's such a memorable day man..but all these nice memories still doesnt appeal me to go tml lei..hmmm..let me consider once i am bac from shopping tonite..if tml reali veri sian then i meet then up tml then..another factor tat i am considering is i have no shorts, then how to go tml seh and this holiday going sentosa with them liao..go twice veri sian de lo..

~dinner at yishun~

yesterday my colleague sent me email at 4.50pm when 5pm is my time to leave office..then i see liao also half sian cos i was abt to leave office liao when ppl shot me email ask me to help her do stuff.of cos i could have followed my other colleague and bo chap and wait for next week then help her do since she sent out her email so late, but aiya i am always the nice one in company..my small boss always tell me:" aiya dun bother helping those sales ppl do their stuff when they send out their stuff so late.." aiya but i always felt tat its not too nice cos afterall i can understand tat they wanna get a deal from customers asap so tat they can hit their sales target ma.or rather i think i am just too nice to ppl,dun dare to offend ppl so i wanna be neutral towards my stand.then another colleague of mine also see me like so "Eng" so asked me if i am free..then i told and smiled to her tat i am super free..i guess she can see tat i am reali zhuo bo-ing away from the way i surf net openly cos i cant be bothered to pretend to be hardworking since my 2 boss not around...so she also asked me help her do stuff..but at least i think she is more polite lo..at least bother to ask for my opinion if i am free or not..tat other colleague didnt even bother to ask and expect me to finish for her..but initally i was expecting alot of emails from my colleague whom she asked me for opinion de..but i stunned when i onli received one of her email..aiya such things so little and easy nia..actually no need ask me if i am free i would also do for her de..i guess i still have the schooling mentality..to me work is just like sch homework..i reali felt the work load is kinda little considering the amt of sch work tat i have..anyway i guess my 3rd colleague also wan me to do stuff for her when i was abt to leave cos she was hinting me tat am i going out tonite..so i told her ya i was..from there i can infer tat she wanna ask me do stuff liao..but i reali dislike this when ppl always last min ask me do stuff when i was abt to leave..cant they just pass me earlier on when i damn free tat time..but anyway i just bo chap cos if not i forever cant leave office de man..but if yesterday i didnt went out to meet them probably, i might stay on to help her do stuff then can at the same time earn extra money..who cares man..anyway my company is damn freaking rich..and lately my colleagues have been giving out lots of chocolates to us and i think my table is reali filled with chocolates liao..aiyo this is bad man..later get fat then i wasted all my effort running everyday liao..
initally reali dun have the intention to meet up with them de cos its kinda sian to travel so far just to eat dinner at yishun then after tat go home..but if got something to do over there after dinner, then of cos i would be more than willing to go la..but wt kept on jioing me go and moreover partly i was sian to go home so early do nothing, so i decided to give in..cos initally i have plan to go somewhere after work liao..but eventually my heart still flicker and wasnt veri firm in my decision, so i still went eventually..but eventually the dinner somehow was kana cheated man cos i saw them ordering such nice looking food then i thought maybe can try out theirs..but it turns out to be some pasa malam kind of food and its kinda not worth it paying for tat meal when everything is all cabbage and veggie..my first rxn when the dish was served to me was "HUH?" i gave tat shocked look to tat cashier and wt cos i was expecting some rice or wat..ok never mind..lesson learnt cos picts can be deceiving..after the dinner when to shop around for a while and northpt has reali changed alot and expanded too..at least now i can take more than 5 mins to finish walking ard the shopping centre.then after which they proceeded home and me and wt took the train bac to boon lay..since it was still early and i am sick of shopping in JP so he suggested going to the nearby park walking around to kill time..so i say ok lo..but i almost forgot tat JP tat side has a park cos i never went there before cos its so cui man and tat place is reali fillied with "blackies" and no females at all..seriously if he is not around, i reali dare not stepped into tat park man though its quite an open space..too dangerous man unlike my park downstairs my house.hehe..but yesterday nite i guess tat chat with him was nice..i guess guys after army are reali veri different in their way of thinking..at least they are no longer tat childish anymore..i told him lots of things abt my stuff as to my exceptions towards guys and of cos i am not saying tat my guys friends around me are not gd guys, but in general i have this tendency to condemn guys..duno why also, maybe i seen too much of those bastard guys and they have reali left a bad impression..many at times just dun feel secured at heart..just duno why also..i guess i dun have so much trust in guys than in girls ever since the past incidents and momeories..
today i am out the entire day..i guess i am going bac home reali late tonite cos reali dun feel like staying at home facing the four walls..so decided to go out later to spend money and shop for some clothes..maybe buy a pair of shorts if there is a nice one later..i think if i wear tat jjc shorts to sentosa sure kana laugh and tease like mad one lo..but at least tat short is much more better than yj shorts cos its shorter..wanna buy a sunglass too..ok later i shall eye for one if there is a cheap and reasonable one too..

~weekend shopping~

today's work is kinda relax too..initally early in the morning, i reali had nothing to do de..in fact i was zhuo bo-ing...but as usual today is month end...so i decided to help my colleague settle her stuff since no one gave me work..so must take initative to help out when everyone is busy..cant possibly sit there surf net when everyone busy ma..so i was busy til lunch time..after which i am reali zhuo bo liao..since big boss not around then i heck liao..no need pretend to be hardworking liao..then after lunch continue my daily rountine of surfing net for shopping places..i guess tat's wat tat interest me most..this weekend i am gonna some warehouse sales, so i wont feel bored liao..hehe..but of cos pocket will break one hole la..but this time i think i reali need to spend lesser liao..canot man this month reali spend abit much le, so need to control..
yesterday finish work damn early..cant wait for 5pm to reach and clock and i am the first to leave office yesterday since i was reali too sian and bored..cant wait to step out of the office asap..lohz...after which met up with kh cos gonna get some track shoes from him..then ate dinner at jp...but i realised i shop jp until super damn sian man..no sales at all and nothing much to shop too..tml i shall go my warehouse sales and buy those sales items. =) actually today they are having some "outing" at east coast park de, but i cant go !!! cos i gt work..sigh...veri long never go there liao..wanna go there enjoy the nice air and i yearn to Reminisce the days when i was there viewing the nice sea view and the cool air breeze brushing across my face....;) tat feeling is shoik man..
wah..now starting from next week, every fri i got company event..wah..next week got some christmas party at my supply centre...then they going to drink and open buffet again..( as usual) as for me, i think i will drink abit since i rarely drink..at least try those expensive wine tat i never try before..hehe..then next next week got some company event at some hotel at town..it comprises of dinner and dance and lucky draw..haha i hope to bring my lady luck with me on tat day ! ;) then can win some expensive stuff home..and hopefully tat day i can sit with some shuai ge man..i yearn to see tat nice build guy whom i met outside the lift helping me to open the door..he is such a gentleman, how i wish i could have a bf just like him..haha..yawns maybe i just day dream too much..hehe..and after tat week, it will be christmas week and tat will be the time when i leave my company liao and sch shall starts..i yearn to spend my time with friends cos its so fun..not saying my colleague not nice to chat with..in fact they quite funny to joke with de,but somehow friends and colleagues are always different feeling.duno why huh...for now, i am just waiting for 5pm to reach and meanwhile looking for songs to dl into my mp3..yawns..