on fri when i went to jp,one the city bella woman keep draging me to take photo..she keep saying tat its free and its veri nice..then i kindly rejected cos i dun wan..they ask me to take photo sure got some favour in return, cant be so gd..then i saw after they take the pict, they developed the pict to display to let ppl see on the board..sia lah..if i take the whole world will know my face liao..anyway its juz stupid or they think i too chio liao..haha..no lah..maybe they think i got an attractive face..haha..
then sat went out to study..initally wanted to go sentosa the beach to go there to tan abit..but who knows that morning rain..sian lah..spoil my plan..ended up studying in mac at imm..他那天对我很冷。当时我很想哭可是我忍了。有时我还经常为他流泪。有时我在想这样值得吗？我知道那天他对我不高兴。but wat to do rite??sometimes feel so vexed tat why other parents allow their child to go out freely as they wish..but why cant i..i am not a 3 yr old kid liao..i got brain to think wat is wrong and right..duno wat age can i got my freedom..sian lah..staying at home is such a torture..rather dun wan to go home..most of the time..stay out late in sch..and my rule is never reach home b4 5pm.. and wat can i do??they dun wan to give me freedom, i cant do anything..when he mention to me abt the freedom thing, i juz feel so irritated..juz dun feel like talking abt it and i will feel stress..seriously when i reply him, i was using a harsh tone..ok i admit tat was my fault..mentioning abt tat will only make me recalled the deal tat he made..making me scared tat wat decision will he make in the end..hopefully i dun get to hear something tat i dun wan to hear, but if tats happen, i also nothing to do but to accept the fact..
ok enough of my crap liao..ok now muz sae some proper stuff..seriously i am reali scared tat this yr will i be able to promote??i am reali scared..how how??wat if i cant pass my gp again??then how??then my chem and phy cant pass then how??nobody hass know the exact reason why i retained..onli the my close friens then reali knows wat happens..i even lied to yi jie mum the real reason tat i retained..seriously i wan a new start..hopefully this yr i will get an A,B,C in my promo..then i will not be letting myself down..and i retained is not for nothing..mission is to go uni hopefully..i dun wan go to study music, dun wan to be forced by my parents..i wan to do something tat i like..maybe fashion or maths..wan me to be a doctor also canot lah..my results so lousy and my gp so bad..dun think i can go medicine..maybe my brother got the chance..hopefully he can enter nus..
then sat i was exercising halfway then i heart suddenly feel so painful again..duno wats wrong..rightfully tat should not happen..this is the second time in the yr liao...maybe something is wrong with me..we shall see..
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