Thursday, March 26, 2009

~i think i have seriously mislead everyone~

wed i am super tired cos chiong all the online lect the entire night..but still left so many to catch up..reali wan to die liao man..then yesterday (thur) went home with lots of packets of conflakes cos student union was giving out all these plus a burger,dounut and subway cookies..so after eating these, i reali didnt eat dinner cos i felt so fat eating all these man..then yesterday i have to dragged myself to my student house to teach piano though i super tired after my peer tutoring liao..but bo bian have to go..but i always feel very happy whenever i go her house cos i feel relax teaching her cos she took 1 yr to learn a song and even up to now she cant even play a decent proper piece..i think maybe i not strict with her man, tat's why she is not improving..wat i scared is later her mum asked me abt her progress then i die sia..duno how to tell her mum tat she is not improving at all..haiz..then yesterday computing lesson was fun too cos i showed lab guy a video on teacher hew since i kinda sian..but i think computing this subject i reali gone case liao man..feel like going to give up liao..cos no mattter how much effort i put in to study, i always doesnt seems to catch anything man..jialat..i think i wan to put more effort on my other subjects liao..next week all the tests are coming up..super shiong man..i must do mission impossible again liao..haiz..

then yesterday my mum called me during lesson telling me tat my dad is awake le after the operation..then i was relieved for tat moment..but the doctors have yet to test wether tat tumor is it cancerous or not..so for now just have to wait for results..my bro was kinda worried for my dad too..he did msg me to ask me abt my dad's condition..i feel somehow he has reali grown up..have learn to concern for ppl le...

then today i have a chat with this friend of mine..i guess i have been misleading all the people these while becos of my actions..all i can say these ppl dun understand me well enough yet..perhaps wat they see are just the surface, they dun reali know wat i am thinking deep inside my heart cos i dun tell anyone except myself..but since i see tat he is kinda trustworthy so i onli told this person the truth to the story..so i guess if the rest still wan to assume wat tat they thought previously, then let it be..i dun care liao..anyway its not truth..as long as the mo mo ren believes me can liao..the rest cant be bothered to explain liao cos i explain to them so many times liao but no one believes,..i super tired of saying the same old thing over and over again liao.

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