i finally understood wat they are trying to sae in my birthday card..no wonder they keep asking me to smile..so there is a real reason behind this..oh i see..i manage to know this after i thought of it for days..seems like the news spread reali fast..i am amazed at the rate tat words are spreading from mouth to mouth in abt 2 weeks abt me..last time they knew something abt me also in such a short time without me telling them..wa tats fast..seriously i dun rmb telling anybody abt wat happened except for my close friens..so who isit tat leak out>>no wonder they never mentioned any thing in front of me..so i know why..mum was like saying see lah ur face like "sai" like tat even ur friens ask u to smile..then i sae maybe its becos they think my smile veri nice mah..so they ask me to smile more mah..but seriously practically everybody wrote tat in my card..why ah??they reali like my smile tat much meh??hmm..
wa lao then this few days my body start to feel so itchy and red..gosh i canot tahan..then my mum saw it and was scolding me sae see lah..u got a fair skin u dun wan..go and tan until ur bac so ugly..then i was pissed lah..wa lao..is my body or ur body..wat i like to do to my body is none of ur business wat..and she juz keep scolding and i shall juz pretend tat she is talking to the wall..
project work results quite ok lah..got A2..seriously i dun reali feel happy leh..duno why maybe its becos most of the ppl got A2 ba..but my mum was veri happy tat i got tat..she couldnt believe tat..but i sae most of the ppl got A2..so is not a big deal..looks like my luck is changing now..its getting better now..at least i see a future now..but like last yr i dun even know where i am heading and everything seems so unclear to me...seriously i got thought of being a singer..haha..but i not chio at all..so maybe cant be a singer liao..wa lao if let ppl hears this sure will let ppl laugh..this yr wont be tat stress everymore..i dun hav chinese and project to do anymore..if has to do project also becos i hav to do it as a gp..chee hao veri kelian didnt do tat well plus he failed his chinese..so muz retake again..
then on fri evening, i saw jing yi together with ying mei and xiang ling..strange??how did they know each other..maybe the world is so small ba..i got to know tat jabs and him are in the same class in qwss..but now he seems to be taller than me liao..last time during mm competition see him like shorter than me..seems like his basketball did help him quite a bit..
then was playing the piano last sat evening..was playing a song by the name of "from the bottom of my broken heart"..this is the first time i looked at the lyrics for english songs..find tat ir reali depicts wat i am feeling now..hai~duno why i kept thinking of the past..the most memeorable time was during tat nite at th house..tat day everybody had their own partner and i felt like i am a veri fortunate and xing fu ger.., but tat was the past already..maybe i should stop dreaming of things tat wouldnt happen again..seriously i juz hate myself tat if last time i never gone into a relationship then i wouldnt be wat i am now..maybe tat time i never thought of the consequences..hai~~but i dun wan to be a shameless ger who kept thinking of him since everything is over..i juz duno why cant i juz get over him..i have tried to keep myself busy so tat i wouldnt think of anything..but tat method juz couldnt work on me..then wat should i do now??i am totally lost in a big jungle now where no one else can help me except myself..letting go isnt easy at all..seriously i wondered how did ppl with lots of relationship be manage to forget everything??dun they feel anything at all like hurt or sad??or they are juz used to it already..hai~~so how should i continue to dream hoping for a miracle or should i juz ignored everything??hai~~isit tat difficult to give up a guy??last time waited for a guy for 2 yrs and yet there is no miracle..but later i giv up liao..and i became a nun for 2.5 yrs..then later this guy came and he started to become part of my life liao...then the story continues..
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